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Showing posts with label masturbating. Show all posts
Showing posts with label masturbating. Show all posts

Monday, January 9, 2023

Update on my requirement for no masturbation.

 I was asked some questions in a comment about my masturbation, or actually about my lack of it. It's probably just easier to share the entire comment and my response to it before going further.

The comment:

 Can you absolutely swear that you're not masturbating at all and haven't since even once since day one of not being able to do it? Not a single drop of cum? Do you edge yourself at all? Bringing yourself to the very edge of cumming? If you do then how can you keep from cumming when you're so desperate for it? What about when you hump your bed at night? If you haven't cum because of it, how do you avoid it? These are things everyone should know.

My reply:

 Yes I can swear that it's one hundred percent true that I have not masturbated since the first day of being required not to. The last time I masturbated or came was in the early evening on Sunday, January 1st which was New Years Day. I didn't know then that I wouldn't be doing it again anytime soon. If everyone should know about all of those things, then it's probably best if it's related in a post instead of a response. I'll admit that a couple times a drop of cum nearly came out, but as far as I know there hasn't been a single drop. If it got that far I think a lot more would have ended up coming out. I promise to address all that was asked in a post very soon

I can swear to the fact that I haven't masturbated or came at all even once since I was first required not to masturbate. I realize that it can seem easy for me to just say so but most people who know me personally would probably know that I don't do such things. My own conscience won't allow it and I know I can't get away with it for long. 

Since everything about this is to be public knowledge, I know that telling the absolute truth about it is even more necessary. I also know that others expect their decision to be abided by.

I'm sure that not a drop of cum has come out of my penis since the last time I masturbated. Even if it happened while I was asleep, something would show up on the sheet over my mattress or on the tip of my penis. By now I probably have a good amount of pent up cum that would come out if any cum at all came out while I was asleep. I don't think I could sleep through anything like that.

I admit that I've tried a few times to bring myself close to cumming, but it just ends up with me teasing myself and leaves me highly aroused and feeling even more desperate to masturbate and cum. Once it was five days or so into not masturbating I would get so close to cumming so fast and in such a short time that I had to start just leaving my penis alone entirely. Otherwise I would have cum by masturbating and then have to reveal to everyone that I ignored a decision and did what I was required not to do. 

The event of nearly cumming from my penis rubbing a box that I was carrying, and from thrusting my hips up and down while sitting at a red traffic signal have proven to me that I have to be very careful about stimulating my penis in any way. 

I honestly don;t know how I haven;t cum due to humping my bed at night, especially since it seems to happen much more often than it did before. I can only assume that whenever I get anywhere near cumming then, I wake up. Once I wake up it usually only takes me a short time to realize that I'm basically on display naked to much of the neighborhood and that I'm possibly being seen or watched at that very moment. That could be just enough to keep me from cumming at least for now.

It's not so much that I think anyone watching would know for sure that I was cumming, but that they would see me humping my bed like crazy and see my ass bouncing up and down as it does. I know it's very possible for anyone nearby to be seeing that anyway if I do it in my sleep and don't realize I'm doing it or being seen doing it, but it's pretty humiliating to know I'm doing in possible full view of the neighborhood. I can't stop or prevent anyone from seeing or watching me naked in bed all night long or what I might do while asleep, but I do at least have some ability while I'm awake and aware to avoid having them see my bare ass going up and down while I thrust my penis onto the bed. It's one of the few things I can have some effect on. 

I've mentioned before how it feels my penis is in charge and in control now, and how I'm just along for the ride. I know that's just a creation of my own mind, but that doesn't make it feel any less true. It can get hard and erect any time it wants to and it doesn't care where it happens or who sees it. It can seem as if it knows that it can tease me to no end and that I just have to let it do it. If it could and did know any of that, I might have to admit that it was right. 

I'm a bit embarrassed to admit one thing, but since it's all public anyway there's no point in me concealing it. That is how in spite of the desperation and not having any release from being aroused and horny so often, it's really not all bad for me.

I would never have expected it or know any different if I could still masturbate, but there are moments when I find that I actually enjoy feeling so turned on, and how little it takes for me to come close to climaxing. I also enjoy some of the quite erotic dreams I seem to have recently, even in spite of what it might be or is enabling neighbors and others nearby to see. Even though I can't climax or cum, it does feel good to simply thrust my hips a few times and for it to have such an effect on me. Not being able to continue with it until I cum is frustrating, but the feeling itself is very good. 

It's also a bit of an erotic feeling to be around others while being so aroused and turned on without them knowing anything about it. Sometimes I wonder if they can tell or if they know it, but unless I would have an orgasm and cum right there in front of them I know there's no way they can know.

 


 

Monday, October 10, 2022

A few more images of me submitted by others.

 Whenever someone takes the time and effort to make or create any image that includes me in some way, and then sends it to me or notifies me of where to find it, I commonly save a copy.Most times they suggest or request that the image or images be shared or posted in some way, which is difficult to refuse to do.

I honestly do have the intention of sharing or posting those images, but I often tend to put it off until some later time. It's usually when asked by their creators about why they haven't been posted or shared or where they have been shared or posted that I know that "later time" has arrived.

