Video for December 2023 available to Facebook friends and more.

 The video for December of 2023 that is now available for viewing by Facebook friends and by others happens to be one that would preferably have remained obscure and mostly unseen. But its absence from public view has not gone unnoticed by at least some people. Because it's a public video just as all of the others of me naked are public videos, when asked about its absence for viewing by Facebook friends, the answer would be that it is coming soon. 

Even when that was said, I knew that I did not want others to see the video, and especially not for it to be seen by people who know me. But if it was not available, then it meant that what was said was untrue, and also that a public video was being kept from or concealed from those with the right to see it.

The video can be seen at: https://clipchamp.com/watch/7lDRE2DQzKS

The posts on Facebook can be seen by Facebook members on the pages 

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75  

and 

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

The video shows me completely naked and helplessly tied to a bed in a bent over position. My wrists are tied separately to the rail below the far side of the bed and my legs are tied in a spread apart position. My bare ass and my balls are clearly visible, and my asshole is at least partly visible. But the worst part is that the filter end of a lit cigarette is stuck in my asshole, which has already burned much of the way down as the video begins.

The title of the video is "David Steckel endures a hot-butt punishment" and I'm seen becoming more and more desperate as this "punishment" begins to occur. 

The preference for the video to not be seen publicly is not due to me being seen naked and exposed in it, since I will always be seen naked publicly anyway. I think it's due more to the fact that the video shows my asshole being "punished" and because I'm totally restrained, all I can do is wait there being watched as it starts to happen and during the whole time it's happening. In spite of what some of the text in the video says, it never left my mind entirely that people were going to be seeing everything. They would see me tied up and stuck bent over naked and with a lit cigarette stuck in my asshole. They would see me have to leave the lit cigarette there because there was no way for me to reach it or to remove it. They would see how my asshole held the cigarette there so that the ember would reach my asshole and then even stay in contact with my asshole for as long as it existed. 

Once the ember was very close to my asshole, they would see me start to squirm as it was felt. Once the ember reached my asshole, they would see me squirming, kicking my legs and feet, and fidgeting as much as my restraints would allow. They might even also be able to hear me whining and moaning as I endured what was going on in my asshole behind me. At the time I felt pretty sure that I had taken it rather stoically and that I had not really made any sounds. When I did see the video later, I found out that I could be heard whimpering even though I had not realized I had been doing it.

I had not wanted to put on any sort of show, and I tried not to show any reaction, but the point came when I just could not help it. I think even at the time my main thought over everything else was that it would be humiliating when everyone saw me like that. I knew that by the time the restraints were removed, the video might already be public somewhere on the internet. I knew that the point was for it to end up online in places where I had no way to remove it even if I tried, and in places and in front of people that I did not know about. 

For about a month afterwards I was told that the video had been posted on at least a dozen websites, but the two others who said they made the posts would not tell me what the sites were or how to fund them. I was basically told that it was so that a lot of other people would see the video before I even knew where it was posted or how much it was being viewed. 

Once one posting of the video was said to have reached five thousand views I was told how to find it. When I tried to find it though, I found out that to see it I would have to join the site and pay a large membership fee to be able to access the video there. It turned out to be a bondage and S and M website that specialized in a certain kind of video like the one I was shown in. At the time I could not afford the membership fee. I could see a listing for the video that included a title with my full name and a single screenshot image of me bent over a bed with my ass exposed, but clicking to try to play it or to see more about it brought up a box for joining the website and paying the fee. I had to give up on trying to get to the video there even though the huge number of members that the site had could all see the video of me whenever they wanted to. 

When I related this fact to the one who posted the video there, they said it was a shame that I couldn't see the stats and comments on the video, since it was receiving even more views that they had hoped for and some of the comments included things that seemed impossible to be done with an asshole, but were talked about being done to my asshole. I was told that a huge amount of cum was being shot out while I was being watched in the video.

Considering what some viewers might want to do with my asshole was enough to make my asshole tighten up a little bit involuntarily, but luckily my asshole had completely recovered from its ordeal by then. 

I knew that the best thing I could do is to try not to think about the video, about how many places online where I might be ending up, who might be seeing it, and what some viewers of it wanted to do with my asshole after seeing the video. For a while I mostly succeeded in that, until the one who posted the video on that website sent me a screenshot of the video page that site members had access to. The comments section was not dropped down, so no comments were visible, but the view count had risen to above 92,000 views. 

I could not believe that the video had so many views on one single website that wasn't even a free website. I told myself that some people probably just watched the video a lot of times, but I knew that even if that was true a whole lot of people still must be watching the video. 

After that the video was discussed or mentioned less and less, until it seemed forgotten about at least to me. I found myself preferring for the video to just slip through the cracks and fade away. I knew that it would stay posted wherever it was posted, since the video had been included when all photos and videos of me naked had become a part of the public domain. This meant I could never seek or ask for its removal from anywhere that it had been posted by anyone. I just planned to not increase or further its display online, or to draw more attention to it.

That worked at least as well as I had hoped it would until a video of me naked began being offered for viewing each month on the Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist", and then shared on my own personal Facebook page so that friends and followers would see it.

It wasn't long at all before I started being contacted through anonymous emails asking when the "ass punishment" video would be shown to everyone on Facebook. I still don't know if it was all one person doing the asking or if it was more than one person, since the sources of the messages are often different. I would reply that it would be soon, while I tried to figure a way to avoid having the video end up where so many people who know me would see it and where anyone else would be free to watch it. 

I knew that besides for the humiliation it would cause me, that there was no reason I could ever come up with for why the video wasn't shown to everyone. Since my humiliation is never a factor, and is often even more of a reason for a posting rather than less of a reason, I knew the video had to be seen by everyone at some point. No matter what, I was going to be seen tied naked while my asshole was "punished", and that it would include being seen by people who knew me. 

So when I was recently contacted again about when the video would be shown to everyone on Facebook, I said that it would be by the end of the year. Since it's December at this time, there is no more time for delay left for me. 

So the video is currently available through a post on the Facebook Exhibitionist page, and that post has been shared on my personal Facebook page. The video will be watched for sure by Facebook members that include people who know me and friends, and by now that has already started to happen. 

Since I can't fool myself into believing that no one will bother to watch the video, I'm left to just reminding myself that the video does belong to everyone and that it's everyone's right to see it. 

A screenshot from the video:

The same screenshot image but with the cigarette circled:

 This is how friends, people who know me, and how many others will see me and are already seeing me. But I do know that I have to be seen this way, because a public video that legally and legitimately belongs to everyone cannot be hidden.

Davidttthttteckelend

"Signature Photos" in all sent emails

 It has been more than a year now that three specific photos of me were obligated to be included in every email sent or replied to from the email address DaveS113065@gmail.com

 The photos are part of a "signature" that is automatically added to each email message that is sent or that is replied to. All three photos of course show me completely naked.

When composing an email, the "signature", including the photos remains hidden, and it is easy to forget that they are included automatically and that they will be sent along with any composed message. (Except, for some reason, when the recipient has a Yahoo email address. Yahoo rejects emails that include photos as part of a signature.)

The obligation for the signature photos extends to each and every email sent from DaveS113065@gmail.com and there are to be no exceptions for any reason. 

Some who are aware of this or know this fact will periodically test it by sending an email where a reply of some kind in necessary or expected. Sometimes it's from a recognized email address and sometimes it's one that's totally unfamiliar to me. But I assume that the point is to make sure that the three signature photos are always included. Because of this fact, I know that removing the signature so that it's not automatically added is not an option. Very often I never know if an email I receive from an unfamiliar address is a test of some sort, or if it's just someone new contacting me.

