Nightly Naked Exposure: Feeling Exposed.

 

May 16th, 2023

I didn’t know where to begin to come up with some response to the anonymous comment above that was received not long ago.

Received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db

One reason for this is that I don’t really see what I might want or how I might feel about being exposed as being something that matters very much. It’s a requirement that has to be obeyed every night no matter how I feel about it on any night.

There’s no doubt at all that neighbors and others nearby do continue to see me in bed naked at different points during the nights and early mornings. Since I’m always right there and completely exposed it’s unlikely that they fail to look every time they have the opportunity. For those who look at me most often, there’s probably not a single place on my naked body that is not familiar to them.

I do know that I am occasionally or periodically viewed on webcam in bed, even though I never know by who, when it occurs, how long it occurs for, what they see, or when it might occur.

I understand that this is just one more part of the requirement for me though, so that it can always be verified and confirmed that I am always obeying the requirement to be exposed naked through a window every night, all night. I know that if anyone accessed the webcam while I’m in bed or asleep, that unless I’m completely naked, unless the room is well lit, unless there is no form of covering present or being used, and unless the blind on the window is raised enough to enable me to be seen easily from outside, that I will be caught in the act of violating the requirement.

I know there is no way around that and no loophole that can avoid any of that, so I know that I have to remain in compliance with the requirement at all times, every single night. I know this means there is a one hundred percent chance that I am seen and will be seen naked at times, and that it’s never up to me when I’m seen or who sees me.

Access being enabled to my PC and webcam is also a requirement through either the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access app, which enables verification of my nightly exposure at any time of night.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Whether my exposure is verified on webcam once a month, once a week, every other day, or even more often, I have to be exposed every night, all night simply because verification can take place at any time on any night.

All I can do is remember that fact that it was decided that this is what I deserve, and to accept it as what I deserve. It doesn’t help limit the humiliation of it that much, but at least it reminds me that the reason for the humiliation is because I deserve it.

At whatever time I go to bed at night, I know it’s the end of the part of the day where there can be any sort of privacy for my body. If I am not already naked I know the first thing that’s necessary is for me to remove every shred of clothing.

Since the blind on the window is fixed in the raised position at all times, I know there’s no need to do anything with it. Any top sheets or other possible covering have long since been removed and done away with, except for the fitted sheet over the mattress and pillow cases on the pillows. The only thing left after becoming naked is to ensure that the room is well lit.

As I do these things, I am always at least a little bit aware of how I am about to serve another night of being exposed naked and very likely be seen naked. But I know that if I want to go to bed and to sleep that night, I also have to be exposed naked the entire time.

So I climb onto the bed and try to get settled knowing that a night of exposure has now begun. I know I can be seen through the window and that I probably will be within a short time. I know I may even be being looked at naked at that very moment by someone nearby, but I know that covering up is not permissible and would be pointless anyway.

Most often I close my eyes and try to pretend that I am in a place with complete and total privacy, even though I know that’s not true at all. Depending on how tired I am that night, I either manage to fall asleep pretty quickly or within a short time. Falling asleep does not change a thing about my exposure other than it stop s me from dwelling on the fact and from there being any possibility of me realizing it when I am being seen or looked at naked.

I tend to think of it as me drifting off to someplace else while leaving my naked body in place for anyone to see or look at.

I’ve learned to try not to look outside through the window too much during the night, since it’s much easier to be less aware of when there’s a good chance that I’m being seen naked at the time.

Some nights, most often Friday or Saturday nights, there can be lots of apparent activity within sight of the window. Mostly lots of headlights from cars coming, going, parking, or loading up and pulling away. Also lights being carried by people walking at night, although only a few walkers bother to carry a light. On nights like that I know it almost impossible for me not to be seen, and more likely for one or more people to stop and look towards my window for a while.

If I’m in bed but still awake I try my best not to know any of that is going on outside. If I do ever realize that I am almost certainly being watched at the time, it can be really hard to just stay in place while it happens even though that’s what I am supposed to do and expected to do. Sometimes I actually have to force myself to stay where I am, and if I’m watched for too long I’ve ended up kind of whining or moaning a little bit.

I don’t mean to make the sounds, but I think it’s because I know that my naked body is being looked at intently by people I know nothing about and I just have to wait for them to finish looking. Sometimes it feels as if they think they are supposed to look at me naked, but I always know that because of the requirement for me to be there and be exposed, that in some way they really are supposed to look at me naked.

Things like that can feel overwhelming at times, so even though anyone who looks is free to look and maybe even supposed to look, I find it much easier if I’m aware of it as rarely as possible. That way I only know that it is happening, but I don’t know about it at that very moment.

This post was made over several days, since it took some time for me to think about things I feel and think about before and during my nightly exposure and to try putting those things into words.

While writing it, another anonymous comment was received. This one seems to be from someone who has seen me in the process of being exposed at night more than one time.

I suppose I really am glad that I don’t spend most of my time humping the bed or with my ass raised up for no apparent reason but for anyone to see.