Here are the images created or received that are now being posted:







Because the images were created using photos of me that are public domain photos, the images belong to their creators. Each creator of the images has chosen for their images of me to also be public domain and requested that they be shared and displayed publicly.

Monday, September 19, 2022

Google Classroom: David Steckel naked

 A Google Classroom session has become available entitled "Observing David Steckel nude". It describes aspects of my naked body and my masturbation. It also contains photos and videos which show some of what is described and for reference purposes.

It's essentially an online class about my naked body and how I masturbate. 

 https://classroom.google.com/c/NTQ4NjIxMjI4MDYz/p/NTQ4NjI0NTQwNjA5/details

It has been made available on Facebook, both on the page for my exposure, and on my personal Facebook page.

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 

The post itself is quite subtle due to what can or can't be posted on Facebook, but the same isn't true for what the post links to. 

Some parts describe my naked body or what I do naked in what is often humiliating detail, but quite accurately. It presents things about me and my naked body that I hadn't given much thought to but can now be seen and known by anyone who accesses the "class".

It's pretty sure that even people who've known me for a while will see and discover at least a few things about me they would never have known about otherwise. 

Additional "classes" may even follow this one at some point.

A code doesn't appear to be necessary to access the class, even though one is available. If one is needed for access, it is: x6hipzk

The class enables comments at the bottom of the page.

This is the first time ever for a class about me naked and masturbating. It's quite daunting and humiliating, but as the class mentions a few times, my humiliation is irrelevant compared to what others have the right to see of me... naked.

 




Thursday, September 1, 2022

Monthly (September) video on Facebook

 The video for the month of September is now publicly available on Facebook. The video was chosen by votes received in the poll: https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133

On the Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist"  https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd the video is available through the blue "Watch Now" button on the page.

On my personal page https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 the video is available through a public post containing a link to the video, and through a qr code which can be scanned. 

The video shows me masturbating naked with my legs above my head and cumming into my face and into my mouth. It's one of the videos I would most prefer not to be widely seen, especially by friends or people who know me, but no video can receive any special considerations. It was selected through voting and the poll results are always final.

A few images from the video and a link to the video:



                                      https://photos.app.goo.gl/i82Ajb7UctrrYZdz6

                                                                     or

                                     

 

For me this is a particularly humiliating video to be available so publicly and to friends and people who know me. In the days after it became clear that this video would be made available, I hoped for anything that might at least delay its availability, but no such thing happened. 

On top of that, a fairly close and long-time female friend discovered and followed the Facebook Exposure page, and are automatically notified about any posting. It's a pretty sure thing that they have already seen me naked and watched me masturbate in the previous months video. They will inevitably watch this months video due to receiving a notification about the update to the "Watch Now" button. They are also a Facebook friend, and friends and followers receive notifications for any posts on my personal page.

So far they have not contacted me directly about seeing me, but whether or not they ever do, they will or have already seen this months video of me.

Since other friends and an unknown number of others will inevitably watch this video of me, it can seem pointless at times for me to feel such humiliation due to any specific friend seeing it. This friend is especially well known, has spent a lot of time with me, and has known me for many years without ever seeing me naked or even being aware of my online exposure until recently. They are likely not to keep what they see of me to themselves, at least for long, which could lead to additional friends seeing me.

There is still some disbelief for me that this friend followed the Exposure page just as an extremely humiliating video of me was about to become available to so many others on Facebook, but there's nothing that can be done about it now or ever. 

I have just been completely and forever exposed to one more person who knows me, and they received almost immediate access to one video that is particularly humiliating for me for her and other friends to see.


Monday, August 15, 2022

Facebook Exposure Page reformat and update

 The Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist" https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd has been reformatted by Facebook. 

A few things have changed there as a result, with one thing being that the "Watch Video" button is now the "Watch Now" button. The button continues to link to the "video of the month" that is chosen by poll results. https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133

For several weeks before the reformatting, the means to "invite friends" was unenviable without any explanation, so several recently acquired friends were not sent invites to the page. This has been restored after the reformatting, but all prior invites had been removed. 

The simplest solution to identifying who had not yet been sent an invitation was for an invitation to be sent, or resent in many cases to more than a couple hundred Facebook friends. Any and all new friends will of course receive an invitation to the page upon or soon after becoming a Facebook friend, as it was before the invite option became temporarily unavailable. 

The reformatting only occurred on the Exposure page and had no effect on my personal page or any of its posts, including posts with links to the "video of the month".   

Each month when the video for the "Watch Now" button is updated, a post on my personal page is also added which contains a link to the video of the month and a qr code that when scanned links to the same video. These posts will remain even after the "Watch Now" video is updated each month, enabling viewing of the prior videos as well as remaining available through the search option on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

There is no tracking whatsoever for who watches the videos or even how many times they may have been watched or downloaded. I have no idea who watches them, but once they are linked by the button and in a public post on my personal page, there is no doubt at all that they are being watched and have been watched.

Below: An embed of the most recent public post on my personal Facebook page containing a link and a qr code to the video of the month. These posts will remain available there even after the month is over and a new post is created with with a new link and code to a different video.

