Poll results: Ongoing Prohibition on Masturbating

 

May 15th, 2023

Ever since January 1st of 2023, the poll on deciding upon my masturbation, or lack of it has had a majority of the decisions being that I am prohibited from masturbating or in any way intentionally or knowingly climaxing.

Since the current majority result is in effect and is to be obeyed by me, and the result has not changed in spite of additional votes, it is currently approaching the 140 day point of the prohibition.

I am at times insanely horny and aroused without any way to relieve it, and this seems to be manifesting itself even while asleep. I wake up humping the bed more and more often, and at least one photo captured of me during the night by someone accessing my PC and webcam have revealed me in a quite humiliating and exposed position during a night of required exposure through a window.

I’m left wondering how often I might be repeating something like this and for how long I might be staying in such positions. Anyone looking from outside nearby could easily see me in such a position.

I understand that any effects from not masturbating are for me to endure and accept, and the decisions in the poll were made according to what it was believed that I deserve, so I have no reason to question whether or not I deserve whatever results from not masturbating.

It’s being repeatedly pointed out to me that such a majority of decisions are for me to remain prohibited from masturbating or climaxing, and that it is because a majority of others know that it’s what I deserve.

The poll for deciding upon whether or not I can masturbate/climax is due to remain open until February 1st of 2024, but much of what has been mentioned to me has struck me as being entirely true.

Poll: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K

Results: http://www.poll-maker.com/S-Quiz-Results?qp=2728704xA26D96fe-113

I can see that a large majority of decisions are for prohibiting me from masturbating and intentionally climaxing. I have to assume that that majority is very unlikely to change even with more decisions being made.

I also see that very few additional decisions are being made, often with more than a month passing now without any additional decisions being made. I can’t deny the fact that it might be due to others being in agreement with the current results, and see no reason for any change in the current results.

I have to accept the fact that if the current majority remains the same, that the prohibition on masturbating/climaxing may well become permanent for me. since it will have been decided that is what I deserve.

For the past several months I have been thinking of it all as just biding the time until the results change, even though there has been no reason to expect them to change.

Recently, partly due to what has been pointed out to me, I have been thinking that the poll remaining open may really just be prolonging the inevitable. It may even be me avoiding what may already be a permanent prohibition on climaxing, and possibly me failing to accept what I deserve.

I know once the poll ends or closes, that’s it. The prohibition will be permanent for sure. But in most ways it already seems to be permanent anyway. Whether I remain prohibited from masturbating or climaxing until February 1st and the ban becomes permanent, or whether it becomes permanent right away does seem to be the same result.

I suppose accepting the results and a permanent prohibition is the right thing for me to do. I didn’t think about how it might be considered to be a disservice to anyone who thinks or wants the prohibition to be permanent for me if the poll continues for months without any actual change in the results.

It feels like a huge thing for me to accept being permanently prohibited from masturbating or climaxing intentionally. I know I will absolutely have to obey the prohibition and, as it’s said in one comment, I will have to do all I can to make sure that I do never climax, so that I remain as aroused and horny as possible at all times no matter how frustrating it would be.

The only way I would ever climax and ejaculate again is if or when someone else caused it personally and intentionally. It’s possible that eventually I could end up begging or pleading for someone else to cause me to climax, and then have it be up to them whether they would enable and permit it or not.

But whether it’s now or later, all of that seems to be inevitable, so I do have to consider accepting the prohibition on masturbating/climaxing as being permanent soon, or at least sooner.

I still feel like I need more time to be able to accept it, but at some point I know I have to accept it. So as soon as I can get myself to go through with it, I will be accepting a permanent prohibition on masturbating and intentionally climaxing, and accept continuing to do everything possible to ensure that I do never climax. It will be stated publicly so that there can be no question that the prohibition is permanent.

No masturbating - update

 In the last couple of days, seven more votes were received in the poll, and all seven chose that I cannot masturbate or intentionally cum. The poll will still be open for many months yet, but the current results seem to indicate that I may not actually deserve to masturbate or cum intentionally. Since the current result in the majority must be obeyed, it's clear that I definitely won't be masturbating or cumming any time soon. I will be remaining aroused, horny, and turned on, which I have to accept as what I deserve. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

Aside from learning what I actually deserve, not masturbating is revealing some unexpected things to me. 

The most unexpected of all is that being aroused and turned on from not masturbating kind of turns around on itself for me. By that I mean that because I am most often aroused and horny, and I know that I cannot masturbate or cum, knowing I have to stay that way arouses and turns me on even more. So basically, being aroused and turned on from not being allowed to masturbate makes me even more aroused and turned on. It took a while of not masturbating before that seemed to begin, but I may just have taken a while to realize it. I have been prohibited from masturbating for more than 90 days so far, so I don't know if knowing I can't masturbate or cum will continue to keep making me even more aroused and turned on. I suppose it's just another part of what I deserve though.

Another thing I've discovered is that I cannot resist edging myself repeatedly and often, even though I know it can never result in me cumming or ejaculating. I don't technically masturbate, since I don't actually stroke or use a hand. Being so aroused all I have to do is to keep lightly touching my dick with a fingertip on the under side just below the head, and it's enough to keep be edged. I have to pause every so often to ensure that I don't get too close to cumming, which is an endless tease for me, but I know I have to obey the requirement for not cumming at all. 

