Exposed naked and by name is a permanent part of life for David Steckel

 

Photo details: David Steckel exposed naked through uncovered window. Neighbors and those passing by have the ability to view and observe him in bed at any time of night or morning. Due to permanent obligations, David Steckel MUST sleep completely naked, without coverings of any sort, with lights remaining on at all times, and with the nearby window uncovered at all times. If he wishes to sleep, then he MUST be exposed the entire time without exceptions.

Note: All photos shown were taken by others through remote access of a webcam that was previously available. I had no knowledge of the photos being taken or of being observed naked in bed, just as I have never have knowledge of it if or when neighbors or others might be observing me through the window as I sleep. 

 As the photos show, sleeping for me also means being exposed naked to the view anyone in the nearby neighborhood. This has been true for well over a year at the current time. It’s largely unknown to me as to how many nearby others may have observed me through the window, although several nearby others do seem to pay specific attention to the window even during the day and smirk whenever they see me outside during the day.

I do admit that I would often prefer to spend nights with some amount of assured privacy, without the possibility of random observers viewing me naked as I sleep, but an obligation has removed that right for me. There are a few others who have stated that they do periodically come to check to be sure I am following through with this obligation. It’s never known if or when they do this, but they do seem to know details at times that would be nearly impossible to know unless they had looked through the window at night very recently.

Since I know it would be discovered and known if I fail to abide by this obligation, I simply have to accept remaining exposed naked each night and every night. Since it’s quite likely that most nearby others have already observed me naked at night by this time, there is probably nothing left for me to try to conceal from them anyway. During sleep I know I still tend to hump the bed, since I sometimes wake up in the process of doing this, and I do get erections at random times during sleep, and I sometimes wake up to find myself with one. None of these things are private for me anymore, but are essentially public to some unknown degree just as my naked body is.

So each night I have to ensure that the window next to my bed is uncovered, make sure the light level in the bedroom is sufficiently bright to ensure my visibility through the window, strip completely naked if I’m now already naked, and climb into bed which places me on display for all potential and probable observers to see. The brightness of the interior of the bedroom makes it almost impossible to tell if or when anyone is observing me from outside, but once I am asleep it doesn’t matter anyway. I could be seen once or a dozen times during the night and there’s no way for me to be aware of it or to make any effort to do anything about it.

Aside from nightly exposure naked, there is still and always will be the fact that photos and videos of me naked are available for viewing in many places on the internet, very often with me being identified by my full name and sometimes with other details about me.

Additionally, photos and videos of me have been irrevocably dedicated to the public domain. This gives everyone everywhere full and free usage rights to them, and by law it prevents me from having any influence or say-so about what anyone does with them or how they are used or displayed.

A Dropbox is filled to capacity with photos and videos of me naked that are legally public property, which everyone has the right to access, view, and download from if they wish to possess or use anything that it contains.

 https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/h?rlkey=45zgt41wvnlrmoeoc7ft0a8sq&dl=0

So all of this means that anyone and everyone can and will always be able to see me naked, see me during personal moments or performing acts that would be private for others even if it leads to or causes humiliation for me. They can and will even see me identified by name in most cases, leaving no question that it’s me who they are seeing exposed naked.
Of course it also means that friends, relatives, past classmates and coworkers, and anyone even remotely acquainted with me will very likely see me exposed naked somewhere or at some time. Several of them are known to have already seen me for sure, while many more of them are extremely likely to have seen me and are choosing not to reveal it to me.
Since once someone sees me naked, it can never be undone and I cannot be unseen. My exposure naked is already permanent to a very large number of others both locally and worldwide. My ongoing exposure naked is equally as permanent, mostly due to photos and videos of me naked being widespread on the internet, and the fact that they actually belong to everyone. I cannot lawfully ask for others not to use or display photos or videos of me naked, and if or when they do further my exposure in any way, it’s not lawful for me to ask or even suggest that they limit or remove anything that depicts me naked.

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/h?rlkey=45zgt41wvnlrmoeoc7ft0a8sq&dl=0

So all of this means that anyone and everyone can and will always be able to see me naked, see me during personal moments or performing acts that would be private for others even if it leads to or causes humiliation for me. They can and will even see me identified by name in most cases, leaving no question that it’s me who they are seeing exposed naked.
Of course it also means that friends, relatives, past classmates and coworkers, and anyone even remotely acquainted with me will very likely see me exposed naked somewhere or at some time. Several of them are known to have already seen me for sure, while many more of them are extremely likely to have seen me and are choosing not to reveal it to me.
Since once someone sees me naked, it can never be undone and I cannot be unseen. My exposure naked is already permanent to a very large number of others both locally and worldwide. My ongoing exposure naked is equally as permanent, mostly due to photos and videos of me naked being widespread on the internet, and the fact that they actually belong to everyone. I cannot lawfully ask for others not to use or display photos or videos of me naked, and if or when they do further my exposure in any way, it’s not lawful for me to ask or even suggest that they limit or remove anything that depicts me naked.

