Nightly Naked Exposure: Feeling Exposed.

 

May 16th, 2023

I didn’t know where to begin to come up with some response to the anonymous comment above that was received not long ago.

Received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db

One reason for this is that I don’t really see what I might want or how I might feel about being exposed as being something that matters very much. It’s a requirement that has to be obeyed every night no matter how I feel about it on any night.

There’s no doubt at all that neighbors and others nearby do continue to see me in bed naked at different points during the nights and early mornings. Since I’m always right there and completely exposed it’s unlikely that they fail to look every time they have the opportunity. For those who look at me most often, there’s probably not a single place on my naked body that is not familiar to them.

I do know that I am occasionally or periodically viewed on webcam in bed, even though I never know by who, when it occurs, how long it occurs for, what they see, or when it might occur.

I understand that this is just one more part of the requirement for me though, so that it can always be verified and confirmed that I am always obeying the requirement to be exposed naked through a window every night, all night. I know that if anyone accessed the webcam while I’m in bed or asleep, that unless I’m completely naked, unless the room is well lit, unless there is no form of covering present or being used, and unless the blind on the window is raised enough to enable me to be seen easily from outside, that I will be caught in the act of violating the requirement.

I know there is no way around that and no loophole that can avoid any of that, so I know that I have to remain in compliance with the requirement at all times, every single night. I know this means there is a one hundred percent chance that I am seen and will be seen naked at times, and that it’s never up to me when I’m seen or who sees me.

Access being enabled to my PC and webcam is also a requirement through either the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access app, which enables verification of my nightly exposure at any time of night.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Whether my exposure is verified on webcam once a month, once a week, every other day, or even more often, I have to be exposed every night, all night simply because verification can take place at any time on any night.

All I can do is remember that fact that it was decided that this is what I deserve, and to accept it as what I deserve. It doesn’t help limit the humiliation of it that much, but at least it reminds me that the reason for the humiliation is because I deserve it.

At whatever time I go to bed at night, I know it’s the end of the part of the day where there can be any sort of privacy for my body. If I am not already naked I know the first thing that’s necessary is for me to remove every shred of clothing.

Since the blind on the window is fixed in the raised position at all times, I know there’s no need to do anything with it. Any top sheets or other possible covering have long since been removed and done away with, except for the fitted sheet over the mattress and pillow cases on the pillows. The only thing left after becoming naked is to ensure that the room is well lit.

As I do these things, I am always at least a little bit aware of how I am about to serve another night of being exposed naked and very likely be seen naked. But I know that if I want to go to bed and to sleep that night, I also have to be exposed naked the entire time.

So I climb onto the bed and try to get settled knowing that a night of exposure has now begun. I know I can be seen through the window and that I probably will be within a short time. I know I may even be being looked at naked at that very moment by someone nearby, but I know that covering up is not permissible and would be pointless anyway.

Most often I close my eyes and try to pretend that I am in a place with complete and total privacy, even though I know that’s not true at all. Depending on how tired I am that night, I either manage to fall asleep pretty quickly or within a short time. Falling asleep does not change a thing about my exposure other than it stop s me from dwelling on the fact and from there being any possibility of me realizing it when I am being seen or looked at naked.

I tend to think of it as me drifting off to someplace else while leaving my naked body in place for anyone to see or look at.

I’ve learned to try not to look outside through the window too much during the night, since it’s much easier to be less aware of when there’s a good chance that I’m being seen naked at the time.

Some nights, most often Friday or Saturday nights, there can be lots of apparent activity within sight of the window. Mostly lots of headlights from cars coming, going, parking, or loading up and pulling away. Also lights being carried by people walking at night, although only a few walkers bother to carry a light. On nights like that I know it almost impossible for me not to be seen, and more likely for one or more people to stop and look towards my window for a while.

If I’m in bed but still awake I try my best not to know any of that is going on outside. If I do ever realize that I am almost certainly being watched at the time, it can be really hard to just stay in place while it happens even though that’s what I am supposed to do and expected to do. Sometimes I actually have to force myself to stay where I am, and if I’m watched for too long I’ve ended up kind of whining or moaning a little bit.

I don’t mean to make the sounds, but I think it’s because I know that my naked body is being looked at intently by people I know nothing about and I just have to wait for them to finish looking. Sometimes it feels as if they think they are supposed to look at me naked, but I always know that because of the requirement for me to be there and be exposed, that in some way they really are supposed to look at me naked.

Things like that can feel overwhelming at times, so even though anyone who looks is free to look and maybe even supposed to look, I find it much easier if I’m aware of it as rarely as possible. That way I only know that it is happening, but I don’t know about it at that very moment.