I don't really want to do it and keep teasing myself, but if I'm alone and preoccupied with something else, I often realize I am already doing it. Once I realize it, it's very hard to stop doing it. Usually something will interrupt me and I will stop then, or I get so aroused that I can barely do it at all without a risk of cumming, and my only option is to force myself to stop doing it. Occasionally I stop because I have someplace to go, which usually means I'm heading out being super aroused and with an erection. Most of the time when walking out the door I'm aroused with an erection. 

Something I found to be very true is that I do not dare to risk intentionally cumming no matter how possible it might appear that there's a chance for getting away with it. Knowing I'm not allowed to intentionally cum and knowing it would violate a requirement is more than enough to ensure that I obey the requirement. I would know I was guilty of violating the requirement, and of disobeying decisions others have made, and I would be stuck living with that guilt. I also feel absolutely sure that my offense would be known about or discovered, and I would have no justification for it. What most voters decide that I deserve is certain to be what I deserve, and that decision must be accepted by me and obeyed by me. Accepting what I deserve is the only option for me. 

With the requirement that I have to sleep naked every night, without any covering, with sufficiently bright lights on, and with the window uncovered that enables a direct view of me from outside, not be permitted to masturbate is continuously causing erections and leading me to hump the bed, mostly during sleep, but now also when awake but near to falling asleep. I tried to limit or even prevent these things from occurring, since they can and likely will be seen by others with a view of my window, but I've had to resign myself to the fact that those things are going to occur due to me being so aroused and horny. Because they are going to occur, I just have to accept the fact that others are going to see those things when they are seeing me naked in bed. Some have more than likely already seen me with an erection in bed or seen me humping the bed naked or both, which can't be unseen even if I could somehow limit or prevent those things from occurring. 

Each night, I go to bed only knowing that I will be exposed naked through the window all night long, but most nights, or for all I know every night, I end up providing much more of a display for anyone who sees me through the window due to being so aroused from not masturbating or cumming. It's clear by now that this is going to continue indefinitely if not always, so maybe eventually everyone who can see it will see it, and there will hardly be anyone left who hasn't seen all of it. That seems about the only real option for me, since I'm required not to hide, cover, or conceal anything during the night or while in bed.

I suppose getting what I deserve can't be expected to be easy all of the time, but I know it does have to be accepted as much as possible even when it's occurring.

Note: The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K has three options or choices ever since it had to be moved to a different polling site, since it was mentioned twice that the poll options were to complex and complicated, and that the poll needed to be simplified to options that either allowed me to masturbate or for me to not be allowed to masturbate. The earlier options were said to be redundant. They also received basically no votes, so their removal didn't effect the overall results.

Two options still allow for the option for me to masturbate in some way, while one does not. So in the end I will either have some sort of permission to masturbate and cum, or I will be permanently prohibited from masturbating and intentionally cumming, and I will have to accept that I only deserve to be aroused and turned on. But that's for voters to decide and I am and will be required to obey their decision.

All Exposure requirements and poll results continue to be fulfilled.

  

This post was created over a period of a week, with bits added at a time, so it's more like a stream of consciousness than an orderly, organized post. It's about the requirements that are in effect for me, both permanent ones and one that's still in the process of being decided.

Two requirements are mentioned often, mostly since they both have a major effect on daily life for me. Technically one has most of it's effect at night, while the other is nearly constant.

All requirements from previous and current polls continue to be fulfilled and obeyed. Of course the results of the now closed poll are forever permanent for me, and must be obeyed at all times regardless of what I might prefer or how inconvenient or humiliating they might be for me.

The currently ongoing poll  https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K deciding whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally ejaculate is free for anyone to anonymously vote in. All that's necessary is to vote for whatever is felt that I deserve. The current results prohibit me from masturbating or intentionally cumming. 

I would ask for votes for options that might eventually permit me to masturbate, but I have already been basically scolded by some contacts for attempting to sway voters and their votes. So all potential voters should vote for which option they want to or feel that I deserve. It is and will be mandatory and required for me to always follow and obey the result with the most votes.

All of the poll results do have some impact for me, but some have a more long term impact while others have a day to day impact.

One requirement that has a longer term impact is that every photo and video of me naked is essentially public domain, since anyone anywhere has the full right to possess, post, display, and share any photo or video of me naked that they desire, and for any reason or purpose they desire. Not only do I have no say about it, but even if I'm informed about any such thing beforehand, I cannot ask for it not to be done, and afterwards I am forbidden from asking or requesting the removal of any such post or display. This applies even if photos or video of me naked is to be shared with or sent to a person or people who know me personally.

Also, all photos and videos of me naked must be presented in manners that will enable not just anyone to see them, but in ways that will enable others who know me personally to see them. 

This has already led to some results. Currently, at least several people who do know me personally are known to have viewed at least some photos or videos of me naked, and more people who know me are certain to have viewed them without any way to know it for sure. Ironically, not one of them has chosen to mention to me about seeing me online naked, either in an attempt to avoid embarrassing me, or due to not wanting to reveal the fact that they looked at me naked. In any case though, some people known to me have seen me online naked and nothing can change that fact. It's just unknown to me what photos or videos they saw of me.