More than once, with the last time being very recent, I composed an reply to an email and sent it while completely forgetting about the signature photos being included. In the most recent case, I only realized the photos had been sent to the recipient when they replied back again and I was able to see that the three photos had been part of my first reply to them. 

I'm often too focused on how I will reply to whatever the message said, and on composing the reply, and because I don't see the signature photos, I just don't think about them when I'm done composing the reply and then send it.

There is usually a moment of being stunned for me as I realize that the photos of me naked have been sent to someone who may never have seen me naked or even thought about or expected to see me naked. But once the photos are received there's no way they can fail to see me naked. They also then have their own personal copies of the three photos to do with as they please.

So far no one too close to me has received the three photos, but more than a few others have received them, as well as one business that I was sending a reply to on gmail. 

Since the photos were just recently sent to someone who really was just contacting me and not testing anything, and since they were sent without me realizing it until afterward, I'm sure I will be very aware for a while that the signature photos will be included in anything being sent. But as time passes I will most likely end up forgetting again.

I suppose it doesn't matter one way or another though, since the photos do have to be sent whether I'm aware of it at the time or not. Fortunately for me, not too many emails I receive call for a reply, and those closest to me tend not to send emails when they can call me or speak to me in person instead. I realize that could change at any time though. 

Anyone who might care to try it for themselves is welcome to send an email to me at daves113065@gmail.com

Replies cannot be sent to Yahoo email addresses, since Yahoo kicks back any email that has images in an email signature.

See the latest slideshow video of me naked

 First, everyone is invited to view a recently added video of me naked. It includes a series of photos of me naked along with some text. In it, different parts of my naked body are focused on for viewing, finishing with random photos and a short video. 

It begins with a series of photos that focus mostly on viewing what's between my (spread) legs. Mainly on viewing my soft penis and my balls, but also viewing me naked overall.

It moves on to briefly focusing on viewing me naked while I am showering. Some text reminds viewers that this view of me is public.

It then asks viewers to look at photos of me with an erection or while masturbating naked. More text reminds viewers that this view of me is also public.

The next step asks viewers to "please" look at my bare ass, since it is part of my public exposure. A series of photos then focuses on me naked with my bare ass presented to view.

It then moves on to inviting viewers to look at me with my ass cheeks spread, and to view my asshole. I am then shown with my asshole on display.

Finally, viewers are reminded that I am only seen accurately when I am seen naked, and to view some random photos of me naked since I deserve to be seen in them publicly. The photos show me naked and in some quite humiliating ways, but as some text reminds viewers, the photos do exist, which means their purpose is to be seen. Also, the entertainment or the amusement of others is always primary compared to any humiliation for me.

Viewers are then thanked for watching the video and asked to share it if or when possible.

The purpose of the video is of course for everyone to view for their entertainment or amusement. Its secondary purpose for it to be available for those who know me to see, so that they will see some of the photos of me that they may not otherwise see or take the time to view. 

Links and other ways to access or view it are posted publicly on the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

and on my personal Facebook page where friends and some relatives are very likely to view it. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

The links will enable the video to be viewed here: https://clipchamp.com/watch/9j7X0pU8YMw

The title of the video is "David Steckel Revealed". My full name is included in some of  the text within the video, so that I will be identified by name to all who view it.

The video's file size is too large to include here, but all are welcome to use the link above to view it. Like all videos of me naked, it is Public Domain and free for any and all uses by everyone.

Here is a photo from each section or category that the video displays of me.

Note: It's unknown how many friends or relatives have seen the video, but it's now known for sure that several friends and family members have actually seen me online naked. So far they have only mentioned it vaguely in online comments or mentions while not mentioning it in person. It's also not known exactly what they've seen of me or how much they have seen. 

Since everyone has the right to see me naked while having their privacy fully respected, I can and will never ask where anyone saw me naked or exactly what they saw of me.  They have the right to view me as anonymously as they wish, to look at what they want to of me, to share it with whoever they desire, and to post or display me naked however they care to.

My role is always limited to being displayed naked and being seen naked in any way available. With each and every photo and video of me naked being legally Public Domain, I do not even have any right, legal or otherwise, to infringe on the rights of others to view or display me naked in any way.

Recent Increase in online views of my Exposure

 While other things have been developing and occurring, it's always easy not to think much about how and where I am regularly exposed at all times and on a daily basis. Much thought is also not given to previous or older blog posts.

For a reason unknown to me, this blog https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/?zx=61def3ab1d2d994b has been receiving a large number of daily views recently. The view count does tend to fluctuate up and down over time, but increases in views tend to last for a short time, then drop again. But lately the daily view count is averaging 200 and more per day. 

All that's knowable is the daily view count, the previous days view count, and view counts for specific posts in selected periods such as the last seven days, 30 days, 60 days and all time. Nothing at all about viewers themselves can ever be known. The weekly view count is now commonly well above a thousand. 

The view count is also subdivided into which posts received which number of views, and one older post in particular is receiving a vast number of the views. I don't know why this post has suddenly become very popular, since it only shows a single video of me from nine and a half years ago. The post is: https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2013/09/blog-post.html

and the video it shows is:

 

A few other older posts are receiving a lot of views, and I know it's really none of my business what is being seen of me. It's just unexpected. 

The newer blog page at: https://blog08633.wordpress.com/ has a different way of offering statistics, but appears to get anywhere from 5 to 40+ views per day. Being so new it may not be established yet, and to get any other link than the one above, and upgrade to a paid plan is necessary. 

One other site that has a noticeable increase in views recently is the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

It's still unclear how the notifications for statistics work there. It seems that a notification is only sent when the page is viewed for the very first time by someone, but not if they return to view it additional times. After the page was first established, notifications for new views came often. Then it was only occasionally. Now it's daily and has been that way for a while. A screenshot of recent notifications:

It may have nothing to do with it, but a Facebook friend from back in high school who was invited to view the page many months ago recently visited the page, and within a day of her visit, the notifications for new views began to come regularly. It may be a coincidence, but it's at least possible that after seeing the page, she began to "spread the word" of the page and of my exposure to friends and others previous classmates. Of course if that is the case, she has every right to do as she pleases, but it's still more likely that it's all a coincidence. 

Just as with the increased blog views, it's just that it's unexpected. It does seem highly likely though, that some of the additional viewers in both cases are people who know me or at least knew me at one time or another. I've never come across or seen anyone I know or knew naked or fully exposed on the internet, so I can't speak from experience on that. But if I ever did I think I might be curious or even interested to see as much of them as there was to see. For many who know me, I happen to be the person they know or knew who they have seen, are seeing, or will see naked and fully exposed on the internet. 

In most or many cases this will be or become the defining aspect about me and what will be thought of and remembered most about me by them. Hearing or seeing my name or thinking of me will likely bring to their mind whichever picture or video of me naked that they saw and remember the most or the one they most recently saw of me.

There is no reversing that or avoiding it, so I will always be defined by my exposure and I have to be willing to accept that fact. 

Nightly Naked Exposure: Feeling Exposed.

 

May 16th, 2023

I didn’t know where to begin to come up with some response to the anonymous comment above that was received not long ago.

Received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db

One reason for this is that I don’t really see what I might want or how I might feel about being exposed as being something that matters very much. It’s a requirement that has to be obeyed every night no matter how I feel about it on any night.

There’s no doubt at all that neighbors and others nearby do continue to see me in bed naked at different points during the nights and early mornings. Since I’m always right there and completely exposed it’s unlikely that they fail to look every time they have the opportunity. For those who look at me most often, there’s probably not a single place on my naked body that is not familiar to them.

I do know that I am occasionally or periodically viewed on webcam in bed, even though I never know by who, when it occurs, how long it occurs for, what they see, or when it might occur.