Being exposed (and seen) naked while being identified by name really is a permanent part of life for me.

About all photos and videos of me naked legally being the property of everyone.

 

When every single photo and video of me naked was dedicated to the public domain, it was mainly just one more step taken for the purpose of limiting my tendency to try to keep my exposure concealed from some people while still allowing my exposure to be viewed by others.

Not much thought was really given to the full extent of of what a public domain dedication meant or what the full results might be. It was just one more thing to do at the time. Several times during the process of dedication it was stated that once the dedication occurred, that by law it could never be revoked or undone. That fact seemed trivial at the time, but is now a reality that cannot be ignored or trivialized.

The simple fact is that every single person has the full legal right to view, to copy and download, to post or display, and to share any or all photos and videos of me naked. The photos and videos are photos and videos of me, but they are not mine in any way anymore. I have to accept that not just as a statement, but also as being a real and true legal fact.

One thing that's also a fact, and one that was never considered beforehand, is that if I would ever try to limit anyone's ability to use or view any photos or videos of me naked, it could be considered to be a copyright infringement or an infringement on the rights of the user.

In other words, it is actually not legal for me or for anyone else to try to limit or restrict the free use of the photos and videos by anyone, for any reason.

 Definition: "The term “public domain” refers to creative materials that are not protected by intellectual property laws such as copyright, trademark, or patent laws. The public owns these works, not an individual author or artist. Anyone can use a public domain work without obtaining permission, but no one can ever own it."

The legal answer to the question of "Can anyone ever be refused the right to full, free use of public domain materials?" is:

No. Public domain material is “free” as in “free speech,” not “free” as in “free beer” — because it is unprotected by intellectual property rights, it is free of centralized control as a legal matter, and you can use it without having to get permission.

So in effect and in reality, the public literally owns every photo and video of me naked, and what they choose to do with them is entirely for them to decide. I can still use them, not because they are mine, but only because I have the same usage rights for them as everyone else in the world does. I can never make any claims of ownership or of having additional rights for the photos and videos without it being an attempt at copyright fraud by me.

I have to accept the fact that everyone I know or who knows me, and everyone I will ever meet or have met are all co-owners the photos and videos of me naked. With all of them being co-owners of the photos and videos, and having full usage rights for them, all of them obviously have the full right to view the photos and videos of me naked.

I also have to accept the fact that it is not legal for me to try to prevent people who know me from viewing the photos and videos of me naked, or for me to try to limit their ability to view or have access to them. They all actually have the legal right to watch videos of me naked and masturbating, or to watch me performing naked in some way.

Some who know me have already viewed some of these things, and others surely will. Of course there is a good deal of humiliation for me as those who know me view or make use of the photos and videos of me naked, but my humiliation isn't a factor in their legal right to see and have access to everything of me naked.

Since it's unclear exactly what might be considered to be me infringing on or limiting anyone's right to have access to, view, or use the photos and videos of me naked, and since it does seem that everyone I know will either see them or have already seen them, I feel obligated to make it easier for those who know me to be able to access and view the photos and videos of me naked. It's not so much that I want to do this, but I feel that I have to do it to avoid and appearance that I'm trying to limit their right to see everything of me naked. 

 The best evidence that this is occurring can be found on my personal Facebook page at: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 Posts there and links in the intro will direct friends there to photos or videos of me naked.

Also, the Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd/ "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist" exists to better enable those who know me and others to utilize their right to access, view and use the photos and videos of me naked. This is also to avoid any appearance that there might be any attempt to restrict the rights of any others.

Some others, or more accurately a significant number of others have stated that from the moment the photos and videos of me came into existence, that I deserved for them to be seen by the world and by everyone who knows me, and for me to be able to do nothing besides to watch it happen. This was stated even long before the current situation, and still continues to occur to some degree.

Ironically or not, this is exactly the case now, even if I once thought such a thing would never or could never occur. I have no basis for stating that I don't deserve things to be as they are, and I have to admit that it's more than likely something that I do deserve or have deserved all along. But deserved or not it's how it is and how it will always be.

Knowing this, besides for knowing everyone has or will see everything of me naked, is the waiting for even more people to see everything of me naked. Especially waiting for people who know me to see everything of me.

So making sure they can see it all, or even making sure they do see it all becomes more than just not appearing to violate their right to see it all. It also becomes just having the inevitable result occur sooner or as soon as it can occur.

For me there's no avoiding the fact that most people who know me either have seen or will see me naked, masturbating, and more, so there's no real point in resisting it or trying to delay it. Most of the time it just seems better and easier in the long run for them to see everything sooner than to wait until it occurs in due course.

