Overall Exposure update

Part one: Nightly Exposure Naked: 

At times days can pass without anything too noteworthy occurring in relation to my exposure, at least as far as I know. 

That's especially the case for the requirement that I sleep and spend every night exposed naked through a window. Some nights, especially when I'm very tired, I go to bed and fall asleep quickly, and I only wake up when the alarm goes off in the morning. Currently that time is 7:30AM and it's already daylight out. although at other times I have to wake up a bit earlier.

Of course by sleeping straight through the night, I would have no way of knowing about being seen or observed in bed naked whether it was by one or even ten people. On those nights I just know that I went to be naked and exposed, and then I woke up naked and exposed.

I do know that from about 6:30 AM onward, that several nearby others who would have a direct view of my bed through the window begin to come outside and/or go to their vehicles to go wherever they need to go. Others come out to walk or to walk their dogs at about that same time or just after. On mornings when I've been awake at those times, I've noticed these things, so I assume they occur the same way at the same time each day whether I am awake or not. 

So on nights when I sleep straight through until the alarm goes off, it's easily possible that I am being looked at naked by one or more of those nearby people but it's just that I'm oblivious to it. 

Since the nights and the early mornings have been warmer recently, it's been possible for the window sash to remain open all night to have fresh air all night. This has always been done except for when the nights get too cool for part of the year. 

It doesn't make much of a difference for how visible I might be whether the sash is up or not while in bed naked, but it seems possible that it might make me easier to notice somehow.

I only consider this due to having awakened at around 6:45AM on a recent morning. I recall waking up in the usual way, where at first I'm only aware that I'm in bed. I'm not immediately conscious of the fact that I'm completely naked, uncovered, brightly lit up with lights, and fully exposed through the window. These facts usually sink in slowly as I wake up further. What I was aware of though, was the fact that I was lying on my back and that I had a full erection that was pointing up towards my belly button. 

I don't know what to call it, but several times I did the thing that can make an erection move or bounce without touching it, like a kind of drawing in with some muscles or some ability that only happens with an erection. I was enjoying the feeling of doing that and feeling my erection lift up and then fall back against my stomach.

While I was doing this, I continued to wake up further, and I became aware that I was exposed naked. Still, I didn't really give it a lot of thought, since that happens every morning as part of waking up. I still hadn't opened my eyes, and I just kept enjoying making my erection move up and down without touching it. I especially enjoy doing that since I cannot masturbate and I am pretty aroused every morning when I wake up. 

After a bit of lying there making my erection move, I did happen to open my eyes to see that it was still fairly dark outside, but that it had begun to get light outside enough for me to be able to see some detail outside. Also, with the sash open, there isn't the glare from the inside lights reflecting off of the window glass, and my own naked reflection is not being reflected back to me.

I noticed that the lights of a vehicle were on of someone who lives nearby. Usually they pull away quickly after they get into their vehicle, but this time they just sat there. I laid there, still with an erection that wasn't about to go away, and waited. I knew there was nothing I could do except to wait. I knew if they were looking at me then getting up and out of bed would expose me even more, since I can only get out of bed on the side that places me directly in front of the window naked. 

I waited, and still they just sat in their vehicle with the lights on for minute after minute. If they were looking at me, I knew they had an excellent view of me, and I couldn't think of any other reason why they were just sitting there. I could only assume they had already seen my erection bouncing up and down and that they were either waiting to see it happen more, or were just looking at me lying there completely naked with an erection. 

I finally closed my eyes so I wouldn't see that I was probably being looked at naked, but after a minute or two I wanted to know if they had driven away yet. I finally just peeked a little again and I couldn't believe that they were still sitting there. It was just a bit lighter outside by them and it was enough for me to notice that two people were standing not far beyond the vehicle who also appeared to be standing side by side looking directly at me.

Now I didn't dare move, since I didn't want to give away the fact that I was awake, but to say I felt extremely exposed is an understatement. I moaned a little bit, knowing that I must be being looked at naked and I couldn't do anything except to let them look. I thought that if I did move at all, they would be aware that I knew they were seeing me.

 I willed my erection to go down, but it was as if it wanted to be noticed and seen, since it stayed as hard as it had been. For the next couple of minutes my requirement to be exposed resulted in my naked body most likely resulted in my naked body being viewed publicly right from my bed.

The two standing observers finally left first, and the vehicle drove off less than a minute later. I tried to convince myself that it was all a coincidence, and that none of those people had really been looking at me naked, but I knew that wasn't true. I knew they had probably been aware of my nightly naked exposure, had probably observed me before, and were probably looking at me for entertainment. It can't be ruled out that they may even have photos of me naked in bed that were taken at some point. They also know that I am there to be seen naked every night and morning. 

That next night as I got into bed naked, I just knew that before I got out of bed the next morning, that I was going to be seen and looked at naked for sure. 

That night I was very tired from an extra long and difficult day of work, and as much as I tried to stay up until my usual bedtime of 11:00 PM or so, I couldn't stay awake. I ended up getting into bed just after 10:00 PM. I knew that meant more people would still be out and about who might see me naked, but aside from being so tired, I knew that being seen naked was inevitable and I just resigned myself to it. Since I fell asleep quickly, I don't know how much my exposure may have been observed early in the night.

I did wake up at one point without knowing what time it was, although it was still dark outside. I was lying on my side with me bare butt facing the window, and my butt was basically arched outwards. My face was pointed away from the window. As usual it took me a moment to recall that I was currently exposed naked. Once I remembered this I did wonder if anyone might be looking at me, but I knew there was no point in thinking about it. I didn't even bother to move. I was able to fall asleep again right away.