So once a video becomes the video of the month there will always be a link to it in a public post on my personal page regardless of the current video of the month. All posts there are always permanent. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

On a separate but related topic, it's been noticed that five prior classmates of mine have been followers of mine on the Quora site https://www.quora.com/profile/David-Steckel-1 One male and four females. This means that much or all of what was posted or shared by me there has been included in their homepage feed once they began following me. Since they are lower on the list of followers, they have been following me for some time now and are very likely to have seen responses that contain photos of me naked.

I hadn't paid the least bit of attention to who followed me there, at least since I first joined the site and did some initial exploring of the options there. I occasionally receive notifications of new followers, but I don't recall any notifications for a majority of those who follow me there, including these classmates.

These five classmates are all also Facebook friends, so it's likely that they had all seen photos if not also videos of me naked even before the Exposure page was created and before links to my exposure became public in posts on my personal Facebook page. 

Overall this is probably not significant, since my exposure would currently be available to them through Facebook whether they followed me on Quora or not. It's just a bit of a surprise for me to find that they have very likely been among the viewers of responses by me on Quora for quite some time, which include many responses that contain photos of me naked.

 

 

Friday, August 12, 2022

Images (of me) submitted by others

 A few others have used photos of me naked to create images, which they notified me about or sent to me. They were and are all fully aware of the photos public domain status and knew they had every right to use the photos. 

Since the images they created are their own property, their permission was given to include the images in public posts online.  This was not only recommended by the creators of the images, but preferred by them, Obviously information about those creators mustn't be revealed so as to ensure their privacy, but their created images of me can be publicly shared.

Although I tend not to ask where the photos of me were found and obtained, since that is mostly irrelevant and is not really any of my business, but in some cases it is mentioned to me where they were obtained. 










Monday, August 1, 2022

Monthly video updated - Facebook pages


 

 In accordance with the ongoing poll results at: https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133 , the "Watch Video" button on the page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd has been updated with the video that received the most votes at the end of the month of July. A link and a qr code for the same video is also posted publicly on the personal page: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75  The video will remain available on these pages until the next video update on September 1st, 2022. 

The qr code posts along with any links they contain will remain on the personal page even after future updates, even though updates to the "Watch Video" button also update all previous posts related to the button on the Exposure page. 

The August video that was most voted for and is now available on both pages is:

 https://photos.app.goo.gl/d7zhsSaetrjXX9keA


 

As usual. the video can be watched by anyone anonymously, and surely will be watched. I will then be seen naked and masturbating by all who view it.

Monday, March 21, 2022

Poll for next video on Facebook Exposure page.

 A new poll/survey is available to allow anyone interested to anonymously select their choice for which video of me naked is made available through a "Watch Video" button on the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd


 The poll/survey can be found at: https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133?fbclid=IwAR3FWZoVxutj3Cmgd1v6IjCYdzQQKe2TsnF59ac_guprqAmjrjgHkwOJ300

 SuperSurvey The button will go to a video of me, naked of course, and will stay available for at least two weeks. Any video that has the most votes will then replace the current one. If a video has the most votes and the votes are 5 or less, then the video selected will remain available for at least two weeks, If the video with the most votes has 6 to 10 votes, then the video will remain available for three weeks. If the votes are eleven or more for a video, then it will remain available for a full month. 

Any video made available will be replaced in the poll with another selection until all videos have been available for voting. The order and duration of availability of videos created through voting will then be the "cycle", to be repeated for as long as the button is there.

For now voters can decide which one comes next and for how long. 

Since some of the videos in the poll/survey are likely to humiliate me a bit more than others of the button ends up going to them and if anyone who knows me sees it  Two weeks will feel extra long if one of the more humiliating videos ends up being what the button goes to. Even though all videos of me naked are public and can't even be kept or hidden from people who really do know me, it's different when more humiliating videos of me are featured specifically. 

I know it's actually just the public voting anonymously about which public videos should be available for the public to see, and I know that part is really none of my business, so I'll just have to see if the poll/survey gets any results and what they might be.

UPDATE: The date for the first replacement of the video the button will go to is supposed to be April 4th 2022. If no video has a higher number of votes in the poll at that time, the change will be made if or when a video has more votes than any other. 


 

Friday, December 24, 2021

Exposed again on Exposed Fun website.

 The five posts have been removed and listed as expired. Two had passed 100 extensions (days), one had surpassed 80 and another surpassed 80. The newest post had nearly reached 30. 

Apparently the server for the website was recently wiped clean, and only posts added after that exist now. In due time new posts will likely be made.

Even though all four earlier posts exposing me on the website https://www.exposedfun.com/ have been extended by viewers enough that all have to be there a while yet, a fifth exposure of me naked has been posted.

 

It turned out that there were a significant number of shortcomings in the fourth exposure of me, with an obvious one being that an image from a previous post was reused. The new post doesn't correct every issue, but it does ensure that I will be exposed naked to even more people, who will all have the ability to copy or download all they see of me.

 

It also means that it's completely up to viewers whether they extend the new post by a day, making it have to stay there even longer.

