Recent Increase in online views of my Exposure

 While other things have been developing and occurring, it's always easy not to think much about how and where I am regularly exposed at all times and on a daily basis. Much thought is also not given to previous or older blog posts.

For a reason unknown to me, this blog https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/?zx=61def3ab1d2d994b has been receiving a large number of daily views recently. The view count does tend to fluctuate up and down over time, but increases in views tend to last for a short time, then drop again. But lately the daily view count is averaging 200 and more per day. 

All that's knowable is the daily view count, the previous days view count, and view counts for specific posts in selected periods such as the last seven days, 30 days, 60 days and all time. Nothing at all about viewers themselves can ever be known. The weekly view count is now commonly well above a thousand. 

The view count is also subdivided into which posts received which number of views, and one older post in particular is receiving a vast number of the views. I don't know why this post has suddenly become very popular, since it only shows a single video of me from nine and a half years ago. The post is: https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2013/09/blog-post.html

and the video it shows is:

 

A few other older posts are receiving a lot of views, and I know it's really none of my business what is being seen of me. It's just unexpected. 

The newer blog page at: https://blog08633.wordpress.com/ has a different way of offering statistics, but appears to get anywhere from 5 to 40+ views per day. Being so new it may not be established yet, and to get any other link than the one above, and upgrade to a paid plan is necessary. 

One other site that has a noticeable increase in views recently is the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

It's still unclear how the notifications for statistics work there. It seems that a notification is only sent when the page is viewed for the very first time by someone, but not if they return to view it additional times. After the page was first established, notifications for new views came often. Then it was only occasionally. Now it's daily and has been that way for a while. A screenshot of recent notifications:

It may have nothing to do with it, but a Facebook friend from back in high school who was invited to view the page many months ago recently visited the page, and within a day of her visit, the notifications for new views began to come regularly. It may be a coincidence, but it's at least possible that after seeing the page, she began to "spread the word" of the page and of my exposure to friends and others previous classmates. Of course if that is the case, she has every right to do as she pleases, but it's still more likely that it's all a coincidence. 

Just as with the increased blog views, it's just that it's unexpected. It does seem highly likely though, that some of the additional viewers in both cases are people who know me or at least knew me at one time or another. I've never come across or seen anyone I know or knew naked or fully exposed on the internet, so I can't speak from experience on that. But if I ever did I think I might be curious or even interested to see as much of them as there was to see. For many who know me, I happen to be the person they know or knew who they have seen, are seeing, or will see naked and fully exposed on the internet. 

In most or many cases this will be or become the defining aspect about me and what will be thought of and remembered most about me by them. Hearing or seeing my name or thinking of me will likely bring to their mind whichever picture or video of me naked that they saw and remember the most or the one they most recently saw of me.

There is no reversing that or avoiding it, so I will always be defined by my exposure and I have to be willing to accept that fact. 

Only remaining aroused from now on: Masturbation and Climaxing prohibited permanently

 I had hoped it would not come to this, or at least for it to be delayed as long as possible, but it seems that my prohibition on masturbating, climaxing, and cumming are to be permanent. 

One last flurry of posts online mentioning that possibility has apparently led to a massive influx of decisions being made within a short time. Not only has the decision for the prohibition been upheld, but it has been massively reinforced to the point where there can no longer be any doubts about it or any hope for a different result. 

My first thought was that some sort of hack may have occurred, but there is nothing to point towards such a thing. The results seem to stand on their own. 

Due to the majority decision since January 1st of 2023, the prohibition has been in effect already for nearly 140 days, so I've gotten to know something about what it is like to remain aroused and horny for so much of the time without any outlet or relief from it. 

There is commonly a feeling of sexual frustration, and it often feels as if my dick is in control of me for much of the time. When it ants to get hard, it gets hard, and when it wants to be stimulated, it gets stimulated with almost no regard for how it might or does humiliate me. So a permanent prohibition on masturbating and climaxing feels to me as if I am surrendering to my dick and that it will now always be in control of things, leaving me subject to its whims and urges. 

The prohibition means that I can never masturbate to the point of ejaculating. I can edge but never climax. Even though edging leads to pure frustration when it must be stopped short of anything more, I often cannot help doing it. Sometimes I only realize I'm doing it once it's already been engaged in. 

The prohibition also means that I have to do everything possible to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate, and ensure that I remain in a state or arousal and of being horny at all possible times. It's required as part of me getting what has been decided that I deserve.

Just as I have so far, I will undoubtedly need to keep reminding myself often "This is what I deserve and what is required." That always reminds me of the reason for enduring or accepting whatever it is that I have to endure or accept at that moment. 

Even though I cannot climax or ejaculate intentionally, or to allow it to occur knowingly, there is still the possibility of it occurring if it is directly caused by someone other than me.

If it occurs by the hand of someone else or through their actions, it's unintentional on my part and only an unavoidable reaction by me. When anyone is present in person with me, I already can never refuse to present my naked body to them upon request or demand, which includes my dick. Once presented, what they do to or with my naked body or my dick is always entirely their decision aside from anything that causes physical damage or moderate to severe injury. They would be free to cause me to climax, although it's unlikely to take much time or effort due to it not occurring at any other time or in any other way. 

But inevitably, the poll will be closed and I have to accept the decision made and state the following:

I, David Steckel hereby accept the decision of others that I am to be permanently prohibited from masturbating to the point of climaxing or ejaculating. I swear to obey this prohibition at all times, and to ensure that all possible steps are taken by me to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate willingly or knowingly unless it is initiated by or caused by the hand or actions of someone other than myself. I accept remaining in a state or arousal without the possibility of relief from it. I understand that if I am ever found to be in violation of this requirement, that I will be subject to any and all penalties deemed proper by others.  

The document image above contains my legal online signature as evidence that I understand this obligation and do not take it lightly or less than seriously. 

The final steps are for all included information, images, and documents to be released publicly in order for the prohibition to be widely know about and understood. It's not something I look forward to, and it's more than a little humiliating for me, but I can understand why it is necessary. I understand that the more other people know about the prohibition, the less opportunities there will be for me to violate the requirement and get away with it.

But I have obeyed the requirement completely for almost 140 days so far and will now always have to continue to do the same. I know I cannot do something that was decided that I don't deserve to do, and now I now for sure that so many others cannot possibly be wrong about what I deserve. Now when I feel sexual frustration from being so aroused, I know I must deserve to feel it. 

If I'm humping the bed from arousal and seen by neighbors while obeying the requirement to sleep exposed naked each night, then I know I must deserve to be seen that way. It all always comes down to accepting and obeying what I deserve, enduring it, and living with it and its results.