I did not know what position I slept in the most, but it’s obvious that whichever part of me faces the window the most is what most others nearby have already seen or are continuously seeing.

I can only wonder how familiar with my naked body that some nearby others might be by now, or how familiar with it they might become over more time. It’s an endless source of humiliation to have to see and encounter those who have repeatedly seen me naked in bed, even if I don’t know them. Every encounter starts with me wondering if this person or these people have seen me exposed naked at night. I wouldn’t really know if they have seen me, but they would certainly know that they have.

While I’m wondering, those who have seen me are probably already picturing me as they saw me rather than how I appear at that moment. In those cases I can probably never not be naked to them, and any clothes I’m wearing at that time probably make no difference to them. They would already have seen everything any clothing was currently covering on me.

I also occasionally wonder what they might say to each other, since those who have seen me and who can see me naked at night tend to encounter each other very often or even know each other. I usually stop short of wondering if they ever talk about some part of my naked body that would be private for anyone else but is essentially public for me.

I think at best I am “The Naked guy in the window all night” by now to at least some of them.

I can almost feel my naked body becoming less and less private over time, and becoming more and more public each night.

Additional times being naked in front of or near window.

 A recent anonymous comment received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db mentioned how I'm in front of the window naked each time I get out of bed in the morning. 

Photos or video may not show it, but I can only get out of bed on the side of the bed closest to the window. A narrow area on the other side of the bed has a few boxes and other things stored there, so there is no way to stand up onto that side of the bed. 

When I'm about to get into bed, and each time I get out of bed, it's actually necessary for me to be in front of the window. Whether day or night, anyone looking at that time would be sure to see me. 

The glare of daylight can obscure the view of the outside in photos, but in reality that's not the case.

Nearly every time I dress or undress, it occurs in front of the window, simply because that's the most open and clutter free area available. If I'm wearing clothing before getting into bed for some reason, they are removed near the window. I climb into bed near the window before spending the night exposed through the window. 

The window sill is 30 inches (76.2 centimeters) above the floor, and the top of my bed is 36 inches (99.44 centimeters) above the floor, so my bed is 6 inches (15.24 centimeters) higher than the window sill. From outside, my entire mattress with me on it can easily be seen all night long.

If I do get out of bed during the night, it places me in front of the window naked, just as it does when I get out of bed in the morning. 

After spending another whole night exposed naked through the window, it feels futile for me to bother trying to limit any further exposure. The permanent requirement that I spend the entire night exposed naked prohibits any attempt at hiding or concealing anything, so over the six months it has been in effect I have gotten into the habit of not even trying to limit my exposure all night or in the morning. 

It's endlessly humiliating to have to remain exposed to anyone nearby all night and in the morning even after daylight, so it seems quite strange to me that I am in now in the habit of being exposed almost automatically, while all the while feeling the humiliation of it all. 

A good deal of the humiliation felt is probably due to knowing that my naked body is essentially public during these times, for anyone to see, and from knowing that I have been seen and will for sure continue to be seen naked by neighbors and any other random person who looks. I guess I get as much privacy as I deserve though.

No masturbating - update

 In the last couple of days, seven more votes were received in the poll, and all seven chose that I cannot masturbate or intentionally cum. The poll will still be open for many months yet, but the current results seem to indicate that I may not actually deserve to masturbate or cum intentionally. Since the current result in the majority must be obeyed, it's clear that I definitely won't be masturbating or cumming any time soon. I will be remaining aroused, horny, and turned on, which I have to accept as what I deserve. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

Aside from learning what I actually deserve, not masturbating is revealing some unexpected things to me. 

The most unexpected of all is that being aroused and turned on from not masturbating kind of turns around on itself for me. By that I mean that because I am most often aroused and horny, and I know that I cannot masturbate or cum, knowing I have to stay that way arouses and turns me on even more. So basically, being aroused and turned on from not being allowed to masturbate makes me even more aroused and turned on. It took a while of not masturbating before that seemed to begin, but I may just have taken a while to realize it. I have been prohibited from masturbating for more than 90 days so far, so I don't know if knowing I can't masturbate or cum will continue to keep making me even more aroused and turned on. I suppose it's just another part of what I deserve though.

Another thing I've discovered is that I cannot resist edging myself repeatedly and often, even though I know it can never result in me cumming or ejaculating. I don't technically masturbate, since I don't actually stroke or use a hand. Being so aroused all I have to do is to keep lightly touching my dick with a fingertip on the under side just below the head, and it's enough to keep be edged. I have to pause every so often to ensure that I don't get too close to cumming, which is an endless tease for me, but I know I have to obey the requirement for not cumming at all. 

I don't really want to do it and keep teasing myself, but if I'm alone and preoccupied with something else, I often realize I am already doing it. Once I realize it, it's very hard to stop doing it. Usually something will interrupt me and I will stop then, or I get so aroused that I can barely do it at all without a risk of cumming, and my only option is to force myself to stop doing it. Occasionally I stop because I have someplace to go, which usually means I'm heading out being super aroused and with an erection. Most of the time when walking out the door I'm aroused with an erection. 