It's "most of the time" because it can be difficult for me to overcome the urges and in some cases the desires for certain others not to see me completely naked, masturbating, or performing some other potentially humiliating action on video. I know everything showing me naked does belong to them, and I know they do have the legal right to see it all just as everyone else does, but there can be an anxious and helpless feeling when anything is submitted publicly and openly that will definitely be seen by them, and that will direct them to seeing me exposed naked in some way.

I know that cannot be avoided though. No one's legal right to see and to have everything of me naked can ever be infringed upon no matter how I might feel about it or how humiliating it might be for me. No one can be denied full and free access to something they legally co-own.

Logically I know that the only option is to just make sure they do see and have access to everything of me naked, so that it is done and over with and no longer an issue. It's even possible if not likely that those certain others have already seen everything of me and are just keeping that fact to themselves.

The fact that everyone in the entire world owns every photo and video of me naked is probably still sinking in for me, even as I continue to learn and to process the full implications of it. The fact that I have no right to suggest how they are used, to ask for them not to be used in some way or to be removed if used, or to limit who sees them in any way is now basically a fact that I have to repeatedly remind myself about.

Possibly, and hopefully over time I will only think of them as the public property that they are, and to be carefree about who sees them. I can only imagine such a time at the moment though.

I have to remember that no post can go without a link and a qr code for the Dropbox where all photos and videos of me can be viewed or obtained, since they are the legal property of everyone.

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/h?dl=0&fbclid=IwAR20oo2WBb7nm7_L1ZPlmPVvdXzrKFcvjxu3keT_R0M0Rm__M4p1aVEzYEg&rlkey=45zgt41wvnlrmoeoc7ft0a8sq 

 

 The best evidence that this is occurring can be found on my personal Facebook page at: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 Posts there and links in the intro will direct friends there to photos or videos of me naked.

Also, the Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd/ "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist" exists to better enable those who know me and others to utilize their right to access, view and use the photos and videos of me naked. This is also to avoid any appearance that there might be any attempt to restrict the rights of any others.

Some others, or more accurately a significant number of others have stated that from the moment the photos and videos of me came into existence, that I deserved for them to be seen by the world and by everyone who knows me, and for me to be able to do nothing besides to watch it happen. This was stated even long before the current situation, and still continues to occur to some degree.

Ironically or not, this is exactly the case now, even if I once thought such a thing would never or could never occur. I have no basis for stating that I don't deserve things to be as they are, and I have to admit that it's more than likely something that I do deserve or have deserved all along. But deserved or not it's how it is and how it will always be.

Knowing this, besides for knowing everyone has or will see everything of me naked, is the waiting for even more people to see everything of me naked. Especially waiting for people who know me to see everything of me.

So making sure they can see it all, or even making sure they do see it all becomes more than just not appearing to violate their right to see it all. It also becomes just having the inevitable result occur sooner or as soon as it can occur.

For me there's no avoiding the fact that most people who know me either have seen or will see me naked, masturbating, and more, so there's no real point in resisting it or trying to delay it. Most of the time it just seems better and easier in the long run for them to see everything sooner than to wait until it occurs in due course.

It's "most of the time" because it can be difficult for me to overcome the urges and in some cases the desires for certain others not to see me completely naked, masturbating, or performing some other potentially humiliating action on video. I know everything showing me naked does belong to them, and I know they do have the legal right to see it all just as everyone else does, but there can be an anxious and helpless feeling when anything is submitted publicly and openly that will definitely be seen by them, and that will direct them to seeing me exposed naked in some way.

I know that cannot be avoided though. No one's legal right to see and to have everything of me naked can ever be infringed upon no matter how I might feel about it or how humiliating it might be for me. No one can be denied full and free access to something they legally co-own.

Logically I know that the only option is to just make sure they do see and have access to everything of me naked, so that it is done and over with and no longer an issue. It's even possible if not likely that those certain others have already seen everything of me and are just keeping that fact to themselves.

The fact that everyone in the entire world owns every photo and video of me naked is probably still sinking in for me, even as I continue to learn and to process the full implications of it. The fact that I have no right to suggest how they are used, to ask for them not to be used in some way or to be removed if used, or to limit who sees them in any way is now basically a fact that I have to repeatedly remind myself about.

Possibly, and hopefully over time I will only think of them as the public property that they are, and to be carefree about who sees them. I can only imagine such a time at the moment though.

I have to remember that no post can go without a link and a qr code for the Dropbox where all photos and videos of me can be viewed or obtained, since they are the legal property of everyone.

 https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/h?dl=0&fbclid=IwAR20oo2WBb7nm7_L1ZPlmPVvdXzrKFcvjxu3keT_R0M0Rm__M4p1aVEzYEg&rlkey=45zgt41wvnlrmoeoc7ft0a8sq 

Also, a link to the page that confirms the legal public domain copyright of all photos and videos of me (David Steckel) naked, and confirms their public ownership.

https://creativecommons.org/choose/zero/results?license-class=zero&name=David+Steckel&actor_href=&work_title=All+existing+images+and+videos+depicting+David+Steckel+naked+in+any+manner&work_jurisdiction=-&confirm=confirm&understand=confirm&lang=en_US&field1=continue&waiver-affirm=affirm

 

 

                                                         David Steckel looking down at what is public property              

 

                                                    David Steckel shown with more "public property" on display.

