It has been brought to my attention that the original Dropbox “David Steckel Naked” is unavailable at times.
After checking on why that might be, the reason provided was that the
current link was leading to a lot of downloads in a day and was being
blocked by Dropbox.
So a new link was created for the original Dropbox, which appears to remain functional.
But to better ensure that the contents of the Dropbox remain as
available as possible for others to access or download for their own
uses or interests, an exact duplicate Dropbox was also created.
It’s not clear what level of download activity leads to being labeled
as suspicious, or why there is such a level in the first place. It can
only be assumed that the level of downloading must have been significant
in some way.
It’s possible that as more others become aware that everything
contained in the Dropbox is actually licensed under a Public Domain
Dedication (CC0) that can never be revoked, and that it’s free use is
protected under copyright law, that this is being made use of to a
greater extent.
I have seen no evidence of this yet aside from the reason offered by
Dropbox. Even if I do see some evidence or some use by others of
anything of me naked, I have no right or recourse to do or say anything
about it by law. In a real way, it is actually not legal for me to
attempt to limit or prevent the use or display of anything depicting me
naked, regardless of how that use or display occurs. But I know not to
infringe on anyone’s rights and not to even try to interfere with such
uses or displays of me naked. It’s much easier and much better to accept
it as it is, and to ensure that nothing I do obstructs anyone’s access
to or use of anything of me naked.
So one additional means for others to see and obtain what they have
the legal right to see or obtain is for them to be able to scan a code
to do so.
QR code for original Dropbox:
QR code for duplicate Dropbox:
Both links are already available in the intro of my Facebook page at: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75/
in order for friends and those who know me to have access to them at
all times. Posts will also be occasionally added there with either a
link or a code or both, and also on the Facebook page “David Steckel
Exposed Exhibitionist” at: https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd
Posts on both pages will also inform or remind to click on the “Watch
Now” button on the Exposed Exhibitionist page, which will link to a
specific video of me naked from the first day of each month to the last
day when a different video will be linked to. This is to better ensure
that Facebook friends, those who know me, and other visitors will view
the video of me naked that is linked to the button at the current time,
and to remind them to return each month to view the next video of me
naked.
Since all videos of me naked are also Public Domain, others have the legal right to see them and to obtain them if desired.
The “Watch now” button can found on the upper part of the Exposed Exhibitionist page on Facebook, and will appear as:
One of the things that most who contact me are curious about relates to whether people around me and who know me personally have viewed my online naked exposure, and if so, how did they react or respond?
In the earlier days of my online exposure, some care was taken to limit the chances that anyone who knew me would come across or view me naked on the internet. When asked by anyone whether those around me had seen my exposure, the response was generally no or at least probably not. Quite a few others who asked and were told this were noticeably disappointed and even displeased by this fact. In a few cases, I was even given what would best be called a reprimand for being so openly exposed to countless people online, while practicing an ongoing "deception" on those who knew me.
In effect I was told several times by different people that an exhibitionist cannot pick and choose an audience, and that my online exposure needed to be equally available to both known and unknown people alike. Still others stated that my exposure needed be presented to an even greaterextent to those around me than it was to strangers, since those who knew me had the right to see the full and true depiction of me. The word "deception" was not always used, but the definition and the description was basically the same.
An effort was made to ensure that my real full name was always somehow included with any online exposure of me. This would clearly make it easier for those who knew me to discover and view my exposure online. Although some others did see this as a positive step, it was still deemed by some to be not enough.
Of course I knew all of the was true and correct, but just to be sure, a poll was created asking whether my exposure did need to be readily available for those who know me to see. The end result of that poll was more than clear. A majority of more than 17 to 1 stated that those who knew me did need to be able to easily find and view the online photos and videos of me naked.
At that point I did resign myself to the fact that my online exposure did have to be easily available, if not even presented to those who knew me personally. It seemed pretty sure that some who knew me had already found and viewed my exposure, but that "some" would now become "many".
The first step towards this was for a page on Facebook to be created that would inform others who knew me, as well as others, about my online exposure, and as much as permitted there, to potentially direct people who know me towards finding and seeing it.
The page is titled "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist" and the link to it is:
Just to help ensure that people who know me will find and view the page, a link to it is on my personal Facebook page, and occasionally a post there will include the link.
Also, most Facebook friends have been invited directly to the Exposure page using an invite option on that page. Not many have responded to the invite, but some clearly did since they gave the page a "like". It's fair to assume that many more visited the page and viewed what's there but without interacting with it in any way that's visible.
Edit: This Facebook page prominently displays a blue "Watch Now" button that always links to a video of me naked where I will be seen performing some act. A specific video will be linked to the button for approximately 30 days in order for enough time to be provided for others to view the video. On or around the 1st day of each month, a different video of me naked will be "featured" through the button. This cycle will repeat for as long as the page exists.
