Overall Exposure update

Part one: Nightly Exposure Naked: 

At times days can pass without anything too noteworthy occurring in relation to my exposure, at least as far as I know. 

That's especially the case for the requirement that I sleep and spend every night exposed naked through a window. Some nights, especially when I'm very tired, I go to bed and fall asleep quickly, and I only wake up when the alarm goes off in the morning. Currently that time is 7:30AM and it's already daylight out. although at other times I have to wake up a bit earlier.

Of course by sleeping straight through the night, I would have no way of knowing about being seen or observed in bed naked whether it was by one or even ten people. On those nights I just know that I went to be naked and exposed, and then I woke up naked and exposed.

I do know that from about 6:30 AM onward, that several nearby others who would have a direct view of my bed through the window begin to come outside and/or go to their vehicles to go wherever they need to go. Others come out to walk or to walk their dogs at about that same time or just after. On mornings when I've been awake at those times, I've noticed these things, so I assume they occur the same way at the same time each day whether I am awake or not. 

So on nights when I sleep straight through until the alarm goes off, it's easily possible that I am being looked at naked by one or more of those nearby people but it's just that I'm oblivious to it. 

Since the nights and the early mornings have been warmer recently, it's been possible for the window sash to remain open all night to have fresh air all night. This has always been done except for when the nights get too cool for part of the year. 

It doesn't make much of a difference for how visible I might be whether the sash is up or not while in bed naked, but it seems possible that it might make me easier to notice somehow.

I only consider this due to having awakened at around 6:45AM on a recent morning. I recall waking up in the usual way, where at first I'm only aware that I'm in bed. I'm not immediately conscious of the fact that I'm completely naked, uncovered, brightly lit up with lights, and fully exposed through the window. These facts usually sink in slowly as I wake up further. What I was aware of though, was the fact that I was lying on my back and that I had a full erection that was pointing up towards my belly button. 

I don't know what to call it, but several times I did the thing that can make an erection move or bounce without touching it, like a kind of drawing in with some muscles or some ability that only happens with an erection. I was enjoying the feeling of doing that and feeling my erection lift up and then fall back against my stomach.

While I was doing this, I continued to wake up further, and I became aware that I was exposed naked. Still, I didn't really give it a lot of thought, since that happens every morning as part of waking up. I still hadn't opened my eyes, and I just kept enjoying making my erection move up and down without touching it. I especially enjoy doing that since I cannot masturbate and I am pretty aroused every morning when I wake up. 

After a bit of lying there making my erection move, I did happen to open my eyes to see that it was still fairly dark outside, but that it had begun to get light outside enough for me to be able to see some detail outside. Also, with the sash open, there isn't the glare from the inside lights reflecting off of the window glass, and my own naked reflection is not being reflected back to me.

I noticed that the lights of a vehicle were on of someone who lives nearby. Usually they pull away quickly after they get into their vehicle, but this time they just sat there. I laid there, still with an erection that wasn't about to go away, and waited. I knew there was nothing I could do except to wait. I knew if they were looking at me then getting up and out of bed would expose me even more, since I can only get out of bed on the side that places me directly in front of the window naked. 

I waited, and still they just sat in their vehicle with the lights on for minute after minute. If they were looking at me, I knew they had an excellent view of me, and I couldn't think of any other reason why they were just sitting there. I could only assume they had already seen my erection bouncing up and down and that they were either waiting to see it happen more, or were just looking at me lying there completely naked with an erection. 

I finally closed my eyes so I wouldn't see that I was probably being looked at naked, but after a minute or two I wanted to know if they had driven away yet. I finally just peeked a little again and I couldn't believe that they were still sitting there. It was just a bit lighter outside by them and it was enough for me to notice that two people were standing not far beyond the vehicle who also appeared to be standing side by side looking directly at me.

Now I didn't dare move, since I didn't want to give away the fact that I was awake, but to say I felt extremely exposed is an understatement. I moaned a little bit, knowing that I must be being looked at naked and I couldn't do anything except to let them look. I thought that if I did move at all, they would be aware that I knew they were seeing me.

 I willed my erection to go down, but it was as if it wanted to be noticed and seen, since it stayed as hard as it had been. For the next couple of minutes my requirement to be exposed resulted in my naked body most likely resulted in my naked body being viewed publicly right from my bed.

The two standing observers finally left first, and the vehicle drove off less than a minute later. I tried to convince myself that it was all a coincidence, and that none of those people had really been looking at me naked, but I knew that wasn't true. I knew they had probably been aware of my nightly naked exposure, had probably observed me before, and were probably looking at me for entertainment. It can't be ruled out that they may even have photos of me naked in bed that were taken at some point. They also know that I am there to be seen naked every night and morning. 