 

All existing Photos and Videos of David Steckel naked are Public Domain under copyright dedication CC0.

If or when anyone views any photo or video that depicts me naked in any way, it should be understood that what even though the photos and videos depict me, they are in no way owned by me. In fact it’s accurate to state that there is no single specific owner of those photos and videos, but also that everyone everywhere owns them equally.

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/wfmphkwngcoupqqgcu3gs/h?dl=0&fbclid=IwAR0KNMp0OUwu-rM8p4ENyabbw9adKj-j33KzdAVybyJ-ueaNX_7oPe1tByQ&rlkey=vlsxkdsydbclkpnegdz9xhobs

https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:David_Steckel.jpg 

That’s due to the fact that every single photo, video, and GIF depicting me naked has been licensed under a Creative Commons Public Domain Dedication (CC0). All original rights related to those images and videos have been waived and forfeited to the fullest extent possible under copyright law. There were multiple reasons for this dedication to have occurred, with the primary reasons being to enable their free public use, and to ensure that I have no rights in relation to how they are utilized, shared, or displayed. This dedication is permanent and irreversible, and can never be legally revoked.

Under this dedication, all persons, groups, organizations, websites, and other entities have free and absolute usage rights for these images and videos without limits or restrictions of any kind, and without permissions or acknowledgements being necessary.

Photos and videos of me naked can be displayed in any possible manner, for any possible reason or purpose, in any possible location, even when I am identified by full name as part of the display. The photos and videos of me naked can be made available for further sharing or downloading, since they are in fact public property.

By law I cannot infringe on the rights of all others to utilize these photos and videos. I have no right to conceal them from anyone’s view, no right to attempt to limit anyone’s right to see them, to possess copies of them, or to share or display them in any way.

I willingly participated in the act of the photos and videos being taken and created with the knowledge that they would be seen by others, so they do exist for the specific purpose of being widely viewed. The Public Domain Dedication simple removes all limits on who can view them or how they are used. It also removes all possibility of their use or display being able to be considered as or labeled as “revenge porn”. Any such claim is nullified by the fact that every photo and video depicting me naked has a legal copyright of Public Domain.

People who know me personally may be surprised to see me completely naked in photos and videos, although some have already either seen some of them or are at least aware of their existence. But they have at least as much right to access and view photos and videos of me naked as anyone else does, if not even more right due to the simple fact that they do know me.

For a good period of time there was an attempt by me to limit, restrict, or even to prevent those who know me from discovering or viewing my online exposure even while it was freely available to others worldwide. This was obviously wrong and possibly even deceptive at times, and it can now only be corrected through my exposure being made readily available to view by anyone who knows me as well as to the rest of the world.

Any embarrassment or humiliation this might cause me is entirely irrelevant to the fact that everyone everywhere has an equal right to view me naked and to possess or freely use and depiction of me naked. The Public Domain Declaration for all photos and videos of me naked legally ensures that right to all others, regardless of who they are.

It’s true that not everyone would want to see me naked or have any curiosity about seeing me naked, but the right to see me naked must always be there for absolutely everyone.

So if you’re someone who knows me or knew me personally, I hope you will accept my apology for any attempt by me to keep or conceal my online exposure naked from you. Please take some time to view all that there is to see of me online naked.

And to absolutely everyone, please know that every photo and video of me naked in existence is legally and permanently yours to view, to share, to post or display, or to otherwise use in any way desired or possible.

https://creativecommons.org/choose/zero/results?license-class=zero&name=David+Steckel&actor_href=&work_title=All+existing+images+and+videos+depicting+David+Steckel+naked+in+any+manner&work_jurisdiction=-&confirm=confirm&understand=confirm&lang=en_US&field1=continue&waiver-affirm=affirm

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/wfmphkwngcoupqqgcu3gs/h?dl=0&fbclid=IwAR0KNMp0OUwu-rM8p4ENyabbw9adKj-j33KzdAVybyJ-ueaNX_7oPe1tByQ&rlkey=vlsxkdsydbclkpnegdz9xhobs

 

 

Recent Increase in online views of my Exposure

 While other things have been developing and occurring, it's always easy not to think much about how and where I am regularly exposed at all times and on a daily basis. Much thought is also not given to previous or older blog posts.

For a reason unknown to me, this blog https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/?zx=61def3ab1d2d994b has been receiving a large number of daily views recently. The view count does tend to fluctuate up and down over time, but increases in views tend to last for a short time, then drop again. But lately the daily view count is averaging 200 and more per day. 

