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Wednesday, January 11, 2023

Post: January 11th

Update on a few topics:

At the current time it is the the eleventh day of no masturbating. I have not had one single ejaculation or climax since Jan. 1st and it's now into the eleventh day. For brief periods during the day I can feel very little effect from it, but never for more than several minutes. 

Questionnaire for deciding upon David Steckel's masturbation, or lack of it. Majority decision must remain in effect unless or until it changes/

https://forms.gle/c5J2e99Sx94kNi3UA 

Within a short time my penis decides to remind me that it will become hard or erect whenever it wants to. Even trying to think of non-arousing things doesn't always work well or too quickly.

This morning I got an erection while driving, just before I arrived at a convenience store where I needed to stop. I pulled into the lot and I couldn't get my erection to subside. After sitting there for a minute or so I had to get out of the car, since I didn't have much time to spare. There were a few others around, mostly sitting in other cars that all park front-end-in facing the store. The store is along a congested highway with a traffic light right there and cars were sitting there waiting. 

When I stood up, my penis was in a bad spot and felt like it was being bent, so I tried as casually as I could to readjust its position in my pants. I don't know for sure if I was casual enough for anyone not to notice, but I saw no sign of anyone noticing.

Being in front of so many cars and people, I didn't really inspect how I might appear down there and just walked into the store. I grabbed what I needed and stood next in line at the register. On the wall to my left there was a large screen that showed that part of the store on the screen. I saw the cashier, the person in front of me, and myself. On the screen I could see a bulge in the front of my jeans and I immediately had the urge to cover it up. Before I did, I realized how obvious that would be, and that I would also be shown on the screen and would be visible even to those who couldn't see much of my front. I had to just let it go and hope no one else noticed. I assume that no one did notice, only because no one acted like they did.

If I didn't know better I would swear that my penis wants everyone to know it's there, and to see one of its capabilities. 

Any time my mind wanders, I can find my hand reaching between my legs and even rubbing myself there. This happens when I'm alone when I just have to stop myself from doing, but it has happened a few times when others are around or present too. When I realize it then, I have to feign as if I was scratching rather than rubbing. If I'm partly erect by then, I have to try thinking of other things or risk a full erection after I've possibly drawn attention to that area by "scratching" there. 

One pair of my jeans has already begun to develop a small hole just to the left of the zipper, and right in the area where my penis usually sits. The hole is frayed and still covered by strands of blue threads, but now it's only a matter of time before the hole becomes larger and where at least some of my penis will be visible through it. 

I only have three pairs of jeans at the time that aren't torn or very worn out, so unless I do laundry every other day I end up needing this pair of jeans. I also usually fail to notice I put this pair on until I get an erection at some point, which usually only happens after I'm out and away from home. The jeans are still in very good shape other than the hole beside the zipper, so until the hole gets too big it seems a waste to stop wearing them. I don't think I could stand wearing underwear all day since I never do, and I only have a single pair of them in a drawer anyway. I also made a promise to someone a long time ago that I would never wear them for any reason. So for now and until the hole gets too large, I will still be wearing that pair of jeans every third day.

Within the next few wearings and washings, the hole will probably be large enough to reveal some part of my penis, but only if someone really takes a good look there. A few more washing and wearings after that and it's sure to be large enough to reveal a good portion of my penis and probably won't be able to be worn any longer without a risk of my penis actually protruding through the hole itself. 

At night it's bit of a different story, since no clothing is involved or worn then. Each night once I get into bed there's a certain amount of time where I seem to just be adjusting to beginning another night of being exposed through the window. By then much of the activity nearby has subsided a good bit and there's less of a possibility for many people to be out and about. But there are still those who may be walking a dog for a final time for the night, those who just end their days later than most, and those who have some reason to be out or about that isn't usual for them.

When I first get into bed feel quite aware of these things, even if it's for no apparent reason. Within minutes though, I start to settle in for the night. Mostly it's just me once again resigning myself to the fact that whoever is going to see me is just going to see me. 

Not masturbating for many days seems to ensure that my first erection in bed now occurs even as I'm very near to falling asleep. Whenever I'm brought back to being awake by something after being very close to falling asleep entirely, I find that I almost always have an erection already. One more recent development seems to be that one of the things that bring me back to awake is when I begin to thrust my hips upwards, even while I'm lying on my back. It's as if I'm humping nothing but air. I never recall this occurring before and it must be due to not masturbating for many days. 

When it happens and I wake up again, there's always a short period of time where I forget that I'm currently exposed until it reoccurs to me. At that point I'm aware that anyone looking in at me could have just seen the entire event, and nothing can change what may have been seen. 

Until just recently it was mostly when lying on my stomach that the thrusting and humping would occur, which was why I would remain on my back until I fell asleep. Once asleep I would inevitably move or change positions and the thrusting and humping would occur anyway, but while on my back it didn't occur. Now it seems that it does occur no matter what position I am lying in.

I'm left wondering now about how often or how long I might be doing this if I don't wake up due to it. Just last night I awoke to find my self on my back with an erection and thrusting my hips upwards before stopping myself from doing it. A moment later I noticed some lights outside that were bright enough not to be hidden by the glare of the room lights on the glass. When I glanced that way I saw that it was the lights of the vehicle of a nearby neighbor. They appeared to have just parked where they usually do or were about to leave. I couldn't be sure right them which it was, but my window is easily visible from that parking space. 

When the vehicle just sat there with lights on for several minutes, I began to convince myself that no one was inside and that only the lights were left on. Just as I decided I might be right about that, the dome light came on and three unidentifiable people began to exit the vehicle. In the dark I couldn't see them well. I assumed that at least one of them was the owner of the vehicle. I don't know for sure that they had been sitting there watching me, but I knew they could have been. If they were looking in at me then they would certainly have seen me thrusting my hips with an erection. By then though, it would have been done and over with, so once they went inside I did my best to dismiss the whole thing. 

Only later did it occur to me the residence they entered has windows that I would also be observable from. 

At that time I did notice that nearly all parking spaces had a vehicle parked in them. I woke up near dawn to find quite a few vehicles had left during the night, likely just recently as the early risers left for wherever they were going. As if to confirm this, two vehicles spontaneously backed out from opposite sides of the parking area and one followed the other to the exit nearest to me. Both sets of headlights remained aimed in my direction until they reached a point where a turn was necessary.  

I may be vastly underestimating the number of times I may have potentially been seen or am being seen, since I'm so rarely awake during this period of exodus from the parking area. I have to wonder if I was sleeping motionless at those times, which would limit what was seen to just seeing me naked, or if I was performing some action or had an erection. 

At best it seems that I may have been exposed naked to quite a few more others than I assumed. Since I do seem to be becoming more "active" while asleep, I would have had no control over what I might have been doing or how I was exposed during all of this time, and no way to know about most or any of it. 

It seems accurate to say that no plateau or leveling off point had been reached for the increase in my state of arousal. It's increase may have slowed down a bit, but it does seem to still be increasing ever slowly.

NOTE: 

It has recently been mentioned to me that the link to this blog was not as available to friends and people who know me, mainly on Facebook, that it should be. It appears that there are ways of posting the link that I hadn't considered.

A link to the blog is now located in the intro of my Facebook page and has also been added to some recent posts. Posting only the blog link in a post still generates an automatic image that is likely to be flagged, but posting the link in an existing post seems to avoid this issue.

As a way of accounting for this lack of availability of the link to this blog, it will now be included in any future posts to ensure that friends and others who know me have the maximum opportunity possible to see and read this blog.