Something I found to be very true is that I do not dare to risk intentionally cumming no matter how possible it might appear that there's a chance for getting away with it. Knowing I'm not allowed to intentionally cum and knowing it would violate a requirement is more than enough to ensure that I obey the requirement. I would know I was guilty of violating the requirement, and of disobeying decisions others have made, and I would be stuck living with that guilt. I also feel absolutely sure that my offense would be known about or discovered, and I would have no justification for it. What most voters decide that I deserve is certain to be what I deserve, and that decision must be accepted by me and obeyed by me. Accepting what I deserve is the only option for me. 

With the requirement that I have to sleep naked every night, without any covering, with sufficiently bright lights on, and with the window uncovered that enables a direct view of me from outside, not be permitted to masturbate is continuously causing erections and leading me to hump the bed, mostly during sleep, but now also when awake but near to falling asleep. I tried to limit or even prevent these things from occurring, since they can and likely will be seen by others with a view of my window, but I've had to resign myself to the fact that those things are going to occur due to me being so aroused and horny. Because they are going to occur, I just have to accept the fact that others are going to see those things when they are seeing me naked in bed. Some have more than likely already seen me with an erection in bed or seen me humping the bed naked or both, which can't be unseen even if I could somehow limit or prevent those things from occurring. 

Each night, I go to bed only knowing that I will be exposed naked through the window all night long, but most nights, or for all I know every night, I end up providing much more of a display for anyone who sees me through the window due to being so aroused from not masturbating or cumming. It's clear by now that this is going to continue indefinitely if not always, so maybe eventually everyone who can see it will see it, and there will hardly be anyone left who hasn't seen all of it. That seems about the only real option for me, since I'm required not to hide, cover, or conceal anything during the night or while in bed.

I suppose getting what I deserve can't be expected to be easy all of the time, but I know it does have to be accepted as much as possible even when it's occurring.

Note: The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K has three options or choices ever since it had to be moved to a different polling site, since it was mentioned twice that the poll options were to complex and complicated, and that the poll needed to be simplified to options that either allowed me to masturbate or for me to not be allowed to masturbate. The earlier options were said to be redundant. They also received basically no votes, so their removal didn't effect the overall results.

Two options still allow for the option for me to masturbate in some way, while one does not. So in the end I will either have some sort of permission to masturbate and cum, or I will be permanently prohibited from masturbating and intentionally cumming, and I will have to accept that I only deserve to be aroused and turned on. But that's for voters to decide and I am and will be required to obey their decision.

All Exposure requirements and poll results continue to be fulfilled.

  

This post was created over a period of a week, with bits added at a time, so it's more like a stream of consciousness than an orderly, organized post. It's about the requirements that are in effect for me, both permanent ones and one that's still in the process of being decided.

Two requirements are mentioned often, mostly since they both have a major effect on daily life for me. Technically one has most of it's effect at night, while the other is nearly constant.

All requirements from previous and current polls continue to be fulfilled and obeyed. Of course the results of the now closed poll are forever permanent for me, and must be obeyed at all times regardless of what I might prefer or how inconvenient or humiliating they might be for me.

The currently ongoing poll  https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K deciding whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally ejaculate is free for anyone to anonymously vote in. All that's necessary is to vote for whatever is felt that I deserve. The current results prohibit me from masturbating or intentionally cumming. 

I would ask for votes for options that might eventually permit me to masturbate, but I have already been basically scolded by some contacts for attempting to sway voters and their votes. So all potential voters should vote for which option they want to or feel that I deserve. It is and will be mandatory and required for me to always follow and obey the result with the most votes.

All of the poll results do have some impact for me, but some have a more long term impact while others have a day to day impact.

One requirement that has a longer term impact is that every photo and video of me naked is essentially public domain, since anyone anywhere has the full right to possess, post, display, and share any photo or video of me naked that they desire, and for any reason or purpose they desire. Not only do I have no say about it, but even if I'm informed about any such thing beforehand, I cannot ask for it not to be done, and afterwards I am forbidden from asking or requesting the removal of any such post or display. This applies even if photos or video of me naked is to be shared with or sent to a person or people who know me personally.

Also, all photos and videos of me naked must be presented in manners that will enable not just anyone to see them, but in ways that will enable others who know me personally to see them. 

This has already led to some results. Currently, at least several people who do know me personally are known to have viewed at least some photos or videos of me naked, and more people who know me are certain to have viewed them without any way to know it for sure. Ironically, not one of them has chosen to mention to me about seeing me online naked, either in an attempt to avoid embarrassing me, or due to not wanting to reveal the fact that they looked at me naked. In any case though, some people known to me have seen me online naked and nothing can change that fact. It's just unknown to me what photos or videos they saw of me.