The link to the newest post is:

https://www.exposedfun.com/post.php?id=1998617320 

The edit page for the post is the only place where it can be deleted, and also show other post settings which cannot be changed. It can be seen here that the delete option for the post was disabled upon posting, and cannot be undone.

https://www.exposedfun.com/edit.php?key=f6e8208a623826a3598c14536c608e8f 

The four previous exposures of me can still be seen at:

 Post 1  https://www.exposedfun.com/post.php?id=1510666436

Post 2  https://www.exposedfun.com/post.php?id=1182081049

Post 3  https://www.exposedfun.com/post.php?id=1317874325

Post 4  https://www.exposedfun.com/post.php?id=1315851048 

The four posts of me before this have ended up being required to stay posted for months longer than the short time I expected at first, but by the fourth post I started to expect that viewers might prefer for me to stay exposed in the post for quite a while. That seems to be just what happened, since viewers of the posts are essentially in charge and in control of the length of my exposure there. 

They can either look at my naked body and move on, or they can click a button that instantly adds another 24 hours to the count-down clock for the expiration of the post, allowing even more time for others to see me exposed there, and allowing anyone at all who finds the page to copy, download, or screenshot the pics of me naked there. 

As always, I won't know a single thing about who sees me exposed naked there, who extends any post, who copies or downloads any pic of me, or even who comments since it's all kept anonymous. It's strange to see that written in text and still know that's all not only just true, but that's how it's supposed to be and meant to be on that website. It does seem ironically compatible with other aspects of my exposure online.  

Now I can only wait, be exposed, and see how long viewers make me have to stay there like that.

UPDATE: Two days after it was posted, the new post has managed to be extended for nearly a month already, had well over one hundred views, and a few downloads seem to have occurred. It's clear to me that some viewers do want me to have to remain exposed there for quite a while. Once again I can only observe my exposure as it occurs on the site, day after day for as long as viewers want it that way.

Friday, September 10, 2021

My ongoing exposure naked to friends (Facebook) #1


 

This is the first update in a while, since things have been busy for me recently. Also, the situation related to my exposure naked to those who know me is still happening, since it is more than likely never going to end. With as much time that has passed already since my exposure to those who know me began, I can't even begin to fathom just how many people who know me have viewed photos and videos of me naked, and also masturbating. 

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 

Aside from some friend requests, I have received numerous messages lately from others on Facebook who are not friends and who I don't know. Most are through messenger, but one guy even posted on one of my older posts on Facebook "Does your mom know you have naked pics on here for all to see?" They misspelled "for" but the question is still obvious. I really don't know the answer to that question, but I do know there's nothing I can or could do about it in any case. Other messages range from asking why I'm letting the whole world see me naked, to "hi. saw your naked pics". First, the reason for why is simply because I have to "let the whole world see me naked". 

These messages seem to prove that lots of random others are seeing the links on my Facebook page, clicking on them, then seeing me naked. If so many random others are clicking the links and seeing me naked, then that's partly why I can't even fathom how many people who know me have seen me too by doing the same thing. 

The feelings of exposure and humiliation can get quite strong if I dwell on things that I can't change or on things that can't be undone, so I do my best to avoid dwelling on things like that. I just have to live with the fact that anyone I know and anyone I encounter may have seen me on the internet naked or masturbating. I also know that some of them have seen me that way already, even if they don't say so openly or even if I can't prove it.

I am still receiving penalties roughly every month now for my failure to show verifiable proof of being seen naked by someone who knows me.When a recent penalty was applied, which was a link to a video of me masturbating naked being placed at the top of the list of links on my Facebook page, it was humiliating to know that anyone who clicked that first, top link would see me masturbating naked, including anyone who knows me. I had no idea that I would soon end up basically bargaining and ensuring my humiliation to one specific female friend. This is the same female friend who eventually received a link to the Google photo album of all pics and videos of me naked, 

https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6 

and who received emails a few months ago from my contract holder containing videos or photos of me naked. I still don't know exactly what was sent to her, but just from what was forwarded to me after it was sent, it looks like she received quite a bit. 

I expected any penalties to just be put into effect, but I received an email from my contract holder mentioning it was time for a a video of me inserting something naked to go to the top of the link list. I knew there was nothing I could do if that's what was decided, but since I was notified early, I took the chance to ask if there was any way at all to avoid that. I was surprised to find a response of "yes", but I wasn't sure if the other option was better or not.

My contract holder informed me of a website called "Clipchamp", where videos can be edited and shared. My alternative penalty was to go there, upload a specific video, then share the uploaded video directly from the website to Facebook messenger. The recipient of the video was to be the female friend of mine. (of course anyone who really wanted to could know the identity of this friend, but I prefer not to post her name when referring to her.

Of course when the time to share the video came, I kept hesitating and backing out. It was long enough for my contract holder to contact me asking what was going on. I was given a definite date and time to have the video shared by, or the video link was to be put in place on my Facebook page. Finally, my dread for that allowed me to just hit "send" and get it over with. Once I did that I notified my contract holder, who responded with "Not so fast". She hasn't seen it yet. I was reminded of the small icon near each message that says "sent" once it is sent, but changes to "seen by" with the name of the person and the time and date they saw the message. I had to wait almost 18 hours before my contract holder notified me that the message had been seen. I had a look for myself, and it was true. She had viewed the message with the video link. The only question is did she actually watch the video, but I think I'd be deluding myself if I though she didn't watch it. Here is the video she received.