That next night as I got into bed naked, I just knew that before I got out of bed the next morning, that I was going to be seen and looked at naked for sure. 

That night I was very tired from an extra long and difficult day of work, and as much as I tried to stay up until my usual bedtime of 11:00 PM or so, I couldn't stay awake. I ended up getting into bed just after 10:00 PM. I knew that meant more people would still be out and about who might see me naked, but aside from being so tired, I knew that being seen naked was inevitable and I just resigned myself to it. Since I fell asleep quickly, I don't know how much my exposure may have been observed early in the night.

I did wake up at one point without knowing what time it was, although it was still dark outside. I was lying on my side with me bare butt facing the window, and my butt was basically arched outwards. My face was pointed away from the window. As usual it took me a moment to recall that I was currently exposed naked. Once I remembered this I did wonder if anyone might be looking at me, but I knew there was no point in thinking about it. I didn't even bother to move. I was able to fall asleep again right away.

When I woke up again it was daylight, but just a little before the alarm was due to go off. I was lying on my back trying to wake up the rest of the way and waiting to see if my erection would go down when I noticed someone standing outside a short distance away from my window. I saw that it was someone who lived very close to me. This person can see me in bed right from their window and patio door, but mostly only from my waist up. I knew they could see me fully from parts of their yard, but I was never sure they had seen me enough to know that I was naked. This time they had walked to a spot that wasn't on their property, but where they could see me fully through the window. They stood there looking right towards me for a nearly two minutes without looking away once. I knew for sure they were looking at me naked, and it was one of the most obvious times I've been looked at so far, at least where I was aware of it. 

I can only wonder whether I have been looked at like that all along and people are just getting bolder or less inhibited at looking at me. It's possible that I just never noticed it or saw it happen before because I was either asleep or not paying attention to anything outside. Since I'm exposed naked every night and until morning, some people clearly know they can see me, and after so long they may just not care how obvious it is that they are looking at me. It's doubtful they are aware of the requirement for me to be exposed naked, or that I can't cover up or hide anything, but it's almost as if they know all of that. 

I always know that getting into bed naked is so that I am exposed, but it now seems that it also means being seen, looked at, or watched naked on a regular basis. 

While the poll with this requirement was still open, and once decision that I be required to sleep naked and exposed every night had a large majority of votes, a few people online mentioned that I had to be exposed but also seen, I didn't envision being seen or watched  the way that's happening now. I figured I might receive a few glances at most and maybe eventually someone might take a longer look. Now some people seem to be going out of their way just to look at me naked in bed. 

Just knowing people can see me naked already made me feel exposed, but now knowing that people will see me naked has greatly increased that feeling of exposure. Especially since I know it doesn't change anything. I still have to sleep exposed naked even though it means being seen for sure, and over and over again. The poll results made it clear that I deserve this, so once again I just have to accept what I deserve. 

Anyone using the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access apps can view me naked in bed by accessing my PC between 11:00 PM and 7:30 AM Eastern Time, either to verify that I am being exposed through the window naked while uncovered  and with lights on, or just because they want to. The camera is always set up to show me naked while in bed all night long, every night.

 Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Photos or video can be taken with the camera, and transferred using that option on either app. Any photos or video taken will be sent to the "Camera Roll" folder. An shortcut icon can be found on my desktop directly above the light blue camera icon at the bottom of the screen. 

An icon for the Cam4 website can be found directly beside the camera icon. This icon will enable me to be broadcast naked in bed on the Cam4 site without me being aware of it, but after a few minutes of inactivity on the site, a box will appear that needs to be clicked on to prevent the broadcast from ending. 

This is why I am not broadcast naked every night, all night, since once in bed the box cannot be clicked on. But as long as the box is repeatedly clicked on every few minutes, any broadcast would continue. Of course both the broadcast and the webcam cannot be active at the same time. It has to be either one or the other, although any viewer could still see me as I was broadcast naked. 

Part Two: A Hole in Jeans.

Just an update and some clarification on wearing a pair of jeans with a (now) large hole near the zipper.

I currently have three pairs of blue jeans, all having been bought at the same time. One of them seems weaker than the others, since a hole developed just to the left of the zipper in front. None of the other jeans have any holes in them yet. This one pair not only has a hole next to the zipper, but there is also a hole above the left rear pocket, on the side closest to the center seam going over the butt area. This hole is still only large enough to fit a thumb through, but since I don't wear underwear, it does make a small part of my bare butt cheek visible. Since the large hole in front tends to be the one I try to stay aware of most of the time, I almost always forget about the rear hole. Anyone seeing it would immediately know that I had no underwear on, and they would know they were seeing a small area of my butt cheek, but I tend to focus on keeping my dick from flopping out or popping out of the in the front. When soft, my dick can now flop out of the hole quite easily. When hard, my dick can actually pop out through the hole, especially when I'm getting an erection and my dick is getting hard. It can pop out while my dick is only partly erect, and unless I get it back into the hole right away before my erection is full, it can be very difficult to get it to go back into the hole, since quite a bit of my erection will extend above the hole. 