This post was made over several days, since it took some time for me to think about things I feel and think about before and during my nightly exposure and to try putting those things into words.

While writing it, another anonymous comment was received. This one seems to be from someone who has seen me in the process of being exposed at night more than one time.

I suppose I really am glad that I don’t spend most of my time humping the bed or with my ass raised up for no apparent reason but for anyone to see.

I did not know what position I slept in the most, but it’s obvious that whichever part of me faces the window the most is what most others nearby have already seen or are continuously seeing.

I can only wonder how familiar with my naked body that some nearby others might be by now, or how familiar with it they might become over more time. It’s an endless source of humiliation to have to see and encounter those who have repeatedly seen me naked in bed, even if I don’t know them. Every encounter starts with me wondering if this person or these people have seen me exposed naked at night. I wouldn’t really know if they have seen me, but they would certainly know that they have.

While I’m wondering, those who have seen me are probably already picturing me as they saw me rather than how I appear at that moment. In those cases I can probably never not be naked to them, and any clothes I’m wearing at that time probably make no difference to them. They would already have seen everything any clothing was currently covering on me.

I also occasionally wonder what they might say to each other, since those who have seen me and who can see me naked at night tend to encounter each other very often or even know each other. I usually stop short of wondering if they ever talk about some part of my naked body that would be private for anyone else but is essentially public for me.

I think at best I am “The Naked guy in the window all night” by now to at least some of them.

I can almost feel my naked body becoming less and less private over time, and becoming more and more public each night.

Photographed naked in bed by unknown viewer.

 Two of my permanent requirements appear to have come together recently. 

The requirement that my PC remain accessible through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps, and the requirement that I spend every night in bed or while asleep being exposed naked through a window have apparently been utilized by someone unknown.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Everything about it remained unknown to me for well over a day, and the only evidence that it occurred was found in a folder on my PC. Four photos showing me naked in bed were taken at a time when I was still asleep in bed.

The photo information shows the photos were taken between 6:00AM and 6:30AM, well before the time when I woke up.  

A webcam always remains set up and in place that when activated on my PC, will show me naked in bed at night, although it does malfunction at times and will only show a black screen, especially if not activated for many hours. On those occasions the only solution is to unplug the camera and then plug it back into the PC. On this night (morning) the camera seems to have worked just fine.

The cameras main purpose is to enable others to access it and my PC to ensure or verify that I am obeying the requirement to remain naked and exposed for the entire night, every night.

The camera can enable it to be seen that I am completely naked, that no covers are being used, that the light level is sufficient to expose me, and that the window is uncovered with the outside being visible to some degree. 

It also just enables me to be observed naked by anyone who just wishes to see me, and for photos to be taken using the camera. Photos such as those already mentioned:

Since no record or information of any kind is available or recorded when my PC is accessed, unless some page or folder is left open by whoever is accessing my PC, I never know if or when it may have occurred. Often even this isn't enough, since I often think that it was me who left something open or loaded.

The photos shown are literally the only way I was aware of any access, and I became aware only when the photos were eventually seen by me in a folder. I knew that I had nothing to do with them being taken, and also that I had been asleep in bed at the time when they were taken. 

It's unknown if the copies left on my PC were the only copies, or if they were also copied or transferred by whoever took them. It's possible that whoever took them was aware that any photo or video of me naked taken by anyone else actually belong to that person, and is entirely their property, and that I can only have a copy or use them if I was left or given a copy by them. Since a copy of them was left on my PC, it's assumed that they were left for me to have, since whoever took them could easily have deleted them even after any transfer of them occurred. 

Even though the obvious purpose for being exposed every night is so that I have no shred of privacy, and so that I am seen freely by others with no way to restrict who sees me, the photos serve to reinforce that fact. They show that someone was actually seeing me while I was being exposed for others (nearby) to freely view. As it often is, I am not aware of it occurring at the time, but it does most certainly occur.  

In the photos, there's no real sign that anyone was seeing me through the window at those moments, but I was being seen on camera by someone unknown. 

When awake and aware of being exposed or seen, it's usually possible to at least try to limit or restrict how much is seen or who is seeing the exposure. While asleep and oblivious to being seen, I remain entirely exposed with no real limits or restrictions. 

No matter how deeply I sleep or for how long I remain asleep, there's no escaping the fact that my naked body always remains fully exposed to be seen, observed, and looked at by anyone with the ability or the desire to view it. 

Overall Exposure update

Part one: Nightly Exposure Naked: 

At times days can pass without anything too noteworthy occurring in relation to my exposure, at least as far as I know. 