When I woke up again it was daylight, but just a little before the alarm was due to go off. I was lying on my back trying to wake up the rest of the way and waiting to see if my erection would go down when I noticed someone standing outside a short distance away from my window. I saw that it was someone who lived very close to me. This person can see me in bed right from their window and patio door, but mostly only from my waist up. I knew they could see me fully from parts of their yard, but I was never sure they had seen me enough to know that I was naked. This time they had walked to a spot that wasn't on their property, but where they could see me fully through the window. They stood there looking right towards me for a nearly two minutes without looking away once. I knew for sure they were looking at me naked, and it was one of the most obvious times I've been looked at so far, at least where I was aware of it. 

I can only wonder whether I have been looked at like that all along and people are just getting bolder or less inhibited at looking at me. It's possible that I just never noticed it or saw it happen before because I was either asleep or not paying attention to anything outside. Since I'm exposed naked every night and until morning, some people clearly know they can see me, and after so long they may just not care how obvious it is that they are looking at me. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement for me to be exposed naked, or that I can't cover up or hide anything, but it's almost as if they know all of that. 

I always know that getting into bed naked is so that I am exposed, but it now seems that it also means being seen, looked at, or watched naked on a regular basis. 

While the poll with this requirement was still open, and once decision that I be required to sleep naked and exposed every night had a large majority of votes, a few people online mentioned that I had to be exposed but also seen, I didn't envision being seen or watched  the way that's happening now. I figured I might receive a few glances at most and maybe eventually someone might take a longer look. Now some people seem to be going out of their way just to look at me naked in bed. 

Just knowing people can see me naked already made me feel exposed, but now knowing that people will see me naked has greatly increased that feeling of exposure. Especially since I know it doesn't change anything. I still have to sleep exposed naked even though it means being seen for sure, and over and over again. The poll results made it clear that I deserve this, so once again I just have to accept what I deserve. 

Anyone using the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access apps can view me naked in bed by accessing my PC between 11:00 PM and 7:30 AM Eastern Time, either to verify that I am being exposed through the window naked while uncovered  and with lights on, or just because they want to. The camera is always set up to show me naked while in bed all night long, every night.

 Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Photos or video can be taken with the camera, and transferred using that option on either app. Any photos or video taken will be sent to the "Camera Roll" folder. An shortcut icon can be found on my desktop directly above the light blue camera icon at the bottom of the screen. 

An icon for the Cam4 website can be found directly beside the camera icon. This icon will enable me to be broadcast naked in bed on the Cam4 site without me being aware of it, but after a few minutes of inactivity on the site, a box will appear that needs to be clicked on to prevent the broadcast from ending. 

This is why I am not broadcast naked every night, all night, since once in bed the box cannot be clicked on. But as long as the box is repeatedly clicked on every few minutes, any broadcast would continue. Of course both the broadcast and the webcam cannot be active at the same time. It has to be either one or the other, although any viewer could still see me as I was broadcast naked. 

Part Two: A Hole in Jeans.

Just an update and some clarification on wearing a pair of jeans with a (now) large hole near the zipper.

I currently have three pairs of blue jeans, all having been bought at the same time. One of them seems weaker than the others, since a hole developed just to the left of the zipper in front. None of the other jeans have any holes in them yet. This one pair not only has a hole next to the zipper, but there is also a hole above the left rear pocket, on the side closest to the center seam going over the butt area. This hole is still only large enough to fit a thumb through, but since I don't wear underwear, it does make a small part of my bare butt cheek visible. Since the large hole in front tends to be the one I try to stay aware of most of the time, I almost always forget about the rear hole. Anyone seeing it would immediately know that I had no underwear on, and they would know they were seeing a small area of my butt cheek, but I tend to focus on keeping my dick from flopping out or popping out of the in the front. When soft, my dick can now flop out of the hole quite easily. When hard, my dick can actually pop out through the hole, especially when I'm getting an erection and my dick is getting hard. It can pop out while my dick is only partly erect, and unless I get it back into the hole right away before my erection is full, it can be very difficult to get it to go back into the hole, since quite a bit of my erection will extend above the hole. 

If I crouch down, lean forward, and use my hands, I can get an erection back into the hole. I can also unbutton and unzip my pants and shove my erection back into the hole. But if I'm out in public anywhere, I can't really do those things. I can sometimes get my soft dick back inside of the hole without it being too obvious, but I can't really get an erection to go back inside the same way. In that case about all I can do is leave my erection sticking out and try to cover it with by pulling down the bottom of my shirt as bast as I can. I also have to keep my shirt bottom slightly away from my body, or else the outline and the bulge of my erection will show. 

Since I'm currently prohibited from masturbating, I'm much more likely to get erections that last for a while and that come at times that might be inconvenient or even humiliating. The jeans with the hole would be retired but I've committed to continue to wear them until someone sees enough of something that they make some sort of negative comment about them. 

I normally wear any one pair of jeans for three to four days, depending on whether they get dirty or have something spilled on them. I wear work jeans all day, so I only wear my personal jeans in the evening after a shower, and on days off from work. So the jeans with the hole(s) in them tend to be worn for three of four days out of every ten or so days, or about three times per month for a total of about nine or ten days. 

Here are some recent photos of me wearing the jeans with the hole in front showing:

I know that by keeping my dick covered with my shirt in public, I'm just ensuring that I have to keep wearing the jeans for longer, and until the hole gets even bigger, but it's difficult to just let my dick willingly stick out and be seen publicly. So I'll continue to try to keep it covered for as long as I can.

It's basically inevitable that my dick will be seen in public at some point. I don't think it has been seen yet, but I can't be sure. No one has said anything one way or another yet though. But even if my dick is seen and no comment is made or no negative comment is made, it means my dick still has to be seen again. So one way or another my dick is going to be seen in public at least once. I just have no idea who will see it or where it will occur. 

Add-On:

After this post was published, a couple of photos were taken of the hole in the jeans by the rear pocket. The hole is still quite small, but is always more visible to others since there is no attempt to cover it up. It can instantly reveal that I have no underwear on, and it is less often covered by any shirt I'm wearing.