A requirement that could have an effect at any time is the requirement that my PC must remain available for access to anyone through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps. Even if I'm aware of any access at any time, unless changes to the PC settings are being attempted, I cannot interfere with any access. This means that all folders and files are free for access or transferring for any use or reason. It also means that most websites I use or have an account on can be accessed or visited as me, even for the purpose of further exposing me in some manner to others, including to others who might know me personally.

Knowing it's all possible and that it must be permitted to occur is intimidating, but fortunately for me it rarely occurs. Even when it does occur, browsers other than the Firefox browser tend to be used, which have less direct access to most websites used by me. Still though, it's intimidating to know that my PC and many websites I use are essentially an open book to anyone who might want them to be.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Even more intimidating is the requirement that if or when I am approached in person by anyone and told to or requested to strip off all of my clothing until naked, that I must comply. If this occurs in an open and public place, the most I can do is to hope to move to some nearby location with some amount of at least temporary privacy before complying. Once naked I am required to "gift" all clothing, or give them to the person who made the request, who is under no obligation to return any of the clothing to me. I would also have to submit to being photographed naked or recorded naked on video in any way desired by the new owner of whatever clothing I had just removed, The new owner of the clothing would then decide whether or not whether any clothing would be returned to me, whether any of it could be earned back by me in some way, or whether I would have to remain naked and be left entirely exposed for others to see.

The stripping naked on request part is intimidating by itself, but having to surrender all clothing and remain completely naked wherever I am at the time is much more intimidating. I cannot refuse or deny any request or demand that I strip naked, and once the request or demand is made all clothing I would be wearing and have to remove would immediately be owned by anyone who made the request. So essentially if I don't remove all of my clothes, or I don't surrender them, I am guilty of theft since no clothing at all at that location actually belongs to me anymore.

Although it's possible for this to occur at any time, I try not to think much about it and I will just have to deal with it as best as I can if or when it does occur, and accept however much humiliation and exposure that might result.

A requirement that does have a daily, or rather nightly effect for me is the requirement that I spend each and every night completely naked, including while in bed, without covering of any kind, with lights on, and with a window uncovered to enable anyone nearby to see and observe me at any time during the night.

Being in bed or sleeping now always means being exposed naked to anyone who happens to see me or who has the slightest desire to observe me naked. I rarely, if ever know if anyone is seeing me or who might be looking, but I cannot cover up or conceal anything at any time of night. Any form of covering up at any time, for any reason would mean violating the requirement. An insufficient light level, or not bright enough lights being on is also a violation. The same is true if the window doesn't remain uncovered at all times.

While asleep I not only remain unaware of any observation, but I cannot control any erections or anything I do. When I become aroused or horny while asleep, I not only get and erection that is visible for anyone to see, but I also often tend to hump the bed if lying on my front, and to thrust my hips upwards while lying on my back. Occasionally I wake up during these times, but without knowing how long I may have been doing it or who may already have observed it. I have to assume that there are times when I do these things without ever waking up at all, which could mean it's being observed without me knowing a single thing about even doing it. 

Since this became required for me, I'm only aware of being seen and observed by a few nearby others, but only because I was awake at the time and the observers made it fairly obvious that they were watching me. In those cases I still couldn't cover up or limit any observation of me. It's very likely those observers were only a fraction of how much I have been seen or observed since October of 2022 when the requirement went into effect.

A few others nearby do appear to look in through the window nearly each night to check or confirm that I am exposed to view naked. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement, but it's not impossible that they are. I just know that unless I am exposed naked every night for the entire night, then there's a risk of being discovered of violating the requirement. 

The requirement also extends to anywhere else I spend any night. This includes motels, hotels, in a vehicle, or at any residence where I spend any night unless there is a clear and obvious reason why it cannot occur, such as no window being present. Who might see me, how much I might be seen, or how humiliating it might be for me are not valid reasons for violating the requirement.  

The final requirement is still the subject of an ongoing poll, but the current majority result is obliged to be followed as a requirement. The poll decides whether I can masturbate to relieve arousal and being horny or turned on, or whether I have to remain aroused without relief. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

As of January 1st, 2023 the results have dictated that I cannot masturbate at all, and can only receive relief through a wet dream or some uncontrolled and unplanned ejaculation at some random time of day or night. Since then I have not masturbated or had the release of more than a drop or two of cum, since I dare not violate the requirement dictated by the anonymous voters in the poll. Their decisions and only their decisions can dictate whether or not I can masturbate, and their decisions were made with the expectation that they would be obeyed and followed. 

The requirement for not masturbating definitely has an influence on the requirement that I sleep naked while exposed through an uncovered window, since I am inevitably aroused and horny even while asleep. Erections and humping motions during sleep occur regularly rather than occasionally, and there is no hiding it concealing any of it from being viewed from outside. 

All requirements except for not masturbating are permanent, will never change, and can never be avoided by me, so they must be accepted. The poll for not masturbating will remain open until February 1st of 2024, and afterwards whatever decision has the most votes at the time will become a permanent requirement for me. 

