This post was created over a period of a week, with bits added at a time, so it's more like a stream of consciousness than an orderly, organized post. It's about the requirements that are in effect for me, both permanent ones and one that's still in the process of being decided.
Two requirements are mentioned often, mostly since they both have a major effect on daily life for me. Technically one has most of it's effect at night, while the other is nearly constant.
All requirements from previous and current polls continue to be fulfilled and obeyed. Of course the results of the now closed poll are forever permanent for me, and must be obeyed at all times regardless of what I might prefer or how inconvenient or humiliating they might be for me.
The currently ongoing poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K deciding whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally ejaculate is free for anyone to anonymously vote in. All that's necessary is to vote for whatever is felt that I deserve. The current results prohibit me from masturbating or intentionally cumming.
I would ask for votes for options that might eventually permit me to masturbate, but I have already been basically scolded by some contacts for attempting to sway voters and their votes. So all potential voters should vote for which option they want to or feel that I deserve. It is and will be mandatory and required for me to always follow and obey the result with the most votes.
All of the poll results do have some impact for me, but some have a more long term impact while others have a day to day impact.
One requirement that has a longer term impact is that every photo and video of me naked is essentially public domain, since anyone anywhere has the full right to possess, post, display, and share any photo or video of me naked that they desire, and for any reason or purpose they desire. Not only do I have no say about it, but even if I'm informed about any such thing beforehand, I cannot ask for it not to be done, and afterwards I am forbidden from asking or requesting the removal of any such post or display. This applies even if photos or video of me naked is to be shared with or sent to a person or people who know me personally.
Also, all photos and videos of me naked must be presented in manners that will enable not just anyone to see them, but in ways that will enable others who know me personally to see them.
This has already led to some results. Currently, at least several people who do know me personally are known to have viewed at least some photos or videos of me naked, and more people who know me are certain to have viewed them without any way to know it for sure. Ironically, not one of them has chosen to mention to me about seeing me online naked, either in an attempt to avoid embarrassing me, or due to not wanting to reveal the fact that they looked at me naked. In any case though, some people known to me have seen me online naked and nothing can change that fact. It's just unknown to me what photos or videos they saw of me.
A requirement that could have an effect at any time is the requirement that my PC must remain available for access to anyone through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps. Even if I'm aware of any access at any time, unless changes to the PC settings are being attempted, I cannot interfere with any access. This means that all folders and files are free for access or transferring for any use or reason. It also means that most websites I use or have an account on can be accessed or visited as me, even for the purpose of further exposing me in some manner to others, including to others who might know me personally.
Knowing it's all possible and that it must be permitted to occur is intimidating, but fortunately for me it rarely occurs. Even when it does occur, browsers other than the Firefox browser tend to be used, which have less direct access to most websites used by me. Still though, it's intimidating to know that my PC and many websites I use are essentially an open book to anyone who might want them to be.
Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1
Even more intimidating is the requirement that if or when I am approached in person by anyone and told to or requested to strip off all of my clothing until naked, that I must comply. If this occurs in an open and public place, the most I can do is to hope to move to some nearby location with some amount of at least temporary privacy before complying. Once naked I am required to "gift" all clothing, or give them to the person who made the request, who is under no obligation to return any of the clothing to me. I would also have to submit to being photographed naked or recorded naked on video in any way desired by the new owner of whatever clothing I had just removed, The new owner of the clothing would then decide whether or not whether any clothing would be returned to me, whether any of it could be earned back by me in some way, or whether I would have to remain naked and be left entirely exposed for others to see.
The stripping naked on request part is intimidating by itself, but having to surrender all clothing and remain completely naked wherever I am at the time is much more intimidating. I cannot refuse or deny any request or demand that I strip naked, and once the request or demand is made all clothing I would be wearing and have to remove would immediately be owned by anyone who made the request. So essentially if I don't remove all of my clothes, or I don't surrender them, I am guilty of theft since no clothing at all at that location actually belongs to me anymore.
Although it's possible for this to occur at any time, I try not to think much about it and I will just have to deal with it as best as I can if or when it does occur, and accept however much humiliation and exposure that might result.
A requirement that does have a daily, or rather nightly effect for me is the requirement that I spend each and every night completely naked, including while in bed, without covering of any kind, with lights on, and with a window uncovered to enable anyone nearby to see and observe me at any time during the night.
Being in bed or sleeping now always means being exposed naked to anyone who happens to see me or who has the slightest desire to observe me naked. I rarely, if ever know if anyone is seeing me or who might be looking, but I cannot cover up or conceal anything at any time of night. Any form of covering up at any time, for any reason would mean violating the requirement. An insufficient light level, or not bright enough lights being on is also a violation. The same is true if the window doesn't remain uncovered at all times.
While asleep I not only remain unaware of any observation, but I cannot control any erections or anything I do. When I become aroused or horny while asleep, I not only get and erection that is visible for anyone to see, but I also often tend to hump the bed if lying on my front, and to thrust my hips upwards while lying on my back. Occasionally I wake up during these times, but without knowing how long I may have been doing it or who may already have observed it. I have to assume that there are times when I do these things without ever waking up at all, which could mean it's being observed without me knowing a single thing about even doing it.