Posts will occasionally be made on the page itself, as well as on my personal Facebook page that inform others of the button and direct them towards finding and clicking the button, where they can then watch the current video. All Facebook friends who have notifications enabled will be notified automatically about each post, and the posts will be visible to any and all other viewers of either Facebook page.
The "Watch Now" button appears as:
On other sites, such as https://www.quora.com/ when a friend or known person is found there, they will be followed by me so that they will become aware of my profile page there. My profile information there contains information that will allow them to find and view my online exposure.
On Twitter, the same process is followed. If or when any known person is found to be on Twitter, they will be "followed" so that my own page there can be found and viewed. On Twitter my exposure can be seen directly on the page, as well as containing links to sites further exposing me naked, including videos that are too large for posting on Twitter.
A link to this page is "pinned" as the top post on both the Exposure Facebook page and my personal Facebook page, among other places.
It should be fairly easy now for those who know me to find and view photos and videos of me naked online, and for additional people who know me to continue to find and view my exposure.
Of course if anyone has an ideas or suggestions for how my exposure might be made easier for those who know me personally to find and view my exposure online, their input could be useful. Any input could be sent by email to DaveS113065@yahoo.com or to DaveS113065@gmail. com.
If remaining anonymous is preferred, an anonymous message can be left at:
Also, although I do not contact those who know me personally for the purpose of notifying them about my exposure, or send anything exposing me directly to them, anyone with the desire and the ability to personally notify anyone who knows me of my online exposure, or to share it with them has the absolute right to do so, without exception.
Most sites mentioned above also contain a link to a Dropbox that contains nearly every photo and video of me naked, as is most likely the easiest and most efficient means to view my naked exposure
It's realistic that not everyone who knows me personally would have an interest to see me naked online or have a desire to see me naked, but it does seem that they have every right to be aware of my exposure and to view it to whatever extent they might want to.
Regardless of whether I might not want to be seen naked by any specific person who knows me, there really isn't any way to justify being seen naked by thousands of others while not also being seen naked by people who know me. To be truly exposed publicly and in the public domain, it does seem to require also being seen naked by everyone around me and to people who know me in any way.
While other things have been developing and occurring, it's always easy not to think much about how and where I am regularly exposed at all times and on a daily basis. Much thought is also not given to previous or older blog posts.
For a reason unknown to me, this blog https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/?zx=61def3ab1d2d994b has been receiving a large number of daily views recently. The view count does tend to fluctuate up and down over time, but increases in views tend to last for a short time, then drop again. But lately the daily view count is averaging 200 and more per day.
All that's knowable is the daily view count, the previous days view count, and view counts for specific posts in selected periods such as the last seven days, 30 days, 60 days and all time. Nothing at all about viewers themselves can ever be known. The weekly view count is now commonly well above a thousand.
The view count is also subdivided into which posts received which number of views, and one older post in particular is receiving a vast number of the views. I don't know why this post has suddenly become very popular, since it only shows a single video of me from nine and a half years ago. The post is: https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2013/09/blog-post.html
and the video it shows is:
A few other older posts are receiving a lot of views, and I know it's really none of my business what is being seen of me. It's just unexpected.
The newer blog page at: https://blog08633.wordpress.com/ has a different way of offering statistics, but appears to get anywhere from 5 to 40+ views per day. Being so new it may not be established yet, and to get any other link than the one above, and upgrade to a paid plan is necessary.
It's still unclear how the notifications for statistics work there. It seems that a notification is only sent when the page is viewed for the very first time by someone, but not if they return to view it additional times. After the page was first established, notifications for new views came often. Then it was only occasionally. Now it's daily and has been that way for a while. A screenshot of recent notifications:
It may have nothing to do with it, but a Facebook friend from back in high school who was invited to view the page many months ago recently visited the page, and within a day of her visit, the notifications for new views began to come regularly. It may be a coincidence, but it's at least possible that after seeing the page, she began to "spread the word" of the page and of my exposure to friends and others previous classmates. Of course if that is the case, she has every right to do as she pleases, but it's still more likely that it's all a coincidence.
Just as with the increased blog views, it's just that it's unexpected. It does seem highly likely though, that some of the additional viewers in both cases are people who know me or at least knew me at one time or another. I've never come across or seen anyone I know or knew naked or fully exposed on the internet, so I can't speak from experience on that. But if I ever did I think I might be curious or even interested to see as much of them as there was to see. For many who know me, I happen to be the person they know or knew who they have seen, are seeing, or will see naked and fully exposed on the internet.