Since most voters have so far decided that I cannot masturbate or cause an ejaculation, and that status has remained the same in spite of additional votes, I'm not only prohibited from masturbating, but I also have to face the possibility that eventually that prohibition may become permanent. 

Each day that passes while being prohibited from masturbating, the day the poll will end gets closer and closer, and unless the poll results change, the prohibition for masturbating will inevitably become permanent. There are still many months until then, but in the meantime I still cannot masturbate or intentionally do anything that will cause me to climax or cum. 

Sometimes I'm so aroused and horny that I feel like I definitely have to masturbate, and that I can't take it for another minute. So far I somehow take it though, even though I want to cum more than anything at those moments. 

I always have to remember that I am bound by and committed to obeying what a majority of others have decided in the poll, and how I would be disregarding and disrespecting their decisions and violating a requirement that I'm likely expected to obey. 

At times though, I do think about how those who decided that I cannot masturbate are free to masturbate as they please, while I never can. But I have to accept that the decisions made for me only apply to me, and those voters were only basing their decisions on what they honestly felt that I deserve. 

One thing is for sure though. I have already gone for longer by far without masturbating or cumming than I ever have before since hitting puberty. Each day that passes only extends that time. I can only wonder if or when I may have a wet dream or maybe even unintentionally climax and cum somewhere in public with others all around me. I'm afraid it will be so intense and feel so good that I'll react in a way that will reveal to everyone nearby exactly what is happening. There won't be much doubt about it if there ends up being a large wet spot on my pants, but that may be inevitable at some point as long as I cannot masturbate.

I do have to remind myself often that all of the requirements for me have been decided by voters as being what I deserve and are entirely separate from whatever I might want or prefer personally. I realize that getting what I deserve isn't assured to be easy, convenient, or even pleasurable. Being highly aroused and extremely horny for much of the time is definitely not easy, and it can preoccupy my thoughts often. It can also manifest itself in ways that I can barely avoid or not avoid at all.

One of those ways is at night while in bed and exposed naked to a wide outside area and to many potential others. Even though I feel extremely exposed at the time, because I am extremely exposed at the time, my arousal can now cause me to make humping or thrusting motions even while I'm still awake. I get so desperately aroused that I can't really help doing it in spite of the fact that anyone could be watching me at that very moment. Physically it feels so good and I'm so aroused that I can't make myself stop doing it even though I know I'm only adding to my exposure and providing an increased public display to anyone who might be seeing me through the window. 

I know it will be even more embarrassing for me when I inevitably end up seeing or encountering the same nearby others during the day who saw me exposed and displayed during the night. They can and are already seeing me completely naked and exposed in bed every night, and due to my inability to prevent my displays of arousal, they can now see those displays too. 

While I'm providing those displays, more than once I actually said out loud "Stop doing this", but it's as if my arousal and my desperately hard penis are in full control of me at the time, and I keep doing it. I will then usually say "Please... Let this stop... People can see this". But I can't stop and it continues. It only ends when my muscles get tired enough to need a rest, but by then I have provided quite a long display for anyone who might be looking or watching. After it occurred several times, part of me knows that others have likely already seen it happening, so unless or until I can relieve my arousal through masturbating, and since I can't make it stop, it's just easier not to resist it and to accept that I will keep being exposed to the neighborhood while doing it and keep being seen doing it.

There are many nights when being required to just be exposed naked all night is difficult enough by itself. There are some nearby others who I would not even want to be seen by without a shirt on, but they can now and will always be able to see each and every part of my naked body every night, and all of my displays of arousal. At times it's hard to accept the fact that I've permanently lost any rights or ability for privacy for any part of my body to a large part of the neighborhood. Having the option to choose or decide if or when to be exposed naked is much different than being required to be exposed every single night from beginning to end, being required to never cover up or to dim the lights, or for the window to be uncovered. There can be a helpless feeling to it, especially when I'm certainly being seen completely naked even while I am asleep. While asleep I never even know what position I'm in when I'm seen or how I'm displayed to any viewers. I can only wonder if it was my bare ass that was presented, or if my legs were spread offering a view between them. In the longer run it hardly matters much though, since anyone looking enough would eventually have a view of every place on my naked body. 

Not being permitted to masturbate or to have relief from being very aroused and horny simply guarantees that all potential viewers of my nightly exposure will also continuously see displays of my arousal that I'm nearly helpless to prevent. 

Obviously the intent of my requirement for being exposed each night is so that I am actually seen naked freely by anyone who is able to see me, and to make sure I have no choice about who sees me or how much of me they see. Before the poll with this requirement was closed, the results were so ridiculously one-sided in favor of the requirement that it was more than clear what others decided that I deserved. It was enough that I could only accept the fact that I must deserve it for so many others to have all decided the same thing. So however difficult it is at times, I will spend every night exposed naked because it's what I deserve.

It's looking more and more like the results of the poll for whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally cum may be going the same way. As much as I dread to have to admit it, far more voters have decided that I cannot masturbate over any of the other choices in the poll. 