Since this became required for me, I'm only aware of being seen and observed by a few nearby others, but only because I was awake at the time and the observers made it fairly obvious that they were watching me. In those cases I still couldn't cover up or limit any observation of me. It's very likely those observers were only a fraction of how much I have been seen or observed since October of 2022 when the requirement went into effect.
A few others nearby do appear to look in through the window nearly each night to check or confirm that I am exposed to view naked. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement, but it's not impossible that they are. I just know that unless I am exposed naked every night for the entire night, then there's a risk of being discovered of violating the requirement.
The requirement also extends to anywhere else I spend any night. This includes motels, hotels, in a vehicle, or at any residence where I spend any night unless there is a clear and obvious reason why it cannot occur, such as no window being present. Who might see me, how much I might be seen, or how humiliating it might be for me are not valid reasons for violating the requirement.
The final requirement is still the subject of an ongoing poll, but the current majority result is obliged to be followed as a requirement. The poll decides whether I can masturbate to relieve arousal and being horny or turned on, or whether I have to remain aroused without relief.
https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K
As of January 1st, 2023 the results have dictated that I cannot masturbate at all, and can only receive relief through a wet dream or some uncontrolled and unplanned ejaculation at some random time of day or night. Since then I have not masturbated or had the release of more than a drop or two of cum, since I dare not violate the requirement dictated by the anonymous voters in the poll. Their decisions and only their decisions can dictate whether or not I can masturbate, and their decisions were made with the expectation that they would be obeyed and followed.
The requirement for not masturbating definitely has an influence on the requirement that I sleep naked while exposed through an uncovered window, since I am inevitably aroused and horny even while asleep. Erections and humping motions during sleep occur regularly rather than occasionally, and there is no hiding it concealing any of it from being viewed from outside.
All requirements except for not masturbating are permanent, will never change, and can never be avoided by me, so they must be accepted. The poll for not masturbating will remain open until February 1st of 2024, and afterwards whatever decision has the most votes at the time will become a permanent requirement for me.
Since most voters have so far decided that I cannot masturbate or cause an ejaculation, and that status has remained the same in spite of additional votes, I'm not only prohibited from masturbating, but I also have to face the possibility that eventually that prohibition may become permanent.
Each day that passes while being prohibited from masturbating, the day the poll will end gets closer and closer, and unless the poll results change, the prohibition for masturbating will inevitably become permanent. There are still many months until then, but in the meantime I still cannot masturbate or intentionally do anything that will cause me to climax or cum.
Sometimes I'm so aroused and horny that I feel like I definitely have to masturbate, and that I can't take it for another minute. So far I somehow take it though, even though I want to cum more than anything at those moments.
I always have to remember that I am bound by and committed to obeying what a majority of others have decided in the poll, and how I would be disregarding and disrespecting their decisions and violating a requirement that I'm likely expected to obey.
At times though, I do think about how those who decided that I cannot masturbate are free to masturbate as they please, while I never can. But I have to accept that the decisions made for me only apply to me, and those voters were only basing their decisions on what they honestly felt that I deserve.
One thing is for sure though. I have already gone for longer by far without masturbating or cumming than I ever have before since hitting puberty. Each day that passes only extends that time. I can only wonder if or when I may have a wet dream or maybe even unintentionally climax and cum somewhere in public with others all around me. I'm afraid it will be so intense and feel so good that I'll react in a way that will reveal to everyone nearby exactly what is happening. There won't be much doubt about it if there ends up being a large wet spot on my pants, but that may be inevitable at some point as long as I cannot masturbate.
I do have to remind myself often that all of the requirements for me have been decided by voters as being what I deserve and are entirely separate from whatever I might want or prefer personally. I realize that getting what I deserve isn't assured to be easy, convenient, or even pleasurable. Being highly aroused and extremely horny for much of the time is definitely not easy, and it can preoccupy my thoughts often. It can also manifest itself in ways that I can barely avoid or not avoid at all.
One of those ways is at night while in bed and exposed naked to a wide outside area and to many potential others. Even though I feel extremely exposed at the time, because I am extremely exposed at the time, my arousal can now cause me to make humping or thrusting motions even while I'm still awake. I get so desperately aroused that I can't really help doing it in spite of the fact that anyone could be watching me at that very moment. Physically it feels so good and I'm so aroused that I can't make myself stop doing it even though I know I'm only adding to my exposure and providing an increased public display to anyone who might be seeing me through the window.
I know it will be even more embarrassing for me when I inevitably end up seeing or encountering the same nearby others during the day who saw me exposed and displayed during the night. They can and are already seeing me completely naked and exposed in bed every night, and due to my inability to prevent my displays of arousal, they can now see those displays too.