If I crouch down, lean forward, and use my hands, I can get an erection back into the hole. I can also unbutton and unzip my pants and shove my erection back into the hole. But if I'm out in public anywhere, I can't really do those things. I can sometimes get my soft dick back inside of the hole without it being too obvious, but I can't really get an erection to go back inside the same way. In that case about all I can do is leave my erection sticking out and try to cover it with by pulling down the bottom of my shirt as bast as I can. I also have to keep my shirt bottom slightly away from my body, or else the outline and the bulge of my erection will show. 

Since I'm currently prohibited from masturbating, I'm much more likely to get erections that last for a while and that come at times that might be inconvenient or even humiliating. The jeans with the hole would be retired but I've committed to continue to wear them until someone sees enough of something that they make some sort of negative comment about them. 

I normally wear any one pair of jeans for three to four days, depending on whether they get dirty or have something spilled on them. I wear work jeans all day, so I only wear my personal jeans in the evening after a shower, and on days off from work. So the jeans with the hole(s) in them tend to be worn for three of four days out of every ten or so days, or about three times per month for a total of about nine or ten days. 

Here are some recent photos of me wearing the jeans with the hole in front showing:

I know that by keeping my dick covered with my shirt in public, I'm just ensuring that I have to keep wearing the jeans for longer, and until the hole gets even bigger, but it's difficult to just let my dick willingly stick out and be seen publicly. So I'll continue to try to keep it covered for as long as I can.

It's basically inevitable that my dick will be seen in public at some point. I don't think it has been seen yet, but I can't be sure. No one has said anything one way or another yet though. But even if my dick is seen and no comment is made or no negative comment is made, it means my dick still has to be seen again. So one way or another my dick is going to be seen in public at least once. I just have no idea who will see it or where it will occur. 

Add-On:

After this post was published, a couple of photos were taken of the hole in the jeans by the rear pocket. The hole is still quite small, but is always more visible to others since there is no attempt to cover it up. It can instantly reveal that I have no underwear on, and it is less often covered by any shirt I'm wearing.

Potential for a webcam broadcast of my nightly exposure naked -updated

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A hole in jeans update

 A couple months ago I related in a post about having a pair of blue jeans that had developed a small hole next to the zipper area. At the time a comment on the post suggested that I keep wearing them for as long as possible. Since "as long as possible" isn't very defining, it was decided that I would continue to wear them until a negative comment is made by someone about them to me personally while I am wearing them.

I currently have three pairs of jeans that I cycle through, wearing one after another. Each pair is worn, washed, and dried in a clothes dryer about once per week. Since the last post about them, the pair with the hole has been repeatedly worn just as I committed to doing. They have been washed and dried since then between eight and ten times. Here is what the hole currently looks like:

The hole continues to grow larger after each washing and drying, and my dick tends to pop out of the hole at times. Especially when I first stand up or while walking. It doesn't pop out every single time I get and erection, but if the hole is lined up in a certain way while an erection is growing, the tip of my dick will pop out of the hole. 

If no one is nearby, and I can push my dick back into my pants, only part of my shaft would show through the hole. But if I can't shove my dick back into my pants and my erection becomes full, it's very difficult to just shove it back inside without undoing my pants because of how much of my dick is extended beyond the hole. If I'm lucky, my erection will subside quickly and allow me to push my dick back into the hole. If I'm not lucky and others are around me, all I can do is to try to keep my shirt pulled down enough to cover my erection while it's extending through the hole.

The week before the photos were taken I was in a large drug store when one of my now common spontaneous erections began to occur. At first I didn't think much of it even though there were people throughout the store. Then I felt the tip of my dick begin exiting the hole. I was in an aisle where there were people in front of me and also behind me, and I didn't know what to do. I stopped walking and pretended to be looking at something on a lower shelf as I attempted to get my erection back inside of the hole while keeping my shirt pulled down as far as it would go. Since I was carrying items I had to set them down to free my hands. I could only use one hand since the other hand had to keep my shirt pulled down far enough. By then my erection had grown too much and too much of it extended out of the hole for me to get it to go back inside of the hole. I nearly succeeded but my pants were too tight for there to be enough slack in them, and my dick was too stiff. As others began walking in my direction I had to abandon my attempts and reign myself to just tying to keep my shirt pulled down. I had to pull down hard and stretch my shirt out, which was surely noticeable, but if I didn't my erection would be right out in the open.

