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Showing posts with label masturbation. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 17, 2023

Only remaining aroused from now on: Masturbation and Climaxing prohibited permanently

 I had hoped it would not come to this, or at least for it to be delayed as long as possible, but it seems that my prohibition on masturbating, climaxing, and cumming are to be permanent. 

One last flurry of posts online mentioning that possibility has apparently led to a massive influx of decisions being made within a short time. Not only has the decision for the prohibition been upheld, but it has been massively reinforced to the point where there can no longer be any doubts about it or any hope for a different result. 

My first thought was that some sort of hack may have occurred, but there is nothing to point towards such a thing. The results seem to stand on their own. 



Due to the majority decision since January 1st of 2023, the prohibition has been in effect already for nearly 140 days, so I've gotten to know something about what it is like to remain aroused and horny for so much of the time without any outlet or relief from it. 

There is commonly a feeling of sexual frustration, and it often feels as if my dick is in control of me for much of the time. When it ants to get hard, it gets hard, and when it wants to be stimulated, it gets stimulated with almost no regard for how it might or does humiliate me. So a permanent prohibition on masturbating and climaxing feels to me as if I am surrendering to my dick and that it will now always be in control of things, leaving me subject to its whims and urges. 

The prohibition means that I can never masturbate to the point of ejaculating. I can edge but never climax. Even though edging leads to pure frustration when it must be stopped short of anything more, I often cannot help doing it. Sometimes I only realize I'm doing it once it's already been engaged in. 

The prohibition also means that I have to do everything possible to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate, and ensure that I remain in a state or arousal and of being horny at all possible times. It's required as part of me getting what has been decided that I deserve.

Just as I have so far, I will undoubtedly need to keep reminding myself often "This is what I deserve and what is required." That always reminds me of the reason for enduring or accepting whatever it is that I have to endure or accept at that moment. 

Even though I cannot climax or ejaculate intentionally, or to allow it to occur knowingly, there is still the possibility of it occurring if it is directly caused by someone other than me.

If it occurs by the hand of someone else or through their actions, it's unintentional on my part and only an unavoidable reaction by me. When anyone is present in person with me, I already can never refuse to present my naked body to them upon request or demand, which includes my dick. Once presented, what they do to or with my naked body or my dick is always entirely their decision aside from anything that causes physical damage or moderate to severe injury. They would be free to cause me to climax, although it's unlikely to take much time or effort due to it not occurring at any other time or in any other way. 

But inevitably, the poll will be closed and I have to accept the decision made and state the following:

I, David Steckel hereby accept the decision of others that I am to be permanently prohibited from masturbating to the point of climaxing or ejaculating. I swear to obey this prohibition at all times, and to ensure that all possible steps are taken by me to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate willingly or knowingly unless it is initiated by or caused by the hand or actions of someone other than myself. I accept remaining in a state or arousal without the possibility of relief from it. I understand that if I am ever found to be in violation of this requirement, that I will be subject to any and all penalties deemed proper by others.  

The document image above contains my legal online signature as evidence that I understand this obligation and do not take it lightly or less than seriously. 

The final steps are for all included information, images, and documents to be released publicly in order for the prohibition to be widely know about and understood. It's not something I look forward to, and it's more than a little humiliating for me, but I can understand why it is necessary. I understand that the more other people know about the prohibition, the less opportunities there will be for me to violate the requirement and get away with it.

But I have obeyed the requirement completely for almost 140 days so far and will now always have to continue to do the same. I know I cannot do something that was decided that I don't deserve to do, and now I now for sure that so many others cannot possibly be wrong about what I deserve. Now when I feel sexual frustration from being so aroused, I know I must deserve to feel it. 

If I'm humping the bed from arousal and seen by neighbors while obeying the requirement to sleep exposed naked each night, then I know I must deserve to be seen that way. It all always comes down to accepting and obeying what I deserve, enduring it, and living with it and its results.