All that's knowable is the daily view count, the previous days view count, and view counts for specific posts in selected periods such as the last seven days, 30 days, 60 days and all time. Nothing at all about viewers themselves can ever be known. The weekly view count is now commonly well above a thousand. 

The view count is also subdivided into which posts received which number of views, and one older post in particular is receiving a vast number of the views. I don't know why this post has suddenly become very popular, since it only shows a single video of me from nine and a half years ago. The post is: https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2013/09/blog-post.html

and the video it shows is:

 

A few other older posts are receiving a lot of views, and I know it's really none of my business what is being seen of me. It's just unexpected. 

The newer blog page at: https://blog08633.wordpress.com/ has a different way of offering statistics, but appears to get anywhere from 5 to 40+ views per day. Being so new it may not be established yet, and to get any other link than the one above, and upgrade to a paid plan is necessary. 

One other site that has a noticeable increase in views recently is the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

It's still unclear how the notifications for statistics work there. It seems that a notification is only sent when the page is viewed for the very first time by someone, but not if they return to view it additional times. After the page was first established, notifications for new views came often. Then it was only occasionally. Now it's daily and has been that way for a while. A screenshot of recent notifications:

It may have nothing to do with it, but a Facebook friend from back in high school who was invited to view the page many months ago recently visited the page, and within a day of her visit, the notifications for new views began to come regularly. It may be a coincidence, but it's at least possible that after seeing the page, she began to "spread the word" of the page and of my exposure to friends and others previous classmates. Of course if that is the case, she has every right to do as she pleases, but it's still more likely that it's all a coincidence. 

Just as with the increased blog views, it's just that it's unexpected. It does seem highly likely though, that some of the additional viewers in both cases are people who know me or at least knew me at one time or another. I've never come across or seen anyone I know or knew naked or fully exposed on the internet, so I can't speak from experience on that. But if I ever did I think I might be curious or even interested to see as much of them as there was to see. For many who know me, I happen to be the person they know or knew who they have seen, are seeing, or will see naked and fully exposed on the internet. 

In most or many cases this will be or become the defining aspect about me and what will be thought of and remembered most about me by them. Hearing or seeing my name or thinking of me will likely bring to their mind whichever picture or video of me naked that they saw and remember the most or the one they most recently saw of me.

There is no reversing that or avoiding it, so I will always be defined by my exposure and I have to be willing to accept that fact. 

Aroused and horny from no masturbation

 I hope the anonymous commenters don't mind when a comment is used in a blog post, but it often seems like they are a good reference or a good place to start.

I can't say that I am horny or aroused every second of the day, but I'm definitely a aroused and horny a whole lot more than I was or would be before I became prohibited from masturbating. 

So many more things have an erotic feel to them than ever before. Things like being stuck in traffic or having to wait in line for something are now erotic in some way for me. Those things may not cause an erection for me directly, but without me even thinking about it or being immediately aware of it, I will begin rubbing between my legs. In most cases I notice I'm doing it pretty quickly and make myself stop doing it.

In traffic while driving, the urgency to stop doing it seems lesser, so I may even continue doing it then until I do have an erection. I may even continue beyond that, but once I do have an erection now, I know that I am already not too far away from cumming.  Where edging might have lasted for minutes when I could still masturbate often, it now can only last from a few seconds to less than a minute after I have an erection and my dick is being stimulated. Now I have to stop right away because of the risk of cumming and violating that requirement. 

When I do it while waiting in line somewhere, I stop it as soon as I realize I'm doing it, even though by then I have already done it a little bit and any others around could have noticed me doing it. I usually try to mask it by acting as though I was scratching an itch or adjusting something between my legs. It's not the ideal masking, but it seems better than being seen stimulating myself. 

In public I also have to be very wary of doing it, since if I'm wearing the jeans with the large hole in front it's possible for my shirt to end up being lifted up higher. If it lifts up with the current size of the hole, it would enable anyone nearby to see into the hole. At the very least it would reveal that I had nothing on under my pants. More than likely it would enable a view of my dick, and also part of my balls now that the hole has gotten larger. 

I also stop doing it when in public because if I get an erection, especially wearing the jeans with the hole, it's really hard to hide the bulge with my shirt. An erection is now more likely than ever to stick out of the hole, so if my shirt happens to lift up when it's sticking out it would be clearly exposed to everyone within sight.

As of April 29th of 2023 I have managed to obey the requirement of not cumming for 118 days straight so far, and I don't dare violate it or disobey and disrespect what others have decided about it. 

It's still endlessly frustrating to have to stay horny and so turned on for so much of the time, but the frustration isn't just pure everyday frustration. It's not easy to explain, but it's a strange sort of frustration. It's a kind of erotic and sexual frustration that's unique and separate from just basic frustration.  