A requirement that could have an effect at any time is the requirement that my PC must remain available for access to anyone through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps. Even if I'm aware of any access at any time, unless changes to the PC settings are being attempted, I cannot interfere with any access. This means that all folders and files are free for access or transferring for any use or reason. It also means that most websites I use or have an account on can be accessed or visited as me, even for the purpose of further exposing me in some manner to others, including to others who might know me personally.

Knowing it's all possible and that it must be permitted to occur is intimidating, but fortunately for me it rarely occurs. Even when it does occur, browsers other than the Firefox browser tend to be used, which have less direct access to most websites used by me. Still though, it's intimidating to know that my PC and many websites I use are essentially an open book to anyone who might want them to be.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Even more intimidating is the requirement that if or when I am approached in person by anyone and told to or requested to strip off all of my clothing until naked, that I must comply. If this occurs in an open and public place, the most I can do is to hope to move to some nearby location with some amount of at least temporary privacy before complying. Once naked I am required to "gift" all clothing, or give them to the person who made the request, who is under no obligation to return any of the clothing to me. I would also have to submit to being photographed naked or recorded naked on video in any way desired by the new owner of whatever clothing I had just removed, The new owner of the clothing would then decide whether or not whether any clothing would be returned to me, whether any of it could be earned back by me in some way, or whether I would have to remain naked and be left entirely exposed for others to see.

The stripping naked on request part is intimidating by itself, but having to surrender all clothing and remain completely naked wherever I am at the time is much more intimidating. I cannot refuse or deny any request or demand that I strip naked, and once the request or demand is made all clothing I would be wearing and have to remove would immediately be owned by anyone who made the request. So essentially if I don't remove all of my clothes, or I don't surrender them, I am guilty of theft since no clothing at all at that location actually belongs to me anymore.

Although it's possible for this to occur at any time, I try not to think much about it and I will just have to deal with it as best as I can if or when it does occur, and accept however much humiliation and exposure that might result.

A requirement that does have a daily, or rather nightly effect for me is the requirement that I spend each and every night completely naked, including while in bed, without covering of any kind, with lights on, and with a window uncovered to enable anyone nearby to see and observe me at any time during the night.

Being in bed or sleeping now always means being exposed naked to anyone who happens to see me or who has the slightest desire to observe me naked. I rarely, if ever know if anyone is seeing me or who might be looking, but I cannot cover up or conceal anything at any time of night. Any form of covering up at any time, for any reason would mean violating the requirement. An insufficient light level, or not bright enough lights being on is also a violation. The same is true if the window doesn't remain uncovered at all times.

While asleep I not only remain unaware of any observation, but I cannot control any erections or anything I do. When I become aroused or horny while asleep, I not only get and erection that is visible for anyone to see, but I also often tend to hump the bed if lying on my front, and to thrust my hips upwards while lying on my back. Occasionally I wake up during these times, but without knowing how long I may have been doing it or who may already have observed it. I have to assume that there are times when I do these things without ever waking up at all, which could mean it's being observed without me knowing a single thing about even doing it. 

Since this became required for me, I'm only aware of being seen and observed by a few nearby others, but only because I was awake at the time and the observers made it fairly obvious that they were watching me. In those cases I still couldn't cover up or limit any observation of me. It's very likely those observers were only a fraction of how much I have been seen or observed since October of 2022 when the requirement went into effect.

A few others nearby do appear to look in through the window nearly each night to check or confirm that I am exposed to view naked. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement, but it's not impossible that they are. I just know that unless I am exposed naked every night for the entire night, then there's a risk of being discovered of violating the requirement. 

The requirement also extends to anywhere else I spend any night. This includes motels, hotels, in a vehicle, or at any residence where I spend any night unless there is a clear and obvious reason why it cannot occur, such as no window being present. Who might see me, how much I might be seen, or how humiliating it might be for me are not valid reasons for violating the requirement.  

The final requirement is still the subject of an ongoing poll, but the current majority result is obliged to be followed as a requirement. The poll decides whether I can masturbate to relieve arousal and being horny or turned on, or whether I have to remain aroused without relief. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

As of January 1st, 2023 the results have dictated that I cannot masturbate at all, and can only receive relief through a wet dream or some uncontrolled and unplanned ejaculation at some random time of day or night. Since then I have not masturbated or had the release of more than a drop or two of cum, since I dare not violate the requirement dictated by the anonymous voters in the poll. Their decisions and only their decisions can dictate whether or not I can masturbate, and their decisions were made with the expectation that they would be obeyed and followed. 

The requirement for not masturbating definitely has an influence on the requirement that I sleep naked while exposed through an uncovered window, since I am inevitably aroused and horny even while asleep. Erections and humping motions during sleep occur regularly rather than occasionally, and there is no hiding it concealing any of it from being viewed from outside. 

All requirements except for not masturbating are permanent, will never change, and can never be avoided by me, so they must be accepted. The poll for not masturbating will remain open until February 1st of 2024, and afterwards whatever decision has the most votes at the time will become a permanent requirement for me. 

Since most voters have so far decided that I cannot masturbate or cause an ejaculation, and that status has remained the same in spite of additional votes, I'm not only prohibited from masturbating, but I also have to face the possibility that eventually that prohibition may become permanent. 

Each day that passes while being prohibited from masturbating, the day the poll will end gets closer and closer, and unless the poll results change, the prohibition for masturbating will inevitably become permanent. There are still many months until then, but in the meantime I still cannot masturbate or intentionally do anything that will cause me to climax or cum. 