No masturbating - update

 In the last couple of days, seven more votes were received in the poll, and all seven chose that I cannot masturbate or intentionally cum. The poll will still be open for many months yet, but the current results seem to indicate that I may not actually deserve to masturbate or cum intentionally. Since the current result in the majority must be obeyed, it's clear that I definitely won't be masturbating or cumming any time soon. I will be remaining aroused, horny, and turned on, which I have to accept as what I deserve. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

Aside from learning what I actually deserve, not masturbating is revealing some unexpected things to me. 

The most unexpected of all is that being aroused and turned on from not masturbating kind of turns around on itself for me. By that I mean that because I am most often aroused and horny, and I know that I cannot masturbate or cum, knowing I have to stay that way arouses and turns me on even more. So basically, being aroused and turned on from not being allowed to masturbate makes me even more aroused and turned on. It took a while of not masturbating before that seemed to begin, but I may just have taken a while to realize it. I have been prohibited from masturbating for more than 90 days so far, so I don't know if knowing I can't masturbate or cum will continue to keep making me even more aroused and turned on. I suppose it's just another part of what I deserve though.

Another thing I've discovered is that I cannot resist edging myself repeatedly and often, even though I know it can never result in me cumming or ejaculating. I don't technically masturbate, since I don't actually stroke or use a hand. Being so aroused all I have to do is to keep lightly touching my dick with a fingertip on the under side just below the head, and it's enough to keep be edged. I have to pause every so often to ensure that I don't get too close to cumming, which is an endless tease for me, but I know I have to obey the requirement for not cumming at all. 

I don't really want to do it and keep teasing myself, but if I'm alone and preoccupied with something else, I often realize I am already doing it. Once I realize it, it's very hard to stop doing it. Usually something will interrupt me and I will stop then, or I get so aroused that I can barely do it at all without a risk of cumming, and my only option is to force myself to stop doing it. Occasionally I stop because I have someplace to go, which usually means I'm heading out being super aroused and with an erection. Most of the time when walking out the door I'm aroused with an erection. 

Something I found to be very true is that I do not dare to risk intentionally cumming no matter how possible it might appear that there's a chance for getting away with it. Knowing I'm not allowed to intentionally cum and knowing it would violate a requirement is more than enough to ensure that I obey the requirement. I would know I was guilty of violating the requirement, and of disobeying decisions others have made, and I would be stuck living with that guilt. I also feel absolutely sure that my offense would be known about or discovered, and I would have no justification for it. What most voters decide that I deserve is certain to be what I deserve, and that decision must be accepted by me and obeyed by me. Accepting what I deserve is the only option for me. 

With the requirement that I have to sleep naked every night, without any covering, with sufficiently bright lights on, and with the window uncovered that enables a direct view of me from outside, not be permitted to masturbate is continuously causing erections and leading me to hump the bed, mostly during sleep, but now also when awake but near to falling asleep. I tried to limit or even prevent these things from occurring, since they can and likely will be seen by others with a view of my window, but I've had to resign myself to the fact that those things are going to occur due to me being so aroused and horny. Because they are going to occur, I just have to accept the fact that others are going to see those things when they are seeing me naked in bed. Some have more than likely already seen me with an erection in bed or seen me humping the bed naked or both, which can't be unseen even if I could somehow limit or prevent those things from occurring. 

Each night, I go to bed only knowing that I will be exposed naked through the window all night long, but most nights, or for all I know every night, I end up providing much more of a display for anyone who sees me through the window due to being so aroused from not masturbating or cumming. It's clear by now that this is going to continue indefinitely if not always, so maybe eventually everyone who can see it will see it, and there will hardly be anyone left who hasn't seen all of it. That seems about the only real option for me, since I'm required not to hide, cover, or conceal anything during the night or while in bed.

I suppose getting what I deserve can't be expected to be easy all of the time, but I know it does have to be accepted as much as possible even when it's occurring.

Note: The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K has three options or choices ever since it had to be moved to a different polling site, since it was mentioned twice that the poll options were to complex and complicated, and that the poll needed to be simplified to options that either allowed me to masturbate or for me to not be allowed to masturbate. The earlier options were said to be redundant. They also received basically no votes, so their removal didn't effect the overall results.

Two options still allow for the option for me to masturbate in some way, while one does not. So in the end I will either have some sort of permission to masturbate and cum, or I will be permanently prohibited from masturbating and intentionally cumming, and I will have to accept that I only deserve to be aroused and turned on. But that's for voters to decide and I am and will be required to obey their decision.

Potential for a webcam broadcast of my nightly exposure naked -updated

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A hole in jeans update

 A couple months ago I related in a post about having a pair of blue jeans that had developed a small hole next to the zipper area. At the time a comment on the post suggested that I keep wearing them for as long as possible. Since "as long as possible" isn't very defining, it was decided that I would continue to wear them until a negative comment is made by someone about them to me personally while I am wearing them.

I currently have three pairs of jeans that I cycle through, wearing one after another. Each pair is worn, washed, and dried in a clothes dryer about once per week. Since the last post about them, the pair with the hole has been repeatedly worn just as I committed to doing. They have been washed and dried since then between eight and ten times. Here is what the hole currently looks like:

The hole continues to grow larger after each washing and drying, and my dick tends to pop out of the hole at times. Especially when I first stand up or while walking. It doesn't pop out every single time I get and erection, but if the hole is lined up in a certain way while an erection is growing, the tip of my dick will pop out of the hole. 

If no one is nearby, and I can push my dick back into my pants, only part of my shaft would show through the hole. But if I can't shove my dick back into my pants and my erection becomes full, it's very difficult to just shove it back inside without undoing my pants because of how much of my dick is extended beyond the hole. If I'm lucky, my erection will subside quickly and allow me to push my dick back into the hole. If I'm not lucky and others are around me, all I can do is to try to keep my shirt pulled down enough to cover my erection while it's extending through the hole.