In most or many cases this will be or become the defining aspect about me and what will be thought of and remembered most about me by them. Hearing or seeing my name or thinking of me will likely bring to their mind whichever picture or video of me naked that they saw and remember the most or the one they most recently saw of me.
There is no reversing that or avoiding it, so I will always be defined by my exposure and I have to be willing to accept that fact.
One reason for this is that I don’t really see what I might want or
how I might feel about being exposed as being something that matters
very much. It’s a requirement that has to be obeyed every night no
matter how I feel about it on any night.
There’s no doubt at all that neighbors and others nearby do continue
to see me in bed naked at different points during the nights and early
mornings. Since I’m always right there and completely exposed it’s
unlikely that they fail to look every time they have the opportunity.
For those who look at me most often, there’s probably not a single place
on my naked body that is not familiar to them.
I do know that I am occasionally or periodically viewed on webcam in
bed, even though I never know by who, when it occurs, how long it occurs
for, what they see, or when it might occur.
I understand that this is just one more part of the requirement for
me though, so that it can always be verified and confirmed that I am
always obeying the requirement to be exposed naked through a window
every night, all night. I know that if anyone accessed the webcam while
I’m in bed or asleep, that unless I’m completely naked, unless the room
is well lit, unless there is no form of covering present or being used,
and unless the blind on the window is raised enough to enable me to be
seen easily from outside, that I will be caught in the act of violating
the requirement.
I know there is no way around that and no loophole that can avoid any
of that, so I know that I have to remain in compliance with the
requirement at all times, every single night. I know this means there is
a one hundred percent chance that I am seen and will be seen naked at
times, and that it’s never up to me when I’m seen or who sees me.
Access being enabled to my PC and webcam is also a requirement
through either the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access app, which
enables verification of my nightly exposure at any time of night.
Whether my exposure is verified on webcam once a month, once a week,
every other day, or even more often, I have to be exposed every night,
all night simply because verification can take place at any time on any
night.
All I can do is remember that fact that it was decided that this is
what I deserve, and to accept it as what I deserve. It doesn’t help
limit the humiliation of it that much, but at least it reminds me that
the reason for the humiliation is because I deserve it.
At whatever time I go to bed at night, I know it’s the end of the
part of the day where there can be any sort of privacy for my body. If I
am not already naked I know the first thing that’s necessary is for me
to remove every shred of clothing.
Since the blind on the window is fixed in the raised position at all
times, I know there’s no need to do anything with it. Any top sheets or
other possible covering have long since been removed and done away with,
except for the fitted sheet over the mattress and pillow cases on the
pillows. The only thing left after becoming naked is to ensure that the
room is well lit.
As I do these things, I am always at least a little bit aware of how I
am about to serve another night of being exposed naked and very likely
be seen naked. But I know that if I want to go to bed and to sleep that
night, I also have to be exposed naked the entire time.
So I climb onto the bed and try to get settled knowing that a night
of exposure has now begun. I know I can be seen through the window and
that I probably will be within a short time. I know I may even be being
looked at naked at that very moment by someone nearby, but I know that
covering up is not permissible and would be pointless anyway.
Most often I close my eyes and try to pretend that I am in a place
with complete and total privacy, even though I know that’s not true at
all. Depending on how tired I am that night, I either manage to fall
asleep pretty quickly or within a short time. Falling asleep does not
change a thing about my exposure other than it stop s me from dwelling
on the fact and from there being any possibility of me realizing it
when I am being seen or looked at naked.
I tend to think of it as me drifting off to someplace else while leaving my naked body in place for anyone to see or look at.
I’ve learned to try not to look outside through the window too much
during the night, since it’s much easier to be less aware of when
there’s a good chance that I’m being seen naked at the time.
Some nights, most often Friday or Saturday nights, there can be lots
of apparent activity within sight of the window. Mostly lots of
headlights from cars coming, going, parking, or loading up and pulling
away. Also lights being carried by people walking at night, although
only a few walkers bother to carry a light. On nights like that I know
it almost impossible for me not to be seen, and more likely for one or
more people to stop and look towards my window for a while.
If I’m in bed but still awake I try my best not to know any of that
is going on outside. If I do ever realize that I am almost certainly
being watched at the time, it can be really hard to just stay in place
while it happens even though that’s what I am supposed to do and
expected to do. Sometimes I actually have to force myself to stay where
I am, and if I’m watched for too long I’ve ended up kind of whining or
moaning a little bit.
I don’t mean to make the sounds, but I think it’s because I know that
my naked body is being looked at intently by people I know nothing
about and I just have to wait for them to finish looking. Sometimes it
feels as if they think they are supposed to look at me naked, but I
always know that because of the requirement for me to be there and be
exposed, that in some way they really are supposed to look at me naked.