I also had to keep the bottom of my shirt slightly away from my body, or the bulge and outline of my erection would easily show under my shirt. I couldn't carry the items I'd selected and keep my shirt pulled down at the same time, so I had to go and get a small basket the store keeps available and carry the basket with one hand while keeping my shirt pulled down. 

Fortunately for me, the checkout counter is high enough that by standing up against it, I was able to let go of my shirt without it rising up. As far as I know I managed to exit the store without anyone seeing my erection directly, even though one or more people may have noticed either the bulge under my shirt or the fact that I was making an effort to stretch the bottom of my shirt down as far as it would go.

I have dozens of t-shirts that I regularly wear, and of all of them only one will hang down far enough to cover the hole in my jeans or the fact that my dick is sticking out of it or at least visible through the hole. When that shirt is in the laundry, only shorter shirts are available. 

When I first put on the jeans with the hole, I am aware of the hole. But I very often forget that it's those jeans that I'm wearing when I go out anywhere. Unless something draws my attention to the hole, such as feeling my dick pop out through the hole, I often fail to think about the hole at all. On cool days I might feel the cool air hitting my dick and be reminded of the hole, but on warmer days as it's been lately where I live, I often go in and out of places and do whatever I'm out to do all without acknowledging the hole. Only later when I once again realize I have those jeans on, do I realize that I was walking around oblivious to the hole being there. I don't recall anyone obviously noticing the hole or seeing my dick through the hole, but if I'm not conscious of the hole at any moment, I'm not watching out for that sort of thing.

At times while wearing those jeans I will happen to look down and see my soft dick right inside of the hole, and if it won't be too noticeable to anyone I will quickly shit my dick to the right side, since the hole is on my left side. That only works for a short time or until I move around, since my dick naturally moves to the left side and will stay there. On it's own my dick will settle right where the hole is, which may have something to do with how the hole began to form in that spot to begin with. 

At the moment the hole is big enough to enable my dick to just pop through it at any time, but otherwise the jeans are still in decent enough shape for them to continue to be worn. More than once lately, when I need to pee and I'm about to unzip my pants while standing on front of a toilet, I will notice that my dick is already partially sticking out of the hole, and I will just pull it out through the hole a bit more and then pee without having to unzip the zipper at all. 

The next few cycles through the laundry are sure to enlarge the hole even more, and it's inevitable that others will notice it or possibly see my dick. If someone sees it and says something negative about it, then the jeans can be retired. If they see and don't say anything then nothing changes and the jeans will be worn again. 

If I could wear some sort of underwear, the jeans might be able to be worn indefinitely, but I long ago promised and committed not to ever wear underwear for any reason at all. It's also been so long since I've worn any that the feeling of them is intolerable to me. I only possess one single pair of underwear that were originally kept for unique times like doctors exams or such things, but underwear has not been worn even for those reasons for a long time. If I'm told at an exam to strip to my underwear, I just have to inform them that I don't wear any and have none on. So wearing underwear is not an option for me.

For now the jeans with the hole will continue to be worn regularly along with the other pairs that I own. It's inevitable that my dick will pop out from time to time, and I will deal with it as best as I can. For them not to be worn anymore, someone will not only end up seeing my dick, but they will also have to make a negative comment or react about it in a less than positive manner. Until that happens the hole will become larger and larger and will expose me even more than it already does.

 

Nightly Exposure being observed

My nightly and night long exposure has been occurring ever since it became one of the requirements in the results of a now closed poll. The requirement is that I sleep naked in a well lit room, where the bed is in full view of the window. The window blind is to remain open, and no sheets or covers can be used to cover up or conceal me at any time.

During the first couple of months of this, and as I was getting adjusted to being exposed naked every night, I was only aware of being seen or observed on a couple of occasions. I knew then how much of a difference there is between knowing I could be seen and actually knowing that I was being seen naked at that very moment. At that moment I knew that one or more people that I didn't really know, but who I would see or encounter during the day, was looking at every part of my naked body that they could see, and they knew they were completely free to look for as long as they wanted to. I also knew that now that they had seen me naked, they might continue to look to see when I might be exposed again for them to see. 

Over the last few months, I really have no idea how many people may have seen me naked at night, or how many times or how often they might be looking. While it's completely dark outside, the view is mostly one way since the light inside makes it hard to see anything beyond the window other than reflections of the inside of the room and my own naked reflection. I'm also asleep or trying to sleep at those times, so anyone looking at me then would basically be free to look while never being known about by me.