The week before the photos were taken I was in a large drug store when one of my now common spontaneous erections began to occur. At first I didn't think much of it even though there were people throughout the store. Then I felt the tip of my dick begin exiting the hole. I was in an aisle where there were people in front of me and also behind me, and I didn't know what to do. I stopped walking and pretended to be looking at something on a lower shelf as I attempted to get my erection back inside of the hole while keeping my shirt pulled down as far as it would go. Since I was carrying items I had to set them down to free my hands. I could only use one hand since the other hand had to keep my shirt pulled down far enough. By then my erection had grown too much and too much of it extended out of the hole for me to get it to go back inside of the hole. I nearly succeeded but my pants were too tight for there to be enough slack in them, and my dick was too stiff. As others began walking in my direction I had to abandon my attempts and reign myself to just tying to keep my shirt pulled down. I had to pull down hard and stretch my shirt out, which was surely noticeable, but if I didn't my erection would be right out in the open.

I also had to keep the bottom of my shirt slightly away from my body, or the bulge and outline of my erection would easily show under my shirt. I couldn't carry the items I'd selected and keep my shirt pulled down at the same time, so I had to go and get a small basket the store keeps available and carry the basket with one hand while keeping my shirt pulled down. 

Fortunately for me, the checkout counter is high enough that by standing up against it, I was able to let go of my shirt without it rising up. As far as I know I managed to exit the store without anyone seeing my erection directly, even though one or more people may have noticed either the bulge under my shirt or the fact that I was making an effort to stretch the bottom of my shirt down as far as it would go.

I have dozens of t-shirts that I regularly wear, and of all of them only one will hang down far enough to cover the hole in my jeans or the fact that my dick is sticking out of it or at least visible through the hole. When that shirt is in the laundry, only shorter shirts are available. 

When I first put on the jeans with the hole, I am aware of the hole. But I very often forget that it's those jeans that I'm wearing when I go out anywhere. Unless something draws my attention to the hole, such as feeling my dick pop out through the hole, I often fail to think about the hole at all. On cool days I might feel the cool air hitting my dick and be reminded of the hole, but on warmer days as it's been lately where I live, I often go in and out of places and do whatever I'm out to do all without acknowledging the hole. Only later when I once again realize I have those jeans on, do I realize that I was walking around oblivious to the hole being there. I don't recall anyone obviously noticing the hole or seeing my dick through the hole, but if I'm not conscious of the hole at any moment, I'm not watching out for that sort of thing.

At times while wearing those jeans I will happen to look down and see my soft dick right inside of the hole, and if it won't be too noticeable to anyone I will quickly shit my dick to the right side, since the hole is on my left side. That only works for a short time or until I move around, since my dick naturally moves to the left side and will stay there. On it's own my dick will settle right where the hole is, which may have something to do with how the hole began to form in that spot to begin with. 

At the moment the hole is big enough to enable my dick to just pop through it at any time, but otherwise the jeans are still in decent enough shape for them to continue to be worn. More than once lately, when I need to pee and I'm about to unzip my pants while standing on front of a toilet, I will notice that my dick is already partially sticking out of the hole, and I will just pull it out through the hole a bit more and then pee without having to unzip the zipper at all. 

The next few cycles through the laundry are sure to enlarge the hole even more, and it's inevitable that others will notice it or possibly see my dick. If someone sees it and says something negative about it, then the jeans can be retired. If they see and don't say anything then nothing changes and the jeans will be worn again. 

If I could wear some sort of underwear, the jeans might be able to be worn indefinitely, but I long ago promised and committed not to ever wear underwear for any reason at all. It's also been so long since I've worn any that the feeling of them is intolerable to me. I only possess one single pair of underwear that were originally kept for unique times like doctors exams or such things, but underwear has not been worn even for those reasons for a long time. If I'm told at an exam to strip to my underwear, I just have to inform them that I don't wear any and have none on. So wearing underwear is not an option for me.

For now the jeans with the hole will continue to be worn regularly along with the other pairs that I own. It's inevitable that my dick will pop out from time to time, and I will deal with it as best as I can. For them not to be worn anymore, someone will not only end up seeing my dick, but they will also have to make a negative comment or react about it in a less than positive manner. Until that happens the hole will become larger and larger and will expose me even more than it already does.

 

Blog comments may not be functioning

 It seems that since Google required the blog to have a sensitive content disclaimer, that the ability to comment may not be functioning for some reason. The settings for comments are unchanged and set to allow anonymous commenting, so it's not clear what the issue might be. 

If it's desired to comment anonymously, the only option for now might be to use a separate website intended for anonymous comments. The comments won't be readable by anyone but me, but they will be received. 

"Secret Message Book" page: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db

My replies to any anonymous comments can then be addressed in a blog post if necessary, since the Secret Message Book page only works for receiving comments and nothing can be sent from there as a reply.

All Exposure requirements and poll results continue to be fulfilled.

  

This post was created over a period of a week, with bits added at a time, so it's more like a stream of consciousness than an orderly, organized post. It's about the requirements that are in effect for me, both permanent ones and one that's still in the process of being decided.

Two requirements are mentioned often, mostly since they both have a major effect on daily life for me. Technically one has most of it's effect at night, while the other is nearly constant.

All requirements from previous and current polls continue to be fulfilled and obeyed. Of course the results of the now closed poll are forever permanent for me, and must be obeyed at all times regardless of what I might prefer or how inconvenient or humiliating they might be for me.

The currently ongoing poll  https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K deciding whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally ejaculate is free for anyone to anonymously vote in. All that's necessary is to vote for whatever is felt that I deserve. The current results prohibit me from masturbating or intentionally cumming. 

I would ask for votes for options that might eventually permit me to masturbate, but I have already been basically scolded by some contacts for attempting to sway voters and their votes. So all potential voters should vote for which option they want to or feel that I deserve. It is and will be mandatory and required for me to always follow and obey the result with the most votes.

All of the poll results do have some impact for me, but some have a more long term impact while others have a day to day impact.