Sometimes I'm so aroused and horny that I feel like I definitely have to masturbate, and that I can't take it for another minute. So far I somehow take it though, even though I want to cum more than anything at those moments. 

I always have to remember that I am bound by and committed to obeying what a majority of others have decided in the poll, and how I would be disregarding and disrespecting their decisions and violating a requirement that I'm likely expected to obey. 

At times though, I do think about how those who decided that I cannot masturbate are free to masturbate as they please, while I never can. But I have to accept that the decisions made for me only apply to me, and those voters were only basing their decisions on what they honestly felt that I deserve. 

One thing is for sure though. I have already gone for longer by far without masturbating or cumming than I ever have before since hitting puberty. Each day that passes only extends that time. I can only wonder if or when I may have a wet dream or maybe even unintentionally climax and cum somewhere in public with others all around me. I'm afraid it will be so intense and feel so good that I'll react in a way that will reveal to everyone nearby exactly what is happening. There won't be much doubt about it if there ends up being a large wet spot on my pants, but that may be inevitable at some point as long as I cannot masturbate.

I do have to remind myself often that all of the requirements for me have been decided by voters as being what I deserve and are entirely separate from whatever I might want or prefer personally. I realize that getting what I deserve isn't assured to be easy, convenient, or even pleasurable. Being highly aroused and extremely horny for much of the time is definitely not easy, and it can preoccupy my thoughts often. It can also manifest itself in ways that I can barely avoid or not avoid at all.

One of those ways is at night while in bed and exposed naked to a wide outside area and to many potential others. Even though I feel extremely exposed at the time, because I am extremely exposed at the time, my arousal can now cause me to make humping or thrusting motions even while I'm still awake. I get so desperately aroused that I can't really help doing it in spite of the fact that anyone could be watching me at that very moment. Physically it feels so good and I'm so aroused that I can't make myself stop doing it even though I know I'm only adding to my exposure and providing an increased public display to anyone who might be seeing me through the window. 

I know it will be even more embarrassing for me when I inevitably end up seeing or encountering the same nearby others during the day who saw me exposed and displayed during the night. They can and are already seeing me completely naked and exposed in bed every night, and due to my inability to prevent my displays of arousal, they can now see those displays too. 

While I'm providing those displays, more than once I actually said out loud "Stop doing this", but it's as if my arousal and my desperately hard penis are in full control of me at the time, and I keep doing it. I will then usually say "Please... Let this stop... People can see this". But I can't stop and it continues. It only ends when my muscles get tired enough to need a rest, but by then I have provided quite a long display for anyone who might be looking or watching. After it occurred several times, part of me knows that others have likely already seen it happening, so unless or until I can relieve my arousal through masturbating, and since I can't make it stop, it's just easier not to resist it and to accept that I will keep being exposed to the neighborhood while doing it and keep being seen doing it.

There are many nights when being required to just be exposed naked all night is difficult enough by itself. There are some nearby others who I would not even want to be seen by without a shirt on, but they can now and will always be able to see each and every part of my naked body every night, and all of my displays of arousal. At times it's hard to accept the fact that I've permanently lost any rights or ability for privacy for any part of my body to a large part of the neighborhood. Having the option to choose or decide if or when to be exposed naked is much different than being required to be exposed every single night from beginning to end, being required to never cover up or to dim the lights, or for the window to be uncovered. There can be a helpless feeling to it, especially when I'm certainly being seen completely naked even while I am asleep. While asleep I never even know what position I'm in when I'm seen or how I'm displayed to any viewers. I can only wonder if it was my bare ass that was presented, or if my legs were spread offering a view between them. In the longer run it hardly matters much though, since anyone looking enough would eventually have a view of every place on my naked body. 

Not being permitted to masturbate or to have relief from being very aroused and horny simply guarantees that all potential viewers of my nightly exposure will also continuously see displays of my arousal that I'm nearly helpless to prevent. 

Obviously the intent of my requirement for being exposed each night is so that I am actually seen naked freely by anyone who is able to see me, and to make sure I have no choice about who sees me or how much of me they see. Before the poll with this requirement was closed, the results were so ridiculously one-sided in favor of the requirement that it was more than clear what others decided that I deserved. It was enough that I could only accept the fact that I must deserve it for so many others to have all decided the same thing. So however difficult it is at times, I will spend every night exposed naked because it's what I deserve.

It's looking more and more like the results of the poll for whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally cum may be going the same way. As much as I dread to have to admit it, far more voters have decided that I cannot masturbate over any of the other choices in the poll. 

I periodically try to promote the poll to see if additional votes may be in favor of me being allowed to masturbate once again, but for every vote for one of the other choices, there are four votes deciding that I cannot be allowed to masturbate or intentionally cum. April 1st of 2023 will mark the 90th day for me not being permitted to masturbate and the 90th day since I have masturbated or had an ejaculation. The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K is due to remain open until February of 2024, but as one contact described it, the decision has likely already been made.

Obviously I would like to eventually receive permission in the poll to masturbate and cum once again, but I know the decisions made by voters must be respected and obeyed by me. Currently many more voters have decided that I deserve to not be permitted to masturbate or cause myself to cum. They decided that there can be no relief from arousal and being horny or turned on for me. I know each voter decides what they do for a reason, and they have every right to expect their decisions to be obeyed.  