It turned out though, that sending the video only delayed things for a month or so. Then it was right back to having a link to an "insertion" video of me added on Facebook. But I was given a choice again. Actually it was the same choice but with a different video of me naked. But this time my contract holder had a video ready on Clipchamp. My only part was to send it to my female friend through Facebook's messenger again. The video this time was of me naked on a bed basically just being exposed and displayed. It's a quite humiliating video to have your friends see, and I had to send it right to one friend. I kept reminding myself of the other option for a penalty, and it made this option seem preferable. Still though, it was unusually difficult to click the send button this time. This time I knew to wait for the message to be seen by my female friend, but less than four hours later she did see the message and I notified my contract holder. 

Now another month had passed, and I've been given the same option for a third time and third video of me naked. I just found out today which video it is, and it's another one of me masturbating naked. I'm hesitating to send it again, which seems strange since she surely must have seen so much of me naked by now that it shouldn't matter to me anymore. I know I will send it though, because I have to unless I accept the original penalty instead, and I'm not ready to do that yet as long as there's some other option.

The second video she received of me:

Made with Clipchamp  
 
The next video I have to send to her within the next three days.
 
 
Made with Clipchamp  
  
This friend has absolutely had to have seen me naked and also masturbating by now, yet she has not said a word to me or done anything differently. She seems to just be looking, seeing, and not reacting in any way at all. In fact she recently posted on her Facebook page something that seemed out of place for her and it could almost seem to be directed at me.
Her post:

It almost feel like that post is about all the reaction she is willing to show or have. It looks like she's going to have another video of me to "notice" sent to her soon on Facebook messenger.
My contract holder did explain that the penalty is meant to make me have to use my own hand to send something to this female friend that she will know came from me. I'm never supposed to add any text or words in the messages to her, so there's no reason or explanation included. She only gets a link directly to a video of me naked. I wish I didn't have to send her another video link, but I have to, and soon.
I don't quite know what to think about her reaction or lack of it, whether good or bad. My contract holder believes she is finding all of this amusing even if she seeing me naked doesn't arouse her. They believe she's just amused by seeing someone she knows naked and masturbating on the internet where she knows everyone else online can see it too. My contract holder believes that her thinking is that because the photos and videos of me naked exist, then they have to be shown to everyone. In other words, the very existence of the photos and videos of me naked are the reason why they need to be displayed and seen publicly.
It was for me to imagine that this female friend could actually be amused by my complete public exposure to people who know me, and could possibly be enjoying it. But the more I think about it, the more I can recall that this female friend really might just see things that way. My contract holder even mentioned that this friend could have been a voter in the (closed) poll where most voters selected for me to me exposed naked to Facebook friends and voted for me to be exposed. I suppose that's only know to her for sure, but it's something I never thought about, and something that now seems more likely to be true than not. I still can't help from wondering is she is sharing the links and videos with others or not, but I know that's all up to her. 
 
I'm sure random people and people who know me will continue to click the links on my Facebook page and see me naked or masturbating. Those random people will probably continue to comment or message me. I know they don't know anything about how or why the links are there, and so far I haven't tried explaining things to any of them. I hadn't even noticed the comment on the post mentioned earlier (does your mother know you have naked pics on here for all to see?", until my contract holder sent me a message saying that the comment was not be be deleted or hidden for any reason. I think maybe because it has the word "naked" in it or maybe because it might get the attention of more people. Either way it'll be staying there under a photo post showing keys.

I think that's about all there is to say for now. My female friend will be receiving her next video of me soon, since to me it's my best choice and I've already been humiliated to this friend several times already.

Monday, May 31, 2021

Completing my exposure and humiliation (Facebook)

Anyone who has read posts prior to this might know that links to photos and videos of me naked from the Google photo album https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6 are posted in the intro/contact information on my Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 along with some other links that also go to locations where I am shown naked.

I was prepared just to have friends and contacts on Facebook see or happen across the links over time, but it's been pointed out to me how that's not enough. A post on my timeline that mentions the links in some way has been asked for, requested, and at some times demanded.

Since there are no grounds for me to dispute or refuse this, I have made a promise to at least try to comply with this. The simplest thing would be for me to post something mentioning the links myself, but for one thing I'm just not capable of completing a post like that even when I try, at least without being compelled or forced to in some real way. Also, a post done by me could seem too forward or too self-promoting. 

It seems more fitting for a random post  that mentions the links to be made by someone else. Only a few friends and contacts on Facebook are known to have seen the links so far, but a post that mentions them would be almost sure to cause the links to be seen and clicked on by more friends, contacts, relatives, and co-workers. Yes, this would almost definitely humiliate me, but that's the point and that does need to be what happens. 

So if anyone uses Facebook who might be willing to do the favor of posting something on my timeline about the links, I could then get my humiliation over with. Nothing needs to be included in any post aside from mentioning the links, even if it's just something like "That's some unusual links in your intro" or something just as simple and direct. No links need to be included and nothing about what the links show would need to be mentioned. Any contacts who saw and clicked any links afterwards would then see eveything for themselves.