That's especially the case for the requirement that I sleep and spend every night exposed naked through a window. Some nights, especially when I'm very tired, I go to bed and fall asleep quickly, and I only wake up when the alarm goes off in the morning. Currently that time is 7:30AM and it's already daylight out. although at other times I have to wake up a bit earlier.

Of course by sleeping straight through the night, I would have no way of knowing about being seen or observed in bed naked whether it was by one or even ten people. On those nights I just know that I went to be naked and exposed, and then I woke up naked and exposed.

I do know that from about 6:30 AM onward, that several nearby others who would have a direct view of my bed through the window begin to come outside and/or go to their vehicles to go wherever they need to go. Others come out to walk or to walk their dogs at about that same time or just after. On mornings when I've been awake at those times, I've noticed these things, so I assume they occur the same way at the same time each day whether I am awake or not. 

So on nights when I sleep straight through until the alarm goes off, it's easily possible that I am being looked at naked by one or more of those nearby people but it's just that I'm oblivious to it. 

Since the nights and the early mornings have been warmer recently, it's been possible for the window sash to remain open all night to have fresh air all night. This has always been done except for when the nights get too cool for part of the year. 

It doesn't make much of a difference for how visible I might be whether the sash is up or not while in bed naked, but it seems possible that it might make me easier to notice somehow.

I only consider this due to having awakened at around 6:45AM on a recent morning. I recall waking up in the usual way, where at first I'm only aware that I'm in bed. I'm not immediately conscious of the fact that I'm completely naked, uncovered, brightly lit up with lights, and fully exposed through the window. These facts usually sink in slowly as I wake up further. What I was aware of though, was the fact that I was lying on my back and that I had a full erection that was pointing up towards my belly button. 

I don't know what to call it, but several times I did the thing that can make an erection move or bounce without touching it, like a kind of drawing in with some muscles or some ability that only happens with an erection. I was enjoying the feeling of doing that and feeling my erection lift up and then fall back against my stomach.

While I was doing this, I continued to wake up further, and I became aware that I was exposed naked. Still, I didn't really give it a lot of thought, since that happens every morning as part of waking up. I still hadn't opened my eyes, and I just kept enjoying making my erection move up and down without touching it. I especially enjoy doing that since I cannot masturbate and I am pretty aroused every morning when I wake up. 

After a bit of lying there making my erection move, I did happen to open my eyes to see that it was still fairly dark outside, but that it had begun to get light outside enough for me to be able to see some detail outside. Also, with the sash open, there isn't the glare from the inside lights reflecting off of the window glass, and my own naked reflection is not being reflected back to me.

I noticed that the lights of a vehicle were on of someone who lives nearby. Usually they pull away quickly after they get into their vehicle, but this time they just sat there. I laid there, still with an erection that wasn't about to go away, and waited. I knew there was nothing I could do except to wait. I knew if they were looking at me then getting up and out of bed would expose me even more, since I can only get out of bed on the side that places me directly in front of the window naked. 

I waited, and still they just sat in their vehicle with the lights on for minute after minute. If they were looking at me, I knew they had an excellent view of me, and I couldn't think of any other reason why they were just sitting there. I could only assume they had already seen my erection bouncing up and down and that they were either waiting to see it happen more, or were just looking at me lying there completely naked with an erection. 

I finally closed my eyes so I wouldn't see that I was probably being looked at naked, but after a minute or two I wanted to know if they had driven away yet. I finally just peeked a little again and I couldn't believe that they were still sitting there. It was just a bit lighter outside by them and it was enough for me to notice that two people were standing not far beyond the vehicle who also appeared to be standing side by side looking directly at me.

Now I didn't dare move, since I didn't want to give away the fact that I was awake, but to say I felt extremely exposed is an understatement. I moaned a little bit, knowing that I must be being looked at naked and I couldn't do anything except to let them look. I thought that if I did move at all, they would be aware that I knew they were seeing me.

 I willed my erection to go down, but it was as if it wanted to be noticed and seen, since it stayed as hard as it had been. For the next couple of minutes my requirement to be exposed resulted in my naked body most likely resulted in my naked body being viewed publicly right from my bed.

The two standing observers finally left first, and the vehicle drove off less than a minute later. I tried to convince myself that it was all a coincidence, and that none of those people had really been looking at me naked, but I knew that wasn't true. I knew they had probably been aware of my nightly naked exposure, had probably observed me before, and were probably looking at me for entertainment. It can't be ruled out that they may even have photos of me naked in bed that were taken at some point. They also know that I am there to be seen naked every night and morning. 

That next night as I got into bed naked, I just knew that before I got out of bed the next morning, that I was going to be seen and looked at naked for sure. 