It's not possible for me to assess what I deserve, and only others can decide that. I used to masturbate at least three times per day, and much more on some days. I can only wonder of I abused the ability to masturbate until I ejaculated, and if that abuse is now being paid for by me. 

If I do end up being permanently prohibited from masturbating, I will of course respect and obey that requirement and the voters who decided it. I will know that I almost certainly brought it upon myself, and that what voters decided was actually what I deserve regardless of how I might feel about it personally.

Please help to decide what I deserve concerning masturbating by voting in the poll.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

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I can't effectively provide any photographic proof that I am obeying the requirement to currently not masturbate or intentionally cum, but I can attest to the fact that I am obeying it to the letter, as difficult as it is. I obey it because from the start I was committed to obeying whatever was decided through a majority in the poll results. Also because the decisions made by voters must be respected and abided by, no matter what is decided. As mentioned already, it's about what I deserve and not about what I might want or prefer. 

Some proof can be shown that I am obeying the now permanent requirement that I am exposed naked through a window while in bed or asleep. Showing proof that one specific requirement is being obeyed still may not prove the requirement for not masturbating is also being obeyed, but it's just about the best that can be done.

Photos showing how I spend nights and the window I'm exposed through:

 

In the GIF below, someone nearby can be seen entering the passenger side of a vehicle before the vehicle begins to drive off.  It's not clear if I was seen or observed by them this time, although they have surely seen me at other times. I was not aware of their presence until seeing the images later. At night when it's dark outside, even if awake I can never know when anyone might be seeing me. Sometimes it's just easier not to know I'm being seen, at least until after it's already happened. Since I know I have to be seen naked anyway, it's just best to remain asleep while others are looking at my naked body being exposed. 

The most I can do is to swear, promise, and give my word that I will always obey all permanent requirements, and obey the majority decision in the ongoing poll until the final results are known in early 2024. The decision of voters must always be respected and obeyed.. When voters decide something, then it's sure to be something I deserve.

Update on my requirement for no masturbation.

 I was asked some questions in a comment about my masturbation, or actually about my lack of it. It's probably just easier to share the entire comment and my response to it before going further.

The comment:

 Can you absolutely swear that you're not masturbating at all and haven't since even once since day one of not being able to do it? Not a single drop of cum? Do you edge yourself at all? Bringing yourself to the very edge of cumming? If you do then how can you keep from cumming when you're so desperate for it? What about when you hump your bed at night? If you haven't cum because of it, how do you avoid it? These are things everyone should know.

My reply:

 Yes I can swear that it's one hundred percent true that I have not masturbated since the first day of being required not to. The last time I masturbated or came was in the early evening on Sunday, January 1st which was New Years Day. I didn't know then that I wouldn't be doing it again anytime soon. If everyone should know about all of those things, then it's probably best if it's related in a post instead of a response. I'll admit that a couple times a drop of cum nearly came out, but as far as I know there hasn't been a single drop. If it got that far I think a lot more would have ended up coming out. I promise to address all that was asked in a post very soon

I can swear to the fact that I haven't masturbated or came at all even once since I was first required not to masturbate. I realize that it can seem easy for me to just say so but most people who know me personally would probably know that I don't do such things. My own conscience won't allow it and I know I can't get away with it for long. 

Since everything about this is to be public knowledge, I know that telling the absolute truth about it is even more necessary. I also know that others expect their decision to be abided by.

I'm sure that not a drop of cum has come out of my penis since the last time I masturbated. Even if it happened while I was asleep, something would show up on the sheet over my mattress or on the tip of my penis. By now I probably have a good amount of pent up cum that would come out if any cum at all came out while I was asleep. I don't think I could sleep through anything like that.

I admit that I've tried a few times to bring myself close to cumming, but it just ends up with me teasing myself and leaves me highly aroused and feeling even more desperate to masturbate and cum. Once it was five days or so into not masturbating I would get so close to cumming so fast and in such a short time that I had to start just leaving my penis alone entirely. Otherwise I would have cum by masturbating and then have to reveal to everyone that I ignored a decision and did what I was required not to do. 

The event of nearly cumming from my penis rubbing a box that I was carrying, and from thrusting my hips up and down while sitting at a red traffic signal have proven to me that I have to be very careful about stimulating my penis in any way. 

I honestly don;t know how I haven;t cum due to humping my bed at night, especially since it seems to happen much more often than it did before. I can only assume that whenever I get anywhere near cumming then, I wake up. Once I wake up it usually only takes me a short time to realize that I'm basically on display naked to much of the neighborhood and that I'm possibly being seen or watched at that very moment. That could be just enough to keep me from cumming at least for now.

It's not so much that I think anyone watching would know for sure that I was cumming, but that they would see me humping my bed like crazy and see my ass bouncing up and down as it does. I know it's very possible for anyone nearby to be seeing that anyway if I do it in my sleep and don't realize I'm doing it or being seen doing it, but it's pretty humiliating to know I'm doing in possible full view of the neighborhood. I can't stop or prevent anyone from seeing or watching me naked in bed all night long or what I might do while asleep, but I do at least have some ability while I'm awake and aware to avoid having them see my bare ass going up and down while I thrust my penis onto the bed. It's one of the few things I can have some effect on. 