I understand that this is just one more part of the requirement for me though, so that it can always be verified and confirmed that I am always obeying the requirement to be exposed naked through a window every night, all night. I know that if anyone accessed the webcam while I’m in bed or asleep, that unless I’m completely naked, unless the room is well lit, unless there is no form of covering present or being used, and unless the blind on the window is raised enough to enable me to be seen easily from outside, that I will be caught in the act of violating the requirement.

I know there is no way around that and no loophole that can avoid any of that, so I know that I have to remain in compliance with the requirement at all times, every single night. I know this means there is a one hundred percent chance that I am seen and will be seen naked at times, and that it’s never up to me when I’m seen or who sees me.

Access being enabled to my PC and webcam is also a requirement through either the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access app, which enables verification of my nightly exposure at any time of night.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Whether my exposure is verified on webcam once a month, once a week, every other day, or even more often, I have to be exposed every night, all night simply because verification can take place at any time on any night.

All I can do is remember that fact that it was decided that this is what I deserve, and to accept it as what I deserve. It doesn’t help limit the humiliation of it that much, but at least it reminds me that the reason for the humiliation is because I deserve it.

At whatever time I go to bed at night, I know it’s the end of the part of the day where there can be any sort of privacy for my body. If I am not already naked I know the first thing that’s necessary is for me to remove every shred of clothing.

Since the blind on the window is fixed in the raised position at all times, I know there’s no need to do anything with it. Any top sheets or other possible covering have long since been removed and done away with, except for the fitted sheet over the mattress and pillow cases on the pillows. The only thing left after becoming naked is to ensure that the room is well lit.

As I do these things, I am always at least a little bit aware of how I am about to serve another night of being exposed naked and very likely be seen naked. But I know that if I want to go to bed and to sleep that night, I also have to be exposed naked the entire time.

So I climb onto the bed and try to get settled knowing that a night of exposure has now begun. I know I can be seen through the window and that I probably will be within a short time. I know I may even be being looked at naked at that very moment by someone nearby, but I know that covering up is not permissible and would be pointless anyway.

Most often I close my eyes and try to pretend that I am in a place with complete and total privacy, even though I know that’s not true at all. Depending on how tired I am that night, I either manage to fall asleep pretty quickly or within a short time. Falling asleep does not change a thing about my exposure other than it stop s me from dwelling on the fact and from there being any possibility of me realizing it when I am being seen or looked at naked.

I tend to think of it as me drifting off to someplace else while leaving my naked body in place for anyone to see or look at.

I’ve learned to try not to look outside through the window too much during the night, since it’s much easier to be less aware of when there’s a good chance that I’m being seen naked at the time.

Some nights, most often Friday or Saturday nights, there can be lots of apparent activity within sight of the window. Mostly lots of headlights from cars coming, going, parking, or loading up and pulling away. Also lights being carried by people walking at night, although only a few walkers bother to carry a light. On nights like that I know it almost impossible for me not to be seen, and more likely for one or more people to stop and look towards my window for a while.

If I’m in bed but still awake I try my best not to know any of that is going on outside. If I do ever realize that I am almost certainly being watched at the time, it can be really hard to just stay in place while it happens even though that’s what I am supposed to do and expected to do. Sometimes I actually have to force myself to stay where I am, and if I’m watched for too long I’ve ended up kind of whining or moaning a little bit.

I don’t mean to make the sounds, but I think it’s because I know that my naked body is being looked at intently by people I know nothing about and I just have to wait for them to finish looking. Sometimes it feels as if they think they are supposed to look at me naked, but I always know that because of the requirement for me to be there and be exposed, that in some way they really are supposed to look at me naked.

Things like that can feel overwhelming at times, so even though anyone who looks is free to look and maybe even supposed to look, I find it much easier if I’m aware of it as rarely as possible. That way I only know that it is happening, but I don’t know about it at that very moment.

This post was made over several days, since it took some time for me to think about things I feel and think about before and during my nightly exposure and to try putting those things into words.

While writing it, another anonymous comment was received. This one seems to be from someone who has seen me in the process of being exposed at night more than one time.

I suppose I really am glad that I don’t spend most of my time humping the bed or with my ass raised up for no apparent reason but for anyone to see.

I did not know what position I slept in the most, but it’s obvious that whichever part of me faces the window the most is what most others nearby have already seen or are continuously seeing.

I can only wonder how familiar with my naked body that some nearby others might be by now, or how familiar with it they might become over more time. It’s an endless source of humiliation to have to see and encounter those who have repeatedly seen me naked in bed, even if I don’t know them. Every encounter starts with me wondering if this person or these people have seen me exposed naked at night. I wouldn’t really know if they have seen me, but they would certainly know that they have.

While I’m wondering, those who have seen me are probably already picturing me as they saw me rather than how I appear at that moment. In those cases I can probably never not be naked to them, and any clothes I’m wearing at that time probably make no difference to them. They would already have seen everything any clothing was currently covering on me.

I also occasionally wonder what they might say to each other, since those who have seen me and who can see me naked at night tend to encounter each other very often or even know each other. I usually stop short of wondering if they ever talk about some part of my naked body that would be private for anyone else but is essentially public for me.

I think at best I am “The Naked guy in the window all night” by now to at least some of them.

I can almost feel my naked body becoming less and less private over time, and becoming more and more public each night.

New Photo(s) of my nightly Exposure

 Generally there would be no reason to mention it each time anyone anonymously accesses my PC and camera, but a photo was left in folder that was apparently taken during the night that reveals me naked in bed and asleep. Since a photo was taken and left available, it's being included here just so that it's clear that nothing about my nightly exposure remains concealed.

It may not be an ideal pose to be in for a photo, but as usual when I'm asleep I am oblivious to being exposed, being seen, and being photographed.

As it always is, it feels peculiar to see myself asleep and exposed. When I go to bed ad before I fall asleep I always know that I am exposed, but my awareness ends once I'm asleep. But of course my exposure doesn't end then, and goes on throughout the night.

Whenever a photo is taken of me naked, exposed, and asleep it always re-confirms for me the fact that at night my naked body and my exposure is as close to being public as it can be without being fully public.

I know that's true anyway, but photos of my nightly exposure actually show it's true.

Since neither the Teamviewer app or the Anydesk app keep or retain anything at all about anyone accessing my PC, and keep no record of any access, I never know a single thing about if or when my PC or the camera is accessed. I never even know which app was used.

I might know there was access if a page or an application is left open, but I often can't be sure if it wasn't me who left things that way. Only a photo or photos being taken or a video being taken, and then left for me to find is a way to know there was access.

I do make sure I follow and obey the requirement as closely as possible that I spend each night exposed naked to potential observers outside and to anyone who accesses my PC and camera, but I still feel relieved in a way when anyone is actually able to see that I am complying with the requirement. The thought of any violation of a requirement that would incur some additional penalty is something I truly hope to avoid.

So when anyone does see me while I'm exposed naked in bed at night, I'm thankful that I was seen complying with the requirement.

Since I know that anyone has the absolute right to view my exposure at night either from outside or on camera, I do try to be sure I never infringe on that right even though it can be humiliating for me.

I also know that anyone making use of their right to access my PC and camera are under no obligation to take any photos or video of me, or to leave any copy of them for me to find at some later time. So if I'm being honest I suppose I am thankful or grateful to them for not only taking any photos or video, but for leaving a copy of them. I know that whoever takes any photo or video of me naked technically owns or controls them. They have every right to have or keep them for themselves for their own purposes without leaving a single copy for me to find. So when something is left for me to find, in a way it's a favor to me, since it's newer and more recent proof that I am complying with and obeying the requirement.

I only hope that anyone who observes my nightly exposure finds my compliance satisfactory, adequate, and sufficient.