That night I was very tired from an extra long and difficult day of work, and as much as I tried to stay up until my usual bedtime of 11:00 PM or so, I couldn't stay awake. I ended up getting into bed just after 10:00 PM. I knew that meant more people would still be out and about who might see me naked, but aside from being so tired, I knew that being seen naked was inevitable and I just resigned myself to it. Since I fell asleep quickly, I don't know how much my exposure may have been observed early in the night.

I did wake up at one point without knowing what time it was, although it was still dark outside. I was lying on my side with me bare butt facing the window, and my butt was basically arched outwards. My face was pointed away from the window. As usual it took me a moment to recall that I was currently exposed naked. Once I remembered this I did wonder if anyone might be looking at me, but I knew there was no point in thinking about it. I didn't even bother to move. I was able to fall asleep again right away.

When I woke up again it was daylight, but just a little before the alarm was due to go off. I was lying on my back trying to wake up the rest of the way and waiting to see if my erection would go down when I noticed someone standing outside a short distance away from my window. I saw that it was someone who lived very close to me. This person can see me in bed right from their window and patio door, but mostly only from my waist up. I knew they could see me fully from parts of their yard, but I was never sure they had seen me enough to know that I was naked. This time they had walked to a spot that wasn't on their property, but where they could see me fully through the window. They stood there looking right towards me for a nearly two minutes without looking away once. I knew for sure they were looking at me naked, and it was one of the most obvious times I've been looked at so far, at least where I was aware of it. 

I can only wonder whether I have been looked at like that all along and people are just getting bolder or less inhibited at looking at me. It's possible that I just never noticed it or saw it happen before because I was either asleep or not paying attention to anything outside. Since I'm exposed naked every night and until morning, some people clearly know they can see me, and after so long they may just not care how obvious it is that they are looking at me. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement for me to be exposed naked, or that I can't cover up or hide anything, but it's almost as if they know all of that. 

I always know that getting into bed naked is so that I am exposed, but it now seems that it also means being seen, looked at, or watched naked on a regular basis. 

While the poll with this requirement was still open, and once decision that I be required to sleep naked and exposed every night had a large majority of votes, a few people online mentioned that I had to be exposed but also seen, I didn't envision being seen or watched  the way that's happening now. I figured I might receive a few glances at most and maybe eventually someone might take a longer look. Now some people seem to be going out of their way just to look at me naked in bed. 

Just knowing people can see me naked already made me feel exposed, but now knowing that people will see me naked has greatly increased that feeling of exposure. Especially since I know it doesn't change anything. I still have to sleep exposed naked even though it means being seen for sure, and over and over again. The poll results made it clear that I deserve this, so once again I just have to accept what I deserve. 

Anyone using the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access apps can view me naked in bed by accessing my PC between 11:00 PM and 7:30 AM Eastern Time, either to verify that I am being exposed through the window naked while uncovered  and with lights on, or just because they want to. The camera is always set up to show me naked while in bed all night long, every night.

 Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Photos or video can be taken with the camera, and transferred using that option on either app. Any photos or video taken will be sent to the "Camera Roll" folder. An shortcut icon can be found on my desktop directly above the light blue camera icon at the bottom of the screen. 

An icon for the Cam4 website can be found directly beside the camera icon. This icon will enable me to be broadcast naked in bed on the Cam4 site without me being aware of it, but after a few minutes of inactivity on the site, a box will appear that needs to be clicked on to prevent the broadcast from ending. 

This is why I am not broadcast naked every night, all night, since once in bed the box cannot be clicked on. But as long as the box is repeatedly clicked on every few minutes, any broadcast would continue. Of course both the broadcast and the webcam cannot be active at the same time. It has to be either one or the other, although any viewer could still see me as I was broadcast naked. 

Part Two: A Hole in Jeans.

Just an update and some clarification on wearing a pair of jeans with a (now) large hole near the zipper.

I currently have three pairs of blue jeans, all having been bought at the same time. One of them seems weaker than the others, since a hole developed just to the left of the zipper in front. None of the other jeans have any holes in them yet. This one pair not only has a hole next to the zipper, but there is also a hole above the left rear pocket, on the side closest to the center seam going over the butt area. This hole is still only large enough to fit a thumb through, but since I don't wear underwear, it does make a small part of my bare butt cheek visible. Since the large hole in front tends to be the one I try to stay aware of most of the time, I almost always forget about the rear hole. Anyone seeing it would immediately know that I had no underwear on, and they would know they were seeing a small area of my butt cheek, but I tend to focus on keeping my dick from flopping out or popping out of the in the front. When soft, my dick can now flop out of the hole quite easily. When hard, my dick can actually pop out through the hole, especially when I'm getting an erection and my dick is getting hard. It can pop out while my dick is only partly erect, and unless I get it back into the hole right away before my erection is full, it can be very difficult to get it to go back into the hole, since quite a bit of my erection will extend above the hole. 