Things like that can feel overwhelming at times, so even though
anyone who looks is free to look and maybe even supposed to look, I find
it much easier if I’m aware of it as rarely as possible. That way I
only know that it is happening, but I don’t know about it at that very
moment.
This post was made over several days, since it took some time for me
to think about things I feel and think about before and during my
nightly exposure and to try putting those things into words.
While writing it, another anonymous comment was received. This one
seems to be from someone who has seen me in the process of being exposed
at night more than one time.
I suppose I really am glad that I don’t spend most of my time humping
the bed or with my ass raised up for no apparent reason but for anyone
to see.
I did not know what position I slept in the most, but it’s obvious
that whichever part of me faces the window the most is what most others
nearby have already seen or are continuously seeing.
I can only wonder how familiar with my naked body that some nearby
others might be by now, or how familiar with it they might become over
more time. It’s an endless source of humiliation to have to see and
encounter those who have repeatedly seen me naked in bed, even if I
don’t know them. Every encounter starts with me wondering if this person
or these people have seen me exposed naked at night. I wouldn’t really
know if they have seen me, but they would certainly know that they have.
While I’m wondering, those who have seen me are probably already
picturing me as they saw me rather than how I appear at that moment. In
those cases I can probably never not be naked to them, and any
clothes I’m wearing at that time probably make no difference to them.
They would already have seen everything any clothing was currently
covering on me.
I also occasionally wonder what they might say to each other, since
those who have seen me and who can see me naked at night tend to
encounter each other very often or even know each other. I usually stop
short of wondering if they ever talk about some part of my naked body
that would be private for anyone else but is essentially public for me.
I think at best I am “The Naked guy in the window all night” by now to at least some of them.
I can almost feel my naked body becoming less and less private over time, and becoming more and more public each night.
Ever since January 1st of 2023, the poll on deciding upon my
masturbation, or lack of it has had a majority of the decisions being
that I am prohibited from masturbating or in any way intentionally or
knowingly climaxing.
Since the current majority result is in effect and is to be obeyed by
me, and the result has not changed in spite of additional votes, it is
currently approaching the 140 day point of the prohibition.
I am at times insanely horny and aroused without any way to relieve
it, and this seems to be manifesting itself even while asleep. I wake up
humping the bed more and more often, and at least one photo captured of
me during the night by someone accessing my PC and webcam have revealed
me in a quite humiliating and exposed position during a night of
required exposure through a window.
I’m left wondering how often I might be repeating something like this
and for how long I might be staying in such positions. Anyone looking
from outside nearby could easily see me in such a position.
I understand that any effects from not masturbating are for me to
endure and accept, and the decisions in the poll were made according to
what it was believed that I deserve, so I have no reason to question
whether or not I deserve whatever results from not masturbating.
It’s being repeatedly pointed out to me that such a majority of
decisions are for me to remain prohibited from masturbating or
climaxing, and that it is because a majority of others know that it’s
what I deserve.
The poll for deciding upon whether or not I can masturbate/climax is
due to remain open until February 1st of 2024, but much of what has been
mentioned to me has struck me as being entirely true.
I can see that a large majority of decisions are for prohibiting me
from masturbating and intentionally climaxing. I have to assume that
that majority is very unlikely to change even with more decisions being
made.
I also see that very few additional decisions are being made, often
with more than a month passing now without any additional decisions
being made. I can’t deny the fact that it might be due to others being
in agreement with the current results, and see no reason for any change
in the current results.
I have to accept the fact that if the current majority remains the
same, that the prohibition on masturbating/climaxing may well become
permanent for me. since it will have been decided that is what I
deserve.
For the past several months I have been thinking of it all as just
biding the time until the results change, even though there has been no
reason to expect them to change.
Recently, partly due to what has been pointed out to me, I have been
thinking that the poll remaining open may really just be prolonging the
inevitable. It may even be me avoiding what may already be a permanent
prohibition on climaxing, and possibly me failing to accept what I
deserve.
I know once the poll ends or closes, that’s it. The prohibition will
be permanent for sure. But in most ways it already seems to be permanent
anyway. Whether I remain prohibited from masturbating or climaxing
until February 1st and the ban becomes permanent, or whether it becomes
permanent right away does seem to be the same result.
I suppose accepting the results and a permanent prohibition is the
right thing for me to do. I didn’t think about how it might be
considered to be a disservice to anyone who thinks or wants the
prohibition to be permanent for me if the poll continues for months
without any actual change in the results.