My exposure and humiliation is unavoidable, but being found not be in compliance is entirely avoidable.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Any additional photos taken of me naked during the night, but not taken by me will be included here as they are left and then found by me in a camera roll folder on my PC.

This time it's two new photos on yet another night. If nothing else, at least it provides a visual record and verification that the requirement for my nightly exposure is being obeyed and complied with.

Finding new photos daily was unexpected, and if it continues an additional post may be needed to prevent this post from being too long and have too many photos. Since all photos included so far are from the same week, this post will include all photos from the same week.

A few more new photos were found, and in one I see that I seem to do something I never knew I did or expected to see while asleep. I can see that I did it, but it's strange to have no knowledge or memory of it. Clearly the taker of the photo saw it, but I can only wonder how often I might do it and how many nearby others may have seen me like that at any time.

But being exposed means being seen with nothing being concealed, so it's just one more aspect of exposure that I have to accept. Here is the photo of the unexpected position followed by two others.

These last few photos complete the list of photos taken of me by others while in bed and asleep during a single week.

These photos will hopefully be sufficient as confirmation and verification that my requirement for nightly, night long exposure is being obeyed. For those who have long insisted that my nightly exposure also had to be seen, the photos may not prove it absolutely, but I can attest to the fact that I did not take a single one of the photos and knew nothing about them being taken until finding them later in a camera roll folder.

I may wake up or get out of bed briefly or periodically during nights, but whenever I am in bed at night, I realize that I am required to be exposed naked, both through an uncovered window to anyone nearby, and through accessing a webcam.

Anonymously submit a chosen penalty for my requirement violation

 A sort of survey has been created to enable anonymously listing a penalty for my violation of a requirement. The requirement violated was my failure to include mandatory photos in a recent email, which are required to be included in each and every email sent by me or replied to by me. 

It has become clear to me that some deem it necessary that a penalty must be implemented for me for this or any violation of any of my requirements. A chosen penalty can be listed here:

https://poll-maker.com/Q5Z21IJM3

In order for me to be unable to hide or conceal anything anonymously submitted, the current results are available here:

http://www.poll-maker.com/S-Quiz-Results?qp=2866738x83dD9b03-125 

A penalty deemed fitting for my violation can be listed along with some detail about it, and one must ultimately come from those listed that are possible to be implemented. 

One recent comment received on the "Secret Message" page lists a potential penalty, although it leaves the details open.

Depending on the number of results and any similarities between them, they may end up in a short duration poll for one to be chosen over the others through voting.

Even though there being a penalty does make me a little bit anxious and maybe a bit nervous, I realize that it can't always just be dismissed when I fail to follow a requirement. I realize that just because I'm obeying other requirements it doesn't excuse not obeying all of them. 

Obviously any penalty received shouldn't require any violation of other requirements, such as the requirement that I spend every night exposed naked to others through a window, or the current requirement that I cannot intentionally cum or ejaculate. 

Since any violation of any requirement by me is essentially disrespecting and failing to obey decisions made by others, it can only be others who decide upon any penalty I receive. 

Once again, the photos I failed to include in an email, and ones that are required to be in each and every email sent by me or replied to by me are:

Any choices of a penalty submitted will be listed here:

1)  Get yourself as close to the edge as possible without cumming before leaving home. Wear the jeans with the hole. Go someplace public (mall, department store, etc.). Keep yourself as on edge while driving without cumming. Once you get to the public place go to the bathroom or dressing room. Leave the door unlocked (accidentally). Edge yourself a total of 5 times with 5 minutes in-between getting as close to cumming as possible without cumming. You are to then walk around the store for 20 minutes keeping yourself as close to on edge as possible without cumming in any way possible (feeling yourself through your packets, thrusting your hips, whatever). Pictures should be taken during this to show your humiliation and frustration at not being able to cum. The pictures and a detailed account of what happened should be posted.

2) Since your violation had to do with not being properly exposed naked, your penalty should be to be exposed the same way as in one of the pictures you failed to send. You have to be exposed naked all night anyway so your neighbors all see you. After it's dark outside and at least an hour before your usual time for going to bed, make sure your blind is up, that your room is lit up like it has to be all night, and get on your bed completely naked. Have your bare ass aimed towards the window as close to the window as possible while staying on the bed. Raise you ass up and lower your shoulders and head down onto the bed, and then stay like that for one full hour without moving for an reason, every night for two full weeks (14 nights) in a row. If you skip even one night you have to start all over again. The pose has to be just like in one of the pictures you were supposed to send. Since you didn't send it, you should have to be exposed like that in real time and in person for long enough for other people to see you.

Potential penalties for failing to follow or obey requirements and obligations

 The topic has arisen of there being a penalty of some sort for me if or when I fail to follow or obey any requirement or obligation that has been decided for me, or one that I am expected to follow.

It is my intent to always try to remain in compliance with all requirements and obligations, but if or when I do fail to comply with one or more of them at any time, it can't very well be disputed that there should be some penalty or punishment for my failure.

Recently I did fail to comply with one obligation, which requires that three "signature photos" always be included in any email sent by me or in any reply sent by me. This was noticed by someone who was aware that this obligation existed for me, and they informed me of my failure. 

The required "signature photos":

 

I did fail to notice that the photos were not included before sending the email, but I realize that there's no distinction between an oversight on my part and intentionally excluding the photos. If a penalty is deemed necessary for me for this infraction, then I realize that I would just have to accept it.

It is only proper for others to decide if a penalty for this is in order, and if so, what that penalty would be. 

Just as with other requirements for me, such as being required to sleep naked, uncovered, with lights on, and with a window uncovered, the requirement that I strip naked on demand or request when encountered in person, and the current requirement that I do not masturbate or intentionally cum or ejaculate, I cannot very well expect to avoid some form or penalty or punishment if I fail to obey those requirements at all times or in all situations.

For lack of a better way to provide input, thoughts, or ideas anonymously, the "Secret Message Book" site would be the best way to convey any input to me in the topic.

https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db 

If anonymity is not a preference, then I can be emailed directly at

DaveS113065@gmail.com

or

DaveS113065@yahoo.com

If a penalty is in order, perhaps a short list of potential penalties can be complied, and one reasonable and also fitting one could be chosen through voting or through some similar means.

Must report a rule violation for signature photos in emails

 For the purpose of openness and honesty, I must admit that I violated the rule for specific photos of me to be embedded in or attached to all emails I send or reply to. 

Three photos of me are always and in all circumstances to be included in any and all emails or replies sent out by me. The three photos are:

These photos were initially to be part of an email signature that would automatically be inserted into any composed email, but Yahoo began to no longer support photos in an email signature. This meant that the photos could only be included as attachments that needed to be manually added to each email.

I entirely neglected to do this in a recent email, and rightfully the recipient was aware of this failure and shortcoming by me, and also rightfully, they pointed this out to me. 

I admit that I was entirely wrong to have neglected a rule or requirement that always applies to me under all circumstances. I know these rules and requirements exist to be complied with and followed by me, and do not come with an option for me to neglect them. 

To be honest I am ashamed that I hadn't even realized that I neglected this rule, at least until I was caught and that my neglect was pointed out. In a way I'm grateful for having been caught and called out for it, so that this violation is not repeated. It shows me that I need to pay closer attention to what is required for me.

Just for informational purposes, I have two email accounts. One is with yahoo and my address is DaveS113065@yahoo.com

The other is with Google and my address is DaveS113065@gmail.com 

There are issues for me when sending a gmail to a yahoo address, likely due to the signature photos being embedded into the message, causing the message to be blocked from sending. But between the two email accounts, a message that includes the required photos is always so far able to be sent by me. 

I know that just because there are several other requirements that I'm obliged to follow, it's no excuse for neglecting to follow any one of them. There's never any excuse for me failing to do what's required of me. 

