It's not hard to understand why not masturbating for two entire weeks now would lead to very common erections and a heightened level of overall arousal. Something like that was expected, even if it's turning out to be more than expected.
What wasn't really expected is how during the day I'm fantasizing a whole lot more often than I did before not being able to masturbate. Of course this only leads to even more erections occurring and it seems like a kind of feedback loop.
I'm aroused and horny, so I get erections, which only increase my arousal, which leads to more erections.
One of the more common fantasies that have begun to occur is if I see a person in public that is at least somewhat attractive looking to me. I then imagine if all of their clothing just vanished right then and there and what that might look like. I start to imagine how they might react or what they might try to do to avoid being seen naked more than they already had been by everyone around them. It doesn't take long before I have a full erection.
The dreams at night tend to different than that and generally involve me being in some unusual situation.
One in particular keeps happening that seems to have a good bit of detail. This surprised me since it is something that has never occurred and something I've never seen happen. How I got to be the way I am in the dream is never clear, but each time it occurs it seems like it's the first time rather than a rerun or repeated dream.
It begins with me being naked along a long paved pathway with a long chain link fence running parallel to it's length. I'm facing the fence and right up against it. Behind me and on the other side of the path is a wide grassy area with some thick woods beyond. In front on the other side of the fence is a huge open, grassy field with the grass cut low, and with a single mid sized tree not far from the fence.
I realize that as hard as I try, I cannot move away from the fence. I push away with my hands and lean back, but I feel my penis stretching and even tingling a little. It's then that I notice a thin, strong string tied very tightly around the head of me penis. The string goes through one of the small openings in the fence directly in front of where my penis is. My penis is stretched out to its limit through the opening in the fence. The other end of the string is tied tightly around the tree that's just beyond the other side of the fence. It's keeping me from being able to pull my penis out of the opening and keeping me from moving away from the fence.
I try to reach my penis with my hands, but the opening in the fence is too small. I can't get my fingers more than part way through any of the openings and cannot even come close to reaching the string that's tied around the head of my penis. I realize I am trapped right there just as I am.
I'm vaguely aware that one or more others are nearby laughing at me and mocking my predicament, but I never see them and only hear them. The last thing I hear from them is "Goodbye", and they apparently leave.
In the dream I become frantic to get free before people come along and see me, and I begin trying to bend or force one of the openings in the fence to become large enough for my hand to get through, but I can't get the opening to get any larger.
I pull back as hard as I can, which for some reason makes my penis get fully hard and feel tingly in a pleasing way, but the string is too tight to enable my penis to be withdrawn at all. The string is already too tight.
As I realize that I am going to have to just stay there and wait until others come along, I start to moan in a sort of resignation of my soon to occur humiliation. My penis remains erect though, and the tingling feeling in it even increases.
It's during this time in the dream that I wake up in bed naked, always with an erection and with an almost sure sense that I'd been either humping the bed or just thrusting upwards if lying on my back.
Once realizing it was just another dream I feel some relief that it wasn't happening for real, and with a curiosity about why such a helpless and humiliating situation leaves me feeling so aroused. I also wonder why the dream always ends at about the same point.
Some other dreams are more vague and less detailed, but most often involve me being in some crowded place naked, but without anyone seeming to notice yet. Somehow I always know that if I move even a little bit, everyone will notice, and that they will notice anyway within some short amount of time.
I sit there, or stand if that's how the dream goes, contemplating what I should do. I can never decide whether it;s better to stay still until I'm noticed, or if I should move or stand up. I seem to know that any exit is beyond a large number of people who I'd have to pass through or pass by. The dream always comes to and end before I can seem to make up my mind about what too do.
Between the common erections and arousal, fantasies and unusual dreams, going so long without masturbating or cumming seems to be continuing to have more and greater effects. I can't imagine there being more to come or what might be next.
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