I thought I might be jumping to conclusions at first, but on some mornings when I would wake up as daylight was coming, I started to notice that there seemed to be a bit more activity outside than there usually was. Once there would be a little bit of daylight I could begin to see a bit more of what was going on outside. I could see people walking, going to or from vehicles, walking dogs, or just being out there. I knew that in the dim daylight, if I could see them then they could surely see me on the bed in a lit room.

I told myself that all of that must always have occurred, and that I was just noticing it now. I thought it was conceited to think that any of it had anything to do with me. I told myself that most or all of them weren't even noticing me in bed naked, let alone looking at me or observing me.

I got myself to believe that for a while and for the most part, and it might actually be true at times for some people who are out there at some times. But it doesn't seem to be true for others. Some do seem to find some reason to be outside at around the same time each morning, even if they seem to have no reason to be out there. They also always seem to be out there before it gets too light outside or before the time when I get out of bed.

I'm partly convinced that some people nearby have realized that before it's too light outside and before the time comes when I usually get out of bed, that they can see me without having to venture out in the dark or at some very late or very early time.

It could all be coincidence, and attributing any of that to being about seeing me naked could be entirely off base, but it's increasing seeming to be accurate. If it is accurate, then I now have one or more regular and repeated viewers, at least until seeing me becomes too routine or my naked body becomes too well known and familiar to them. 

   

As impossible as it is to ever expect to be exposed naked without being seen naked, I surely never expected for there to be regular viewers, if that is in fact the case. It's looking more and more as though I'm becoming one of the regular sights or an interesting attraction for viewing by nearby others. And not a temporary one. 

Also, it's now 60 plus days into my requirement for no masturbating at all. The poll for this still remains open, but it's continuing to appear that there will be no reprieve on this for me, and that remaining aroused and horny for much of the time will continue indefinitely.

https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K

Exposure Poll closed and results permanent. Poll deciding masturbation remains open.

 Either for better or for worse depending on someone's viewpoint, the poll for what exposure I deserve has had to be closed, this time permanently. The poll had previously been closed, but reopened to enable additional responses. Not only did the decided results not change, but the majority decisions were further reinforced and confirmed. 

After weeks of no new responses at all, the final decisions were very clear.

The final and permanent results of the closed poll are and always will be:

1- The online exposure of David Steckel must be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know him personally.

2- David Steckel must have no say say about any post of him naked made by anyone, and cannot ask or request the removal of any post.

3- David Steckel's device (PC) must be available through a remote access application for anyone who wishes to access it. The access information must remain available to other

4- When encountered in person or when present with David Steckel, he must strip naked when requested to, and he must give all clothing as a gift to whoever is present, and remain in his naked state.

5- David Steckel must sleep naked every night for the entire night, with lights on, without any covering, and with the window blind raised to enable is exposure through the window for all to see.

This must occur when sleeping or spending a night anywhere it is possible, to the furthest extent possible.

The final and permanent results of this are that my exposure must always be available and presented directly to others, including to those who know me.

I have no say so about any post of me naked made by anyone, and cannot ask for its removal.

My PC must remain available for access through a remote access app by anyone. All photos and videos on the PC must remain available for copy or transfer for free use by others. All websites frequented by me or where I have a page or membership must remain able to be visited or accessed. 

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Firefox browser is primarily used browser.

In person and when requested, I must strip naked and present my clothing as a gift to whoever is present. How or if any clothing is returned is entirely up to whoever then currently owns and possesses the clothing.

I can never spend a night while not being exposed to view naked to others beyond the room or location unless circumstances make it impossible.

The remaining poll at: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K currently has 2 votes allowing me to masturbate, and 12 votes deciding that I must not masturbate, and can only climax if it occurs without being caused by me. It ca only occur spontaneously on its own, and possibly if it is caused by someone other than me. 

While still allowed, my last climax occurred on January 1st 2023 in the early morning. I've had to remain aroused and horny often since then without being allowed to cause an ejaculation. Unless or until I receive permission through the poll to masturbate, I must continue to abstain form it entirely. This poll is to remain open until approximately February 1st of 2024. 

This poll was the obvious choice to remain open, since its closure at the current time would remove the possibility for me to ever receive permission to masturbate. Once this poll does close, the decisions of others and the results will become as permanent as the results of the now closed poll. 

In all cases, the decisions made by a majority of others is always to be obeyed will be final upon the ending of or closing of a poll. 

Up-to-date on nightly exposure and no masturbating

 As much is it could go without saying due to all requirements for me being obeyed, I'm still remaining exposed naked each night and while in bed.