If I crouch down, lean forward, and use my hands, I can get an erection back into the hole. I can also unbutton and unzip my pants and shove my erection back into the hole. But if I'm out in public anywhere, I can't really do those things. I can sometimes get my soft dick back inside of the hole without it being too obvious, but I can't really get an erection to go back inside the same way. In that case about all I can do is leave my erection sticking out and try to cover it with by pulling down the bottom of my shirt as bast as I can. I also have to keep my shirt bottom slightly away from my body, or else the outline and the bulge of my erection will show. 

Since I'm currently prohibited from masturbating, I'm much more likely to get erections that last for a while and that come at times that might be inconvenient or even humiliating. The jeans with the hole would be retired but I've committed to continue to wear them until someone sees enough of something that they make some sort of negative comment about them. 

I normally wear any one pair of jeans for three to four days, depending on whether they get dirty or have something spilled on them. I wear work jeans all day, so I only wear my personal jeans in the evening after a shower, and on days off from work. So the jeans with the hole(s) in them tend to be worn for three of four days out of every ten or so days, or about three times per month for a total of about nine or ten days. 

Here are some recent photos of me wearing the jeans with the hole in front showing:

I know that by keeping my dick covered with my shirt in public, I'm just ensuring that I have to keep wearing the jeans for longer, and until the hole gets even bigger, but it's difficult to just let my dick willingly stick out and be seen publicly. So I'll continue to try to keep it covered for as long as I can.

It's basically inevitable that my dick will be seen in public at some point. I don't think it has been seen yet, but I can't be sure. No one has said anything one way or another yet though. But even if my dick is seen and no comment is made or no negative comment is made, it means my dick still has to be seen again. So one way or another my dick is going to be seen in public at least once. I just have no idea who will see it or where it will occur. 

Add-On:

After this post was published, a couple of photos were taken of the hole in the jeans by the rear pocket. The hole is still quite small, but is always more visible to others since there is no attempt to cover it up. It can instantly reveal that I have no underwear on, and it is less often covered by any shirt I'm wearing.

Potential for a webcam broadcast of my nightly exposure naked -updated

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Exposure Poll closed and results permanent. Poll deciding masturbation remains open.

 Either for better or for worse depending on someone's viewpoint, the poll for what exposure I deserve has had to be closed, this time permanently. The poll had previously been closed, but reopened to enable additional responses. Not only did the decided results not change, but the majority decisions were further reinforced and confirmed. 

After weeks of no new responses at all, the final decisions were very clear.

The final and permanent results of the closed poll are and always will be:

1- The online exposure of David Steckel must be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know him personally.

2- David Steckel must have no say say about any post of him naked made by anyone, and cannot ask or request the removal of any post.

3- David Steckel's device (PC) must be available through a remote access application for anyone who wishes to access it. The access information must remain available to other

4- When encountered in person or when present with David Steckel, he must strip naked when requested to, and he must give all clothing as a gift to whoever is present, and remain in his naked state.

5- David Steckel must sleep naked every night for the entire night, with lights on, without any covering, and with the window blind raised to enable is exposure through the window for all to see.

This must occur when sleeping or spending a night anywhere it is possible, to the furthest extent possible.

The final and permanent results of this are that my exposure must always be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know me.

I have no say so about any post of me naked made by anyone, and cannot ask for its removal.

My PC must remain available for access through a remote access app by anyone. All photos and videos on the PC must remain available for copy or transfer for free use by others. All websites frequented by me or where I have a page or membership must remain able to be visited or accessed. 

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Firefox browser is primarily used browser.

In person and when requested, I must strip naked and present my clothing as a gift to whoever is present. How or if any clothing is returned is entirely up to whoever then currently owns and possesses the clothing.

I can never spend a night while not being exposed to view naked to others beyond the room or location unless circumstances make it impossible.

The remaining poll at: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K currently has 2 votes allowing me to masturbate, and 12 votes deciding that I must not masturbate, and can only climax if it occurs without being caused by me. It ca only occur spontaneously on its own, and possibly if it is caused by someone other than me. 

While still allowed, my last climax occurred on January 1st 2023 in the early morning. I've had to remain aroused and horny often since then without being allowed to cause an ejaculation. Unless or until I receive permission through the poll to masturbate, I must continue to abstain form it entirely. This poll is to remain open until approximately February 1st of 2024. 