It feels like a huge thing for me to accept being permanently
prohibited from masturbating or climaxing intentionally. I know I will
absolutely have to obey the prohibition and, as it’s said in one
comment, I will have to do all I can to make sure that I do never
climax, so that I remain as aroused and horny as possible at all times
no matter how frustrating it would be.
The only way I would ever climax and ejaculate again is if or when
someone else caused it personally and intentionally. It’s possible that
eventually I could end up begging or pleading for someone else to cause
me to climax, and then have it be up to them whether they would enable
and permit it or not.
But whether it’s now or later, all of that seems to be inevitable, so
I do have to consider accepting the prohibition on
masturbating/climaxing as being permanent soon, or at least sooner.
I still feel like I need more time to be able to accept it, but at
some point I know I have to accept it. So as soon as I can get myself to
go through with it, I will be accepting a permanent prohibition on
masturbating and intentionally climaxing, and accept continuing to do
everything possible to ensure that I do never climax. It will be stated
publicly so that there can be no question that the prohibition is
permanent.
Generally there would be no reason to mention it each time anyone anonymously accesses my PC and camera, but a photo was left in folder that was apparently taken during the night that reveals me naked in bed and asleep. Since a photo was taken and left available, it's being included here just so that it's clear that nothing about my nightly exposure remains concealed.
It may not be an ideal pose to be in for a photo, but as usual when I'm asleep I am oblivious to being exposed, being seen, and being photographed.
As it always is, it feels peculiar to see myself asleep and exposed. When I go to bed ad before I fall asleep I always know that I am exposed, but my awareness ends once I'm asleep. But of course my exposure doesn't end then, and goes on throughout the night.
Whenever a photo is taken of me naked, exposed, and asleep it always re-confirms for me the fact that at night my naked body and my exposure is as close to being public as it can be without being fully public.
I know that's true anyway, but photos of my nightly exposure actually show it's true.
Since neither the Teamviewer app or the Anydesk app keep or retain anything at all about anyone accessing my PC, and keep no record of any access, I never know a single thing about if or when my PC or the camera is accessed. I never even know which app was used.
I might know there was access if a page or an application is left open, but I often can't be sure if it wasn't me who left things that way. Only a photo or photos being taken or a video being taken, and then left for me to find is a way to know there was access.
I do make sure I follow and obey the requirement as closely as possible that I spend each night exposed naked to potential observers outside and to anyone who accesses my PC and camera, but I still feel relieved in a way when anyone is actually able to see that I am complying with the requirement. The thought of any violation of a requirement that would incur some additional penalty is something I truly hope to avoid.
So when anyone does see me while I'm exposed naked in bed at night, I'm thankful that I was seen complying with the requirement.
Since I know that anyone has the absolute right to view my exposure at night either from outside or on camera, I do try to be sure I never infringe on that right even though it can be humiliating for me.
I also know that anyone making use of their right to access my PC and camera are under no obligation to take any photos or video of me, or to leave any copy of them for me to find at some later time. So if I'm being honest I suppose I am thankful or grateful to them for not only taking any photos or video, but for leaving a copy of them. I know that whoever takes any photo or video of me naked technically owns or controls them. They have every right to have or keep them for themselves for their own purposes without leaving a single copy for me to find. So when something is left for me to find, in a way it's a favor to me, since it's newer and more recent proof that I am complying with and obeying the requirement.
I only hope that anyone who observes my nightly exposure finds my compliance satisfactory, adequate, and sufficient.
My exposure and humiliation is unavoidable, but being found not be in compliance is entirely avoidable.
Any additional photos taken of me naked during the night, but not taken by me will be included here as they are left and then found by me in a camera roll folder on my PC.
This time it's two new photos on yet another night. If nothing else, at least it provides a visual record and verification that the requirement for my nightly exposure is being obeyed and complied with.
Finding new photos daily was unexpected, and if it continues an additional post may be needed to prevent this post from being too long and have too many photos. Since all photos included so far are from the same week, this post will include all photos from the same week.
A few more new photos were found, and in one I see that I seem to do something I never knew I did or expected to see while asleep. I can see that I did it, but it's strange to have no knowledge or memory of it. Clearly the taker of the photo saw it, but I can only wonder how often I might do it and how many nearby others may have seen me like that at any time.
But being exposed means being seen with nothing being concealed, so it's just one more aspect of exposure that I have to accept. Here is the photo of the unexpected position followed by two others.
These last few photos complete the list of photos taken of me by others while in bed and asleep during a single week.
These photos will hopefully be sufficient as confirmation and verification that my requirement for nightly, night long exposure is being obeyed. For those who have long insisted that my nightly exposure also had to be seen, the photos may not prove it absolutely, but I can attest to the fact that I did not take a single one of the photos and knew nothing about them being taken until finding them later in a camera roll folder.