 

Monday, January 9, 2023

Update on my requirement for no masturbation.

 I was asked some questions in a comment about my masturbation, or actually about my lack of it. It's probably just easier to share the entire comment and my response to it before going further.

The comment:

 Can you absolutely swear that you're not masturbating at all and haven't since even once since day one of not being able to do it? Not a single drop of cum? Do you edge yourself at all? Bringing yourself to the very edge of cumming? If you do then how can you keep from cumming when you're so desperate for it? What about when you hump your bed at night? If you haven't cum because of it, how do you avoid it? These are things everyone should know.

My reply:

 Yes I can swear that it's one hundred percent true that I have not masturbated since the first day of being required not to. The last time I masturbated or came was in the early evening on Sunday, January 1st which was New Years Day. I didn't know then that I wouldn't be doing it again anytime soon. If everyone should know about all of those things, then it's probably best if it's related in a post instead of a response. I'll admit that a couple times a drop of cum nearly came out, but as far as I know there hasn't been a single drop. If it got that far I think a lot more would have ended up coming out. I promise to address all that was asked in a post very soon

I can swear to the fact that I haven't masturbated or came at all even once since I was first required not to masturbate. I realize that it can seem easy for me to just say so but most people who know me personally would probably know that I don't do such things. My own conscience won't allow it and I know I can't get away with it for long. 

Since everything about this is to be public knowledge, I know that telling the absolute truth about it is even more necessary. I also know that others expect their decision to be abided by.

I'm sure that not a drop of cum has come out of my penis since the last time I masturbated. Even if it happened while I was asleep, something would show up on the sheet over my mattress or on the tip of my penis. By now I probably have a good amount of pent up cum that would come out if any cum at all came out while I was asleep. I don't think I could sleep through anything like that.

I admit that I've tried a few times to bring myself close to cumming, but it just ends up with me teasing myself and leaves me highly aroused and feeling even more desperate to masturbate and cum. Once it was five days or so into not masturbating I would get so close to cumming so fast and in such a short time that I had to start just leaving my penis alone entirely. Otherwise I would have cum by masturbating and then have to reveal to everyone that I ignored a decision and did what I was required not to do. 

The event of nearly cumming from my penis rubbing a box that I was carrying, and from thrusting my hips up and down while sitting at a red traffic signal have proven to me that I have to be very careful about stimulating my penis in any way. 

I honestly don;t know how I haven;t cum due to humping my bed at night, especially since it seems to happen much more often than it did before. I can only assume that whenever I get anywhere near cumming then, I wake up. Once I wake up it usually only takes me a short time to realize that I'm basically on display naked to much of the neighborhood and that I'm possibly being seen or watched at that very moment. That could be just enough to keep me from cumming at least for now.

It's not so much that I think anyone watching would know for sure that I was cumming, but that they would see me humping my bed like crazy and see my ass bouncing up and down as it does. I know it's very possible for anyone nearby to be seeing that anyway if I do it in my sleep and don't realize I'm doing it or being seen doing it, but it's pretty humiliating to know I'm doing in possible full view of the neighborhood. I can't stop or prevent anyone from seeing or watching me naked in bed all night long or what I might do while asleep, but I do at least have some ability while I'm awake and aware to avoid having them see my bare ass going up and down while I thrust my penis onto the bed. It's one of the few things I can have some effect on. 

I've mentioned before how it feels my penis is in charge and in control now, and how I'm just along for the ride. I know that's just a creation of my own mind, but that doesn't make it feel any less true. It can get hard and erect any time it wants to and it doesn't care where it happens or who sees it. It can seem as if it knows that it can tease me to no end and that I just have to let it do it. If it could and did know any of that, I might have to admit that it was right. 

I'm a bit embarrassed to admit one thing, but since it's all public anyway there's no point in me concealing it. That is how in spite of the desperation and not having any release from being aroused and horny so often, it's really not all bad for me.

I would never have expected it or know any different if I could still masturbate, but there are moments when I find that I actually enjoy feeling so turned on, and how little it takes for me to come close to climaxing. I also enjoy some of the quite erotic dreams I seem to have recently, even in spite of what it might be or is enabling neighbors and others nearby to see. Even though I can't climax or cum, it does feel good to simply thrust my hips a few times and for it to have such an effect on me. Not being able to continue with it until I cum is frustrating, but the feeling itself is very good. 

It's also a bit of an erotic feeling to be around others while being so aroused and turned on without them knowing anything about it. Sometimes I wonder if they can tell or if they know it, but unless I would have an orgasm and cum right there in front of them I know there's no way they can know.

 


 

Sunday, January 8, 2023

Questionnaire for my deserved exposure has closed

 The questionnaire for what level of exposure I deserve has finally closed. It was kept open for longer than originally intended on the chance that some decisions might change, but for weeks no new decisions were received. Also, once the poll closed, all majority decisions become the final decisions and must remain in effect for me permanently. 

The final results are:

Decision one

His exposure should be available in ways that present it directly to others, including to those who know him personally.

Decision two:

When encountered in person, David Steckel should be required to strip naked on demand for any reason. In person, even after satisfying those present, David Steckel should be required to permanently "gift" his clothing to those present, and be left in his naked state.

Decision three:

David Steckel must have no say about ANY post of him naked online, and must be forbidden to EVER ask for the removal of any post made by anyone, anywhere, for any reason, regardless of who will view him naked.

Decision four:

His device must be accessible through a remote app by anyone who wishes to access it. The access information must be available for others to use.

Decision five:

David Steckel must sleep naked and exposed as described above EVERY NIGHT, and MUST masturbate naked in bed at LEAST once per night where anyone outside can watch or observe him.

The decision for number five has been adjusted according to the current decision results in the questionnaire at: https://forms.gle/876SHDLwTh1qNEkj7

This questionnaire will remain open until a closing date sometime in mid February of 2023.

The closing of the first questionnaire is a defining event for me, since it finalizes all decisions, essentially making them permanent. Only slight differences can be made and only after they would be approved in some future questionnaire.

The first and third decisions are probably the easiest for me to accept as being permanent. That's for my exposure to being available to others including to those who know me, and that I have no say about any post made online that exposes me. 

The fourth decision is a bit harder to accept, which is that my device must be available for access through a remote app like Teamviewer or Anydesk. That decision has been in effect for a while now, and there have been very few results from it. I at least retain a right to end any current access if changes to any device settings are attempted to be made. All file folders, pages, and websites do have to be free to access though.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400  Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524  Password: Showmystuff1

Decision two is where it becomes harder to accept. Having to strip completely naked whenever I'm told to in person means there's a possibility that I could end up naked without knowing in advance or without expecting to. 

Decision five is the decision that is hard to accept simply because it has an effect every night. I will be exposed naked in bed to anyone who looks into my window at any time of night. I've already been seen at least by a few others that I know of, and possibly by an unknown number of others while asleep. It's inevitable that I will be seen an additional number of times. 

With the current results of the open questionnaire, I cannot masturbate, which causes repeated erections for me during the night while awake and since I wake up with them, they occur even while I'm asleep. These erections cannot be hidden due to being naked and exposed. My tendency to hump my bed during sleep has also clearly increased dramatically due to not masturbating, which can potentially be observed by anyone looking in through my window at a time when I'm doing it. 

Most who have the potential to see any of this are also those who will later see me outside while clothed during the day, and they will surely then recall exactly what they've seen of me. Unfortunately, some of this has already occurred and cannot be reversed or undone. They will also have the opportunity to see even more of me on any night they choose.