One requirement that has a longer term impact is that every photo and video of me naked is essentially public domain, since anyone anywhere has the full right to possess, post, display, and share any photo or video of me naked that they desire, and for any reason or purpose they desire. Not only do I have no say about it, but even if I'm informed about any such thing beforehand, I cannot ask for it not to be done, and afterwards I am forbidden from asking or requesting the removal of any such post or display. This applies even if photos or video of me naked is to be shared with or sent to a person or people who know me personally.

Also, all photos and videos of me naked must be presented in manners that will enable not just anyone to see them, but in ways that will enable others who know me personally to see them. 

This has already led to some results. Currently, at least several people who do know me personally are known to have viewed at least some photos or videos of me naked, and more people who know me are certain to have viewed them without any way to know it for sure. Ironically, not one of them has chosen to mention to me about seeing me online naked, either in an attempt to avoid embarrassing me, or due to not wanting to reveal the fact that they looked at me naked. In any case though, some people known to me have seen me online naked and nothing can change that fact. It's just unknown to me what photos or videos they saw of me.

A requirement that could have an effect at any time is the requirement that my PC must remain available for access to anyone through the Teamviewer or Anydesk apps. Even if I'm aware of any access at any time, unless changes to the PC settings are being attempted, I cannot interfere with any access. This means that all folders and files are free for access or transferring for any use or reason. It also means that most websites I use or have an account on can be accessed or visited as me, even for the purpose of further exposing me in some manner to others, including to others who might know me personally.

Knowing it's all possible and that it must be permitted to occur is intimidating, but fortunately for me it rarely occurs. Even when it does occur, browsers other than the Firefox browser tend to be used, which have less direct access to most websites used by me. Still though, it's intimidating to know that my PC and many websites I use are essentially an open book to anyone who might want them to be.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Even more intimidating is the requirement that if or when I am approached in person by anyone and told to or requested to strip off all of my clothing until naked, that I must comply. If this occurs in an open and public place, the most I can do is to hope to move to some nearby location with some amount of at least temporary privacy before complying. Once naked I am required to "gift" all clothing, or give them to the person who made the request, who is under no obligation to return any of the clothing to me. I would also have to submit to being photographed naked or recorded naked on video in any way desired by the new owner of whatever clothing I had just removed, The new owner of the clothing would then decide whether or not whether any clothing would be returned to me, whether any of it could be earned back by me in some way, or whether I would have to remain naked and be left entirely exposed for others to see.

The stripping naked on request part is intimidating by itself, but having to surrender all clothing and remain completely naked wherever I am at the time is much more intimidating. I cannot refuse or deny any request or demand that I strip naked, and once the request or demand is made all clothing I would be wearing and have to remove would immediately be owned by anyone who made the request. So essentially if I don't remove all of my clothes, or I don't surrender them, I am guilty of theft since no clothing at all at that location actually belongs to me anymore.

Although it's possible for this to occur at any time, I try not to think much about it and I will just have to deal with it as best as I can if or when it does occur, and accept however much humiliation and exposure that might result.

A requirement that does have a daily, or rather nightly effect for me is the requirement that I spend each and every night completely naked, including while in bed, without covering of any kind, with lights on, and with a window uncovered to enable anyone nearby to see and observe me at any time during the night.

Being in bed or sleeping now always means being exposed naked to anyone who happens to see me or who has the slightest desire to observe me naked. I rarely, if ever know if anyone is seeing me or who might be looking, but I cannot cover up or conceal anything at any time of night. Any form of covering up at any time, for any reason would mean violating the requirement. An insufficient light level, or not bright enough lights being on is also a violation. The same is true if the window doesn't remain uncovered at all times.

While asleep I not only remain unaware of any observation, but I cannot control any erections or anything I do. When I become aroused or horny while asleep, I not only get and erection that is visible for anyone to see, but I also often tend to hump the bed if lying on my front, and to thrust my hips upwards while lying on my back. Occasionally I wake up during these times, but without knowing how long I may have been doing it or who may already have observed it. I have to assume that there are times when I do these things without ever waking up at all, which could mean it's being observed without me knowing a single thing about even doing it. 

Since this became required for me, I'm only aware of being seen and observed by a few nearby others, but only because I was awake at the time and the observers made it fairly obvious that they were watching me. In those cases I still couldn't cover up or limit any observation of me. It's very likely those observers were only a fraction of how much I have been seen or observed since October of 2022 when the requirement went into effect.

A few others nearby do appear to look in through the window nearly each night to check or confirm that I am exposed to view naked. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement, but it's not impossible that they are. I just know that unless I am exposed naked every night for the entire night, then there's a risk of being discovered of violating the requirement. 

The requirement also extends to anywhere else I spend any night. This includes motels, hotels, in a vehicle, or at any residence where I spend any night unless there is a clear and obvious reason why it cannot occur, such as no window being present. Who might see me, how much I might be seen, or how humiliating it might be for me are not valid reasons for violating the requirement.  

The final requirement is still the subject of an ongoing poll, but the current majority result is obliged to be followed as a requirement. The poll decides whether I can masturbate to relieve arousal and being horny or turned on, or whether I have to remain aroused without relief. 

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

As of January 1st, 2023 the results have dictated that I cannot masturbate at all, and can only receive relief through a wet dream or some uncontrolled and unplanned ejaculation at some random time of day or night. Since then I have not masturbated or had the release of more than a drop or two of cum, since I dare not violate the requirement dictated by the anonymous voters in the poll. Their decisions and only their decisions can dictate whether or not I can masturbate, and their decisions were made with the expectation that they would be obeyed and followed. 

The requirement for not masturbating definitely has an influence on the requirement that I sleep naked while exposed through an uncovered window, since I am inevitably aroused and horny even while asleep. Erections and humping motions during sleep occur regularly rather than occasionally, and there is no hiding it concealing any of it from being viewed from outside. 