I may wake up or get out of bed briefly or periodically during nights, but whenever I am in bed at night, I realize that I am required to be exposed naked, both through an uncovered window to anyone nearby, and through accessing a webcam.
I hope the anonymous commenters don't mind when a comment is used in a blog post, but it often seems like they are a good reference or a good place to start.
I can't say that I am horny or aroused every second of the day, but I'm definitely a aroused and horny a whole lot more than I was or would be before I became prohibited from masturbating.
So many more things have an erotic feel to them than ever before. Things like being stuck in traffic or having to wait in line for something are now erotic in some way for me. Those things may not cause an erection for me directly, but without me even thinking about it or being immediately aware of it, I will begin rubbing between my legs. In most cases I notice I'm doing it pretty quickly and make myself stop doing it.
In traffic while driving, the urgency to stop doing it seems lesser, so I may even continue doing it then until I do have an erection. I may even continue beyond that, but once I do have an erection now, I know that I am already not too far away from cumming. Where edging might have lasted for minutes when I could still masturbate often, it now can only last from a few seconds to less than a minute after I have an erection and my dick is being stimulated. Now I have to stop right away because of the risk of cumming and violating that requirement.
When I do it while waiting in line somewhere, I stop it as soon as I realize I'm doing it, even though by then I have already done it a little bit and any others around could have noticed me doing it. I usually try to mask it by acting as though I was scratching an itch or adjusting something between my legs. It's not the ideal masking, but it seems better than being seen stimulating myself.
In public I also have to be very wary of doing it, since if I'm wearing the jeans with the large hole in front it's possible for my shirt to end up being lifted up higher. If it lifts up with the current size of the hole, it would enable anyone nearby to see into the hole. At the very least it would reveal that I had nothing on under my pants. More than likely it would enable a view of my dick, and also part of my balls now that the hole has gotten larger.
I also stop doing it when in public because if I get an erection, especially wearing the jeans with the hole, it's really hard to hide the bulge with my shirt. An erection is now more likely than ever to stick out of the hole, so if my shirt happens to lift up when it's sticking out it would be clearly exposed to everyone within sight.
As of April 29th of 2023 I have managed to obey the requirement of not cumming for 118 days straight so far, and I don't dare violate it or disobey and disrespect what others have decided about it.
It's still endlessly frustrating to have to stay horny and so turned on for so much of the time, but the frustration isn't just pure everyday frustration. It's not easy to explain, but it's a strange sort of frustration. It's a kind of erotic and sexual frustration that's unique and separate from just basic frustration.
I never know how to expect it to make me feel at any given time. I get urges to do things that don't seem to make sense for the situation, and ones I know I can't act upon, but the urges do still come.
One example is something that occurs while I'm working. I paint houses and other structures for a living, and when I'm outside and up high on a ladder trying to paint something hard to reach and tedious where accuracy and neatness are required, I can suddenly get the urge to just stop and remove all of my clothes and throw them as far away as possible. I just suddenly feel like I am supposed to be up there completely naked at least until I finish the task in front of me, if not also for the rest of the day. It's not even always a matter of wanting to do it, but it's feeling as though I'm supposed to.
I don't know why that urge occurs, but it's occurred several times since I haven't been masturbating.
Any time that my pants where my dick is or just my uncovered dick rubs up against anything, it feels stimulating and reminds me of how aroused or near to being aroused that I am. Depending on what I'm doing at the time and how involved in something that I am at the time, the rubbing and stimulation can cause an erection. In any case I can really only acknowledge my arousal and try to deal with it as best as I can, since I know there's nothing else I can do about it.
Being so horny and aroused for so much of the day, and even at night is not all bad in spite of the sexual frustration that comes along with it. It's amazing to me how quickly and easily I get an erection now, almost but not quite like when starting puberty. Only now I know and understand a lot more about it than I did back then. My dick has become very sensitive to any stimulation compared to when I could regularly masturbate and probably overly masturbate.
Involuntarily humping the bed at night while sleeping or even occasionally voluntarily humping it never felt so good as it does now in spite of the fact that at the time I'm exposed naked while doing it and almost certainly being seen through a window at times doing it.
I don't ever seem to get angry or upset about being so aroused and horny or the fact that I can't have relief. Aside from being horny and aroused, it's mainly just the sexual frustration of knowing I have to stay that way all of the time. I can only assume the reason I don;t get upset is because so many others so far have decided that I deserve to have to stay aroused and horny. I just can't escape the fact that since that's what's mostly been decided so far, that it must be true that I deserve to have to stay aroused and horny. I can't exactly be upset about something if it's what I deserve.
