Exposure to Facebook friends - update 2

 

I didn't plan to do any update on recent posts at least unless or until something changed or something new happened, but I've been what I'll call "urged" to offer an update now that it's a new year. I also didn't want to risk violating my exposure contract again by saying or doing anything that might seem like I'm trying to avoid, limit, or interfere with my exposure in some way.

So first I feel the need to mention that nothing I might say is intended to do any of those things, especially with regard to anything to do with my having to be exposed to and seen naked by people who personally know me.

Since there doesn't seem like there's much to update, the poll seems like as good a place as any to start with.

https://www.poll-maker.com/poll3242987x72cf4612-100

(Anyone just wanting to see the voting results can see them at: https://www.poll-maker.com/results3242987x72cf4612-100#tab-2 )

As mentioned in an earlier post, the poll has had an update. Now there is not just a photo of me naked at the top of the page, but also a photo of me naked for each choice in the poll. Even the two choices for me not to be exposed to Facebook contacts show me naked, but mostly just show my bare ass. The choices for me to be exposed temporarily and permanently both show my face and a mostly frontal view of me naked. I wasn't told why these particular photos of me were chosen or added, and I'm not about to ask or question anything about it.

By far the most votes are for the first choice, which says "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked." (Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75 )

The links required to be there are still the link to my Twitter https://twitter.com/davidsteckel1

the link to a Google photo album showing me naked https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6

the link to the Dropbox "David Steckel naked" 

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/58jgt1168jivmln/3pLYLl1yYE

and the link to a naked photo of me on Wikimedia

 https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:David_Steckel.jpg

I need to say here that since it's what most voters want, then that's still what has to be. I'm in no position to dispute what so many others have decided in the matter.I also know that the links in my Facebook information are being monitored by more than one person to make sure they're there and that they work, so that anyone who knows me on Facebook and any visitors can see and click the links. I know this is the punishment decided for me for my violations of my exposure contract, and I'm trying to do all I can to accept this punishment and all that might come along with it, which I know includes my humiliation as people who know me see me naked and even masturbating. To avoid any uncertainty over anything said here, I'll state clearly that I know for violating my contract, I've earned and deserve some sort of punishment. Since so many have decided for this to be my punishment, then I must deserve this particular punishment.

With that said, each time I read the text in the choice "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked.", the word that catches my attention the most is "must". Even though I know the whole intent of my punishment is for me to be seen naked by people on Facebook who know me, the word "must" reminds me that it is to be definite and for sure. At times seeing that can make my stomach tighten a little and my knees feel a little weak, but then I move on and try not to think about it since there's nothing I can do about it anyway.

As for who has seen me naked so far who knows me, I still only know of one person, since they chose to say so to me. I have no idea at all about how many others who know me may have already clicked a link there and seen me naked.

In the past few weeks, I've seen in person six people who know me who are also contacts on Facebook. Each time I found myself trying to figure out whether or not they may have seen me naked by looking for some clue or evidence. Even without any one of them saying anything about it, I was always left clueless about it. I'm finding it too easy to think I'm perceiving nothing different most of the time, but then perceiving one or two things that almost seem link hints that they've seen me naked, but are not telling me straight out. Clearly I'm going to have to learn to live with and deal with that sort of thing, since I'll never know who has or hasn't seen me naked unless they decide to come right out and tell me. I know even if the links were ever able to be removed (which I know they can't be and won't be), it wouldn't matter now since there's been enough time already for people who know me to have clicked the links and seen me naked.

I guess another thing to mention is that I still have no idea which friend of mine has their email address offered in the comments section of the Google photo album. 

https://photos.app.goo.gl/Mm7gGM9zctNPAr6d6

Since I'm still blocked from the album, I can only assume that their email address is still offered there since I haven't had any information saying otherwise. I also have no idea whether anyone has sent this friend the album link yet, or if this friend has seen me naked. Not knowing who it might be makes it too hard to guess whether they might mention it to me or not.

I'll admit that I'm extremely curious about who they are, but I'm aware that I have no right or need to know. I've realized that I don't know the email address of most people who know me on Facebook, since Facebook is the way I tend to communicate with those who are contacts of mine on there. All I know from a screenshot image is that they have a gmail address, but that doesn't tell me anything.

The fact that I'm curious is the extent of things though, since I know whoever this friend is may already have seen me naked and are keeping it to their self. Even if they haven't received the Google photo album link yet, I know they will receive it somehow at some point. I know there's no avoiding them seeing me naked unless they choose not to click the album link once they receive it in an email, if they haven't received it already. I could try to convince myself that it's not really an email address of someone who knows me, but I doubt I'd ever really get myself to believe that it would be offered of it wasn't really someone who knows me.

I've been told that I tend to make it sound like it's my punishment to have the links posted on Facebook where people who know me might click them and see me naked. I've seen this for myself when I read some posts. So no one is misled, the links are just the way for my actual punishment to happen. As I've been often reminded, my actual punishment requires that I be seen naked for sure by people who know me on Facebook, and by anyone else they choose to tell who might also know me.

Even though I'm never sure anymore whether anyone I know and meet has seen me naked, I'm aware that I have to be seen naked by people who know me. I know better now than to ask for more details or information about that, so the most I can do is to accept that fact.

It's still kind of ironic to me that I spent so much time and effort in the past to keep my naked exposure separate from Facebook and from the people who know me personally and who see me in daily life, and now having it available and practically offered to those same people. I can only assume that's the very reason why it ended up being decided as my punishment, and is being carried out even at this very moment.

Lastly, the five photos of me naked now included in the poll are:

 

Header photo

 

Option #1 photo

                                  "Yes. The links need to remain posted permanently. His Facebook contacts must see him naked"

                                                                                         Option #2 photo

                                             "Yes. The links should remain for now, but only for some period of time"

 

                                                                         Option #3 photo 

                              "No. David Steckel deserves to have his exposure kept secret from contacts on Facebook"

 

 

 Option #4 photo

                      "No. His Facebook contacts should have to seek or find his exposure by chance on other websites"