Sometimes the length of time between sending or replying to emails can be long for me, so it's not as ingrained in me like some other daily requirements are. I clearly need to pay more attention to following requirements that need to be followed less often. If not for the attentiveness of a recipient of a reply from me, and the fact that they were aware of the requirement and pointed out my failure to fulfill the requirement, my failure in compliance may have occurred again. 

I know I should never need to be informed of a failure to comply, or to be "caught", but in this case it's probably fortunate that I was caught quickly and that I was informed about it and expected to correct it. 

So I apologize to the recipient who had to call me out on a failure of mine, and in general to everyone else for failing to abide by a requirement. I promise to pay closer attention to this requirement in particular, and to ensure that one way or another, the three photos of me are included to every single email and reply that is sent out by me, no matter how redundant or repetitive it might be, and no matter who the recipient is.

 

Nightly Exposure being observed

My nightly and night long exposure has been occurring ever since it became one of the requirements in the results of a now closed poll. The requirement is that I sleep naked in a well lit room, where the bed is in full view of the window. The window blind is to remain open, and no sheets or covers can be used to cover up or conceal me at any time.

During the first couple of months of this, and as I was getting adjusted to being exposed naked every night, I was only aware of being seen or observed on a couple of occasions. I knew then how much of a difference there is between knowing I could be seen and actually knowing that I was being seen naked at that very moment. At that moment I knew that one or more people that I didn't really know, but who I would see or encounter during the day, was looking at every part of my naked body that they could see, and they knew they were completely free to look for as long as they wanted to. I also knew that now that they had seen me naked, they might continue to look to see when I might be exposed again for them to see. 

Over the last few months, I really have no idea how many people may have seen me naked at night, or how many times or how often they might be looking. While it's completely dark outside, the view is mostly one way since the light inside makes it hard to see anything beyond the window other than reflections of the inside of the room and my own naked reflection. I'm also asleep or trying to sleep at those times, so anyone looking at me then would basically be free to look while never being known about by me.

I thought I might be jumping to conclusions at first, but on some mornings when I would wake up as daylight was coming, I started to notice that there seemed to be a bit more activity outside than there usually was. Once there would be a little bit of daylight I could begin to see a bit more of what was going on outside. I could see people walking, going to or from vehicles, walking dogs, or just being out there. I knew that in the dim daylight, if I could see them then they could surely see me on the bed in a lit room.

I told myself that all of that must always have occurred, and that I was just noticing it now. I thought it was conceited to think that any of it had anything to do with me. I told myself that most or all of them weren't even noticing me in bed naked, let alone looking at me or observing me.

I got myself to believe that for a while and for the most part, and it might actually be true at times for some people who are out there at some times. But it doesn't seem to be true for others. Some do seem to find some reason to be outside at around the same time each morning, even if they seem to have no reason to be out there. They also always seem to be out there before it gets too light outside or before the time when I get out of bed.

I'm partly convinced that some people nearby have realized that before it's too light outside and before the time comes when I usually get out of bed, that they can see me without having to venture out in the dark or at some very late or very early time.

It could all be coincidence, and attributing any of that to being about seeing me naked could be entirely off base, but it's increasing seeming to be accurate. If it is accurate, then I now have one or more regular and repeated viewers, at least until seeing me becomes too routine or my naked body becomes too well known and familiar to them. 

   

As impossible as it is to ever expect to be exposed naked without being seen naked, I surely never expected for there to be regular viewers, if that is in fact the case. It's looking more and more as though I'm becoming one of the regular sights or an interesting attraction for viewing by nearby others. And not a temporary one. 

Also, it's now 60 plus days into my requirement for no masturbating at all. The poll for this still remains open, but it's continuing to appear that there will be no reprieve on this for me, and that remaining aroused and horny for much of the time will continue indefinitely.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K

Up-to-date on nightly exposure and no masturbating

 As much is it could go without saying due to all requirements for me being obeyed, I'm still remaining exposed naked each night and while in bed.

In the last photo, a car with its headlight on can be seen approaching in the direction of the window. It's not known if its occupants saw me, but in the early morning light they may have. Of course all night long and while it's fully dark outside I remain exposed and observable although I am asleep and unaware of any of it for most or all of that time. 

                                             David Steckel sleeping while exposed naked through window
 

Although being exposed naked to view all night does still include periods of time of feeling extremely exposed and feeling at least moderately humiliated at times, I believe my public exposure each night is becoming or even is a matter of course for me.

When getting into bed I can often do it without much thought about my being naked, the lights being on, or about the window being uncovered. It's basically the new normal for me. I can become quite aware of my exposure if I look directly at the window from my bed, especially if I can see beyond the window, so I make an attempt to not look in that direction. 

Due to not masturbating, which has been the case now for 55+ days and nights, erections occur every night and usually multiple times per night. Once I fall asleep, any time I wake up during the night I tend to already have an erection. To be able to fall asleep again quickly, I found it best to just ignore the erections. I obviously get them while asleep and anyone observing me would see them anyway, so it doesn't seem worthwhile to pay attention to them while I'm briefly awake. 

I still wake up to find myself on my stomach humping the bed or on my back thrusting upwards, but the most I can do then is to stop doing it and assume that anyone observing me has seen it. Apparently as long as I'm aroused or horny from not masturbating, these things will continue and aren't preventable. I just have to consider them as being part of my nightly exposure to the neighborhood. 

For at least some nearby, my nightly exposure naked is likely a fixture that is expected to be there. Especially for those who have the best line of sight view of my bed through the window. Those who arrive home late in the evening or who leave early in the morning before or just after dawn have every opportunity to see me. The rest of the night is an open question since the comings and goings of others is random and unpredictable. 

It's a strange dichotomy though, since during the day my body is mostly mine to conceal or keep covered up, but at night none of that is the case. Seeing me completely naked and exposed is as simple as looking towards my window, and the opportunity to view me is not brief or temporary. It lasts for the entire night and well into or after dawn at the current time. 

As the time for sunrise and sunset changes over time, how long I am exposed each night won't change. From between 10:30 and 11:00 pm each night until between 7:00 and 7:30 am each morning I will be exposed to view naked. Any night where I am extra tired and go to be earlier, it only means that my exposure begins earlier that night.

 

No masturbating for a week or more.

 The questionnaire at https://forms.gle/rfLKisCWHbUyha1f6 is currently tied three ways. One decision says I cannot masturbate at all. I can only cum if it happens due to my habit of humping the bed during sleep, mostly when I'm in a heightened state of arousal due to not masturbating. Or I can cum by having a wet dream, which is less likely to happen.

Another decision says I can masturbate in bed while exposed only once per week, and on the same night every week. 

The third decision says I have to abstain from masturbating for a week, but continue to masturbating in bed while exposed each night afterwards.

Since all three involve no masturbating for at least a week, I can't masturbate for at least that long. If the tie vote is broken, the decision with the most votes will decide things after the week is up. 

The first day of not masturbating isn't too difficult. The night can be a bit more difficult, especially if I become aroused.

The second day I can find myself aroused for very little reason, and the need to masturbate gets stronger. By the second night I'm more easily aroused than I was during the day, and avoiding masturbating becomes more difficult.Not thinking about it only works for a brief time. 

By that time I'm a little more likely to end up humping the bed during sleep, but I haven't awakened as much to find that I'm doing it after two days of not masturbating. 

On the third day I really feel a need to masturbate, and I have to distract myself with other things to avoid being almost endlessly aroused. By the third night my need to masturbate is near desperate. Erections can occur more often. Even during sleep. I only know of the times when I woke up with an erection, It could be that it happens more but without me waking up to know about it.