Unfortunately even the least restrictive settings possible on Facebook only allow friends to post to my timeline, so it would be necessary for someone to be a friend before a post could be made. If desired, it would only need to be temporary, and I could be "unfriended" afterward. The post should remain though.

If more information is necessary, or for any questions, I can be emailed at DaveS113065@yahoo.com 

If preferable, a friend request can simply be sent to me on Facebook, which would be accepted without question. Once accepted, a post could be made to my timeline at the leisure and convenience of the poster. 

Thank you.

 




Update on 5/31/21 7:00 pm.

 This morning I was contacted by someone who said they will add a post to my Facebook timeline that mentions the links, and that it will be done on Saturday, June 5th.

In the meantime, someone else has already added a post about the links. It was added thirty minutes ago as of this writing. It's very likely that people who know me are seeing the post and have already begun to visit my Facebook page to see the links.  

If the first person decides to go ahead with their post on Saturday, the 5th,  that would be sure to draw even more attention to the links. It seems that I am now exposed to many people who know me, and my humiliation is almost certain now.


Wednesday, February 17, 2021

Exposed (Very much) to a real-life and Facebook friend - update 1

 Today I received another forwarded email that was first sent to the female real life and Facebook friend of mine. It was sent to her four days after the first one, and it once again contained the link to the Google photo album that has photos and videos of me naked and masturbating. It appears that for better or worse, I am being notified each time this friend is sent the link. https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6


 

I was sure she'd see me naked once the first email was sent to her, and after another email was sent to her, I can't see how there can be any way that she won't see everything of me now. On top of that, I'm told that emails with the link will continue to be sent to her over and over again until there's some proof that she has seen the Google photo album. 

I also discovered that I am back to being blocked from that photo album. After I learned of the first email and link being sent to this friend, I was told that I had access temporarily to the album. I know the only reason for that was so that I would see what this friend was going to see of me, which is just about everything there is of me naked. Apparently my access has already been revoked, even though this friend is being sent the link to see it, and she will keep on receiving the link. 

Seeing that she was sent the album link a second time made me feel almost as nervous and anxious as it did when I found out about the first time she received it. I was surprised at that, since before the second email was sent, I more or less figured that it hardly mattered if she received the link again. I figured that she was already seeing me naked anyway after the first email. But the second time did feel like it mattered. 

I thought about why the second email seemed to matter almost as much as the first one, and I think it's mostly about the fact that I'm being offered on display naked and masturbating to her and I can't do a thing about it. I don't have any control over the photo album, and now I don't even have any access to it once again, and I can't do anything about the album link being emailed to her no matter who sends it to her or how many times the link is sent to her. I'm basically limited to being seen naked by her and being seen masturbating by her.

Even though I already know she will be sent the link again, probably soon, and that she will probably keep receiving the link until there's some proof that she has seen me naked, I'm wondering if I'll ever get to where I don't re-experience the same anxiety and nervousness each time. I like to think that I will, but I already thought I would after the first time. 

I also think some of my anxiety is due to her not reacting in any way, even if it was a negative reaction to the sender. If she did react to the sender, I haven't been told anything about it, and if she did react, it would seem for there to be no point in sending her any more emails with the album link in them. 

The reason I'm anxious about her not reacting in any way or saying anything, is that I think it may be due to her desiring to share the link with her many friends. Having met some of her friends, mostly females, I'm more than a little bit sure that her and many of her friends will find my exposure to them to be amusing if not hilarious. I'm afraid that they are already sharing the album link with each other, and texting back and forth about it while laughing and making mocking comments about me and what they see of me in the album. I can easily imagine this friend showing some part of the album to her friends, and then giving them the album link so they can see the whole album whenever they want to, and even share it with friends of their own. 

I don't bother for a second to think that exposing me to this friend, or to other friends through the links on my Facebook page, will cause me greater humiliation than it was intended to cause. I know for sure that the intent and the purpose of it all is to entirely humiliate me for all time to people who know me. I know this in intended to be my punishment for violating my exposure contract, and even beyond that, it is what voters in the poll have decided for me. https://www.poll-maker.com/poll3242987x72cf4612-100 

Being told that it's all my own fault, and even basically knowing that it is, doesn't make it any easier to experience as it actually happens to me. Neither does being told that voters in the poll know what's best for me and that they are doing me a favor by making sure I learn a proper lesson. I do know that I have to abide by and accept all of these things though, since I have no other choice. In the end I can't really deny the fact that all of this is my own fault though. I also have to accept that I might deserve every bit of what I'm getting, since otherwise so many voters in the poll wouldn't have decided that I had to be exposed naked to friends and people who know me. 

Anyway, if this friend of mine does not react to the second email and album link that was sent to her, I do expect that the link will be sent to her again soon. In a way, I just wish she'd react in some way just so the emails can stop being sent to her. I know my opinion on the matter doesn't matter or change anything, but I'm certain she has already seen everything of me naked. 


Update 2/20/2021

Today I was informed that the link to the Google album will be sent to the female friend of mine on every fourth day from the last time it was sent on February 17th, until there is some way to prove that she has seen the album and seen me naked. 