I've mentioned before how it feels my penis is in charge and in control now, and how I'm just along for the ride. I know that's just a creation of my own mind, but that doesn't make it feel any less true. It can get hard and erect any time it wants to and it doesn't care where it happens or who sees it. It can seem as if it knows that it can tease me to no end and that I just have to let it do it. If it could and did know any of that, I might have to admit that it was right. 

I'm a bit embarrassed to admit one thing, but since it's all public anyway there's no point in me concealing it. That is how in spite of the desperation and not having any release from being aroused and horny so often, it's really not all bad for me.

I would never have expected it or know any different if I could still masturbate, but there are moments when I find that I actually enjoy feeling so turned on, and how little it takes for me to come close to climaxing. I also enjoy some of the quite erotic dreams I seem to have recently, even in spite of what it might be or is enabling neighbors and others nearby to see. Even though I can't climax or cum, it does feel good to simply thrust my hips a few times and for it to have such an effect on me. Not being able to continue with it until I cum is frustrating, but the feeling itself is very good. 

It's also a bit of an erotic feeling to be around others while being so aroused and turned on without them knowing anything about it. Sometimes I wonder if they can tell or if they know it, but unless I would have an orgasm and cum right there in front of them I know there's no way they can know.

 

 

The start of another year of Exposure.

 

 The first day of the new year starts with me waking up exposed naked after being exposed for the entire night through the window. It's also the day for a different video of me to be presented through a "Watch" button on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd and through a post on my timeline. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 In response to requests that have been made, a questionnaire is available so that others can decide if any change or amendment can be made to a requirement that is already in place and in effect. Other decisions may be added and presented over time for approval or denial. The first decision is for whether I have to continue masturbating at least once each night, or whether I have to avoid masturbating at the risk and likelihood that I will become aroused in my sleep. 

Masturbating usually doesn't take too long, and if I do it soon after getting into bed I can usually fall asleep shortly afterwards. If I don't masturbate right away, I sometimes fall asleep anyway, but may wake up and masturbate then. If for some reason I don't masturbate, it can lead me to become aroused in my sleep. This presents itself through me becoming hard or erect during sleep for no apparent reason. Once in a while I will wake up periodically with an erection that began sometime while I slept.

One other way it presents itself is that I end up lying on my stomach and I will thrust my erection down on the bed or hump the bed. I've actually awakened doing this if I haven't recently masturbated. Sometimes it takes a day or two after not masturbating for these things to occur, but it gets worse the longer it's been since I masturbated and is sure to occur by the time several days have passed without me masturbating.  

I do know I wake up at times to both of these things, but I honestly don't know how often they might occur. Unless I wake up with an erection or while humping the bed, I couldn't know about it. Only anyone seeing me or watching me at the time would know about any of it, since they would see my erection or see me humping the bed naked. 

If decisions are made in the questionnaire, once there's a majority decision on any option, it will be what occurs. 

Concerning a site where I can be streamed on video while in bed and/or asleep naked, one potential sites has been found. It's rules state that adult videos are permitted as long as the subject is adult and verified (which has already been done) and no others are depicted. Looking through the other streams on there though, no nudity seems to be present. That's not the concern though. What is a concern is that in the rules it states that "No Uncut Pornography is permitted" Nothing explanatory information is offered for exactly what that means. Does it mean "uncensored"? Maybe someone can visit the site and clarify how that is best interpreted. 

The page on the site that any broadcast of me would show up on appears to be:

live.fc2.com/48524504/

A new webcam is still due to arrive a in January or a bit sooner. By then a streaming site that meets the needs and requirements would need to be ready for there to be a way for others to easily see and confirm that I am being exposed naked in bed and while asleep.  

New Questionnaire embedded below. Also available at: https://forms.gle/N6yLWBiz21BN3kx88

Last Exposure update of 2022

 With just over two weeks left in the year, 2023 will begin with me as exposed online as ever, if not more.

I continue to be exposed to Facebook friends and to random others through two pages on Facebook. 

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd 

On the "Newd" page, another video of me naked continues to be featured through a "Watch Now" or "Watch Video" button (apparently depending on whether the page is accessed by PC or phone). Each video is available from the first day to the last of each month, leaving a good amount of time for others to view it.

On my personal Facebook page, each month a post is added with a link to that months video and with a qr code that can be scanned and also goes to the video.

When the video for the button changes, the posts on my personal page remain even after a new post with a new link is added. Anyone viewing and scrolling down my personal Facebook page has access to posts with links to previous months videos. With each post there, friends are likely to receive an automatic notification about it. Some are likely to ignore the notification, but some are sure to see the post and click the link in it and see the video of me naked. The reason the posts have to be made each month though, is to make sure friends and people who know me do see the video each month.

Voting has slowed down to almost nothing in the poll for deciding which video of me will be featured next, but many videos did receive one or more votes. Many have tie votes. Videos that received the highest vote count first are featured in case of a tie vote, followed by the others in later months.

https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133 

Coming up in January of 2023, another tie vote situation will occur unless one or the other videos involved receives another vote in the meantime. One is of me masturbating naked on the floor next to an open door, and the other shows me inserting a marker into my ass before masturbating. The masturbating on the floor video received its vote count just barely before the insertion video did, which would make it the video for January. The insertion video would them be featured during February. Some anonymous comments on posts, which may be from one person or more than one, first questioned why the video wasn't in the poll to be voted on. At the time it was had not yet been rotated into the poll but has been since then. The video did immediately receive a vote and soon tied with the other video. 

