The video for December of 2023 that is now available for viewing by Facebook friends and by others happens to be one that would preferably have remained obscure and mostly unseen. But its absence from public view has not gone unnoticed by at least some people. Because it's a public video just as all of the others of me naked are public videos, when asked about its absence for viewing by Facebook friends, the answer would be that it is coming soon.
Even when that was said, I knew that I did not want others to see the video, and especially not for it to be seen by people who know me. But if it was not available, then it meant that what was said was untrue, and also that a public video was being kept from or concealed from those with the right to see it.
The video can be seen at: https://clipchamp.com/watch/7lDRE2DQzKS
The posts on Facebook can be seen by Facebook members on the pages
https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75
and
https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd
The video shows me completely naked and helplessly tied to a bed in a bent over position. My wrists are tied separately to the rail below the far side of the bed and my legs are tied in a spread apart position. My bare ass and my balls are clearly visible, and my asshole is at least partly visible. But the worst part is that the filter end of a lit cigarette is stuck in my asshole, which has already burned much of the way down as the video begins.
The title of the video is "David Steckel endures a hot-butt punishment" and I'm seen becoming more and more desperate as this "punishment" begins to occur.
The preference for the video to not be seen publicly is not due to me being seen naked and exposed in it, since I will always be seen naked publicly anyway. I think it's due more to the fact that the video shows my asshole being "punished" and because I'm totally restrained, all I can do is wait there being watched as it starts to happen and during the whole time it's happening. In spite of what some of the text in the video says, it never left my mind entirely that people were going to be seeing everything. They would see me tied up and stuck bent over naked and with a lit cigarette stuck in my asshole. They would see me have to leave the lit cigarette there because there was no way for me to reach it or to remove it. They would see how my asshole held the cigarette there so that the ember would reach my asshole and then even stay in contact with my asshole for as long as it existed.
Once the ember was very close to my asshole, they would see me start to squirm as it was felt. Once the ember reached my asshole, they would see me squirming, kicking my legs and feet, and fidgeting as much as my restraints would allow. They might even also be able to hear me whining and moaning as I endured what was going on in my asshole behind me. At the time I felt pretty sure that I had taken it rather stoically and that I had not really made any sounds. When I did see the video later, I found out that I could be heard whimpering even though I had not realized I had been doing it.
I had not wanted to put on any sort of show, and I tried not to show any reaction, but the point came when I just could not help it. I think even at the time my main thought over everything else was that it would be humiliating when everyone saw me like that. I knew that by the time the restraints were removed, the video might already be public somewhere on the internet. I knew that the point was for it to end up online in places where I had no way to remove it even if I tried, and in places and in front of people that I did not know about.
For about a month afterwards I was told that the video had been posted on at least a dozen websites, but the two others who said they made the posts would not tell me what the sites were or how to fund them. I was basically told that it was so that a lot of other people would see the video before I even knew where it was posted or how much it was being viewed.
Once one posting of the video was said to have reached five thousand views I was told how to find it. When I tried to find it though, I found out that to see it I would have to join the site and pay a large membership fee to be able to access the video there. It turned out to be a bondage and S and M website that specialized in a certain kind of video like the one I was shown in. At the time I could not afford the membership fee. I could see a listing for the video that included a title with my full name and a single screenshot image of me bent over a bed with my ass exposed, but clicking to try to play it or to see more about it brought up a box for joining the website and paying the fee. I had to give up on trying to get to the video there even though the huge number of members that the site had could all see the video of me whenever they wanted to.
When I related this fact to the one who posted the video there, they said it was a shame that I couldn't see the stats and comments on the video, since it was receiving even more views that they had hoped for and some of the comments included things that seemed impossible to be done with an asshole, but were talked about being done to my asshole. I was told that a huge amount of cum was being shot out while I was being watched in the video.
Considering what some viewers might want to do with my asshole was enough to make my asshole tighten up a little bit involuntarily, but luckily my asshole had completely recovered from its ordeal by then.
I knew that the best thing I could do is to try not to think about the video, about how many places online where I might be ending up, who might be seeing it, and what some viewers of it wanted to do with my asshole after seeing the video. For a while I mostly succeeded in that, until the one who posted the video on that website sent me a screenshot of the video page that site members had access to. The comments section was not dropped down, so no comments were visible, but the view count had risen to above 92,000 views.
I could not believe that the video had so many views on one single website that wasn't even a free website. I told myself that some people probably just watched the video a lot of times, but I knew that even if that was true a whole lot of people still must be watching the video.
After that the video was discussed or mentioned less and less, until it seemed forgotten about at least to me. I found myself preferring for the video to just slip through the cracks and fade away. I knew that it would stay posted wherever it was posted, since the video had been included when all photos and videos of me naked had become a part of the public domain. This meant I could never seek or ask for its removal from anywhere that it had been posted by anyone. I just planned to not increase or further its display online, or to draw more attention to it.
That worked at least as well as I had hoped it would until a video of me naked began being offered for viewing each month on the Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist", and then shared on my own personal Facebook page so that friends and followers would see it.
It wasn't long at all before I started being contacted through anonymous emails asking when the "ass punishment" video would be shown to everyone on Facebook. I still don't know if it was all one person doing the asking or if it was more than one person, since the sources of the messages are often different. I would reply that it would be soon, while I tried to figure a way to avoid having the video end up where so many people who know me would see it and where anyone else would be free to watch it.
I knew that besides for the humiliation it would cause me, that there was no reason I could ever come up with for why the video wasn't shown to everyone. Since my humiliation is never a factor, and is often even more of a reason for a posting rather than less of a reason, I knew the video had to be seen by everyone at some point. No matter what, I was going to be seen tied naked while my asshole was "punished", and that it would include being seen by people who knew me.
So when I was recently contacted again about when the video would be shown to everyone on Facebook, I said that it would be by the end of the year. Since it's December at this time, there is no more time for delay left for me.
So the video is currently available through a post on the Facebook Exhibitionist page, and that post has been shared on my personal Facebook page. The video will be watched for sure by Facebook members that include people who know me and friends, and by now that has already started to happen.
Since I can't fool myself into believing that no one will bother to watch the video, I'm left to just reminding myself that the video does belong to everyone and that it's everyone's right to see it.
A screenshot from the video:
The same screenshot image but with the cigarette circled:
This is how friends, people who know me, and how many others will see me and are already seeing me. But I do know that I have to be seen this way, because a public video that legally and legitimately belongs to everyone cannot be hidden.
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