I periodically try to promote the poll to see if additional votes may be in favor of me being allowed to masturbate once again, but for every vote for one of the other choices, there are four votes deciding that I cannot be allowed to masturbate or intentionally cum. April 1st of 2023 will mark the 90th day for me not being permitted to masturbate and the 90th day since I have masturbated or had an ejaculation. The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K is due to remain open until February of 2024, but as one contact described it, the decision has likely already been made.

Obviously I would like to eventually receive permission in the poll to masturbate and cum once again, but I know the decisions made by voters must be respected and obeyed by me. Currently many more voters have decided that I deserve to not be permitted to masturbate or cause myself to cum. They decided that there can be no relief from arousal and being horny or turned on for me. I know each voter decides what they do for a reason, and they have every right to expect their decisions to be obeyed.  

It's not possible for me to assess what I deserve, and only others can decide that. I used to masturbate at least three times per day, and much more on some days. I can only wonder of I abused the ability to masturbate until I ejaculated, and if that abuse is now being paid for by me. 

If I do end up being permanently prohibited from masturbating, I will of course respect and obey that requirement and the voters who decided it. I will know that I almost certainly brought it upon myself, and that what voters decided was actually what I deserve regardless of how I might feel about it personally.

Please help to decide what I deserve concerning masturbating by voting in the poll.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

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I can't effectively provide any photographic proof that I am obeying the requirement to currently not masturbate or intentionally cum, but I can attest to the fact that I am obeying it to the letter, as difficult as it is. I obey it because from the start I was committed to obeying whatever was decided through a majority in the poll results. Also because the decisions made by voters must be respected and abided by, no matter what is decided. As mentioned already, it's about what I deserve and not about what I might want or prefer. 

Some proof can be shown that I am obeying the now permanent requirement that I am exposed naked through a window while in bed or asleep. Showing proof that one specific requirement is being obeyed still may not prove the requirement for not masturbating is also being obeyed, but it's just about the best that can be done.

Photos showing how I spend nights and the window I'm exposed through:

 

In the GIF below, someone nearby can be seen entering the passenger side of a vehicle before the vehicle begins to drive off.  It's not clear if I was seen or observed by them this time, although they have surely seen me at other times. I was not aware of their presence until seeing the images later. At night when it's dark outside, even if awake I can never know when anyone might be seeing me. Sometimes it's just easier not to know I'm being seen, at least until after it's already happened. Since I know I have to be seen naked anyway, it's just best to remain asleep while others are looking at my naked body being exposed. 

The most I can do is to swear, promise, and give my word that I will always obey all permanent requirements, and obey the majority decision in the ongoing poll until the final results are known in early 2024. The decision of voters must always be respected and obeyed.. When voters decide something, then it's sure to be something I deserve.

Exposure Poll closed and results permanent. Poll deciding masturbation remains open.

 Either for better or for worse depending on someone's viewpoint, the poll for what exposure I deserve has had to be closed, this time permanently. The poll had previously been closed, but reopened to enable additional responses. Not only did the decided results not change, but the majority decisions were further reinforced and confirmed. 

After weeks of no new responses at all, the final decisions were very clear.

The final and permanent results of the closed poll are and always will be:

1- The online exposure of David Steckel must be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know him personally.

2- David Steckel must have no say say about any post of him naked made by anyone, and cannot ask or request the removal of any post.

3- David Steckel's device (PC) must be available through a remote access application for anyone who wishes to access it. The access information must remain available to other

4- When encountered in person or when present with David Steckel, he must strip naked when requested to, and he must give all clothing as a gift to whoever is present, and remain in his naked state.

5- David Steckel must sleep naked every night for the entire night, with lights on, without any covering, and with the window blind raised to enable is exposure through the window for all to see.

This must occur when sleeping or spending a night anywhere it is possible, to the furthest extent possible.

The final and permanent results of this are that my exposure must always be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know me.

I have no say so about any post of me naked made by anyone, and cannot ask for its removal.

My PC must remain available for access through a remote access app by anyone. All photos and videos on the PC must remain available for copy or transfer for free use by others. All websites frequented by me or where I have a page or membership must remain able to be visited or accessed. 

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Firefox browser is primarily used browser.

In person and when requested, I must strip naked and present my clothing as a gift to whoever is present. How or if any clothing is returned is entirely up to whoever then currently owns and possesses the clothing.

I can never spend a night while not being exposed to view naked to others beyond the room or location unless circumstances make it impossible.

The remaining poll at: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K currently has 2 votes allowing me to masturbate, and 12 votes deciding that I must not masturbate, and can only climax if it occurs without being caused by me. It ca only occur spontaneously on its own, and possibly if it is caused by someone other than me. 

While still allowed, my last climax occurred on January 1st 2023 in the early morning. I've had to remain aroused and horny often since then without being allowed to cause an ejaculation. Unless or until I receive permission through the poll to masturbate, I must continue to abstain form it entirely. This poll is to remain open until approximately February 1st of 2024. 