All requirements except for not masturbating are permanent, will never change, and can never be avoided by me, so they must be accepted. The poll for not masturbating will remain open until February 1st of 2024, and afterwards whatever decision has the most votes at the time will become a permanent requirement for me. 

Since most voters have so far decided that I cannot masturbate or cause an ejaculation, and that status has remained the same in spite of additional votes, I'm not only prohibited from masturbating, but I also have to face the possibility that eventually that prohibition may become permanent. 

Each day that passes while being prohibited from masturbating, the day the poll will end gets closer and closer, and unless the poll results change, the prohibition for masturbating will inevitably become permanent. There are still many months until then, but in the meantime I still cannot masturbate or intentionally do anything that will cause me to climax or cum. 

Sometimes I'm so aroused and horny that I feel like I definitely have to masturbate, and that I can't take it for another minute. So far I somehow take it though, even though I want to cum more than anything at those moments. 

I always have to remember that I am bound by and committed to obeying what a majority of others have decided in the poll, and how I would be disregarding and disrespecting their decisions and violating a requirement that I'm likely expected to obey. 

At times though, I do think about how those who decided that I cannot masturbate are free to masturbate as they please, while I never can. But I have to accept that the decisions made for me only apply to me, and those voters were only basing their decisions on what they honestly felt that I deserve. 

One thing is for sure though. I have already gone for longer by far without masturbating or cumming than I ever have before since hitting puberty. Each day that passes only extends that time. I can only wonder if or when I may have a wet dream or maybe even unintentionally climax and cum somewhere in public with others all around me. I'm afraid it will be so intense and feel so good that I'll react in a way that will reveal to everyone nearby exactly what is happening. There won't be much doubt about it if there ends up being a large wet spot on my pants, but that may be inevitable at some point as long as I cannot masturbate.

I do have to remind myself often that all of the requirements for me have been decided by voters as being what I deserve and are entirely separate from whatever I might want or prefer personally. I realize that getting what I deserve isn't assured to be easy, convenient, or even pleasurable. Being highly aroused and extremely horny for much of the time is definitely not easy, and it can preoccupy my thoughts often. It can also manifest itself in ways that I can barely avoid or not avoid at all.

One of those ways is at night while in bed and exposed naked to a wide outside area and to many potential others. Even though I feel extremely exposed at the time, because I am extremely exposed at the time, my arousal can now cause me to make humping or thrusting motions even while I'm still awake. I get so desperately aroused that I can't really help doing it in spite of the fact that anyone could be watching me at that very moment. Physically it feels so good and I'm so aroused that I can't make myself stop doing it even though I know I'm only adding to my exposure and providing an increased public display to anyone who might be seeing me through the window. 

I know it will be even more embarrassing for me when I inevitably end up seeing or encountering the same nearby others during the day who saw me exposed and displayed during the night. They can and are already seeing me completely naked and exposed in bed every night, and due to my inability to prevent my displays of arousal, they can now see those displays too. 

While I'm providing those displays, more than once I actually said out loud "Stop doing this", but it's as if my arousal and my desperately hard penis are in full control of me at the time, and I keep doing it. I will then usually say "Please... Let this stop... People can see this". But I can't stop and it continues. It only ends when my muscles get tired enough to need a rest, but by then I have provided quite a long display for anyone who might be looking or watching. After it occurred several times, part of me knows that others have likely already seen it happening, so unless or until I can relieve my arousal through masturbating, and since I can't make it stop, it's just easier not to resist it and to accept that I will keep being exposed to the neighborhood while doing it and keep being seen doing it.

There are many nights when being required to just be exposed naked all night is difficult enough by itself. There are some nearby others who I would not even want to be seen by without a shirt on, but they can now and will always be able to see each and every part of my naked body every night, and all of my displays of arousal. At times it's hard to accept the fact that I've permanently lost any rights or ability for privacy for any part of my body to a large part of the neighborhood. Having the option to choose or decide if or when to be exposed naked is much different than being required to be exposed every single night from beginning to end, being required to never cover up or to dim the lights, or for the window to be uncovered. There can be a helpless feeling to it, especially when I'm certainly being seen completely naked even while I am asleep. While asleep I never even know what position I'm in when I'm seen or how I'm displayed to any viewers. I can only wonder if it was my bare ass that was presented, or if my legs were spread offering a view between them. In the longer run it hardly matters much though, since anyone looking enough would eventually have a view of every place on my naked body. 

Not being permitted to masturbate or to have relief from being very aroused and horny simply guarantees that all potential viewers of my nightly exposure will also continuously see displays of my arousal that I'm nearly helpless to prevent. 

Obviously the intent of my requirement for being exposed each night is so that I am actually seen naked freely by anyone who is able to see me, and to make sure I have no choice about who sees me or how much of me they see. Before the poll with this requirement was closed, the results were so ridiculously one-sided in favor of the requirement that it was more than clear what others decided that I deserved. It was enough that I could only accept the fact that I must deserve it for so many others to have all decided the same thing. So however difficult it is at times, I will spend every night exposed naked because it's what I deserve.

It's looking more and more like the results of the poll for whether I am permitted to masturbate or intentionally cum may be going the same way. As much as I dread to have to admit it, far more voters have decided that I cannot masturbate over any of the other choices in the poll. 

I periodically try to promote the poll to see if additional votes may be in favor of me being allowed to masturbate once again, but for every vote for one of the other choices, there are four votes deciding that I cannot be allowed to masturbate or intentionally cum. April 1st of 2023 will mark the 90th day for me not being permitted to masturbate and the 90th day since I have masturbated or had an ejaculation. The poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K is due to remain open until February of 2024, but as one contact described it, the decision has likely already been made.

Obviously I would like to eventually receive permission in the poll to masturbate and cum once again, but I know the decisions made by voters must be respected and obeyed by me. Currently many more voters have decided that I deserve to not be permitted to masturbate or cause myself to cum. They decided that there can be no relief from arousal and being horny or turned on for me. I know each voter decides what they do for a reason, and they have every right to expect their decisions to be obeyed.  