As for whatever the eventual final result is on the decisions on masturbating or intentionally being allowed to climax, I realize that others know much, much better than me about what what result I deserve, and the final majority decision is sure to be the right one, and the one I deserve.
Of course the poll for deciding upon my masturbation is still open and will remain open until February 1st of 2024 for those who might wish to include their decision.
A sort of survey has been created to enable anonymously listing a penalty for my violation of a requirement. The requirement violated was my failure to include mandatory photos in a recent email, which are required to be included in each and every email sent by me or replied to by me.
It has become clear to me that some deem it necessary that a penalty must be implemented for me for this or any violation of any of my requirements. A chosen penalty can be listed here:
A penalty deemed fitting for my violation can be listed along with some detail about it, and one must ultimately come from those listed that are possible to be implemented.
One recent comment received on the "Secret Message" page lists a potential penalty, although it leaves the details open.
Depending on the number of results and any similarities between them, they may end up in a short duration poll for one to be chosen over the others through voting.
Even though there being a penalty does make me a little bit anxious and maybe a bit nervous, I realize that it can't always just be dismissed when I fail to follow a requirement. I realize that just because I'm obeying other requirements it doesn't excuse not obeying all of them.
Obviously any penalty received shouldn't require any violation of other requirements, such as the requirement that I spend every night exposed naked to others through a window, or the current requirement that I cannot intentionally cum or ejaculate.
Since any violation of any requirement by me is essentially disrespecting and failing to obey decisions made by others, it can only be others who decide upon any penalty I receive.
Once again, the photos I failed to include in an email, and ones that are required to be in each and every email sent by me or replied to by me are:
Any choices of a penalty submitted will be listed here:
1) Get yourself as close to the
edge as possible without cumming before leaving home. Wear the jeans
with the hole. Go someplace public (mall, department store, etc.). Keep
yourself as on edge while driving without cumming. Once you get to the
public place go to the bathroom or dressing room. Leave the door
unlocked (accidentally). Edge yourself a total of 5 times with 5 minutes
in-between getting as close to cumming as possible without cumming. You
are to then walk around the store for 20 minutes keeping yourself as
close to on edge as possible without cumming in any way possible
(feeling yourself through your packets, thrusting your hips, whatever).
Pictures should be taken during this to show your humiliation and
frustration at not being able to cum. The pictures and a detailed
account of what happened should be posted.
2) Since your violation had to do with not being properly exposed naked, your penalty should be to be exposed the same way as in one of the pictures you failed to send. You have to be exposed naked all night anyway so your neighbors all see you. After it's dark outside and at least an hour before your usual time for going to bed, make sure your blind is up, that your room is lit up like it has to be all night, and get on your bed completely naked. Have your bare ass aimed towards the window as close to the window as possible while staying on the bed. Raise you ass up and lower your shoulders and head down onto the bed, and then stay like that for one full hour without moving for an reason, every night for two full weeks (14 nights) in a row. If you skip even one night you have to start all over again. The pose has to be just like in one of the pictures you were supposed to send. Since you didn't send it, you should have to be exposed like that in real time and in person for long enough for other people to see you.
The topic has arisen of there being a penalty of some sort for me if or when I fail to follow or obey any requirement or obligation that has been decided for me, or one that I am expected to follow.
It is my intent to always try to remain in compliance with all requirements and obligations, but if or when I do fail to comply with one or more of them at any time, it can't very well be disputed that there should be some penalty or punishment for my failure.
Recently I did fail to comply with one obligation, which requires that three "signature photos" always be included in any email sent by me or in any reply sent by me. This was noticed by someone who was aware that this obligation existed for me, and they informed me of my failure.
The required "signature photos":
I did fail to notice that the photos were not included before sending the email, but I realize that there's no distinction between an oversight on my part and intentionally excluding the photos. If a penalty is deemed necessary for me for this infraction, then I realize that I would just have to accept it.
It is only proper for others to decide if a penalty for this is in order, and if so, what that penalty would be.
Just as with other requirements for me, such as being required to sleep naked, uncovered, with lights on, and with a window uncovered, the requirement that I strip naked on demand or request when encountered in person, and the current requirement that I do not masturbate or intentionally cum or ejaculate, I cannot very well expect to avoid some form or penalty or punishment if I fail to obey those requirements at all times or in all situations.
For lack of a better way to provide input, thoughts, or ideas anonymously, the "Secret Message Book" site would be the best way to convey any input to me in the topic.
If anonymity is not a preference, then I can be emailed directly at
DaveS113065@gmail.com
or
DaveS113065@yahoo.com
If a penalty is in order, perhaps a short list of potential penalties can be complied, and one reasonable and also fitting one could be chosen through voting or through some similar means.
Two of my permanent requirements appear to have come together recently.