Just to repeat. The questionnaire at https://forms.gle/AHErQjxugwXufk8N7 has closed and all majority decisions have become final. 




Tuesday, January 3, 2023

Seen exposed naked during night in bed

 I know there are some who are curious about whether or not I've been seen while exposed naked in bed at night, and some might even want me to be seen. This might satisfy both of those things.

During a recent night of sleeping naked and exposed in bed, I woke up by chance near midnight. Since I was groggy and not fully awake, I laid there for a moment looking at my TV that was still on. I often fall asleep watching it. Not long after I saw some light from the corner of my eye. Since it's been warm enough, the sash on my window is up for air and ventilation, so the usual glare and reflection from the glass wasn't present.

I noticed that a person was standing beside a vehicle that is often parked nearby. The drivers side of the vehicle was facing me and the person was standing right outside of the drivers door. I noticed that someone else was standing on the far side of the vehicle, and only their shoulders and head were visible above the roof. They appeared to be talking to each other, and even though they were mostly silhouettes, there was just enough light for me to see that they were looking my way. Since the only thing to look at in my direction was me, I knew they must be looking at me. At the time I was lying on my back naked and they were in an ideal spot to see me. The light I'd seen was the headlights and the tail lights of the vehicle they stood next to.

I had the sudden urge to do something, but I didn't know what exactly. There were no sheets or covers on or near my bed, the room was lit up and even if I could turn off the lights, reaching the switch would mean standing up naked almost directly in front of the window, and doing that would expose me even more, Closing the blind was even less possible, since not only would that require standing naked right in the window, but the electrical zip-ties keeping the blind open would need to be cut with something sharp. 

Those things went through my mind, but I knew there was nothing I could do except to stay as I was while they looked at me naked. I hoped they would just look for a short time and then go about their business, but they just kept standing there. I knew they were talking to each other but I couldn't hear them. They were roughly 50 feet from my window. (Just over 15 meters). 

I tried my best to act like I was oblivious to their presence while I waited for them to finish looking at me. Minute after minute they just stood there talking and looking at me. I could see just enough from the corner of my eye to tell that they just kept looking. All I could do is stay still while they looked. I could tell that the nearest one to me was a slightly heavy-set female, but I couldn't see the other one clear enough to tell anything about them other than they were tall enough to see over the roof of the vehicle, which was an SUV. 

Even knowing that time could feel like it passed slowly while being looked at naked, I knew at least four minutes had to have passed before I saw another small light. This turned out to be the interior dome light of the vehicle as they apparently got inside. After nearly another minute the vehicle backed out from the parking spot slowly. Once it was out, it turned towards me and the headlights shined into my window. 

The vehicle stayed like that for thirty seconds or so before completing its turn and moving off. I was relieved that it had gone, but I knew for absolute certainty that both people had not only seen me naked, but had stood there looking for a while. What I don't know is how long they might have been looking at me before I woke up and noticed them. 

After a few minutes of contemplating about how I'd just been seen naked by people outside who I didn't know, I managed to relax enough to fall asleep again. Later, sometime in the early a.m.hours, I woke up again and noticed that the vehicle was back in its parking space. It had returned sometime while I was asleep. There's almost no doubt that I was looked at or watched again, but I just didn't know for how long or what positions I was in when they saw me again. It's one thing to wonder if I'd been seen while asleep, but another to actually know it. I don't even know if they took any photos or video of me naked, but somehow I think they did. If they really did, there's no doubt at all that they will be showing it to other people, who will then know that I am exposed naked every night.

I suspect that I've been seen naked several times or so while I was asleep, and I knew it was inevitable for me to eventually know I was seen naked. Now I know I have been. It's bound to happen again, and when it does I'll have to just lie there and be looked at naked.

I do realize that the main purpose for my exposure every night is so that people can and do see me naked in bed during the night. There's a certain feeling of helplessness and humiliation when I'm lying there naked and I know I'm being looked at, But I suppose that's just another part of being exposed.

 


UPDATE Jan. 4, 2023

Someone who lives close by to my window, who usually sits on their partially enclosed porch has set up a chair next to their front door and started to sit out there at night. They were already capable of seeing me naked in bed from the porch, but only from my chest down. They can also see me from where they park and when going to and from their vehicle. They're not the ones who were recently watching me, but it's very possible that they have seen me naked in bed at some point while I was asleep. From what I can tell, it's a heavy-set woman who has friends stop over nearly every day.

The chair can be seen as the white object in the photo below on the left side of the photo , just to the left of the front door. The porch can be seen on the left end of the building.

There's no way to know for sure, at least yet anyway, but it's possible that the chair was put there as a place to sit and observe me naked in bed at night. No chair had ever been there before in the entire time since the current residents moved in a few years ago. It's either an extreme coincidence or it's for sitting in while looking at me naked in bed. There's not many reasons for a chair to suddenly be placed there.

I may be wrong, but if I'm not then I could end up being looked at or watched naked a lot more.

An expanded view of where the chair is located:


  It's also possible for me to be seen in bed from any of the windows visible, and the door.

UPDATE Jan. 6, 2023

It's not for sure yet, but someone nearby whose window is nearest to my window has just recently begun to open the slats on her Venetian blinds after dark, and may be observing me while I sleep naked at night. A light is turned on in the room, and her silhouette can be seen opening the blind slats. She can briefly be seen through the open slats before the light is turned off and the room becomes dark.

That window offers the best possible view of me compared to all nearby other windows. There may be some unknown reason for the slats to be opened at night, but it's possible the reason is for looking at me or watching me while I'm naked in bed all night. 

The slats remain open until mid morning of the next day, when they are closed again. I've never once seen the slats open at night until recently, and it's too dark at night to know if anyone is looking out through the open slats. 

The woman who lives there appears to be in her sixties. I don't know her and have never talked to her, but I do see her outside once in a while when I'm also outside. If she is looking in at me at times during the night, she has absolutely seen much more of me than I ever have of her. She may have even already seen me with an erection or seen my tendency to hump my bed while I'm asleep, both of which seem to have become much more common during the time I've had to abstain from masturbating. 

If she really is looking in at me, I can only guess what she may have already seen of me, or what she will be seeing.

Monday, January 2, 2023

No masturbating for a week or more.

 The questionnaire at https://forms.gle/rfLKisCWHbUyha1f6 is currently tied three ways. One decision says I cannot masturbate at all. I can only cum if it happens due to my habit of humping the bed during sleep, mostly when I'm in a heightened state of arousal due to not masturbating. Or I can cum by having a wet dream, which is less likely to happen.

Another decision says I can masturbate in bed while exposed only once per week, and on the same night every week. 

The third decision says I have to abstain from masturbating for a week, but continue to masturbating in bed while exposed each night afterwards.

Since all three involve no masturbating for at least a week, I can't masturbate for at least that long. If the tie vote is broken, the decision with the most votes will decide things after the week is up. 

The first day of not masturbating isn't too difficult. The night can be a bit more difficult, especially if I become aroused.

The second day I can find myself aroused for very little reason, and the need to masturbate gets stronger. By the second night I'm more easily aroused than I was during the day, and avoiding masturbating becomes more difficult.Not thinking about it only works for a brief time. 

By that time I'm a little more likely to end up humping the bed during sleep, but I haven't awakened as much to find that I'm doing it after two days of not masturbating. 