In the last photo, a car with its headlight on can be seen approaching in the direction of the window. It's not known if its occupants saw me, but in the early morning light they may have. Of course all night long and while it's fully dark outside I remain exposed and observable although I am asleep and unaware of any of it for most or all of that time. 

                                             David Steckel sleeping while exposed naked through window
 

Although being exposed naked to view all night does still include periods of time of feeling extremely exposed and feeling at least moderately humiliated at times, I believe my public exposure each night is becoming or even is a matter of course for me.

When getting into bed I can often do it without much thought about my being naked, the lights being on, or about the window being uncovered. It's basically the new normal for me. I can become quite aware of my exposure if I look directly at the window from my bed, especially if I can see beyond the window, so I make an attempt to not look in that direction. 

Due to not masturbating, which has been the case now for 55+ days and nights, erections occur every night and usually multiple times per night. Once I fall asleep, any time I wake up during the night I tend to already have an erection. To be able to fall asleep again quickly, I found it best to just ignore the erections. I obviously get them while asleep and anyone observing me would see them anyway, so it doesn't seem worthwhile to pay attention to them while I'm briefly awake. 

I still wake up to find myself on my stomach humping the bed or on my back thrusting upwards, but the most I can do then is to stop doing it and assume that anyone observing me has seen it. Apparently as long as I'm aroused or horny from not masturbating, these things will continue and aren't preventable. I just have to consider them as being part of my nightly exposure to the neighborhood. 

For at least some nearby, my nightly exposure naked is likely a fixture that is expected to be there. Especially for those who have the best line of sight view of my bed through the window. Those who arrive home late in the evening or who leave early in the morning before or just after dawn have every opportunity to see me. The rest of the night is an open question since the comings and goings of others is random and unpredictable. 

It's a strange dichotomy though, since during the day my body is mostly mine to conceal or keep covered up, but at night none of that is the case. Seeing me completely naked and exposed is as simple as looking towards my window, and the opportunity to view me is not brief or temporary. It lasts for the entire night and well into or after dawn at the current time. 

As the time for sunrise and sunset changes over time, how long I am exposed each night won't change. From between 10:30 and 11:00 pm each night until between 7:00 and 7:30 am each morning I will be exposed to view naked. Any night where I am extra tired and go to be earlier, it only means that my exposure begins earlier that night.

 

First Accidental Ejaculation and Exposure update with morning exposure video

 First I have to mention that on the morning of my 50th day without masturbating, I spontaneously ejaculated a few drops of cum. It happened while I was reviewing a video just taken of what's come to be my morning exposure through the window in my bedroom. As a way to become more accustomed to remaining exposed all night, I've begun to briefly be exposed to a greater degree just after sunrise on most mornings. At that time it's not so dark to make me extremely obvious, and it's light enough to see whether I was seen or not, especially if it's on video. I may not know about being seen at the time, but a review of a video can show whether my morning exposure has been observed by anyone who was outside. Through a recent video I did discover afterwards that I actually had been seen.

As I was reviewing a more recent video that showed no obvious signs of anyone seeing me, I saw how I was being displayed at the time. Not having masturbated for 50 days has me extremely aroused at many times, and as I watched my display, I imagined that it was someone other than me who had to be displayed as I was in the video. 

Just the thought of someone else having to be displayed like that even if someone was seeing them caused me to have an erection that was stiffer than many others I get. I was naked at the time, so no clothing was touching my erection. I became so aroused that I thrust my hips a few times, and on the third thrust I felt a climax approaching. As usual when that occurs I froze in place, expecting it to subside as usual. This time it kept coming and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Apparently I held still just in time to limit it though, since only one single spurt came out before things subsided. 

I had not touched my penis and neither had anything else except for air, but I still had a minor ejaculation. Right away I felt wrong and felt like I violated the requirement to never masturbate. But I knew that I hadn't masturbated. It seems that my body is at a point where it insists on ejaculating or "cumming" no matter what I do. So much arouses me or turns me on now compared to when I used to masturbate that there's no way to.completely avoid arousal. Of course I will keep obeying my requirement never to masturbate, but now it appears that occasional ejaculations are inevitable and will occur anywhere at any time whether I want them to or not. 

Here is the video I was reviewing when the minor ejaculation occurred:

 

 Just a quick review for context. I sleep naked each night with multiple lights on, without coverings, and with the window blind raised. A portion of the neighborhood has the ability to see me, which more and more people seem to be making use of. I can be observed from multiple residences through their windows from inside, so I can be observed by some people in private.