The requirement that my PC remain accessible through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps, and the requirement that I spend every night in bed or while asleep being exposed naked through a window have apparently been utilized by someone unknown.
Everything about it remained unknown to me for well over a day, and the only evidence that it occurred was found in a folder on my PC. Four photos showing me naked in bed were taken at a time when I was still asleep in bed.
The photo information shows the photos were taken between 6:00AM and 6:30AM, well before the time when I woke up.
A webcam always remains set up and in place that when activated on my PC, will show me naked in bed at night, although it does malfunction at times and will only show a black screen, especially if not activated for many hours. On those occasions the only solution is to unplug the camera and then plug it back into the PC. On this night (morning) the camera seems to have worked just fine.
The cameras main purpose is to enable others to access it and my PC to ensure or verify that I am obeying the requirement to remain naked and exposed for the entire night, every night.
The camera can enable it to be seen that I am completely naked, that no covers are being used, that the light level is sufficient to expose me, and that the window is uncovered with the outside being visible to some degree.
It also just enables me to be observed naked by anyone who just wishes to see me, and for photos to be taken using the camera. Photos such as those already mentioned:
Since no record or information of any kind is available or recorded when my PC is accessed, unless some page or folder is left open by whoever is accessing my PC, I never know if or when it may have occurred. Often even this isn't enough, since I often think that it was me who left something open or loaded.
The photos shown are literally the only way I was aware of any access, and I became aware only when the photos were eventually seen by me in a folder. I knew that I had nothing to do with them being taken, and also that I had been asleep in bed at the time when they were taken.
It's unknown if the copies left on my PC were the only copies, or if they were also copied or transferred by whoever took them. It's possible that whoever took them was aware that any photo or video of me naked taken by anyone else actually belong to that person, and is entirely their property, and that I can only have a copy or use them if I was left or given a copy by them. Since a copy of them was left on my PC, it's assumed that they were left for me to have, since whoever took them could easily have deleted them even after any transfer of them occurred.
Even though the obvious purpose for being exposed every night is so that I have no shred of privacy, and so that I am seen freely by others with no way to restrict who sees me, the photos serve to reinforce that fact. They show that someone was actually seeing me while I was being exposed for others (nearby) to freely view. As it often is, I am not aware of it occurring at the time, but it does most certainly occur.
In the photos, there's no real sign that anyone was seeing me through the window at those moments, but I was being seen on camera by someone unknown.
When awake and aware of being exposed or seen, it's usually possible to at least try to limit or restrict how much is seen or who is seeing the exposure. While asleep and oblivious to being seen, I remain entirely exposed with no real limits or restrictions.
No matter how deeply I sleep or for how long I remain asleep, there's no escaping the fact that my naked body always remains fully exposed to be seen, observed, and looked at by anyone with the ability or the desire to view it.
A recent anonymous comment received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db mentioned how I'm in front of the window naked each time I get out of bed in the morning.
Photos or video may not show it, but I can only get out of bed on the side of the bed closest to the window. A narrow area on the other side of the bed has a few boxes and other things stored there, so there is no way to stand up onto that side of the bed.
When I'm about to get into bed, and each time I get out of bed, it's actually necessary for me to be in front of the window. Whether day or night, anyone looking at that time would be sure to see me.
The glare of daylight can obscure the view of the outside in photos, but in reality that's not the case.
Nearly every time I dress or undress, it occurs in front of the window, simply because that's the most open and clutter free area available. If I'm wearing clothing before getting into bed for some reason, they are removed near the window. I climb into bed near the window before spending the night exposed through the window.
The window sill is 30 inches (76.2 centimeters) above the floor, and the top of my bed is 36 inches (99.44 centimeters) above the floor, so my bed is 6 inches (15.24 centimeters) higher than the window sill. From outside, my entire mattress with me on it can easily be seen all night long.
If I do get out of bed during the night, it places me in front of the window naked, just as it does when I get out of bed in the morning.
After spending another whole night exposed naked through the window, it feels futile for me to bother trying to limit any further exposure. The permanent requirement that I spend the entire night exposed naked prohibits any attempt at hiding or concealing anything, so over the six months it has been in effect I have gotten into the habit of not even trying to limit my exposure all night or in the morning.
It's endlessly humiliating to have to remain exposed to anyone nearby all night and in the morning even after daylight, so it seems quite strange to me that I am in now in the habit of being exposed almost automatically, while all the while feeling the humiliation of it all.
A good deal of the humiliation felt is probably due to knowing that my naked body is essentially public during these times, for anyone to see, and from knowing that I have been seen and will for sure continue to be seen naked by neighbors and any other random person who looks. I guess I get as much privacy as I deserve though.