On the third day I really feel a need to masturbate, and I have to distract myself with other things to avoid being almost endlessly aroused. By the third night my need to masturbate is near desperate. Erections can occur more often. Even during sleep. I only know of the times when I woke up with an erection, It could be that it happens more but without me waking up to know about it.

The same is true for humping the bed, which becomes more likely during the third night. I might wake up once or twice to find myself stomach-down and humping the bed. 

By the fourth day it's harder to keep myself distracted from being aroused, and it's almost a sure thing that I will get an erection a few times during the night. Humping the bed becomes almost as sure by then.

By the fifth day and night, it's about as bad as it's going to get. Unless some other influence is having an effect on me, like some sort of stress or something making me anxious or nervous, I will get an erection at random moment. Once I fall asleep an erection is even more likely and can happen more often. 

By then I will wake up humping the bed more than once per night, I can only guess about when it doesn't wake me up. I don't know how long it would go on if doesn't wake me up.

I already don't know how much I might end up being seen naked through the window at night. After a few days of not masturbating, anyone looking at the right time will almost definitely see me having an erection. While I'm asleep I wouldn't know it and there's no way to really hide it anyway.

At the right time, or times, they will also see me humping the bed naked. By the time I wake up doing it, I never know how long I was doing it, or how much my bare ass was going up and down. I have no idea how involved I might get in it if I don't wake up from it. 

Whenever I do wake up doing it, even if no one is seeing it, it's still a little humiliating. After days of not masturbating I'm sure to end up doing it right while I'm exposed to anyone through the window, If anyone was looking or watching, they would have already seen me doing it by the time I did wake up. Even if I stop they will already have seen me. 

Doing that and not masturbating afterward makes it even more likely that I will do it again pretty soon. I suppose I'm unconsciously seeking relief in some way. 

If it turns out that I can masturbate again after a week, there will still be at least three nights where I'll have little or no control over what happens while I'm asleep. That means I'll be exposed through the window not only naked, but with an erection and also humping the bed. Nothing I know if except for masturbating can prevent those things from occurring. If I can't masturbate, they will occur for absolute certainty by some point in time while I am asleep. If anyone is looking at those times, they will see all of it, and I'm likely not to know it. 

On a related topic, it was asked whether the blind could be raised more. It can be and has been raised a few more inches. Photos of the blind and the window make the blind appear to not be open much, but from my point of view on the bed, it appears open wider than the photos show it.

Here are some photos of the blind as it is now and during the day.

 
Photo from the point of view near the pillows. Residences can be seen nearby. The nearby lot has rows of condos on either side that are out of sight. Condos are also located further down at the far end of the lot. 
Photo showing the view out of the window at around where my knees would be while in bed. The building is two separate condos with residents in each. Their vehicles park where the parked vehicle can be seen. Residents there walk to and from their parked vehicles at random times including at night. Each condo has a covered porch where residents often sit, located on both far ends.

The blind can clearly be opened further. As it is it's not really concealing anything of me, and is only really blocking sky. Opening it fully might be too far and make it less possible for it to seem that my exposure is due to me being oblivious of it or that I'm not aware of it. If it has to be open even more to satisfy the requirement, then it will be. Just preferably not fully open. I do realize that the purpose and idea might be for a more open blind to possibly attract more notice, but there is one other thing to know.
My window is the only window on the entire side of the building. It's all stucco wall otherwise. So not only is my window lit up at night, but it's the only window on an otherwise bare, large outside wall.
When anyone looks my way at night. there is nothing else to see besides for me naked in bed. Even if I'm able to delude myself that no one really notices me, I still know that can't realistically be true.
For anyone outside looking in my window at night, it will be possible very soon for them to see that I have an erection, or even worse for me, to see me asleep and humping the bed. I can't even say that I hope I won't get an erection or hump the bed at night naked, since I know that both of those things are going to occur within the next few days and for days after. 
Updates will be included as necessary. 
 
I also borrowed a not-so-bad camera overnight fro someone I know. I said I needed to take a profile photo for a website I joined. After transferring the photo to my laptop, I deleted the photo from the camera and returned it. At least I think and hope it was completely deleted. If not then I might find out soon enough. The camera had a timer, so I was able to take a photo of me naked in bed at night with the uncovered window visible beyond.
Note that this photo was taken before the blind was raised a bit higher.
 


 UPDATE 1: After one day and one night without masturbating.
 
As expected, the first day without masturbating wasn't too difficult.  The night did end up being harder than expected though. While trying to fall asleep I couldn't help becoming aroused and getting an erection. As I laid there I was was very aware that anyone could be seeing me naked and hard through the window. I had an urge to hide it or conceal it, but I knew I couldn't, since there is no such thing as privacy for me whenever I'm in bed. The blind had just recently been raised more, and even though I was already entirely exposed before it was raised, I felt much more exposed. 
I tried turning onto my stomach, but the contact between my erection and the bed made my arousal even worse. The best I could do was to lay on my back again and leave my erection exposed to the view of anyone who could see me through the window. 
I did fall asleep at some point. I don't know what time it was when I first woke up, but when I did I found that I was already humping the bed. As soon as I realized it I stopped, but my erection was too sensitive to leave in contact with the bed. I had to turn over and once again expose my erection to possible view.
Just before 5 am I woke up again humping the bed. This time I was way too aroused to want to stop though. I just couldn't make myself care that I might be being watched or seen at the time. I just wanted to keep feeling my erection touch and rub the bed. I felt humiliated that someone might be watching me doing it, but I just couldn't stop. I kept doing it for several minutes with my ass bouncing up and down the whole time. I wish now that I would have or could have stopped, but at that time I just couldn't stop. 
It's going to be a long week, and it looks as if I'm going to put on quite a display naked for anyone who sees me through the window during the nights.

                               
UPDATE 2: After two days and nights of not masturbating.

On my second day of not masturbating, I woke up with an erection. I'd been asleep for a few hours straight by then, and I have no idea how much of that time I spent with and erection. I also don't know what I did while asleep or if anyone saw me. It was really hard for me to ignore my strong urge to masturbate, but I knew I wasn't supposed to so I didn't.

 I got up and went out and took care of some things during the morning. After that I went to get a much needed and overdue haircut. In the barbers chair while covered up with the sheet they use, I did get an erection for a few minutes. I felt it start without any real reason, but once it started I had to sit there with it until it somehow went away before the sheet was removed. 

A while later I started feeling tired and not so good, but I pushed myself along until I got home. By late evening I felt so tired that I went to bed earlier than usual. As I got into bed naked and began my night of being exposed naked to anyone outside, I knew I would fall asleep quickly. I really must have been tired, since I slept for about seven hours without waking up once. I woke up just before it was about to get light out without any idea about whether I was seen or looked at during the night or whether I had any erections or humped my bed during the night. I feel like both of those things may have happened, but without me waking up to know about it. 

As I start my third day of not masturbating, I still don't feel all that well and plan to stay home for the day. At some point I'll probably lie down in bed for a while. Of course I know that even during daytime that still means I have to be naked and exposed to anyone outside, but if I want to lie down I have to accept being exposed. I may not be as visible to anyone looking in as I am during the night, but I know it's still possible for me to be seen. There are also a lot more people out and about during the day, but I doubt that I will be able to put off lying down for too long. 

NEAR THE END OF THE THIRD DAY:

No update was planned for now, but I need to vent and try to distract myself. 