With some new and brighter bulbs in some lights in my bedroom, I am much more illuminated naked all night than I was with the older light bulbs. Even after months of sleeping exposed naked I still feel some anxiety at times about being on perpetual display naked. The brighter lights only added to my anxiety. It's not exactly anxiety though. It's more of a sense of heightened awareness that can make it difficult to sleep. 

I'm fine with a single light on with a dim bulb, but of course I'm barely exposed by that and may not be exposed at all. I know that unless the light level is sufficient for me to be visible, I'm not following the requirement for being exposed while in bed at night.

The morning exposure sessions will hopefully make being exposed and seen during the night seem more minor and allow me to sleep better even while I'm exposed, easily visible, and seen. With more and more nearby others seemingly becoming more interested in seeing me and paying a lot of attention to my bedroom window, I need some way that helps me to remain more passive about this and accepting of it. 

My exposure each night is required and has to occur, and I realize that being seen is also inevitable. It's more often now me being watched rather than just seen, since more people are now aware that I'm always there naked to look at, and they are taking their time to see as much as they can. I suppose they are just taking advantage of the fact that I'm there to be seen, which I suppose is an inevitable result of my exposure to them.

I never thought this far ahead or expected to become an ongoing source of entertainment for so many nearby others, but that does seem to be what is occurring. I can only guess or assume that those who decided I would be required to be exposed every night expected or knew this would occur, and they wanted to be sure I did get the exposure that I deserved. 

The morning exposures and the videos do seem to be working to help me be more accepting of my nightly exposure, although this is still a new and recent thing and may take more time to have more of an effect. 

I have to admit that some other advice I received does seem to help very much during my times of being exposed and seen. When I remind myself and repeat "I deserve this" or "This is what I deserve" while I'm being exposed or seen naked, it's much easier to accept. It at least gives me something to focus on at the time, and I have nothing that says or shows that it isn't completely true and accurate. 

Also, some photos were clipped from the video where I was seen exposed and with my ass raised towards the window. They will also be included in the previous post about them.

https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2023/02/seen-very-exposed-through-window.html 

First is a photo of me while I was turned around towards the camera to show what could be seen of me through the window by anyone outside.

 Next is a photo of me being seen for the first time, followed by an enlargement of a small area where the viewer was located.

 

The viewer can't be seen too clearly, but it is someone standing still looking at my ass. I just didn't know it then and only found out later by watching the video.

The next photo shows the second time I was seen, about eleven minutes later. It's followed by an enlargement of the are where the viewer stood. They can be seen better this time, and they stood there looking for longer than when I was seen the first time.

 

I didn't know I was seen the second time either until it was seen in the video. Whoever they are, they saw me with my ass exposed and raised.

Seen VERY Exposed through window

 If it's not known already, I'm required to spend each night in bed completely naked, with bright lights on, without coverings of any kind, and with the window blind raised, which fully enables anyone nearby or passing through to see or observe me naked.

As mentioned in previous posts, for most of the night I am asleep or at least unable to see or know if or when I am being looked at. During the day though, quite a few who live nearby and those who come and go during the night, do tend to look towards or take long looks towards my window each time they are within sight of it. It's quite definite that they are looking in at me naked sometime during the nights or early morning.

It's not unexpected that I am being seen naked by nearby people, since the requirement to be and remain exposed every night for the entire night surely came with the intent that I actually be seen naked. It's always been inevitable that I would be and will be seen naked.

In the few months that I've been required to sleep naked and exposed it''s been clear that I was seen a few times. Knowing I am being seen and can be seen at any moment will occasionally leave me feeling anxious once I'm in bed and exposed.

Some recent advice I received mentioned that I might become less anxious about being seen naked in bed by being exposed naked through the window to a greater degree than I am while in bed. It made sense to me that might actually help to do that. 

I decided to do it not long after dawn on a morning when I also had access to a camera that could record it. Not only did I want to see how exposed I appeared, but it also seemed like it could be proof that I was obeying the requirement to be exposed while in bed. I didn't expect anything else to come from having a video of it.

So after a Saturday night of being exposed naked in bed until Sunday morning, I decided on that morning that I would try being exposed much more than I had been all night. It began within minutes of me waking up and before I was even fully awake yet.

The video of it is included and can be watched now or after further reading for more context. It took a while to get it compressed from it's original 1.5 Gigabyte size down to less than 100 Megabytes for posting/sharing purposes without losing much quality. Whenever it's viewed, watch closely on the left side of the view out of the window. The elapsed time during the video for when to watch for something is roughly at 2:42 and again at 13:35. It's not difficult to notice but it's best to watch it expanded on full screen mode. If full screen doesn't function then the video can be downloaded and full screen mode should function for the downloaded version.