If that's going to be the schedule, then I guess she will be receiving it again within twenty four hours from this update, once more after that before the end of February, then eight more times in the month of March. I don't know why it has to be every four days, but I've been told that's how it will be.

I don't use gmail, but I was told that messages can be scheduled to be sent automatically with gmail, and that the next emails with the link are already scheduled to be sent. 

It's really hard to have to just sit back and do nothing knowing now how often the link is going to be sent, but also knowing the only way for it not to be sent anymore is if or when it can be proven that she's seen me naked. Nothing has been said yet about how long this might go on if there's never any proof that I've been seen naked.

It's only my opinion, but I think she has already seen me and decided to make sure I never know about it. I also think it's because she's sending the link or showing her friends the album. A few of them also know me, and she has a whole lot of friends both online and in real life. I think it's mostly so they can laugh about it, and not so much about liking anything they're seeing. I still don't know if I'd rather know or not know though.

 

Saturday, February 13, 2021

Exposed (Very much) to a real-life and Facebook friend

 An email was just recently sent to me to notify me that someone I know personally and who is also a Facebook friend has been sent the link to the Google photo album (the one I have been blocked from viewing). I now know this is the friend who was asked for others to send the link to, and I also finally know the name of the friend, since I had no way to know for sure until now. https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6

I was forwarded a copy of the email that was sent to her that included a link to the Google photo album. There's no doubt at all that she will see me naked, masturbating, and more, and there's not a thing that could be done to prevent it. 

I know the link was sent by my contract holder, who did tell me a while back that the friend who wasn't identified to me, was going to see me naked for sure at some point, but then I learned that others were being asked to send the album link. I assumed it might just stay as me never knowing if the link had ever been sent or of the friend had seen me naked. Now I know otherwise. 

 

In a separate email message I was reminded that by seen naked by this friend was inevitable, and it does seem that this has now happened. At the moment, the link has only recently been sent to her, so there's not much else I can do except to wait until she reads the email and clicks the link to the album. For all I know she is seeing me naked or watching me masturbate at this moment. 

In the same email, I was also told that I can view the Google photo album for the next few days, but only on a temporary basis. The reasons given were because there's no need to conceal the friends identity from me any longer, and so that I can see what this friend will see of me. 

I did already scroll through the album, and I almost wish that I hadn't been given access to it. I can't even imagine this friend's reaction to seeing me naked in so many ways and watching what seems to be every video of me naked that ever existed. Even after seeing it, I can't believe that right at the very top of the album is a video of me masturbating naked until I cum. That's the very first thing this friend is going to see of me, and she might have seen it already. It's so hard to believe that her seeing me is not just a possibility anymore, but an actual true reality.

I don't know if this friend will mention to me that she has seen me naked or masturbating, and there's no way I'm going to ask her about it. I do know for sure that she's going to see me though. 

It's going to take a while for the reality of being seen by this friend to fully sink in. This is the best known friend who will have seen me naked so far, and it feels a little unreal that there isn't a thing that anyone at all can do to change or undo my being seen by her, aside from if the Google photo album just disappeared. I couldn't make that happen no matter what, and I know my contract holder intends for the album to remain just as it is, and to allow this friend to have as long as she wants to see everything of me. 

I'm not sure of it, but I do think this friend won't be able to resist sharing the album link with at least some of her many friends. Either way though, I can say that I am officially humiliated by knowing that she will or is actually seeing me naked, and definitely masturbating. I don;t know if or when I will see her in person next, but if or when I do, I can't be sure I will be able to look her in the eyes. That's even if she decides not to tell me that she's seen me. If she does tell me, then I think what she says and how she says it will decide some of how I face her in person.

Even though I hoped this whole thing would never occur, and I didn't know which friend it was to be until now, I was told more than once that this was coming, and that a friend who I knew well personally had to see me naked and masturbating. I did know this was a required part of my punishment. I guess in one sense it's sort of a relief to have it finally over with, but on the other hand I have to wait to see if this friend ever decides to tell me what she saw of me, and know from now on that she has seen me. 

If anything is heard from this friend after she sees eveything of me, or if anything else occurs that adds to my current level of humiliation, it will be related in an update.

Also, voters are still occasionally casting votes in the poll at:

https://www.poll-maker.com/poll3242987x72cf4612-100

The results change with each vote cast, but the results remain at basically ten to one for the links to my exposure having to remain on my Facebook page permanently. At this time, the links have been present for around 100 days. I know I'll never know how many times friends have seen or clicked on them so far, but since the voters have the only say-so about the links, I'm certain to continue to be seen naked by anyone who visits the page and decides to click any or all of the links. 


Sunday, January 10, 2021

Exposure to Facebook friends - update 2

 

I didn't plan to do any update on recent posts at least unless or until something changed or something new happened, but I've been what I'll call "urged" to offer an update now that it's a new year. I also didn't want to risk violating my exposure contract again by saying or doing anything that might seem like I'm trying to avoid, limit, or interfere with my exposure in some way.
So first I feel the need to mention that nothing I might say is intended to do any of those things, especially with regard to anything to do with my having to be exposed to and seen naked by people who personally know me.

Since there doesn't seem like there's much to update, the poll seems like as good a place as any to start with.