Right now I'm not even going to say that I'm aroused. I'm outright horny. I keep getting one erection after another with no way to relieve them. I even keep thrusting my hips forward as if I'm trying to hump the air. Knowing I can't masturbate and being so horny with a hard-on has even made be whine a little bit a few times out of desperation. I sure didn't expect anything like this after just a few days. It's still a few hours until I'll go to bed, but if I stay as horny as I am then I can only imagine how my night in bed naked will be. I'm afraid I'll have a hard-on all night and end up humping my bed way too much. 

Since I know anyone could be watching me through my window, I'm going to try not to put on much of a show for them to see. I won't be able to do anything about them seeing me with an endless hard-on, but at least while I'm awake I have control to not hump my bed. I know once I fall asleep though, it's out of my control. I'm not much looking forward to what tonight will be like while I'm exposed naked all night. I guess I'll know by morning though, which will then be related here. I'm sure I'll need to vent and occupy myself again by then.

AFTER THIRD NIGHT OF NO MASTURBATING:

My third night without masturbating was torture. I did get an erection soon after getting into bed. I knew I wasn't supposed to hide it from anyone who might be looking in at me through the window, so by trying as hard as I could I was able to leave it alone without even touching it. Just as I was falling asleep though, I made the mistake of turning onto my stomach. The contact of me dick with the bed was exasperating. It felt way, way too good. I didn't actually start humping my bed, but even though I knew I might be being seen, I couldn't help slightly rubbing my dick on the bed. I tried not to move my hips any more than necessary, but I knew to anyone looking it would look a lot like I was humping. I faced away from the window so I wouldn't keep being reminded that I was entirely exposed while I did it. 

I still don't know how I managed to fall asleep, but somehow I did while lying on my stomach. I slept for four hours straight and woke up with a partial erection. I was also lying on my side with my knees drawn up and with my bare ass facing the window. I don't know what those four hours might have exposed me doing. I just know that I had at least two nonsensical dreams during that time. 

One was that my car got stuck in some mud along a residential street and for some reason i was naked. In the dream I had to walk naked and alone to some house that was way off in the distance but visible. It was also day time in my dream. When I got to the house, some people I didn't know were angry at me for failing to bring some item along from my car. They made me walk back to it to retrieve the item. I don;t even know what item it was.

Once I got there my car was somehow no longer stuck, and as the dream ended I was beginning to drive it back to the house. Strangely, the many people who I passed by or who saw me in the dream acted as if I was either not naked, or like they didn't care a bit about it.

I don't recall much about the other dream except that it was unsettling and that in the dream I suspected that it was only a dream.

After waking up after the dreams, I sat up for about twenty minutes before returning to bed. I laid there with erections coming and going for a good while, wanting to masturbate very much. Fortunately I fell asleep again and slept for three and a half more hours until my alarm went off just after dawn. I had "morning wood" and had to pee pretty bad, so I had to get out of bed soon after I shut off the alarm. 

My fourth day of not masturbating started as day with some driving around needing to be done. While driving, the contact of my jeans on my dick caused a few erections. Not wearing underwear means my dick does just about whatever it wants to, and at a couple of red traffic lights I was in the middle of three lanes. Each time  higher vehicle was stopped beside me, especially on my passenger side, I hoped the erection in my pants wasn't visible enough for anyone beside me to notice it. 

I actually thought about taking it out of my jeans to avoid the contact, but I knew anyone stopped beside me or passing me might see it. My car also sits quite low down, which means any SUV, Pick Up truck, or large truck passengers or drivers can see down into my car pretty easily. I doubt things will be much different for the rest of the day.

AFTER A FOURTH NIGHT OF NO MASTURBATING

My fourth day of not masturbating went a little better than it began. Erections would occur, and when alone I would unconsciously reach for or rub my erection, only to quickly realize what I was doing. I didn't want to stop, but with some effort I managed to keep restraining myself. 

Once going to bed at night, things went surprisingly easy. As I dozed off I was aware that I had just a partial erection and did my best to ignore it. 

I woke up at around 2 am to find that I was on my stomach and my right leg had extended partially off the edge of the bed, which is probably what woke me up. That's an uncommon occurrence for me, so it makes me wonder why it happened now. I can only assume that I might be humping the bed more often or more intensely during sleep, and somehow I did that enough or for a long enough time for my leg to get to past the edge of the bed. 

I prefer to think that no one was seeing me through the window at the time, but I don't know if that's true. If anyone did see me, I can't even begin to imagine what they might have seen of me. 

I got out of bed briefly after that, but I was still so tired that within minutes I had to return to bed. I apparently fell asleep again quickly, since I don't recall lying there for very long. I have no recollection about anything after that until I woke up at dawn, which seems to be around the time I almost automatically wake up each morning. I did have a full erection when I woke that refused to go away though. It was bouncing around as I got out of bed. As I commonly do in the morning, I had to pee quite badly. By the time I made it into the bathroom, my erection had barely relented, and I had to lean forward quite a bit to be able to pee. 

Still early into my fifth day of not masturbating, things seem to be going alright so far. My penis feels as if it's been rubbed quite a bit, which I can only assume was due to me excessively humping the bed during the past night. I must really be going at it while I'm asleep. 

I've also noticed that the neighbor with the nearest window that I can be seen from during the night has started to open the slats on her Venetian blind after dark each night, and then closes the slats after daylight. The window can be seen on the right side of the first photo included in the main post above. It may be a coincidence, but it may be that she is in there in the dark room at night watching me in bed naked, or even watching me as I do whatever I'm doing while I'm asleep. 

There seems to be no way to know for sure, and even if I could know, it doesn't change a thing. There's no stopping her or anyone else from looking.

EVENING OF FIFTH DAY:

Not much new or different occurred throughout the day. There were the erections that would come and go, even for no apparent reason.

One thing that's definitely new and hasn't happened to be for a very long time was I nearly came (or cummed) without the slightest erection and while I was "soft". 

I was carrying a mid sized trash bag on one hand, and held a box a little bigger than a shoe box in the other hand. The cardboard box was small but a bit heavy, so I held it against my stomach. I was naked at the time.

I was heading through two rooms to place everything near the door so I could later take it out and put it in the trash.

As I was carrying the slightly heavy box, it started to slip down along my stomach as I walked. It wasn't too far to walk so I figured I'd get there before dropping the box. The box finally slipped down and made contact with my penis.

Right away it felt good. Very good. I only took a few more steps when I suddenly realized I was just one more step away from cumming. I froze in place and I wasn't sure if I'd already passed the point of no return. Apparently I'd just missed that point and the feeling slowly subsided. I could barely believe what had just happened, I was soft but I had no doubt that I was as close to cumming as I could get without it actually happening. 

A while afterward, I wondered why I had frozen in place rather than just letting it happen. I know it had to be because I knew it was a form or method of masturbating even if I didn't have that exact thought at the time. I knew it would be wrong if I came from any form of masturbation that I was aware of happening. I knew I still had at least two more days to go before anything like that might be able to happen, and even longer of the tie vote in the poll isn't broken by then, or if another decision is for abstaining from it. 

I don't think a wet dream is too possible even if I can't say it wouldn't happen. I do think it's starting to be possible for me to cum in my sleep while humping the bed. I can't really imagine that happening, but I could barely imagine almost cumming with a soft penis either until it happened. I know it would feel good, probably like the wet dream I did once have. That time it occurred after being where there was no chance for days of being able to masturbate unnoticed. I recall waking up, feeling an amazingly good feeling, and being confused about how waking up could possibly feel that good, until I realized...