This poll was the obvious choice to remain open, since its closure at the current time would remove the possibility for me to ever receive permission to masturbate. Once this poll does close, the decisions of others and the results will become as permanent as the results of the now closed poll. 

In all cases, the decisions made by a majority of others is always to be obeyed will be final upon the ending of or closing of a poll. 

Exposure update

 It's been eight days since the last update, so another update is about due.

The most noteworthy subject is probably that the three week point has been passed since I was last able to masturbate. 

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For a short time I believed some point had been passed where being repeatedly aroused at random times of the day and night has eased some, since even erections occurred a bit less often.

I don't know why there was some reprieve for me for a few days, just as I don't know why I've once again begun to be aroused without an apparent reason or get erections at random times.

The short reprieve seems to have caused me to lower my guard a bit. 

I was recently driving n a multi lane highway with lots of traffic lights and turning lanes, and doing it early in the morning when lots of other traffic was present. 

I had a partial erection for some of the drive, but it soon became a full erection that was clearly outlined in my pants. Since I don't wear underwear, the erection extended several inches down the inner part of my left leg. As I drove along there was traffic in all three lanes that remained built up at a traffic signal even after the light had turned green. I ended up sitting still quite a bit. 

I first began rubbing my pants over top of my erection in an absent minded way, but because it felt so good I became aware of doing it. I was so aroused though, and because I saw no vehicles near me that were tall enough for anyone to see between my legs, I kept rubbing slowly and carefully. I wanted the feeling but I knew that climaxing was still not permitted no matter how much I might want it.

I pulled into a lane on the left and waited for the signal ahead to change to allow crossing of the three oncoming lanes of traffic. While I sat there, the three lanes of traffic on my right kept going through a green traffic signal. 

I was so caught up in my rubbing that I never paid attention to how the traffic on my right had stopped due to the signal in front of them turning red. 

I was suddenly aware of a high, white pickup truck just beside me, and I saw a guy behind the wheel watching me rub the raised area of fabric covering my erection, The truck windows had a tint to them, so seeing beyond the driver was difficult. I did think I saw another person in the passenger seat trying to lean over to look my way. There was definitely someone else moving around over there, but the tint on the glass made it hard to tell what they were doing or looking at.

I stopped my rubbing, and a second or so later the guy looked right at me with just a trace of a smirk on his face. I knew that he knew what I'd been doing, and he knew that I knew I'd bee seen by him doing it. Fortunately for me the signal for turning changed to green and I was able to make my turn. I knew I had to be more careful and to restrain my urges and impulses while in public.

I did begin to rub my erection a couple more times after that, but as soon as I realized I was doing it I forced myself to stop.

Sometimes in private I will let myself rub for a while, since it feels good. It's just a tease though, and the price for that is to be fully stimulated and close to a climax, but having to stop without any release or relief.

Even before I got out of bed that morning, I had been drifting in and out of sleep for a while before, and I was aware that I was maintaining a full erection. At the time it was still mostly dark out and soon began to get s bit light outside. I recall looking towards the uncovered window during one of these moments and noticed that some cars were moving about with their headlights on. I knew this meant that people were heading to their cars and going to wherever they needed to go, and that they might be seeing me or looking my way as they did this.

I knew there was nothing preventing them from seeing me naked, and I was still too groggy and half asleep to want to give it much thought. I did wish my erection would go away so that they wouldn't see me naked and with a full erection, but the erection was unrelenting. I knew turning onto my front would be unbearable and way too stimulating, so all there was to do is lie there naked, illuminated, and with a full erection. By reminding myself that there was no point in thinking about any of that right now, I managed to doze off again for a while.

I don't think there's any way to actually get used to being completely exposed naked to the view of anyone nearby who has even the slightest desire to look. The most that seems possible is to adjust as much as possible to it. This involves repeatedly reminding myself that not one single thing is private for me while in bed. I still try to deceive myself at times by telling myself that no one is seeing me or looking, but I know that's not really possible or realistic. 

I don't know it, but I feel that by now after more than sixty nights and well over 400 hours of being exposed, that some of those nearby have come to expect to see me exposed during the night whenever they happen to look my way. I don't believe that any of them would react to it if I wasn't exposed when they expected me to be, other than wondering why I wasn't exposed, but I do believe that it would be noticed by some. Those seeing me for their first time would still probably just look without any real expectations.

My nightly erections and my humping of the bed still continue unabated, and if anything they occur more than ever. A dozen or so times per week I awaken during the night to find myself on my front and humping the bed with an erection. The only option then is to roll over to try to limit the stimulation of my erection, which then exposes my erection to additional possible view. Much or even all of this must be due to having not masturbated or climaxed for more then three weeks and counting.