(Anyone just wanting to see the voting results can see them at: https://www.poll-maker.com/results3242987x72cf4612-100#tab-2 )
As mentioned in an earlier post, the poll has had an update. Now there is not just a photo of me naked at the top of the page, but also a photo of me naked for each choice in the poll. Even the two choices for me not to be exposed to Facebook contacts show me naked, but mostly just show my bare ass. The choices for me to be exposed temporarily and permanently both show my face and a mostly frontal view of me naked. I wasn't told why these particular photos of me were chosen or added, and I'm not about to ask or question anything about it.

By far the most votes are for the first choice, which says "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked." (Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 )
The links required to be there are still the link to my Twitter https://twitter.com/davidsteckel1
the link to a Google photo album showing me naked https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6
the link to the Dropbox "David Steckel naked" 
and the link to a naked photo of me on Wikimedia

I need to say here that since it's what most voters want, then that's still what has to be. I'm in no position to dispute what so many others have decided in the matter.I also know that the links in my Facebook information are being monitored by more than one person to make sure they're there and that they work, so that anyone who knows me on Facebook and any visitors can see and click the links. I know this is the punishment decided for me for my violations of my exposure contract, and I'm trying to do all I can to accept this punishment and all that might come along with it, which I know includes my humiliation as people who know me see me naked and even masturbating. To avoid any uncertainty over anything said here, I'll state clearly that I know for violating my contract, I've earned and deserve some sort of punishment. Since so many have decided for this to be my punishment, then I must deserve this particular punishment.

With that said, each time I read the text in the choice "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked.", the word that catches my attention the most is "must". Even though I know the whole intent of my punishment is for me to be seen naked by people on Facebook who know me, the word "must" reminds me that it is to be definite and for sure. At times seeing that can make my stomach tighten a little and my knees feel a little weak, but then I move on and try not to think about it since there's nothing I can do about it anyway.
As for who has seen me naked so far who knows me, I still only know of one person, since they chose to say so to me. I have no idea at all about how many others who know me may have already clicked a link there and seen me naked.
In the past few weeks, I've seen in person six people who know me who are also contacts on Facebook. Each time I found myself trying to figure out whether or not they may have seen me naked by looking for some clue or evidence. Even without any one of them saying anything about it, I was always left clueless about it. I'm finding it too easy to think I'm perceiving nothing different most of the time, but then perceiving one or two things that almost seem link hints that they've seen me naked, but are not telling me straight out. Clearly I'm going to have to learn to live with and deal with that sort of thing, since I'll never know who has or hasn't seen me naked unless they decide to come right out and tell me. I know even if the links were ever able to be removed (which I know they can't be and won't be), it wouldn't matter now since there's been enough time already for people who know me to have clicked the links and seen me naked.

I guess another thing to mention is that I still have no idea which friend of mine has their email address offered in the comments section of the Google photo album. 
Since I'm still blocked from the album, I can only assume that their email address is still offered there since I haven't had any information saying otherwise. I also have no idea whether anyone has sent this friend the album link yet, or if this friend has seen me naked. Not knowing who it might be makes it too hard to guess whether they might mention it to me or not.
I'll admit that I'm extremely curious about who they are, but I'm aware that I have no right or need to know. I've realized that I don't know the email address of most people who know me on Facebook, since Facebook is the way I tend to communicate with those who are contacts of mine on there. All I know from a screenshot image is that they have a gmail address, but that doesn't tell me anything.
The fact that I'm curious is the extent of things though, since I know whoever this friend is may already have seen me naked and are keeping it to their self. Even if they haven't received the Google photo album link yet, I know they will receive it somehow at some point. I know there's no avoiding them seeing me naked unless they choose not to click the album link once they receive it in an email, if they haven't received it already. I could try to convince myself that it's not really an email address of someone who knows me, but I doubt I'd ever really get myself to believe that it would be offered of it wasn't really someone who knows me.

I've been told that I tend to make it sound like it's my punishment to have the links posted on Facebook where people who know me might click them and see me naked. I've seen this for myself when I read some posts. So no one is misled, the links are just the way for my actual punishment to happen. As I've been often reminded, my actual punishment requires that I be seen naked for sure by people who know me on Facebook, and by anyone else they choose to tell who might also know me.
Even though I'm never sure anymore whether anyone I know and meet has seen me naked, I'm aware that I have to be seen naked by people who know me. I know better now than to ask for more details or information about that, so the most I can do is to accept that fact.
It's still kind of ironic to me that I spent so much time and effort in the past to keep my naked exposure separate from Facebook and from the people who know me personally and who see me in daily life, and now having it available and practically offered to those same people. I can only assume that's the very reason why it ended up being decided as my punishment, and is being carried out even at this very moment.

Lastly, the five photos of me naked now included in the poll are:

 
Header photo

 
Option #1 photo
                                  "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked"


                                                                                         Option #2 photo
                                             "Yes. The links should remain for now, but only for some period of time"
 

                                                                         Option #3 photo 
                              "No. David Steckel deserves to have his exposure kept secret from contacts on Facebook"

 
 
 Option #4 photo
                      "No. His Facebook contacts should have to seek or find his exposure by chance on other websites"