This poll was the obvious choice to remain open, since its closure at the current time would remove the possibility for me to ever receive permission to masturbate. Once this poll does close, the decisions of others and the results will become as permanent as the results of the now closed poll. 

In all cases, the decisions made by a majority of others is always to be obeyed will be final upon the ending of or closing of a poll. 

More common arousal and erections

 Thirteen days without any masturbation or relief from arousal and being in a state of arousal is still occurring more frequently and seems more intense. I'm beginning to doubt that there is ever going to be a point where it just can't become any more intense than it already is. 

During the first several days, becoming aroused and having an erection became much more common than it did when I could still masturbate daily or multiple times per day. Into the second week I thought it may have plateaued and might remain much the same as days passed. After even more days passed, I realized that how often I was aroused and how often I got an erection was still increasing, but just not at such a noticeable rate. Day after day I'm finding that I'm getting even more erections and often at times when I'm not even sure of what triggered it. The erections seem to be lasting longer and are more difficult to get rid of.

At work, the pants I wear are more loose fitting, so an erection may not be too apparent to anyone who might potentially notice. Any other time though, my pants do very little to conceal the long raised shape of an erection in my pants. I've recently discovered that I may have been misjudging just how noticeable an erection in my pants might actually be.

I recently had to go to a large drug store to drop off a prescription for someone, and then wait while it was filled. While standing in line I felt my penis begin to stir and within a minute or so I had an erection. The pharmacy was in a wide alcove area, so I felt somewhat concealed. Most of those in line in front of me mostly faced away from me, although I was aware that on my left there was a line of chairs against one wall where people could sit to wait as their prescriptions were being filled.

Once I dropped off the prescription, I was told that it should be ready in twenty minutes or so. I went over and sat down in one of the chairs along the wall. I still had an erection and I knew it might be visible to those who were now waiting in line. I casually looked down and my erection didn't seem too noticeable. Then I noticed that on the opposite wall, on the other side of those waiting in line, there was a large mirror that had a few small displays on either end of it. 

Nearly in the center of the mirror I saw my own reflection if me sitting in the chair, and the erection in my pants appeared prominently and quite noticeable. I shifted in my seat to see if changing the angle made a difference, but it didn't. Even closing my legs made very little difference, if any.

The more I tried to will or wish the erection away, the more full the erection appeared to be. I finally settled on just waiting for it to subside on its own and figured no one would really notice. 

It seemed to work that way for a minute or so, until I saw a guy go from looking away from me to looking right at me, and I was sure I saw a quick glance between my legs. He then returned to looking away from me. I was a little bit relieved when he did look away until it occurred to me that he was likely just looking at my reflection in the large mirror.

Only a couple minutes later I noticed a husky woman in a tank top and shorts looking my way. She had tattoos on both shoulders and one on her ankle. When I looked right at her, her gaze seemed to suddenly rise from between my legs to my face. When she saw me returning the look she just smiled slightly and began looking around. I was sure she glanced my way again a few more times, but it was too quick for me to know for sure. 

She finally made her way to the service window and a minute or so later the prescription I was waiting for was ready. I left there feeling sure that at least a couple people there knew that I had an erection under my pants. 

It was one of those now more common times when I could almost swear that my penis wants everyone to know and see that it's erect, in spite of how exposed I feel or how humiliating it is for my erection to be noticed in public. If that was true then it's my penis that is getting what it wants. 

There are more and more times while I have an erection that I have to consciously prevent myself from actively thrusting my hips. I usually notice only after one or two thrusts have occurred and then I have to cover it by pretending to stretch or shift positions for how I'm sitting or standing. I don't know if that works to fool anyone, but it's all I have and I have to at least try it.

At night in bed there's no pretending or anything else. Since I'm naked eveything is right out there and anyone who might look in through the window would see literally everything.

If I'm tired enough, I may doze off without getting much of an erection. But for some reason an erection seems to occur shortly afterwards. I'm not sure but I think it's due to that once I begin to fall asleep, my guard is let down and there is nothing preventing my arousal from showing in whatever way it can. Since sleep cannot be avoided, my nightly exposure seems to include an erection more and more. I'm waking up with an erection more often than ever, and they refuse to subside for a longer and longer time. For the most part I just try to ignore them and go back to sleep if I can. 

Not long ago I was at least able to turn onto my stomach and at least temporarily make it not so obvious to anyone who might be seeing me. This still left my bare ass exposed, so it wasn't ideal. Recently though, I can't seem to even fully doze off on my stomach before I find myself humping the bed. My bare ass is not only exposed, but it ends up being thrust upwards and then downwards over and over again, and impossible not to be observed if anyone happened to be looking in through the window at me. 

Just last night I woke up on my stomach, humping the bed non stop. It felt so good that in my half awake state I didn't care to stop it. As I enjoyed the feeling it suddenly all came back to me that I was exposed naked through the window. I opened my eyes and looked towards the window just as my final thrust was occurring. I saw a reflection of my own bare ass rise up in an arch and go down once more. It's nearly certain that this is also occurring while I'm asleep and at times I'm just not waking up to know it or to stop it. 