It does appear that my arousal and erections will continue well into the foreseeable future, since the results of the questionnaire remain largely unchanged. 

https://forms.gle/cx6YQK5zF6fuNk3n8 

A few times I wanted to climax so much that I would momentarily consider just masturbating even without permission to do it, but each time I have to dismiss that thought. I know that explaining why I did it or worse, lying about it would never be successful over the long term. I have no doubt at all that at some point it would be discovered due to an inconsistency by me or for some other reason. 

With the current results by far deciding that I cannot masturbate, I simply have to accept that there is no masturbating unless or until the results and the majority decision changes.

A graph of the current questionnaire results:

 

Seen exposed naked during night in bed

 I know there are some who are curious about whether or not I've been seen while exposed naked in bed at night, and some might even want me to be seen. This might satisfy both of those things.

During a recent night of sleeping naked and exposed in bed, I woke up by chance near midnight. Since I was groggy and not fully awake, I laid there for a moment looking at my TV that was still on. I often fall asleep watching it. Not long after I saw some light from the corner of my eye. Since it's been warm enough, the sash on my window is up for air and ventilation, so the usual glare and reflection from the glass wasn't present.

I noticed that a person was standing beside a vehicle that is often parked nearby. The drivers side of the vehicle was facing me and the person was standing right outside of the drivers door. I noticed that someone else was standing on the far side of the vehicle, and only their shoulders and head were visible above the roof. They appeared to be talking to each other, and even though they were mostly silhouettes, there was just enough light for me to see that they were looking my way. Since the only thing to look at in my direction was me, I knew they must be looking at me. At the time I was lying on my back naked and they were in an ideal spot to see me. The light I'd seen was the headlights and the tail lights of the vehicle they stood next to.

I had the sudden urge to do something, but I didn't know what exactly. There were no sheets or covers on or near my bed, the room was lit up and even if I could turn off the lights, reaching the switch would mean standing up naked almost directly in front of the window, and doing that would expose me even more, Closing the blind was even less possible, since not only would that require standing naked right in the window, but the electrical zip-ties keeping the blind open would need to be cut with something sharp. 

Those things went through my mind, but I knew there was nothing I could do except to stay as I was while they looked at me naked. I hoped they would just look for a short time and then go about their business, but they just kept standing there. I knew they were talking to each other but I couldn't hear them. They were roughly 50 feet from my window. (Just over 15 meters). 

I tried my best to act like I was oblivious to their presence while I waited for them to finish looking at me. Minute after minute they just stood there talking and looking at me. I could see just enough from the corner of my eye to tell that they just kept looking. All I could do is stay still while they looked. I could tell that the nearest one to me was a slightly heavy-set female, but I couldn't see the other one clear enough to tell anything about them other than they were tall enough to see over the roof of the vehicle, which was an SUV. 

Even knowing that time could feel like it passed slowly while being looked at naked, I knew at least four minutes had to have passed before I saw another small light. This turned out to be the interior dome light of the vehicle as they apparently got inside. After nearly another minute the vehicle backed out from the parking spot slowly. Once it was out, it turned towards me and the headlights shined into my window. 

The vehicle stayed like that for thirty seconds or so before completing its turn and moving off. I was relieved that it had gone, but I knew for absolute certainty that both people had not only seen me naked, but had stood there looking for a while. What I don't know is how long they might have been looking at me before I woke up and noticed them. 

After a few minutes of contemplating about how I'd just been seen naked by people outside who I didn't know, I managed to relax enough to fall asleep again. Later, sometime in the early a.m.hours, I woke up again and noticed that the vehicle was back in its parking space. It had returned sometime while I was asleep. There's almost no doubt that I was looked at or watched again, but I just didn't know for how long or what positions I was in when they saw me again. It's one thing to wonder if I'd been seen while asleep, but another to actually know it. I don't even know if they took any photos or video of me naked, but somehow I think they did. If they really did, there's no doubt at all that they will be showing it to other people, who will then know that I am exposed naked every night.

I suspect that I've been seen naked several times or so while I was asleep, and I knew it was inevitable for me to eventually know I was seen naked. Now I know I have been. It's bound to happen again, and when it does I'll have to just lie there and be looked at naked.

I do realize that the main purpose for my exposure every night is so that people can and do see me naked in bed during the night. There's a certain feeling of helplessness and humiliation when I'm lying there naked and I know I'm being looked at, But I suppose that's just another part of being exposed.