The same is true for humping the bed, which becomes more likely during the third night. I might wake up once or twice to find myself stomach-down and humping the bed. 

By the fourth day it's harder to keep myself distracted from being aroused, and it's almost a sure thing that I will get an erection a few times during the night. Humping the bed becomes almost as sure by then.

By the fifth day and night, it's about as bad as it's going to get. Unless some other influence is having an effect on me, like some sort of stress or something making me anxious or nervous, I will get an erection at random moment. Once I fall asleep an erection is even more likely and can happen more often. 

By then I will wake up humping the bed more than once per night, I can only guess about when it doesn't wake me up. I don't know how long it would go on if doesn't wake me up.

I already don't know how much I might end up being seen naked through the window at night. After a few days of not masturbating, anyone looking at the right time will almost definitely see me having an erection. While I'm asleep I wouldn't know it and there's no way to really hide it anyway.

At the right time, or times, they will also see me humping the bed naked. By the time I wake up doing it, I never know how long I was doing it, or how much my bare ass was going up and down. I have no idea how involved I might get in it if I don't wake up from it. 

Whenever I do wake up doing it, even if no one is seeing it, it's still a little humiliating. After days of not masturbating I'm sure to end up doing it right while I'm exposed to anyone through the window, If anyone was looking or watching, they would have already seen me doing it by the time I did wake up. Even if I stop they will already have seen me. 

Doing that and not masturbating afterward makes it even more likely that I will do it again pretty soon. I suppose I'm unconsciously seeking relief in some way. 

If it turns out that I can masturbate again after a week, there will still be at least three nights where I'll have little or no control over what happens while I'm asleep. That means I'll be exposed through the window not only naked, but with an erection and also humping the bed. Nothing I know if except for masturbating can prevent those things from occurring. If I can't masturbate, they will occur for absolute certainty by some point in time while I am asleep. If anyone is looking at those times, they will see all of it, and I'm likely not to know it. 

On a related topic, it was asked whether the blind could be raised more. It can be and has been raised a few more inches. Photos of the blind and the window make the blind appear to not be open much, but from my point of view on the bed, it appears open wider than the photos show it.

Here are some photos of the blind as it is now and during the day.

 

Photo from the point of view near the pillows. Residences can be seen nearby. The nearby lot has rows of condos on either side that are out of sight. Condos are also located further down at the far end of the lot. 

Photo showing the view out of the window at around where my knees would be while in bed. The building is two separate condos with residents in each. Their vehicles park where the parked vehicle can be seen. Residents there walk to and from their parked vehicles at random times including at night. Each condo has a covered porch where residents often sit, located on both far ends.

The blind can clearly be opened further. As it is it's not really concealing anything of me, and is only really blocking sky. Opening it fully might be too far and make it less possible for it to seem that my exposure is due to me being oblivious of it or that I'm not aware of it. If it has to be open even more to satisfy the requirement, then it will be. Just preferably not fully open. I do realize that the purpose and idea might be for a more open blind to possibly attract more notice, but there is one other thing to know.

My window is the only window on the entire side of the building. It's all stucco wall otherwise. So not only is my window lit up at night, but it's the only window on an otherwise bare, large outside wall.

When anyone looks my way at night. there is nothing else to see besides for me naked in bed. Even if I'm able to delude myself that no one really notices me, I still know that can't realistically be true.

For anyone outside looking in my window at night, it will be possible very soon for them to see that I have an erection, or even worse for me, to see me asleep and humping the bed. I can't even say that I hope I won't get an erection or hump the bed at night naked, since I know that both of those things are going to occur within the next few days and for days after. 

Updates will be included as necessary. 

 

I also borrowed a not-so-bad camera overnight fro someone I know. I said I needed to take a profile photo for a website I joined. After transferring the photo to my laptop, I deleted the photo from the camera and returned it. At least I think and hope it was completely deleted. If not then I might find out soon enough. The camera had a timer, so I was able to take a photo of me naked in bed at night with the uncovered window visible beyond.

Note that this photo was taken before the blind was raised a bit higher.

 

 UPDATE 1: After one day and one night without masturbating.

 

As expected, the first day without masturbating wasn't too difficult.  The night did end up being harder than expected though. While trying to fall asleep I couldn't help becoming aroused and getting an erection. As I laid there I was was very aware that anyone could be seeing me naked and hard through the window. I had an urge to hide it or conceal it, but I knew I couldn't, since there is no such thing as privacy for me whenever I'm in bed. The blind had just recently been raised more, and even though I was already entirely exposed before it was raised, I felt much more exposed. 

I tried turning onto my stomach, but the contact between my erection and the bed made my arousal even worse. The best I could do was to lay on my back again and leave my erection exposed to the view of anyone who could see me through the window. 

I did fall asleep at some point. I don't know what time it was when I first woke up, but when I did I found that I was already humping the bed. As soon as I realized it I stopped, but my erection was too sensitive to leave in contact with the bed. I had to turn over and once again expose my erection to possible view.

Just before 5 am I woke up again humping the bed. This time I was way too aroused to want to stop though. I just couldn't make myself care that I might be being watched or seen at the time. I just wanted to keep feeling my erection touch and rub the bed. I felt humiliated that someone might be watching me doing it, but I just couldn't stop. I kept doing it for several minutes with my ass bouncing up and down the whole time. I wish now that I would have or could have stopped, but at that time I just couldn't stop. 

It's going to be a long week, and it looks as if I'm going to put on quite a display naked for anyone who sees me through the window during the nights.

                               
UPDATE 2: After two days and nights of not masturbating.

On my second day of not masturbating, I woke up with an erection. I'd been asleep for a few hours straight by then, and I have no idea how much of that time I spent with and erection. I also don't know what I did while asleep or if anyone saw me. It was really hard for me to ignore my strong urge to masturbate, but I knew I wasn't supposed to so I didn't.

 I got up and went out and took care of some things during the morning. After that I went to get a much needed and overdue haircut. In the barbers chair while covered up with the sheet they use, I did get an erection for a few minutes. I felt it start without any real reason, but once it started I had to sit there with it until it somehow went away before the sheet was removed. 

A while later I started feeling tired and not so good, but I pushed myself along until I got home. By late evening I felt so tired that I went to bed earlier than usual. As I got into bed naked and began my night of being exposed naked to anyone outside, I knew I would fall asleep quickly. I really must have been tired, since I slept for about seven hours without waking up once. I woke up just before it was about to get light out without any idea about whether I was seen or looked at during the night or whether I had any erections or humped my bed during the night. I feel like both of those things may have happened, but without me waking up to know about it. 

As I start my third day of not masturbating, I still don't feel all that well and plan to stay home for the day. At some point I'll probably lie down in bed for a while. Of course I know that even during daytime that still means I have to be naked and exposed to anyone outside, but if I want to lie down I have to accept being exposed. I may not be as visible to anyone looking in as I am during the night, but I know it's still possible for me to be seen. There are also a lot more people out and about during the day, but I doubt that I will be able to put off lying down for too long. 

NEAR THE END OF THE THIRD DAY:

No update was planned for now, but I need to vent and try to distract myself. 

Right now I'm not even going to say that I'm aroused. I'm outright horny. I keep getting one erection after another with no way to relieve them. I even keep thrusting my hips forward as if I'm trying to hump the air. Knowing I can't masturbate and being so horny with a hard-on has even made be whine a little bit a few times out of desperation. I sure didn't expect anything like this after just a few days. It's still a few hours until I'll go to bed, but if I stay as horny as I am then I can only imagine how my night in bed naked will be. I'm afraid I'll have a hard-on all night and end up humping my bed way too much. 