A newer and more recent development appears to be that I'm now thrusting my hips and my erection upwards even while I'm lying on my back. I've woken up to find myself doing this several times already over the last few nights. It's now one more way that I'm exposed and potentially seen by much of the neighborhood.

Without being able to masturbate, it's seeming more and more inevitable that more and more of the neighborhood around me is going to see all of this eventually. It's very likely that some have already seen it.

Being exposed to view naked in bed comes with it's own degree of humiliation. Being seen by anyone who simply looks towards my window increases that degree. The potential for being seen humping the bed naked, and seen much more often with an erection just seems to ensure a high degree of humiliation. I feel it at the time while exposed, and even more so when seeing or encountering those near me during the day, knowing they may or actually have seen eveything. 

A recent look at the questionnaire results so far shows that there will be no masturbating for me. This practically ensures that others will keep noticing the outline of my erections in my pants during the day, and that most or all of those nearby my window will end up seeing me naked and erect at night, and thrusting my hips naked. There's also an ever increasing risk that I may accidentally or unintentionally climax and cum in the middle of some public place, and end up just having to stand or sit there as it occurs. 

The most unusual and unexpected thing of all for me has to be that things that didn't cause me any arousal before, and things that still shouldn't really cause any arousal for me, are actually leading me to become aroused. Sometimes even highly aroused. 

One example is the questionnaire. A part of me is startled and alarmed that I cannot masturbate for at least what will surely be a long time, if ever. That does entirely depend on whether decisions in the questionnaire allow a change. I can't figure out why it is, but the realization that I cannot masturbate and won't be able to anytime soon causes me to become erect and aroused. I don't quite understand why this happens, since it's as if my mind and my penis aren't in agreement on how to react. It's as if my mind is saying "Oh no!" while my penis is enjoying it. 

https://forms.gle/c5J2e99Sx94kNi3UA 

It's just one more reason why it can seem as though my penis is in charge, is liking every bit of it, and has no desire for anything to change.

The start of another year of Exposure.

 

 The first day of the new year starts with me waking up exposed naked after being exposed for the entire night through the window. It's also the day for a different video of me to be presented through a "Watch" button on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd and through a post on my timeline. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 In response to requests that have been made, a questionnaire is available so that others can decide if any change or amendment can be made to a requirement that is already in place and in effect. Other decisions may be added and presented over time for approval or denial. The first decision is for whether I have to continue masturbating at least once each night, or whether I have to avoid masturbating at the risk and likelihood that I will become aroused in my sleep. 

Masturbating usually doesn't take too long, and if I do it soon after getting into bed I can usually fall asleep shortly afterwards. If I don't masturbate right away, I sometimes fall asleep anyway, but may wake up and masturbate then. If for some reason I don't masturbate, it can lead me to become aroused in my sleep. This presents itself through me becoming hard or erect during sleep for no apparent reason. Once in a while I will wake up periodically with an erection that began sometime while I slept.

One other way it presents itself is that I end up lying on my stomach and I will thrust my erection down on the bed or hump the bed. I've actually awakened doing this if I haven't recently masturbated. Sometimes it takes a day or two after not masturbating for these things to occur, but it gets worse the longer it's been since I masturbated and is sure to occur by the time several days have passed without me masturbating.  

I do know I wake up at times to both of these things, but I honestly don't know how often they might occur. Unless I wake up with an erection or while humping the bed, I couldn't know about it. Only anyone seeing me or watching me at the time would know about any of it, since they would see my erection or see me humping the bed naked. 

If decisions are made in the questionnaire, once there's a majority decision on any option, it will be what occurs. 

Concerning a site where I can be streamed on video while in bed and/or asleep naked, one potential sites has been found. It's rules state that adult videos are permitted as long as the subject is adult and verified (which has already been done) and no others are depicted. Looking through the other streams on there though, no nudity seems to be present. That's not the concern though. What is a concern is that in the rules it states that "No Uncut Pornography is permitted" Nothing explanatory information is offered for exactly what that means. Does it mean "uncensored"? Maybe someone can visit the site and clarify how that is best interpreted. 

The page on the site that any broadcast of me would show up on appears to be:

live.fc2.com/48524504/

A new webcam is still due to arrive a in January or a bit sooner. By then a streaming site that meets the needs and requirements would need to be ready for there to be a way for others to easily see and confirm that I am being exposed naked in bed and while asleep.  

New Questionnaire embedded below. Also available at: https://forms.gle/N6yLWBiz21BN3kx88

David Steckel... Sleeping is obviously no reason for privacy.

 

More in dropbox at:

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/58jgt1168jivmln/3pLYLl1yYE

To the extent possible under law, David Steckel has waived all copyright and related or neighboring rights to All images of "David Steckel naked". This work is published from: United States.