Recently an anonymous comment on an older post inquired about why the video wasn't being featured yet due to having enough votes for it. I explained that it was likely to be featured in February and why, which they pointed out was a short month. They said they wanted it featured on a longer month to give people a couple more days to watch it. They made it clear that they really want people to see that video of me. 

I know it's inevitable that the video will be featured soon in any case. I know that whenever that happens, that I will feel humiliated because absolutely anyone can watch it, and that it will be watched for sure by who knows how many people, which is sure to include people who know me due to the corresponding post for it that will be on my personal page. 

I know switching the videos makes very little difference, since both are going to be featured and seen probably on consecutive months, which makes my urge to delay the insertion video seem pointless. Following the usual selection process for videos would delay the insertion video for a month, but at least one person really wants it to be seen sooner and for a few days longer than it would be otherwise.

I suppose I'll have to accept the humiliation sooner since the only right thing seems to be for the insertion video to be featured next. My consolation is that at least having it seen will be over with sooner. 

A link to the insertion video is also somewhere in the list of links in the intro of my personal Facebook page, but there it's less obvious. Soon the button on the "Newd" page will show it, and a post with a link to it will be right on the timeline of my personal page. Once notifications for that post go out, People who know me are sure to see it too.  All of that will be true in just over two weeks. The video was voted for though, so I know it has to be featured and seen. 

On another matter, participation in the questionnaire for my exposure has slowed but not stopped. Most decisions are still nearly unanimous.

https://forms.gle/5cKY3zygukkqemJC7 

I won't bother listing all of questions here, since that's been done in prior posts, but the summary is that I currently and probably permanently have to be exposed as directly as possible to others, including to people who know me.

When anyone approaches me and demands or commands me to strip naked, I have to do so, and present them with all of my clothing as a gift. I do hope for leniency in such a situation, but I know I have no right to ask for or to expect any. 

 Anyone at all can post or display me naked on the internet wherever and however they want to, and I have no right to even ask for it to be removed or altered in any way. I take that to mean that I don't even have to be made aware of any post of me naked, and that anyone can even share my exposure directly with anyone else they wish to, and there's nothing I can say about it.

My PC must remain accessible to anyone who cares to access it, through both the Teamviewer app and the Anydesl app. The only limit is that no changes to the PC settings are to be made, 

Out of compliance, my PC is left on and available as often as possible, and some access has occurred, mostly when I'm asleep or away. I only know when I find pages or folders left open later on. Also out of compliance, the access information is included here:

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Lastly, I have to sleep naked, uncovered, with lights on, with blinds open and in view of the outside every single night, and I have to masturbate there at least once per night, so that neighbors and anyone outside can see or watch me. 

As mentioned in previous posts, I can't see much more than my own naked reflection in the window at night, since the lights are on, so I really can't tell if or when anyone is looking. A couple of nights I was so tired that I fell asleep while masturbating, since it tends to take longer on some nights due to being tired and also due to the knowledge that I could be being watched at that very moment. Aside from that, I'm exposed all night while asleep, so there's no way I can know who sees me during the night. 

                                                         Daytime view across my bed

                                                         Nighttime view across my bed
                                         

Two plastic wire ties are secured tightly around the base of the blind ensuring that the blind cannot be lowered at any time without cutting away the ties. Although it may not appear so, the blind is in the same position in both photos since the ties were in place in both photos and have not been removed since they were put in place. No sheets or covers are left on the bed other than the sheet over the mattress, but can be retrieved if cold temperatures make it necessary. This means getting up and retrieving them though. All of this is to ensure that I can't just casually close the blind or cover up, or cannot unknowingly cover up while sleeping. The decisions stated that I have to be exposed naked to the neighborhood all night, so as much as possible is done to ensure that I stay exposed naked to anyone outside or who can see me from any window within sight of mine,

It's extremely likely and almost certain that multiple neighbors have seen me at night, since they seem to pay attention to my window even during the day, as if they feel compelled to look to see if they can see me. In the nearest building, one older, heavyset female resident has begun smoking her cigarettes on the side of the building, which would enable her to see me from there at night. She faces my window the entire time she's out there during the day, and she does come outside at night and in the early morning before daylight to smoke too. I'm pretty sure she has started standing where she does just so she can see me sleeping naked. She may have also seen me masturbating at night, but I don't know if she has. She hasn't lived there for too long and I don't know her. She's far from attractive but I know I have to let her look and watch me naked as much as she wants. I have to let anyone else look or watch too, since I'm there because I'm supposed to be seen naked by whoever wants to look in at me or watch me.

As another year starts, it's not a matter of whether I will be exposed naked to, and seen by more people this year, but only a question of who and how many, and whether I'll know it or not at the time it occurs.  The apps that enable me to be seen at night are:

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

A few more images of me submitted by others.

 Whenever someone takes the time and effort to make or create any image that includes me in some way, and then sends it to me or notifies me of where to find it, I commonly save a copy.Most times they suggest or request that the image or images be shared or posted in some way, which is difficult to refuse to do.

I honestly do have the intention of sharing or posting those images, but I often tend to put it off until some later time. It's usually when asked by their creators about why they haven't been posted or shared or where they have been shared or posted that I know that "later time" has arrived.