It's not possible for me to assess what I deserve, and only others can decide that. I used to masturbate at least three times per day, and much more on some days. I can only wonder of I abused the ability to masturbate until I ejaculated, and if that abuse is now being paid for by me. 

If I do end up being permanently prohibited from masturbating, I will of course respect and obey that requirement and the voters who decided it. I will know that I almost certainly brought it upon myself, and that what voters decided was actually what I deserve regardless of how I might feel about it personally.

Please help to decide what I deserve concerning masturbating by voting in the poll.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K 

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I can't effectively provide any photographic proof that I am obeying the requirement to currently not masturbate or intentionally cum, but I can attest to the fact that I am obeying it to the letter, as difficult as it is. I obey it because from the start I was committed to obeying whatever was decided through a majority in the poll results. Also because the decisions made by voters must be respected and abided by, no matter what is decided. As mentioned already, it's about what I deserve and not about what I might want or prefer. 

Some proof can be shown that I am obeying the now permanent requirement that I am exposed naked through a window while in bed or asleep. Showing proof that one specific requirement is being obeyed still may not prove the requirement for not masturbating is also being obeyed, but it's just about the best that can be done.

Photos showing how I spend nights and the window I'm exposed through:

 

In the GIF below, someone nearby can be seen entering the passenger side of a vehicle before the vehicle begins to drive off.  It's not clear if I was seen or observed by them this time, although they have surely seen me at other times. I was not aware of their presence until seeing the images later. At night when it's dark outside, even if awake I can never know when anyone might be seeing me. Sometimes it's just easier not to know I'm being seen, at least until after it's already happened. Since I know I have to be seen naked anyway, it's just best to remain asleep while others are looking at my naked body being exposed. 

The most I can do is to swear, promise, and give my word that I will always obey all permanent requirements, and obey the majority decision in the ongoing poll until the final results are known in early 2024. The decision of voters must always be respected and obeyed.. When voters decide something, then it's sure to be something I deserve.

Obeying the poll results for no masturbating causing frustrating arousal without release

 With the first poll now being closed and the results of it being a permanent part of life for me, only the second poll for whether or not I can masturbate remains open.

(Results of first poll is related in post): https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2023/02/exposure-poll-closed-and-results.html?zx=de1c4a9c06df99e4

The current results of the second poll https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K continues to have a majority at a ratio of 6 to 1 deciding that I cannot masturbate at all, for any reason, and that I can only ejaculate, cum, or obtain relief if it occurs entirely without me intentionally causing it in any way. It can only occur if I have a wet dream during sleep, or if it occurs spontaneously as a result of some random daily activity without intention, regardless of where it occurs or who might be present or nearby at the time.

It is now at the 70 day point (as of March 12th, 2023) since I have masturbated or ejaculated, aside from a few weeks ago when I was so aroused that a couple of drops of pre-cum escaped. I have beyond any doubt now gone longer than I ever have before since puberty without either masturbating or cumming. 

The level of arousal and being horny so much, so often is enough at times to leave me feeling desperate for relief, and I often feel like I cannot go another minute without masturbating and cumming. But I somehow manage to refrain from doing it. I refrain for a couple of reasons. One reason is that from the very start I committed to abiding by and obeying the results of the polls, even before any outcome could be known.

I am currently already abiding by all of the results of the first poll, and because they are now permanent for me, I will always be committed to obeying them.

Another reason for obeying the results for not masturbating is that I have obeyed those results for so long already that all of that would seem meaningless if I just ignored the commitment. Either my commitment means something or it doesn't, and I can't just pick and choose which results I wish to abide by and which ones I don't wish to abide by.

So I remain agonizingly horny and aroused very often in the slim hope that the poll results will somehow change at some point and once again allow me to masturbate and cum.

I realize that some will believe that I'm still masturbating and just saying that I'm not, but I can only swear and attest to the fact that I really am abiding by what the current poll results are deciding. Otherwise the poll could just be closed the results ignored. The only reason the poll remains open is because if the results change enough, it is the only chance there is for me to be allowed to masturbate and cum again.

I'm sure there are some who simply don't care one single bit about whether or not I can masturbate, and that's to be expected. The poll was always intended for those who wished to offer their input. 

There may be those who did participate in the poll, and who decided that I cannot be allowed to masturbate at all. They most likely prefer that the results remain as they are and may enjoy knowing that I have to be horny and aroused all of the time. It cannot be denied that they have every right to want that, to enjoy my situation, and to expect me to continue to obey the poll results unless or until the results change.

It has been suggested to me more than once that the poll should be closed with the results as they currently are, and that I should accept the fact that I can never masturbate or intentionally cum again. I've been told that I deserve to have to live every day being horny and turned on without any hope of relief from it. Maybe I do deserve that, but I'm still hoping that I don't deserve that. I'm still hoping that what I end up deserving is just not being allowed to masturbate or cum for a long period of time, which I'm already experiencing, but eventually being allowed to masturbate and cum again.

At the usual rate that I masturbated before not being allowed to, I would have masturbated and ejaculated at least 200 times by this point, but instead that number of times is zero. 

I can't ignore the fact that it's been nearly three weeks since any new votes in the poll have occurred, and that everyone who wished to add their input already has made their decision. 

Poll: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K

Current results: http://www.poll-maker.com/S-Quiz-Results?qp=2728704xA26D96fe-113

I can't ignore the fact that for every vote that allows me to masturbate, that six votes say that I cannot. I know the odds of that changing is very slim, but it's all I can hope for. The poll is set to remain open until February 1st, 2024. 

Only one of three things can happen by then. The slimmest odds are that the results change to where I receive permission to masturbate again. Another is that the results simple do not change at all, and the third thing is that more votes decide that I cannot masturbate at all, which would basically seal my fate. Either of those last two scenarios would both result in there being no hope of ever being allowed to masturbate until I cum. 