 

UPDATE Jan. 4, 2023

Someone who lives close by to my window, who usually sits on their partially enclosed porch has set up a chair next to their front door and started to sit out there at night. They were already capable of seeing me naked in bed from the porch, but only from my chest down. They can also see me from where they park and when going to and from their vehicle. They're not the ones who were recently watching me, but it's very possible that they have seen me naked in bed at some point while I was asleep. From what I can tell, it's a heavy-set woman who has friends stop over nearly every day.

The chair can be seen as the white object in the photo below on the left side of the photo , just to the left of the front door. The porch can be seen on the left end of the building.

There's no way to know for sure, at least yet anyway, but it's possible that the chair was put there as a place to sit and observe me naked in bed at night. No chair had ever been there before in the entire time since the current residents moved in a few years ago. It's either an extreme coincidence or it's for sitting in while looking at me naked in bed. There's not many reasons for a chair to suddenly be placed there.

I may be wrong, but if I'm not then I could end up being looked at or watched naked a lot more.

An expanded view of where the chair is located:

  It's also possible for me to be seen in bed from any of the windows visible, and the door.

UPDATE Jan. 6, 2023

It's not for sure yet, but someone nearby whose window is nearest to my window has just recently begun to open the slats on her Venetian blinds after dark, and may be observing me while I sleep naked at night. A light is turned on in the room, and her silhouette can be seen opening the blind slats. She can briefly be seen through the open slats before the light is turned off and the room becomes dark.

That window offers the best possible view of me compared to all nearby other windows. There may be some unknown reason for the slats to be opened at night, but it's possible the reason is for looking at me or watching me while I'm naked in bed all night. 

The slats remain open until mid morning of the next day, when they are closed again. I've never once seen the slats open at night until recently, and it's too dark at night to know if anyone is looking out through the open slats. 

The woman who lives there appears to be in her sixties. I don't know her and have never talked to her, but I do see her outside once in a while when I'm also outside. If she is looking in at me at times during the night, she has absolutely seen much more of me than I ever have of her. She may have even already seen me with an erection or seen my tendency to hump my bed while I'm asleep, both of which seem to have become much more common during the time I've had to abstain from masturbating. 

If she really is looking in at me, I can only guess what she may have already seen of me, or what she will be seeing.

The start of another year of Exposure.

 

 The first day of the new year starts with me waking up exposed naked after being exposed for the entire night through the window. It's also the day for a different video of me to be presented through a "Watch" button on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd and through a post on my timeline. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 In response to requests that have been made, a questionnaire is available so that others can decide if any change or amendment can be made to a requirement that is already in place and in effect. Other decisions may be added and presented over time for approval or denial. The first decision is for whether I have to continue masturbating at least once each night, or whether I have to avoid masturbating at the risk and likelihood that I will become aroused in my sleep. 

Masturbating usually doesn't take too long, and if I do it soon after getting into bed I can usually fall asleep shortly afterwards. If I don't masturbate right away, I sometimes fall asleep anyway, but may wake up and masturbate then. If for some reason I don't masturbate, it can lead me to become aroused in my sleep. This presents itself through me becoming hard or erect during sleep for no apparent reason. Once in a while I will wake up periodically with an erection that began sometime while I slept.

One other way it presents itself is that I end up lying on my stomach and I will thrust my erection down on the bed or hump the bed. I've actually awakened doing this if I haven't recently masturbated. Sometimes it takes a day or two after not masturbating for these things to occur, but it gets worse the longer it's been since I masturbated and is sure to occur by the time several days have passed without me masturbating.  

I do know I wake up at times to both of these things, but I honestly don't know how often they might occur. Unless I wake up with an erection or while humping the bed, I couldn't know about it. Only anyone seeing me or watching me at the time would know about any of it, since they would see my erection or see me humping the bed naked. 

If decisions are made in the questionnaire, once there's a majority decision on any option, it will be what occurs. 

Concerning a site where I can be streamed on video while in bed and/or asleep naked, one potential sites has been found. It's rules state that adult videos are permitted as long as the subject is adult and verified (which has already been done) and no others are depicted. Looking through the other streams on there though, no nudity seems to be present. That's not the concern though. What is a concern is that in the rules it states that "No Uncut Pornography is permitted" Nothing explanatory information is offered for exactly what that means. Does it mean "uncensored"? Maybe someone can visit the site and clarify how that is best interpreted. 

The page on the site that any broadcast of me would show up on appears to be:

live.fc2.com/48524504/

A new webcam is still due to arrive a in January or a bit sooner. By then a streaming site that meets the needs and requirements would need to be ready for there to be a way for others to easily see and confirm that I am being exposed naked in bed and while asleep.  

New Questionnaire embedded below. Also available at: https://forms.gle/N6yLWBiz21BN3kx88