Since I know anyone could be watching me through my window, I'm going to try not to put on much of a show for them to see. I won't be able to do anything about them seeing me with an endless hard-on, but at least while I'm awake I have control to not hump my bed. I know once I fall asleep though, it's out of my control. I'm not much looking forward to what tonight will be like while I'm exposed naked all night. I guess I'll know by morning though, which will then be related here. I'm sure I'll need to vent and occupy myself again by then.

AFTER THIRD NIGHT OF NO MASTURBATING:

My third night without masturbating was torture. I did get an erection soon after getting into bed. I knew I wasn't supposed to hide it from anyone who might be looking in at me through the window, so by trying as hard as I could I was able to leave it alone without even touching it. Just as I was falling asleep though, I made the mistake of turning onto my stomach. The contact of me dick with the bed was exasperating. It felt way, way too good. I didn't actually start humping my bed, but even though I knew I might be being seen, I couldn't help slightly rubbing my dick on the bed. I tried not to move my hips any more than necessary, but I knew to anyone looking it would look a lot like I was humping. I faced away from the window so I wouldn't keep being reminded that I was entirely exposed while I did it. 

I still don't know how I managed to fall asleep, but somehow I did while lying on my stomach. I slept for four hours straight and woke up with a partial erection. I was also lying on my side with my knees drawn up and with my bare ass facing the window. I don't know what those four hours might have exposed me doing. I just know that I had at least two nonsensical dreams during that time. 

One was that my car got stuck in some mud along a residential street and for some reason i was naked. In the dream I had to walk naked and alone to some house that was way off in the distance but visible. It was also day time in my dream. When I got to the house, some people I didn't know were angry at me for failing to bring some item along from my car. They made me walk back to it to retrieve the item. I don;t even know what item it was.

Once I got there my car was somehow no longer stuck, and as the dream ended I was beginning to drive it back to the house. Strangely, the many people who I passed by or who saw me in the dream acted as if I was either not naked, or like they didn't care a bit about it.

I don't recall much about the other dream except that it was unsettling and that in the dream I suspected that it was only a dream.

After waking up after the dreams, I sat up for about twenty minutes before returning to bed. I laid there with erections coming and going for a good while, wanting to masturbate very much. Fortunately I fell asleep again and slept for three and a half more hours until my alarm went off just after dawn. I had "morning wood" and had to pee pretty bad, so I had to get out of bed soon after I shut off the alarm. 

My fourth day of not masturbating started as day with some driving around needing to be done. While driving, the contact of my jeans on my dick caused a few erections. Not wearing underwear means my dick does just about whatever it wants to, and at a couple of red traffic lights I was in the middle of three lanes. Each time  higher vehicle was stopped beside me, especially on my passenger side, I hoped the erection in my pants wasn't visible enough for anyone beside me to notice it. 

I actually thought about taking it out of my jeans to avoid the contact, but I knew anyone stopped beside me or passing me might see it. My car also sits quite low down, which means any SUV, Pick Up truck, or large truck passengers or drivers can see down into my car pretty easily. I doubt things will be much different for the rest of the day.

AFTER A FOURTH NIGHT OF NO MASTURBATING

My fourth day of not masturbating went a little better than it began. Erections would occur, and when alone I would unconsciously reach for or rub my erection, only to quickly realize what I was doing. I didn't want to stop, but with some effort I managed to keep restraining myself. 

Once going to bed at night, things went surprisingly easy. As I dozed off I was aware that I had just a partial erection and did my best to ignore it. 

I woke up at around 2 am to find that I was on my stomach and my right leg had extended partially off the edge of the bed, which is probably what woke me up. That's an uncommon occurrence for me, so it makes me wonder why it happened now. I can only assume that I might be humping the bed more often or more intensely during sleep, and somehow I did that enough or for a long enough time for my leg to get to past the edge of the bed. 

I prefer to think that no one was seeing me through the window at the time, but I don't know if that's true. If anyone did see me, I can't even begin to imagine what they might have seen of me. 

I got out of bed briefly after that, but I was still so tired that within minutes I had to return to bed. I apparently fell asleep again quickly, since I don't recall lying there for very long. I have no recollection about anything after that until I woke up at dawn, which seems to be around the time I almost automatically wake up each morning. I did have a full erection when I woke that refused to go away though. It was bouncing around as I got out of bed. As I commonly do in the morning, I had to pee quite badly. By the time I made it into the bathroom, my erection had barely relented, and I had to lean forward quite a bit to be able to pee. 

Still early into my fifth day of not masturbating, things seem to be going alright so far. My penis feels as if it's been rubbed quite a bit, which I can only assume was due to me excessively humping the bed during the past night. I must really be going at it while I'm asleep. 

I've also noticed that the neighbor with the nearest window that I can be seen from during the night has started to open the slats on her Venetian blind after dark each night, and then closes the slats after daylight. The window can be seen on the right side of the first photo included in the main post above. It may be a coincidence, but it may be that she is in there in the dark room at night watching me in bed naked, or even watching me as I do whatever I'm doing while I'm asleep. 

There seems to be no way to know for sure, and even if I could know, it doesn't change a thing. There's no stopping her or anyone else from looking.

EVENING OF FIFTH DAY:

Not much new or different occurred throughout the day. There were the erections that would come and go, even for no apparent reason.

One thing that's definitely new and hasn't happened to be for a very long time was I nearly came (or cummed) without the slightest erection and while I was "soft". 

I was carrying a mid sized trash bag on one hand, and held a box a little bigger than a shoe box in the other hand. The cardboard box was small but a bit heavy, so I held it against my stomach. I was naked at the time.

I was heading through two rooms to place everything near the door so I could later take it out and put it in the trash.

As I was carrying the slightly heavy box, it started to slip down along my stomach as I walked. It wasn't too far to walk so I figured I'd get there before dropping the box. The box finally slipped down and made contact with my penis.

Right away it felt good. Very good. I only took a few more steps when I suddenly realized I was just one more step away from cumming. I froze in place and I wasn't sure if I'd already passed the point of no return. Apparently I'd just missed that point and the feeling slowly subsided. I could barely believe what had just happened, I was soft but I had no doubt that I was as close to cumming as I could get without it actually happening. 

A while afterward, I wondered why I had frozen in place rather than just letting it happen. I know it had to be because I knew it was a form or method of masturbating even if I didn't have that exact thought at the time. I knew it would be wrong if I came from any form of masturbation that I was aware of happening. I knew I still had at least two more days to go before anything like that might be able to happen, and even longer of the tie vote in the poll isn't broken by then, or if another decision is for abstaining from it. 

I don't think a wet dream is too possible even if I can't say it wouldn't happen. I do think it's starting to be possible for me to cum in my sleep while humping the bed. I can't really imagine that happening, but I could barely imagine almost cumming with a soft penis either until it happened. I know it would feel good, probably like the wet dream I did once have. That time it occurred after being where there was no chance for days of being able to masturbate unnoticed. I recall waking up, feeling an amazingly good feeling, and being confused about how waking up could possibly feel that good, until I realized...

If I do somehow cum in my sleep, I will admit it and hope that it'll be believed that I didn't just intentionally masturbate while knowing I can't.

MORNING OF SIXTH DAY - NO MORE MASTURBATING FOR ME!

I woke up this morning after a night of exposure and I just expected another day of nearly constant arousal and getting erections repeatedly. I did a few things before I got around to checking on the most recent poll  results at: https://forms.gle/rfLKisCWHbUyha1f6

I checked the poll last evening and I saw a tie still existed, so I expected to see the decisions still tied like they've been for a few days. At first I thought something had loaded wrong and refreshed the page. Once it reloaded what I saw made me unable to move or think for a few seconds. The tie was not only broken, but one option had been clearly and undeniably decided upon. I am now entirely forbidden from masturbating at all. My week of not masturbating has no end now. 