If I do somehow cum in my sleep, I will admit it and hope that it'll be believed that I didn't just intentionally masturbate while knowing I can't.

MORNING OF SIXTH DAY - NO MORE MASTURBATING FOR ME!

I woke up this morning after a night of exposure and I just expected another day of nearly constant arousal and getting erections repeatedly. I did a few things before I got around to checking on the most recent poll  results at: https://forms.gle/rfLKisCWHbUyha1f6

I checked the poll last evening and I saw a tie still existed, so I expected to see the decisions still tied like they've been for a few days. At first I thought something had loaded wrong and refreshed the page. Once it reloaded what I saw made me unable to move or think for a few seconds. The tie was not only broken, but one option had been clearly and undeniably decided upon. I am now entirely forbidden from masturbating at all. My week of not masturbating has no end now. 

I have to admit that my first thought was "OH NO". I think that because I'm in a nearly perpetual state of arousal by now, I got an instant erection. I didn't want to or mean to get one, especially after realizing that I cannot purposely or willingly masturbate at all any longer. I seem to be so aroused by now that even seeing that I have to remain that way was enough for me to get a stiff erection. I'm definitely in what is uncharted territory for me.

I hate to admit that I had the thought of trying to change or tamper with the results before anyone saw them. I knew right away that was ridiculous since those who made the decisions would obviously know what they decided. There could be no hiding it. I also realized there was no means or mechanism for affecting any results. I knew I was resigned to the decision. 

I couldn't think too clearly for a few minutes as I worked to accept my reality. Then I began to realize some of what it would mean.

I will stay in a heightened state of arousal most of the time. It will continue to feel as though my penis is in charge of me and is control, with me feeling at it's mercy but with it having little or no mercy. My inhibitions will surely be and remain at lower levels.

I'm already having unusual and vivid dreams which seem to be a result of not masturbating for so long, maybe combined with having to sleep naked and exposed each night. In the dreams I am almost always naked and always end up being exposed, usually quite publicly.Those seem to often coincide with me ending up awakening in bed to realize I'm in the process of humping the bed and with an erection.

It seems inevitable now that if it hasn't happened already, anyone looking in at me through the window during the night is going to see me either with an erection or see me humping the bed naked. Even both could be seen by the same person or people. When those people see me outside during the day, they will be sure to picture me or recall seeing me that way no matter how many clothes I have on at the time. It's just sure to happen now.

I know at some point in time I am going to end up cumming without intending to. It could happen in bed with a wet dream or from humping the bed while sleeping. I dread the fact that it could also happen anywhere at any time while I'm out somewhere. It could happen at work and with other people around. It could happen in some place like the grocery store or some other store, in the middle of a parking lot, or anywhere else in public.

By not masturbating for so long, it seems it can occur even without me having an erection. Whenever it does happen, it's sure to be an extremely intense climax and orgasm. I've had some very intense ones when I would masturbate after not doing it for tow or three days. The next time is sure to be even more intense. I will try, but I don't see how it wont be pretty obvious what's happening to anyone who might be nearby. 

Wherever I am at the time, I will most likely panic to some degree once I realize it's going to happen and can't be stopped. I expect that it will stop me in place wherever I am, and if I haven;t made any sounds by then, the intensity of the orgasm will probably be too much and I will probably involuntarily let out a moan or two that may quite loud. 

I have almost no doubt at all that it will cause me to thrust my hips forward and back again a few times as I'm cumming no matter how much I try to prevent it. I will basically be stuck in place as this happens no matter where I am and no matter how many others are around me. An unusually large wet spot will unavoidably appear on my pants between my legs, which will all but confirm what is happening to anyone around who is seeing me. They will all know for sure that I just climaxed and came right there in public and right there in front of them, and there won't be a thing I can do about it.

I can hope to avoid it happening, but I may not be able to and I there's no way to know when it might happen. I do know for sure that I will cum at some point. It just won't be under my control about when or where it happens. I suppose that's up to my penis, and it's incapable of caring about when or where it does what it does.

I should probably relate a little more about how the recent sixth night went. 

I fell asleep without having an erection, but something about falling asleep seems to cause erections to begin and rarely stop. Even when I wake up on my back, I will have an erection. With some cooler weather at the moment, the window sash is down and the light in the room shows my naked reflection in the glass if I look that way. Last night I could clearly see my erection in the glass, and what I can see, so can anyone who might be looking in. On my stomach and looking that way I can see me bare butt cheeks along with the rest of me naked. I can only imagine how it must look when I'm humping the bed and my butt is going up and down. Some of the people nearby probably know exactly how it looks.

Since this post is becoming very long with the updates, one more day of updates will be related here. After that it seems that a new post will be needed to provide additional updates. Especially since I won't be masturbating anymore. The decision in the poll seems unlikely to change anytime soon, since it has a clear majority.

SEVENTH DAY OF NO MASTURBATING:

This will be the last update in this post. Further updates will be related in a new post with updates being related as necessary.

Last night I was very tired but I only went to bed at around 11 pm, which is usually what time I go to bed. When being in bed and sleeping exposed through the window first became a requirement for me, I might have stayed out of bed later to slightly delay my exposure, but I seem to have gotten to the point where I know that's futile. It's not that I'm used to being exposed naked all night long, but I know it's unavoidable and it's a little less hard to just accept that I will be exposed and that whoever will see me will see me. It's probably best to describe it as that I'm just resigning myself to it being that way.

Being tired, I fell asleep in a short time after getting into bed. I did get an erection at one point while dozing off, but I just let it be. I couldn't do anything about it and I knew if anyone was looking in at me, they were already seeing that it was there. I tried putting all of the out of my mind as I dozed off.

I'm not sure of what time it was, but I woke up sometime later with my bare ass nearly off of the edge of the bed nearest to the window, and I knew I had been thrusting my hips. I was mostly lying on my right side and my penis wasn't really in contact with the bed. I had an erection and it seems as though I was just humping nothing. My bare ass must have been thrusting towards the window. My hip muscles felt as if I'd been going for a while, so I had probably been doing it for a while. 

I stopped doing it right as I woke up and I thought how curious it was that I had been doing it. I was still tired, so I just lied there, but as I woke up a little more it dawned on me that I had been on display like that for who knows how long, and I'd been doing it as close to the window as I could be without leaving the bed. I also realized that I was still lying like that with my bare ass slightly pushed out towards the window. 

I was comfortable in that position though, and I knew that if anyone had looked or was looking, they had already seen everything. The thought I had then was "screw it". I fell asleep again without changing my position. 

I do still feel very exposed in bed, and I know really am very exposed, but as I'm resigning myself to being exposed I seem to be dwelling on it less and less. Instead of lying there thinking about it a lot, I'm a little more able to accept that this is how it will be whether I dwell on it or not. I think it's just a little bit easier now for me to push those thoughts out of my head and to fall asleep. 

Absolutely nothing changes except for in my mind, but since that's all that can change it's at least something. I think I'm realizing on a deeper level that since I've already been seen a few times, and realizing that I will inevitably be seen more, that I just have to accept it. At night my naked body, my erections, humping the bed, and everything else are more or less public. As humiliating as that is, it's mostly true. 

When I only partly wake up during he night, I'm even forgetting that I'm exposed, even though it comes back to me once I wake up more or look towards the uncovered window.

Sometime well into the very early morning I woke up just barely. I was on my back with a full erection. I don't know how to explain the concept, but with a full erection I can make it move up and down by using some reflex that feels like drawing or pulling in. I think it's similar to the process of getting the last squirts out while peeing. 