I never know how to expect it to make me feel at any given time. I get urges to do things that don't seem to make sense for the situation, and ones I know I can't act upon, but the urges do still come.

One example is something that occurs while I'm working. I paint houses and other structures for a living, and when I'm outside and up high on a ladder trying to paint something hard to reach and tedious where accuracy and neatness are required, I can suddenly get the urge to just stop and remove all of my clothes and throw them as far away as possible. I just suddenly feel like I am supposed to be up there completely naked at least until I finish the task in front of me, if not also for the rest of the day. It's not even always a matter of wanting to do it, but it's feeling as though I'm supposed to.

I don't know why that urge occurs, but it's occurred several times since I haven't been masturbating. 

Any time that my pants where my dick is or just my uncovered dick rubs up against anything, it feels stimulating and reminds me of how aroused or near to being aroused that I am. Depending on what I'm doing at the time and how involved in something that I am at the time, the rubbing and stimulation can cause an erection. In any case I can really only acknowledge my arousal and try to deal with it as best as I can, since I know there's nothing else I can do about it. 

Being so horny and aroused for so much of the day, and even at night is not all bad in spite of the sexual frustration that comes along with it. It's amazing to me how quickly and easily I get an erection now, almost but not quite like when starting puberty. Only now I know and understand a lot more about it than I did back then. My dick has become very sensitive to any stimulation compared to when I could regularly masturbate and probably overly masturbate.

Involuntarily humping the bed at night while sleeping or even occasionally voluntarily humping it never felt so good as it does now in spite of the fact that at the time I'm exposed naked while doing it and almost certainly being seen through a window at times doing it.

I don't ever seem to get angry or upset about being so aroused and horny or the fact that I can't have relief. Aside from being horny and aroused, it's mainly just the sexual frustration of knowing I have to stay that way all of the time. I can only assume the reason I don;t get upset is because so many others so far have decided that I deserve to have to stay aroused and horny. I just can't escape the fact that since that's what's mostly been decided so far, that it must be true that I deserve to have to stay aroused and horny. I can't exactly be upset about something if it's what I deserve.  

As for whatever the eventual final result is on the decisions on masturbating or intentionally being allowed to climax, I realize that others know much, much better than me about what what result I deserve, and the final majority decision is sure to be the right one, and the one I deserve. 

 

Of course the poll for deciding upon my masturbation is still open and will remain open until February 1st of 2024 for those who might wish to include their decision.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

 

 

Current status of blue jeans with holes

The hole on the front of the blue jeans no longer just grows a little larger after going through the washing machine and the dryer. Each time the hole now grows significantly larger.

I'm finding myself in a tough spot now, since I did commit to wearing them until someone actually says something negative or derogatory to me about the hole or what they see through the hole, but it's now extremely difficult to keep the hole covered in public with even the longer t-shirts that I have.

Some photos of the current size of the hole in front:

I did try shifting my dick to the opposite side of where the hole is, but my dick always shifts back to the side with the hole within a short time, especially when walking. 

Before now it was possible for my soft dick to hang down low enough for my whole dick not to be exposed, but the hole had now extended down far enough that it's almost fully exposed unless my shirt can be kept pulled down over the hole. 

If someone stood close enough to me and looked down into the hole, they would even see part of my balls along with my dick. 

My soft dick now also now flops out of the hole very easily and often, and only the bottom of my t-shirt prevents it from being exposed. Any erection I get now sticks up and out through the hole and causes an obvious raised area under my t-shirt. Even when my erection s covered by the shirt, the bulge under my shirt cannot be hidden. Anyone who would see it would basically know that I had an erection right then. 

It's now pretty humiliating to wear the jeans anywhere in public since even if my dick isn't directly exposed and can stay covered by my t-shirt,  the effort it takes to keep it covered and any visible bulges still reveal a lot.

If there hadn't been a commitment for continuing to wear them, the jeans would rarely if ever be worn in public. I'm thinking about limiting the times they are worn or wearing them less often than they have been worn up until now, but I'm not sure how much that would effect the commitment to wearing them.

 

Photogrpahed naked in bed by unknown viewer.

 Two of my permanent requirements appear to have come together recently. 

The requirement that my PC remain accessible through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps, and the requirement that I spend every night in bed or while asleep being exposed naked through a window have apparently been utilized by someone unknown.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Everything about it remained unknown to me for well over a day, and the only evidence that it occurred was found in a folder on my PC. Four photos showing me naked in bed were taken at a time when I was still asleep in bed.

The photo information shows the photos were taken between 6:00AM and 6:30AM, well before the time when I woke up.  

A webcam always remains set up and in place that when activated on my PC, will show me naked in bed at night, although it does malfunction at times and will only show a black screen, especially if not activated for many hours. On those occasions the only solution is to unplug the camera and then plug it back into the PC. On this night (morning) the camera seems to have worked just fine.