Photos were clipped from the video that show three things. One shows me turned to show the camera what anyone outside would see.

The next ones show me being seen the first time at 2;40 into the video, followed by an enlargement of where the viewer stood while they looked at my exposed ass.

The last two show me being seen the second time at 13: 35 into the video, followed by another enlargement of where the viewer stood. This time I was looked at for much longer than the first time.

 

Once I turned on the camera, I climbed onto the bed, and did some difficult to make out commentary as I knelt on the bed, lowered my upper body, and raised my bare ass towards the uncovered window. With my raised ass presented to the neighborhood, I mostly just stayed in place without looking back too much or too often to see if I was being seen.

I thought it would be better not to know for sure at the time of I was being seen, so that I wouldn't have an urge to stop being exposed and presented naked in such a revealing way. At one point I did turn to show the camera the view of my ass that was being displayed towards the outside before I resumed my display.

In the video I acknowledge that I know I deserve this exposure, and even how I wouldn't know if I had been seen unless I saw it happen on the video later. I mention about how by then it would already have happened and nothing could be done about it. I mention a few things about which nearby people might be most likely to see me being displayed as I was.

Much later when I did finally watch the video, I was surprised to see in the background outside of the window, that someone appeared while walking. They then appear to notice me with my bare raised ass on display, and stop to look at me for a moment. They then move off towards the right and go out of sight. I was entirely oblivious at the time of the fact that I was being seen. Ironically at almost that very moment I was saying something about not knowing if I would be or was being seen. This viewing of me occurred even before I turned to show the camera a view of how I was being displayed through the window.

Since I had no idea that I had already been seen in such an exposed and humiliating position, I remained exposed for many more minutes.

After finding out that I had been seen after all, I watched more of the video. As it the ending came nearer, I was sure that nothing else of interest would happen. Just when I was considering stopping the video before the end, movement outside on the left side of the window became visible. 

A person walks into view, walks to where their view of me is in direct sight of them, and stops walking. They stand there looking at my exposed ass for much longer than I'd been looked at the first time. It can't be seen for sure if it's the same person twice or a different person seeing me the second time. There's no sign of the first person returning from right to left after seeing me the first time, but it's possible they did return without it being seen on the video.

Either way, whoever looked at me the second time made sure they got a good. long look at me. I tried to see if I could tell if they took any photos of me, but the resolution isn't high enough. The sun was still rising then too, and the brightness outside always becomes too much for the view outside to be seen on a camera. Even the eleven or so minutes between views of me, there was a big change in brightness. The second viewer can easily be seen, but is much more difficult to see who it might be. 

So I was either seen humiliatingly exposed by two people eleven minutes apart, or by one person who got a good look the first time, but a much better, longer look the second time.

Being seen so definitely and in such a revealing and humiliating position does make me consider hesitating to continue such exposures. But I know I need to become more accustomed to being seen naked in such ways by random others. I want to get to where it gets easier to just accept that I will be or am being seen naked during nights, and to accept or learn to dismiss any humiliation that results from it. 

I know there will be times when the area outside has lots of activity at night, and I hope to be able to accept that exposure. I also know that there will be nights spent in some hotel or motel where the requirement to sleep exposed naked still applies. In the rooms in those places I will still have to be completely naked in bed, the lights will still have to remain on all night, all but the fitted sheet over the mattress must be removed out of reach and sight, and any drapes, curtains, or blinds must be open far enough to enable my exposure and viewing. 

During nights in those places I will absolutely be seen or watched naked just due to the amount of other people there and because of they will be coming and going often. In those places, foot traffic will occur right outside and people will be free to stand directly on the other side of the window glass and just look at me. Somehow I have to be able to accept that without moving away, trying to cover up, or becoming too anxious about it.

I know I'm not there yet, since I'm still in near-disbelief that I was seen two times within a short time, and that the viewer actually stood still for as long as they did to get a good look at my exposed ass. There's no doubt that whoever looked at me is going to keep looking any time my window is in their view, so I do need to accept being seen by them often.

It should be said that I don't think they looked at my raised ass because they liked seeing it. I think they were too amazed at what they were seeing that they couldn't help but look. They may have also been curious about why I was on display naked like I was at the time. It's possible that they enjoyed what they saw, or possible that they thought it was erotic in some way, but I do doubt that. The reason why anyone looks at me naked doesn't have any influence on the requirement for me to be exposed naked every night. 

I suppose that the only way to know if a viewer does enjoy what they're viewing of me is if they return often for another view and spend more time taking a good look. Whether or not they do, I am and always will be required to be there exposed naked.  

At least now there is some video proof of me actually being seen naked other than online.