As I lay there partly awake, I did that and my erection lifted up a little, then fell back down once I relaxed the reflex. I did this around a dozen times and I was enjoying the feeling of it. I finally stopped doing it and started trying to fall back asleep when I realized that for that whole time I had still been exposed through the window. I had a quick thought of "Aw" as I realized what may have been displayed if anyone was looking in at me, But then I resigned myself to the fact that whatever I did was probably going to be seen by nearby others no matter what I did or how I felt about it. 

I also know that being exposed requires that nothing can remain private or unable to be seen even when it's extremely humiliating. When I inevitably see or encounter anyone nearby who has seen me exposed is when humiliation will apply. 

I will admit this as a final part of this update. Without masturbating for a week now, the fact that I will be humiliated when someone nearby who has seen me exposed sees me in person seems to have triggered a full erection for me. I prefer not to think much about how or why that is, and will attribute it to my nearly constant state of high arousal due to lack of masturbation. 

Further updates needed will be in a new post to follow.



 

Sunday, January 1, 2023

The start of another year of Exposure.

 

 The first day of the new year starts with me waking up exposed naked after being exposed for the entire night through the window. It's also the day for a different video of me to be presented through a "Watch" button on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd and through a post on my timeline. https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

 In response to requests that have been made, a questionnaire is available so that others can decide if any change or amendment can be made to a requirement that is already in place and in effect. Other decisions may be added and presented over time for approval or denial. The first decision is for whether I have to continue masturbating at least once each night, or whether I have to avoid masturbating at the risk and likelihood that I will become aroused in my sleep. 

Masturbating usually doesn't take too long, and if I do it soon after getting into bed I can usually fall asleep shortly afterwards. If I don't masturbate right away, I sometimes fall asleep anyway, but may wake up and masturbate then. If for some reason I don't masturbate, it can lead me to become aroused in my sleep. This presents itself through me becoming hard or erect during sleep for no apparent reason. Once in a while I will wake up periodically with an erection that began sometime while I slept.

One other way it presents itself is that I end up lying on my stomach and I will thrust my erection down on the bed or hump the bed. I've actually awakened doing this if I haven't recently masturbated. Sometimes it takes a day or two after not masturbating for these things to occur, but it gets worse the longer it's been since I masturbated and is sure to occur by the time several days have passed without me masturbating.  

I do know I wake up at times to both of these things, but I honestly don't know how often they might occur. Unless I wake up with an erection or while humping the bed, I couldn't know about it. Only anyone seeing me or watching me at the time would know about any of it, since they would see my erection or see me humping the bed naked. 

If decisions are made in the questionnaire, once there's a majority decision on any option, it will be what occurs. 

Concerning a site where I can be streamed on video while in bed and/or asleep naked, one potential sites has been found. It's rules state that adult videos are permitted as long as the subject is adult and verified (which has already been done) and no others are depicted. Looking through the other streams on there though, no nudity seems to be present. That's not the concern though. What is a concern is that in the rules it states that "No Uncut Pornography is permitted" Nothing explanatory information is offered for exactly what that means. Does it mean "uncensored"? Maybe someone can visit the site and clarify how that is best interpreted. 

The page on the site that any broadcast of me would show up on appears to be:

live.fc2.com/48524504/

A new webcam is still due to arrive a in January or a bit sooner. By then a streaming site that meets the needs and requirements would need to be ready for there to be a way for others to easily see and confirm that I am being exposed naked in bed and while asleep.  

New Questionnaire embedded below. Also available at: https://forms.gle/N6yLWBiz21BN3kx88

Friday, December 23, 2022

One more (post) before 2023

 One more post seems in order to relay some updates, mostly for my nightly exposure. Some are aware of it already, but for anyone who doesn't know, every night I have to sleep naked, without covers or covering, with lights on, and with the window blind raised enough for anyone outside or nearby to be able to see me. 

The requirement is for me to masturbate in bed at least once each night, also in possible view through the window. Requests have been made for slight alterations to this, and this update is to relate some of them and what is being or will be done about it soon.

One thing is for others to be able to see through the internet that I am being exposed each night, so that I can be seen or watched by anyone, and so anyone can confirm at any time that I am exposed in bed and while asleep. A streaming service or site of some kind was suggested, so one will be found or utilized if possible. It will be free if possible so that there is no cost for seeing and confirming my nightly exposure. If and when a free streaming site is found, all information necessary to access it will be made available. I tend to go to be between 11 pm and 12 am Eastern Standard time most nights, and the streaming would begin when I got into bed and end when I got up in the morning. Until a site is found and set up, there's not much more to relate about it yet.

It has been requested that I not masturbate for a period of time, which would undoubtedly mean I would go to bed horny, and likely cause me to thrust myself against the mattress or hump the bed while asleep or nearly asleep. Since it seems that it's desired for anyone seeing me through my window to see this, and would be possible for anyone watching the stream to see this, I will abstain completely from masturbating for a week or so once things are set up where I can be observed in bed naked online. This is not intended to be avoiding ir ignoring my requirement, but only a temporary alteration to it. It will happen once, but it's unknown if it will be repeated. Time will probably tell.

One other request is for me to wear something to bed that might cause some increased arousal for me while sleeping, such as something that will stimulate me. Since I'm required to be and remain naked and exposed at night, wearing anything doesn't seem permissible. The requirements don't seem to allow me to just decide to wear anything in bed at night. The only solution might be if what I wore left me still nearly naked and offered little or no real concealment. Something may have been found that might qualify, and will take some time to obtain through an online purchase. In the meantime, photos of this will be submitted to allow feedback on whether this can be something permissible to wear in bed at night.

Here are some images of what it might look like, although until the actual item arrives it can't be known for sure.


 

Obviously in front, the rings are meant to hold the penis. I appears that in back, all that would show would really be the waist strip, since the rest would be hidden between butt cheeks. If this violates the requirement for me to be completely naked, then it can be related in a comment. Also, if it's allowable and permissible, that can be related too. Wearing them may also be temporary, going along with me refraining from masturbating, but not much about it is able to be decided by me. It's something for those who want to see me exposed, or who just want me exposed in general to decide. 

It's also only right if I mention that it is to be exceptionally cold even here in Central Florida over the next week or so. My small room heater is older and not very efficient during such cold temperatures, A new, better heater is due to arrive any day now, but until then it may get too cold to remain completely naked and uncovered all night. I will attempt to fulfill my requirement for remaining exposed but it may not be possible for the entire night. 

Many neighbors are coming and going more than usual at night, and seem to have guests over who stay later, probably due to the holiday, and I know that being exposed for them to possibly see me is part of my requirement, so I will remain exposed at night until it's too cool or cold to do so. I only mention this because unless I do, I'm basically breaking a requirement and without seeming to have a reason for it. It's also likely that it will only be for one or two nights, since the new heater should arrive by then. I'm almost sure that by New Years Eve the heater should eliminate any need for covering or concealing my exposure. I almost wish otherwise, since I feel quite sure that I'm going to be seen naked by a few nearby people and some of their guests or friends on the night of New Years Eve. That's separate from any who have already seen me or who may be watching my window waiting for me to get into bed naked. 

Please offer your thoughts or opinions on the article of cloth and whether or not it's something permissible for me to wear while exposed in bed.

Of course updates will follow soon.