The cameras main purpose is to enable others to access it and my PC to ensure or verify that I am obeying the requirement to remain naked and exposed for the entire night, every night.

The camera can enable it to be seen that I am completely naked, that no covers are being used, that the light level is sufficient to expose me, and that the window is uncovered with the outside being visible to some degree. 

It also just enables me to be observed naked by anyone who just wishes to see me, and for photos to be taken using the camera. Photos such as those already mentioned:

Since no record or information of any kind is available or recorded when my PC is accessed, unless some page or folder is left open by whoever is accessing my PC, I never know if or when it may have occurred. Often even this isn't enough, since I often think that it was me who left something open or loaded.

The photos shown are literally the only way I was aware of any access, and I became aware only when the photos were eventually seen by me in a folder. I knew that I had nothing to do with them being taken, and also that I had been asleep in bed at the time when they were taken. 

It's unknown if the copies left on my PC were the only copies, or if they were also copied or transferred by whoever took them. It's possible that whoever took them was aware that any photo or video of me naked taken by anyone else actually belong to that person, and is entirely their property, and that I can only have a copy or use them if I was left or given a copy by them. Since a copy of them was left on my PC, it's assumed that they were left for me to have, since whoever took them could easily have deleted them even after any transfer of them occurred. 

Even though the obvious purpose for being exposed every night is so that I have no shred of privacy, and so that I am seen freely by others with no way to restrict who sees me, the photos serve to reinforce that fact. They show that someone was actually seeing me while I was being exposed for others (nearby) to freely view. As it often is, I am not aware of it occurring at the time, but it does most certainly occur.  

In the photos, there's no real sign that anyone was seeing me through the window at those moments, but I was being seen on camera by someone unknown. 

When awake and aware of being exposed or seen, it's usually possible to at least try to limit or restrict how much is seen or who is seeing the exposure. While asleep and oblivious to being seen, I remain entirely exposed with no real limits or restrictions. 

No matter how deeply I sleep or for how long I remain asleep, there's no escaping the fact that my naked body always remains fully exposed to be seen, observed, and looked at by anyone with the ability or the desire to view it. 

Additional times being naked in front of or near window.

 A recent anonymous comment received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db mentioned how I'm in front of the window naked each time I get out of bed in the morning. 

Photos or video may not show it, but I can only get out of bed on the side of the bed closest to the window. A narrow area on the other side of the bed has a few boxes and other things stored there, so there is no way to stand up onto that side of the bed. 

When I'm about to get into bed, and each time I get out of bed, it's actually necessary for me to be in front of the window. Whether day or night, anyone looking at that time would be sure to see me. 

The glare of daylight can obscure the view of the outside in photos, but in reality that's not the case.

Nearly every time I dress or undress, it occurs in front of the window, simply because that's the most open and clutter free area available. If I'm wearing clothing before getting into bed for some reason, they are removed near the window. I climb into bed near the window before spending the night exposed through the window. 

The window sill is 30 inches (76.2 centimeters) above the floor, and the top of my bed is 36 inches (99.44 centimeters) above the floor, so my bed is 6 inches (15.24 centimeters) higher than the window sill. From outside, my entire mattress with me on it can easily be seen all night long.

If I do get out of bed during the night, it places me in front of the window naked, just as it does when I get out of bed in the morning. 

After spending another whole night exposed naked through the window, it feels futile for me to bother trying to limit any further exposure. The permanent requirement that I spend the entire night exposed naked prohibits any attempt at hiding or concealing anything, so over the six months it has been in effect I have gotten into the habit of not even trying to limit my exposure all night or in the morning. 

It's endlessly humiliating to have to remain exposed to anyone nearby all night and in the morning even after daylight, so it seems quite strange to me that I am in now in the habit of being exposed almost automatically, while all the while feeling the humiliation of it all. 

A good deal of the humiliation felt is probably due to knowing that my naked body is essentially public during these times, for anyone to see, and from knowing that I have been seen and will for sure continue to be seen naked by neighbors and any other random person who looks. I guess I get as much privacy as I deserve though.

Possibly publicly exposed wearing jeans with hole

 On a recent day, I had a few things to do which required going to multiple public locations. The list of things grew from just one to several things. Due to other issues occurring at the same time, I was a bit frustrated and exasperated. 

I had worn the jeans with the holes in them for a couple of days, and I had just laid out a different pair without holes that I intended to wear when I went out. I had laid those jeans near to where the ones with the holes had been placed. When I got dressed, probably due to my frustration at the time, I picked up the wrong jeans and put them on without even noticing. 

Since I thought I was wearing jeans without holes, I just grabbed a t-shirt that wasn't very long, since I didn't think a longer one was necessary. 

I still can't believe I never looked down or felt any air or breeze between my legs, but I went out confident that I had on a pair of jeans without any holes in them.