It's not looking promising that I will ever receive permission through the poll to masturbate again, but my options are to accept that now or to hope for something to change with less than 11 months left until the poll closes and the results become permanent. 

Of course I can tease myself even more by seeing a video of me masturbating, from before the poll results prohibited it. Like this one taken only 5 days before the poll results put an end to my masturbation. I didn't know then that it would be one of the last times for at least a very long time, if not permanently. 

The few messages and comments received have so far mostly suggested that I admit and accept the permanent loss of any right to ever masturbate to orgasm again. Most of this is based on what the poll results currently are. 

I am obeying those results, but I am not losing all hope yet for someday receiving permission to masturbate again. I've obeyed the results for 70 days and counting so far, which is already inconceivable to me, but I know for sure that I have obeyed them. If nothing changes after 100 days, or maybe 150 days, I may just have to accept that I really can't masturbate ever again. 

At the moment I know how difficult it has been to not masturbate for 70 days straight, and I just can't fathom how difficult it would be to go for one year, five years, ten years or longer without any masturbating at all. 

The message below is one of the longest and most descriptive received so far.

The end of your masturbation

Inbox

The question of whether you are to be allowed to masturbate has effectively already been answered. You committed yourself to accepting and obeying whatever it was that was decided that you deserve. That decision has been reached and you're now left with two choices. One is to defy, disregard, and reject the decision, which would mean your statements and commitments have no worth or value.

The only other choice for you is to obey the decision, and to accept the fact that you have already masturbated for the last time ever. This means doing your utmost to ensure that you never reach a climax through anything you do. Legitimately, this means never stimulating yourself through touch of any kind. No rubbing, no stroking, and no other sort of physical stimulation of your cock.

That's probably the most extreme interpretation of the decision, but even if you do those things, it can never, ever end up with you cumming or ejaculating.

Of course you're free to leave the poll open for however long you wish, but if you're going to follow through with your commitment and accept what you deserve, then masturbating must be a thing of the past for you, never to be done again. Your arousal, your being horny, or being turned on is something you will have to learn to accept and endure.

Hoping that the poll will provide permission for you to resume masturbating is at this point only false hope. You were more correct than you probably know when you wrote that many people "most likely prefer that the results remain as they are and may enjoy knowing that I have to be horny and aroused all of the time".

The whole reason people would prefer and enjoy that is because they believe that is exactly what you deserve. The only right thing for you to do, when you're ready to accept the decision, is to say outright that you do accept the decision, and that you will remain committed to obeying it by never again masturbating to the point of a climax. 

bxxxxxxxx@xxxxx.com	8:32 AM (7 hours ago)
to daves113065@gmail,com

Please click this link https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K to visit and vote in the poll. Please vote to permit me to resume masturbating again.  Unless enough votes are received to allow me to masturbate, I may never be allowed to masturbate again. 

Not voting at all or more votes for me to never be allowed to masturbate is sentencing me to permanently being aroused, horny, and turned on without any hope of relief. 

Please, please do not leave me prohibited from masturbating permanently. 

Nightly Exposure being observed

My nightly and night long exposure has been occurring ever since it became one of the requirements in the results of a now closed poll. The requirement is that I sleep naked in a well lit room, where the bed is in full view of the window. The window blind is to remain open, and no sheets or covers can be used to cover up or conceal me at any time.

During the first couple of months of this, and as I was getting adjusted to being exposed naked every night, I was only aware of being seen or observed on a couple of occasions. I knew then how much of a difference there is between knowing I could be seen and actually knowing that I was being seen naked at that very moment. At that moment I knew that one or more people that I didn't really know, but who I would see or encounter during the day, was looking at every part of my naked body that they could see, and they knew they were completely free to look for as long as they wanted to. I also knew that now that they had seen me naked, they might continue to look to see when I might be exposed again for them to see. 

Over the last few months, I really have no idea how many people may have seen me naked at night, or how many times or how often they might be looking. While it's completely dark outside, the view is mostly one way since the light inside makes it hard to see anything beyond the window other than reflections of the inside of the room and my own naked reflection. I'm also asleep or trying to sleep at those times, so anyone looking at me then would basically be free to look while never being known about by me.

I thought I might be jumping to conclusions at first, but on some mornings when I would wake up as daylight was coming, I started to notice that there seemed to be a bit more activity outside than there usually was. Once there would be a little bit of daylight I could begin to see a bit more of what was going on outside. I could see people walking, going to or from vehicles, walking dogs, or just being out there. I knew that in the dim daylight, if I could see them then they could surely see me on the bed in a lit room.

I told myself that all of that must always have occurred, and that I was just noticing it now. I thought it was conceited to think that any of it had anything to do with me. I told myself that most or all of them weren't even noticing me in bed naked, let alone looking at me or observing me.

I got myself to believe that for a while and for the most part, and it might actually be true at times for some people who are out there at some times. But it doesn't seem to be true for others. Some do seem to find some reason to be outside at around the same time each morning, even if they seem to have no reason to be out there. They also always seem to be out there before it gets too light outside or before the time when I get out of bed.

I'm partly convinced that some people nearby have realized that before it's too light outside and before the time comes when I usually get out of bed, that they can see me without having to venture out in the dark or at some very late or very early time.

It could all be coincidence, and attributing any of that to being about seeing me naked could be entirely off base, but it's increasing seeming to be accurate. If it is accurate, then I now have one or more regular and repeated viewers, at least until seeing me becomes too routine or my naked body becomes too well known and familiar to them. 

   

As impossible as it is to ever expect to be exposed naked without being seen naked, I surely never expected for there to be regular viewers, if that is in fact the case. It's looking more and more as though I'm becoming one of the regular sights or an interesting attraction for viewing by nearby others. And not a temporary one. 

Also, it's now 60 plus days into my requirement for no masturbating at all. The poll for this still remains open, but it's continuing to appear that there will be no reprieve on this for me, and that remaining aroused and horny for much of the time will continue indefinitely.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K