ADD ON: December 26th, 2022

Currently and for the time being, using an app to access my laptop and its camera are the only way for anyone to see, once I'm in bed for the night, that I am naked, with lights on, and being exposed through an uncovered window. Once a new and separate webcam is obtained, the camera will provide a view of me along with the uncovered window. For now the camera on the laptop only provides a view from directly next to the window. Anyone looking in will see mostly what the camera would show. For the moment it is the only way to verify that I my requirement is being fulfilled. 

Although the resolution on the camera on my laptop is low, and the videos are grainy, some video has been taken during my required nightly exposure from next to the window. The videos present me performing my required masturbation. One is from the middle of the night and the other is roughly at dawn. The videos can verify to some extent that my required exposure is occurring. They also might verify the low quality video that my laptop camera produces. Videos will be uploaded here once compressed, due to limits on file size for uploaded videos. The apps enabling me to be seen exposed at night and enable verification that I am exposed are:

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1


                                                Masturbating in early a.m. while exposed

 

                                             Exposed masturbating at dawn
                                          

                                                          window at night
                                    


                                                window during daytime


Wednesday, December 14, 2022

Last Exposure update of 2022

 With just over two weeks left in the year, 2023 will begin with me as exposed online as ever, if not more.

I continue to be exposed to Facebook friends and to random others through two pages on Facebook. 

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd 

On the "Newd" page, another video of me naked continues to be featured through a "Watch Now" or "Watch Video" button (apparently depending on whether the page is accessed by PC or phone). Each video is available from the first day to the last of each month, leaving a good amount of time for others to view it.

On my personal Facebook page, each month a post is added with a link to that months video and with a qr code that can be scanned and also goes to the video.

When the video for the button changes, the posts on my personal page remain even after a new post with a new link is added. Anyone viewing and scrolling down my personal Facebook page has access to posts with links to previous months videos. With each post there, friends are likely to receive an automatic notification about it. Some are likely to ignore the notification, but some are sure to see the post and click the link in it and see the video of me naked. The reason the posts have to be made each month though, is to make sure friends and people who know me do see the video each month.

Voting has slowed down to almost nothing in the poll for deciding which video of me will be featured next, but many videos did receive one or more votes. Many have tie votes. Videos that received the highest vote count first are featured in case of a tie vote, followed by the others in later months.

https://www.supersurvey.com/poll4236812x01b63125-133 

Coming up in January of 2023, another tie vote situation will occur unless one or the other videos involved receives another vote in the meantime. One is of me masturbating naked on the floor next to an open door, and the other shows me inserting a marker into my ass before masturbating. The masturbating on the floor video received its vote count just barely before the insertion video did, which would make it the video for January. The insertion video would them be featured during February. Some anonymous comments on posts, which may be from one person or more than one, first questioned why the video wasn't in the poll to be voted on. At the time it was had not yet been rotated into the poll but has been since then. The video did immediately receive a vote and soon tied with the other video. 

Recently an anonymous comment on an older post inquired about why the video wasn't being featured yet due to having enough votes for it. I explained that it was likely to be featured in February and why, which they pointed out was a short month. They said they wanted it featured on a longer month to give people a couple more days to watch it. They made it clear that they really want people to see that video of me. 

I know it's inevitable that the video will be featured soon in any case. I know that whenever that happens, that I will feel humiliated because absolutely anyone can watch it, and that it will be watched for sure by who knows how many people, which is sure to include people who know me due to the corresponding post for it that will be on my personal page. 

I know switching the videos makes very little difference, since both are going to be featured and seen probably on consecutive months, which makes my urge to delay the insertion video seem pointless. Following the usual selection process for videos would delay the insertion video for a month, but at least one person really wants it to be seen sooner and for a few days longer than it would be otherwise.

I suppose I'll have to accept the humiliation sooner since the only right thing seems to be for the insertion video to be featured next. My consolation is that at least having it seen will be over with sooner. 

A link to the insertion video is also somewhere in the list of links in the intro of my personal Facebook page, but there it's less obvious. Soon the button on the "Newd" page will show it, and a post with a link to it will be right on the timeline of my personal page. Once notifications for that post go out, People who know me are sure to see it too.  All of that will be true in just over two weeks. The video was voted for though, so I know it has to be featured and seen. 

On another matter, participation in the questionnaire for my exposure has slowed but not stopped. Most decisions are still nearly unanimous.

https://forms.gle/5cKY3zygukkqemJC7 

I won't bother listing all of questions here, since that's been done in prior posts, but the summary is that I currently and probably permanently have to be exposed as directly as possible to others, including to people who know me.

When anyone approaches me and demands or commands me to strip naked, I have to do so, and present them with all of my clothing as a gift. I do hope for leniency in such a situation, but I know I have no right to ask for or to expect any. 

 Anyone at all can post or display me naked on the internet wherever and however they want to, and I have no right to even ask for it to be removed or altered in any way. I take that to mean that I don't even have to be made aware of any post of me naked, and that anyone can even share my exposure directly with anyone else they wish to, and there's nothing I can say about it.

My PC must remain accessible to anyone who cares to access it, through both the Teamviewer app and the Anydesl app. The only limit is that no changes to the PC settings are to be made, 

Out of compliance, my PC is left on and available as often as possible, and some access has occurred, mostly when I'm asleep or away. I only know when I find pages or folders left open later on. Also out of compliance, the access information is included here:

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Lastly, I have to sleep naked, uncovered, with lights on, with blinds open and in view of the outside every single night, and I have to masturbate there at least once per night, so that neighbors and anyone outside can see or watch me. 

As mentioned in previous posts, I can't see much more than my own naked reflection in the window at night, since the lights are on, so I really can't tell if or when anyone is looking. A couple of nights I was so tired that I fell asleep while masturbating, since it tends to take longer on some nights due to being tired and also due to the knowledge that I could be being watched at that very moment. Aside from that, I'm exposed all night while asleep, so there's no way I can know who sees me during the night. 

                                                         Daytime view across my bed


                                                         Nighttime view across my bed
                                         

Two plastic wire ties are secured tightly around the base of the blind ensuring that the blind cannot be lowered at any time without cutting away the ties. Although it may not appear so, the blind is in the same position in both photos since the ties were in place in both photos and have not been removed since they were put in place. No sheets or covers are left on the bed other than the sheet over the mattress, but can be retrieved if cold temperatures make it necessary. This means getting up and retrieving them though. All of this is to ensure that I can't just casually close the blind or cover up, or cannot unknowingly cover up while sleeping. The decisions stated that I have to be exposed naked to the neighborhood all night, so as much as possible is done to ensure that I stay exposed naked to anyone outside or who can see me from any window within sight of mine,

It's extremely likely and almost certain that multiple neighbors have seen me at night, since they seem to pay attention to my window even during the day, as if they feel compelled to look to see if they can see me. In the nearest building, one older, heavyset female resident has begun smoking her cigarettes on the side of the building, which would enable her to see me from there at night. She faces my window the entire time she's out there during the day, and she does come outside at night and in the early morning before daylight to smoke too. I'm pretty sure she has started standing where she does just so she can see me sleeping naked. She may have also seen me masturbating at night, but I don't know if she has. She hasn't lived there for too long and I don't know her. She's far from attractive but I know I have to let her look and watch me naked as much as she wants. I have to let anyone else look or watch too, since I'm there because I'm supposed to be seen naked by whoever wants to look in at me or watch me.

As another year starts, it's not a matter of whether I will be exposed naked to, and seen by more people this year, but only a question of who and how many, and whether I'll know it or not at the time it occurs.  The apps that enable me to be seen at night are:

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1