I have to admit that my first thought was "OH NO". I think that because I'm in a nearly perpetual state of arousal by now, I got an instant erection. I didn't want to or mean to get one, especially after realizing that I cannot purposely or willingly masturbate at all any longer. I seem to be so aroused by now that even seeing that I have to remain that way was enough for me to get a stiff erection. I'm definitely in what is uncharted territory for me.

I hate to admit that I had the thought of trying to change or tamper with the results before anyone saw them. I knew right away that was ridiculous since those who made the decisions would obviously know what they decided. There could be no hiding it. I also realized there was no means or mechanism for affecting any results. I knew I was resigned to the decision. 

I couldn't think too clearly for a few minutes as I worked to accept my reality. Then I began to realize some of what it would mean.

I will stay in a heightened state of arousal most of the time. It will continue to feel as though my penis is in charge of me and is control, with me feeling at it's mercy but with it having little or no mercy. My inhibitions will surely be and remain at lower levels.

I'm already having unusual and vivid dreams which seem to be a result of not masturbating for so long, maybe combined with having to sleep naked and exposed each night. In the dreams I am almost always naked and always end up being exposed, usually quite publicly.Those seem to often coincide with me ending up awakening in bed to realize I'm in the process of humping the bed and with an erection.

It seems inevitable now that if it hasn't happened already, anyone looking in at me through the window during the night is going to see me either with an erection or see me humping the bed naked. Even both could be seen by the same person or people. When those people see me outside during the day, they will be sure to picture me or recall seeing me that way no matter how many clothes I have on at the time. It's just sure to happen now.

I know at some point in time I am going to end up cumming without intending to. It could happen in bed with a wet dream or from humping the bed while sleeping. I dread the fact that it could also happen anywhere at any time while I'm out somewhere. It could happen at work and with other people around. It could happen in some place like the grocery store or some other store, in the middle of a parking lot, or anywhere else in public.

By not masturbating for so long, it seems it can occur even without me having an erection. Whenever it does happen, it's sure to be an extremely intense climax and orgasm. I've had some very intense ones when I would masturbate after not doing it for tow or three days. The next time is sure to be even more intense. I will try, but I don't see how it wont be pretty obvious what's happening to anyone who might be nearby. 

Wherever I am at the time, I will most likely panic to some degree once I realize it's going to happen and can't be stopped. I expect that it will stop me in place wherever I am, and if I haven;t made any sounds by then, the intensity of the orgasm will probably be too much and I will probably involuntarily let out a moan or two that may quite loud. 

I have almost no doubt at all that it will cause me to thrust my hips forward and back again a few times as I'm cumming no matter how much I try to prevent it. I will basically be stuck in place as this happens no matter where I am and no matter how many others are around me. An unusually large wet spot will unavoidably appear on my pants between my legs, which will all but confirm what is happening to anyone around who is seeing me. They will all know for sure that I just climaxed and came right there in public and right there in front of them, and there won't be a thing I can do about it.

I can hope to avoid it happening, but I may not be able to and I there's no way to know when it might happen. I do know for sure that I will cum at some point. It just won't be under my control about when or where it happens. I suppose that's up to my penis, and it's incapable of caring about when or where it does what it does.

I should probably relate a little more about how the recent sixth night went. 

I fell asleep without having an erection, but something about falling asleep seems to cause erections to begin and rarely stop. Even when I wake up on my back, I will have an erection. With some cooler weather at the moment, the window sash is down and the light in the room shows my naked reflection in the glass if I look that way. Last night I could clearly see my erection in the glass, and what I can see, so can anyone who might be looking in. On my stomach and looking that way I can see me bare butt cheeks along with the rest of me naked. I can only imagine how it must look when I'm humping the bed and my butt is going up and down. Some of the people nearby probably know exactly how it looks.

Since this post is becoming very long with the updates, one more day of updates will be related here. After that it seems that a new post will be needed to provide additional updates. Especially since I won't be masturbating anymore. The decision in the poll seems unlikely to change anytime soon, since it has a clear majority.

SEVENTH DAY OF NO MASTURBATING:

This will be the last update in this post. Further updates will be related in a new post with updates being related as necessary.

Last night I was very tired but I only went to bed at around 11 pm, which is usually what time I go to bed. When being in bed and sleeping exposed through the window first became a requirement for me, I might have stayed out of bed later to slightly delay my exposure, but I seem to have gotten to the point where I know that's futile. It's not that I'm used to being exposed naked all night long, but I know it's unavoidable and it's a little less hard to just accept that I will be exposed and that whoever will see me will see me. It's probably best to describe it as that I'm just resigning myself to it being that way.

Being tired, I fell asleep in a short time after getting into bed. I did get an erection at one point while dozing off, but I just let it be. I couldn't do anything about it and I knew if anyone was looking in at me, they were already seeing that it was there. I tried putting all of the out of my mind as I dozed off.

I'm not sure of what time it was, but I woke up sometime later with my bare ass nearly off of the edge of the bed nearest to the window, and I knew I had been thrusting my hips. I was mostly lying on my right side and my penis wasn't really in contact with the bed. I had an erection and it seems as though I was just humping nothing. My bare ass must have been thrusting towards the window. My hip muscles felt as if I'd been going for a while, so I had probably been doing it for a while. 

I stopped doing it right as I woke up and I thought how curious it was that I had been doing it. I was still tired, so I just lied there, but as I woke up a little more it dawned on me that I had been on display like that for who knows how long, and I'd been doing it as close to the window as I could be without leaving the bed. I also realized that I was still lying like that with my bare ass slightly pushed out towards the window. 

I was comfortable in that position though, and I knew that if anyone had looked or was looking, they had already seen everything. The thought I had then was "screw it". I fell asleep again without changing my position. 

I do still feel very exposed in bed, and I know really am very exposed, but as I'm resigning myself to being exposed I seem to be dwelling on it less and less. Instead of lying there thinking about it a lot, I'm a little more able to accept that this is how it will be whether I dwell on it or not. I think it's just a little bit easier now for me to push those thoughts out of my head and to fall asleep. 

Absolutely nothing changes except for in my mind, but since that's all that can change it's at least something. I think I'm realizing on a deeper level that since I've already been seen a few times, and realizing that I will inevitably be seen more, that I just have to accept it. At night my naked body, my erections, humping the bed, and everything else are more or less public. As humiliating as that is, it's mostly true. 

When I only partly wake up during he night, I'm even forgetting that I'm exposed, even though it comes back to me once I wake up more or look towards the uncovered window.

Sometime well into the very early morning I woke up just barely. I was on my back with a full erection. I don't know how to explain the concept, but with a full erection I can make it move up and down by using some reflex that feels like drawing or pulling in. I think it's similar to the process of getting the last squirts out while peeing. 

As I lay there partly awake, I did that and my erection lifted up a little, then fell back down once I relaxed the reflex. I did this around a dozen times and I was enjoying the feeling of it. I finally stopped doing it and started trying to fall back asleep when I realized that for that whole time I had still been exposed through the window. I had a quick thought of "Aw" as I realized what may have been displayed if anyone was looking in at me, But then I resigned myself to the fact that whatever I did was probably going to be seen by nearby others no matter what I did or how I felt about it. 

I also know that being exposed requires that nothing can remain private or unable to be seen even when it's extremely humiliating. When I inevitably see or encounter anyone nearby who has seen me exposed is when humiliation will apply. 

I will admit this as a final part of this update. Without masturbating for a week now, the fact that I will be humiliated when someone nearby who has seen me exposed sees me in person seems to have triggered a full erection for me. I prefer not to think much about how or why that is, and will attribute it to my nearly constant state of high arousal due to lack of masturbation. 

Further updates needed will be in a new post to follow.