While I'm providing those displays, more than once I actually said out loud "Stop doing this", but it's as if my arousal and my desperately hard penis are in full control of me at the time, and I keep doing it. I will then usually say "Please... Let this stop... People can see this". But I can't stop and it continues. It only ends when my muscles get tired enough to need a rest, but by then I have provided quite a long display for anyone who might be looking or watching. After it occurred several times, part of me knows that others have likely already seen it happening, so unless or until I can relieve my arousal through masturbating, and since I can't make it stop, it's just easier not to resist it and to accept that I will keep being exposed to the neighborhood while doing it and keep being seen doing it.
There are many nights when being required to just be exposed naked all night is difficult enough by itself. There are some nearby others who I would not even want to be seen by without a shirt on, but they can now and will always be able to see each and every part of my naked body every night, and all of my displays of arousal. At times it's hard to accept the fact that I've permanently lost any rights or ability for privacy for any part of my body to a large part of the neighborhood. Having the option to choose or decide if or when to be exposed naked is much different than being required to be exposed every single night from beginning to end, being required to never cover up or to dim the lights, or for the window to be uncovered. There can be a helpless feeling to it, especially when I'm certainly being seen completely naked even while I am asleep. While asleep I never even know what position I'm in when I'm seen or how I'm displayed to any viewers. I can only wonder if it was my bare ass that was presented, or if my legs were spread offering a view between them. In the longer run it hardly matters much though, since anyone looking enough would eventually have a view of every place on my naked body.
Not being permitted to masturbate or to have relief from being very aroused and horny simply guarantees that all potential viewers of my nightly exposure will also continuously see displays of my arousal that I'm nearly helpless to prevent.
Obviously the intent of my requirement for being exposed each night is so that I am actually seen naked freely by anyone who is able to see me, and to make sure I have no choice about who sees me or how much of me they see. Before the poll with this requirement was closed, the results were so ridiculously one-sided in favor of the requirement that it was more than clear what others decided that I deserved. It was enough that I could only accept the fact that I must deserve it for so many others to have all decided the same thing. So however difficult it is at times, I will spend every night exposed naked because it's what I deserve.
It's looking more and more like the results of the poll for whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally cum may be going the same way. As much as I dread to have to admit it, far more voters have decided that I cannot masturbate over any of the other choices in the poll.
I periodically try to promote the poll to see if additional votes may be in favor of me being allowed to masturbate once again, but for every vote for one of the other choices, there are four votes deciding that I cannot be allowed to masturbate or intentionally cum. April 1st of 2023 will mark the 90th day for me not being permitted to masturbate and the 90th day since I have masturbated or had an ejaculation. The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K is due to remain open until February of 2024, but as one contact described it, the decision has likely already been made.
Obviously I would like to eventually receive permission in the poll to masturbate and cum once again, but I know the decisions made by voters must be respected and obeyed by me. Currently many more voters have decided that I deserve to not be permitted to masturbate or cause myself to cum. They decided that there can be no relief from arousal and being horny or turned on for me. I know each voter decides what they do for a reason, and they have every right to expect their decisions to be obeyed.
It's not possible for me to assess what I deserve, and only others can decide that. I used to masturbate at least three times per day, and much more on some days. I can only wonder of I abused the ability to masturbate until I ejaculated, and if that abuse is now being paid for by me.
If I do end up being permanently prohibited from masturbating, I will of course respect and obey that requirement and the voters who decided it. I will know that I almost certainly brought it upon myself, and that what voters decided was actually what I deserve regardless of how I might feel about it personally.
Please help to decide what I deserve concerning masturbating by voting in the poll.
https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K
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I can't effectively provide any photographic proof that I am obeying the requirement to currently not masturbate or intentionally cum, but I can attest to the fact that I am obeying it to the letter, as difficult as it is. I obey it because from the start I was committed to obeying whatever was decided through a majority in the poll results. Also because the decisions made by voters must be respected and abided by, no matter what is decided. As mentioned already, it's about what I deserve and not about what I might want or prefer.
Some proof can be shown that I am obeying the now permanent requirement that I am exposed naked through a window while in bed or asleep. Showing proof that one specific requirement is being obeyed still may not prove the requirement for not masturbating is also being obeyed, but it's just about the best that can be done.
Photos showing how I spend nights and the window I'm exposed through:
In the GIF below, someone nearby can be seen entering the passenger side of a vehicle before the vehicle begins to drive off. It's not clear if I was seen or observed by them this time, although they have surely seen me at other times. I was not aware of their presence until seeing the images later. At night when it's dark outside, even if awake I can never know when anyone might be seeing me. Sometimes it's just easier not to know I'm being seen, at least until after it's already happened. Since I know I have to be seen naked anyway, it's just best to remain asleep while others are looking at my naked body being exposed.
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The most I can do is to swear, promise, and give my word that I will always obey all permanent requirements, and obey the majority decision in the ongoing poll until the final results are known in early 2024. The decision of voters must always be respected and obeyed.. When voters decide something, then it's sure to be something I deserve.
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