Here are the images created or received that are now being posted:

Because the images were created using photos of me that are public domain photos, the images belong to their creators. Each creator of the images has chosen for their images of me to also be public domain and requested that they be shared and displayed publicly.

New Google Document "Videos of David Steckel (naked) on Clipchamp"

 A new Google document is available that contains a list and links to all videos of me naked that are currently available on the "Clipchamp" website.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TvjrcuJYAXyNKK_mmpA3kcsqrWAnk6NmqcOxv3NUzwg/edit?usp=sharing

Each video link has a small photo beside it that corresponds with the that link.

The link to the document can also be found on the page  David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist

                                           

A few photos of me naked follow the video links.

Comments are are enabled on in the document. 

 

Google Classroom: David Steckel naked

 A Google Classroom session has become available entitled "Observing David Steckel nude". It describes aspects of my naked body and my masturbation. It also contains photos and videos which show some of what is described and for reference purposes.

It's essentially an online class about my naked body and how I masturbate. 

 https://classroom.google.com/c/NTQ4NjIxMjI4MDYz/p/NTQ4NjI0NTQwNjA5/details

It has been made available on Facebook, both on the page for my exposure, and on my personal Facebook page.

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 

The post itself is quite subtle due to what can or can't be posted on Facebook, but the same isn't true for what the post links to. 

Some parts describe my naked body or what I do naked in what is often humiliating detail, but quite accurately. It presents things about me and my naked body that I hadn't given much thought to but can now be seen and known by anyone who accesses the "class".

It's pretty sure that even people who've known me for a while will see and discover at least a few things about me they would never have known about otherwise. 

Additional "classes" may even follow this one at some point.

A code doesn't appear to be necessary to access the class, even though one is available. If one is needed for access, it is: x6hipzk

The class enables comments at the bottom of the page.

This is the first time ever for a class about me naked and masturbating. It's quite daunting and humiliating, but as the class mentions a few times, my humiliation is irrelevant compared to what others have the right to see of me... naked.

 

Facebook Exposure Page reformat and update

 The Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist" https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd has been reformatted by Facebook. 

A few things have changed there as a result, with one thing being that the "Watch Video" button is now the "Watch Now" button. The button continues to link to the "video of the month" that is chosen by poll results. https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133

For several weeks before the reformatting, the means to "invite friends" was unenviable without any explanation, so several recently acquired friends were not sent invites to the page. This has been restored after the reformatting, but all prior invites had been removed. 

The simplest solution to identifying who had not yet been sent an invitation was for an invitation to be sent, or resent in many cases to more than a couple hundred Facebook friends. Any and all new friends will of course receive an invitation to the page upon or soon after becoming a Facebook friend, as it was before the invite option became temporarily unavailable. 

The reformatting only occurred on the Exposure page and had no effect on my personal page or any of its posts, including posts with links to the "video of the month".   

Each month when the video for the "Watch Now" button is updated, a post on my personal page is also added which contains a link to the video of the month and a qr code that when scanned links to the same video. These posts will remain even after the "Watch Now" video is updated each month, enabling viewing of the prior videos as well as remaining available through the search option on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

There is no tracking whatsoever for who watches the videos or even how many times they may have been watched or downloaded. I have no idea who watches them, but once they are linked by the button and in a public post on my personal page, there is no doubt at all that they are being watched and have been watched.

Below: An embed of the most recent public post on my personal Facebook page containing a link and a qr code to the video of the month. These posts will remain available there even after the month is over and a new post is created with with a new link and code to a different video.

So once a video becomes the video of the month there will always be a link to it in a public post on my personal page regardless of the current video of the month. All posts there are always permanent. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

On a separate but related topic, it's been noticed that five prior classmates of mine have been followers of mine on the Quora site https://www.quora.com/profile/David-Steckel-1 One male and four females. This means that much or all of what was posted or shared by me there has been included in their homepage feed once they began following me. Since they are lower on the list of followers, they have been following me for some time now and are very likely to have seen responses that contain photos of me naked.

I hadn't paid the least bit of attention to who followed me there, at least since I first joined the site and did some initial exploring of the options there. I occasionally receive notifications of new followers, but I don't recall any notifications for a majority of those who follow me there, including these classmates.

These five classmates are all also Facebook friends, so it's likely that they had all seen photos if not also videos of me naked even before the Exposure page was created and before links to my exposure became public in posts on my personal Facebook page. 

Overall this is probably not significant, since my exposure would currently be available to them through Facebook whether they followed me on Quora or not. It's just a bit of a surprise for me to find that they have very likely been among the viewers of responses by me on Quora for quite some time, which include many responses that contain photos of me naked.

 

 

Images (of me) submitted by others

 A few others have used photos of me naked to create images, which they notified me about or sent to me. They were and are all fully aware of the photos public domain status and knew they had every right to use the photos. 

Since the images they created are their own property, their permission was given to include the images in public posts online.  This was not only recommended by the creators of the images, but preferred by them, Obviously information about those creators mustn't be revealed so as to ensure their privacy, but their created images of me can be publicly shared.

Although I tend not to ask where the photos of me were found and obtained, since that is mostly irrelevant and is not really any of my business, but in some cases it is mentioned to me where they were obtained.