My first stop was a gas station, since my car was low on gas. I usually pay at the pump using a credit or debit card, but this time I was using cash, which meant walking up to a window where a cashier sat behind. Since several others were in line in front of me, I had to stand in line waiting for five to six minutes. Since I was sure I had a different pair of jeans on, I made no effort at all to pull down my shirt or to conceal anything. Once I pre-paid for fuel, I went back to the pump and fueled my car.

I then went to a bank, where I didn't have to wait in a line for too long. I was still sure I was wearing jeans without holes in them.

I then went to a grocery store where I didn't use a shopping cart, since I assumed I would easily be able to carry all of the items I was there to get. As I walked through the store gathering items from different aisles, I saw a few other items that I knew I needed but hadn't thought about until I saw them. I ended up with one arm held against my chest holding multiple items, and the hand on my other arm was also holding multiple items. 

I went to the checkout area and stood in line for a few minutes, still sure I was entirely covered between my legs. The cashier smiled and conversed a bit, but in hindsight I still have no idea if it may have anything to do with what I was wearing at the time.

When I got home, I still had other things to do at home, so I unloaded the groceries as quickly as possible. A couple neighbors were close by, but I didn't spend any time interacting with them.

Once at home I took care of most of what I still had to do before finally sitting down. Only then did I realize that I all along I had been wearing the jeans with the holes in them, and also wearing a shirt that was too short to have concealed or covered the larger hole in front.

When I did look down and saw my dick through the hole, I was stunned. I couldn't believe that I had been walking around with my dick almost certainly very visible without any idea about it at all. I'm still amazed that I'd been obliviously walking around with my dick visibly displayed. What's done is done though, and what's been seen has been seen.

Some photos from recently after my likely public exposure while wearing the same clothing that was worn in public, all except for shoes.

If anyone did see, and it seems impossible that no one saw, the hole is only going to get bigger until even my longest shirt won't be enough to conceal anything. I suppose I should be glad that I was a bit frustrated while out in public, which may be why I didn't get an erection this time. If I had gotten one, I would have been sure to notice which jeans I was wearing, but by then my erection would have been sticking out right there in public and there wouldn't have been much at all that I could have done to conceal it. 

Since no one said a word about the hole or my dick this time, I can only wonder when someone might say something, or if they'll mostly just look.  If nothing negative is said, then my dick may be seen by even more people and for a lot longer than I ever expected. Even just a slight glimpse of the hole lets it be known that I do not wear any underwear at all, which is bound to cause the hole to get attention. A closer look will surely show my once private part that is more and more becoming a public part.

Must report a rule violation for signature photos in emails

 For the purpose of openness and honesty, I must admit that I violated the rule for specific photos of me to be embedded in or attached to all emails I send or reply to. 

Three photos of me are always and in all circumstances to be included in any and all emails or replies sent out by me. The three photos are:

These photos were initially to be part of an email signature that would automatically be inserted into any composed email, but Yahoo began to no longer support photos in an email signature. This meant that the photos could only be included as attachments that needed to be manually added to each email.

I entirely neglected to do this in a recent email, and rightfully the recipient was aware of this failure and shortcoming by me, and also rightfully, they pointed this out to me. 

I admit that I was entirely wrong to have neglected a rule or requirement that always applies to me under all circumstances. I know these rules and requirements exist to be complied with and followed by me, and do not come with an option for me to neglect them. 

To be honest I am ashamed that I hadn't even realized that I neglected this rule, at least until I was caught and that my neglect was pointed out. In a way I'm grateful for having been caught and called out for it, so that this violation is not repeated. It shows me that I need to pay closer attention to what is required for me.

Just for informational purposes, I have two email accounts. One is with yahoo and my address is DaveS113065@yahoo.com

The other is with Google and my address is DaveS113065@gmail.com 

There are issues for me when sending a gmail to a yahoo address, likely due to the signature photos being embedded into the message, causing the message to be blocked from sending. But between the two email accounts, a message that includes the required photos is always so far able to be sent by me. 

I know that just because there are several other requirements that I'm obliged to follow, it's no excuse for neglecting to follow any one of them. There's never any excuse for me failing to do what's required of me. 

Sometimes the length of time between sending or replying to emails can be long for me, so it's not as ingrained in me like some other daily requirements are. I clearly need to pay more attention to following requirements that need to be followed less often. If not for the attentiveness of a recipient of a reply from me, and the fact that they were aware of the requirement and pointed out my failure to fulfill the requirement, my failure in compliance may have occurred again. 

I know I should never need to be informed of a failure to comply, or to be "caught", but in this case it's probably fortunate that I was caught quickly and that I was informed about it and expected to correct it. 

So I apologize to the recipient who had to call me out on a failure of mine, and in general to everyone else for failing to abide by a requirement. I promise to pay closer attention to this requirement in particular, and to ensure that one way or another, the three photos of me are included to every single email and reply that is sent out by me, no matter how redundant or repetitive it might be, and no matter who the recipient is.