Only remaining aroused from now on: Masturbation and Climaxing prohibited permanently

 I had hoped it would not come to this, or at least for it to be delayed as long as possible, but it seems that my prohibition on masturbating, climaxing, and cumming are to be permanent. 

One last flurry of posts online mentioning that possibility has apparently led to a massive influx of decisions being made within a short time. Not only has the decision for the prohibition been upheld, but it has been massively reinforced to the point where there can no longer be any doubts about it or any hope for a different result. 

My first thought was that some sort of hack may have occurred, but there is nothing to point towards such a thing. The results seem to stand on their own. 

Due to the majority decision since January 1st of 2023, the prohibition has been in effect already for nearly 140 days, so I've gotten to know something about what it is like to remain aroused and horny for so much of the time without any outlet or relief from it. 

There is commonly a feeling of sexual frustration, and it often feels as if my dick is in control of me for much of the time. When it ants to get hard, it gets hard, and when it wants to be stimulated, it gets stimulated with almost no regard for how it might or does humiliate me. So a permanent prohibition on masturbating and climaxing feels to me as if I am surrendering to my dick and that it will now always be in control of things, leaving me subject to its whims and urges. 

The prohibition means that I can never masturbate to the point of ejaculating. I can edge but never climax. Even though edging leads to pure frustration when it must be stopped short of anything more, I often cannot help doing it. Sometimes I only realize I'm doing it once it's already been engaged in. 

The prohibition also means that I have to do everything possible to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate, and ensure that I remain in a state or arousal and of being horny at all possible times. It's required as part of me getting what has been decided that I deserve.

Just as I have so far, I will undoubtedly need to keep reminding myself often "This is what I deserve and what is required." That always reminds me of the reason for enduring or accepting whatever it is that I have to endure or accept at that moment. 

Even though I cannot climax or ejaculate intentionally, or to allow it to occur knowingly, there is still the possibility of it occurring if it is directly caused by someone other than me.

If it occurs by the hand of someone else or through their actions, it's unintentional on my part and only an unavoidable reaction by me. When anyone is present in person with me, I already can never refuse to present my naked body to them upon request or demand, which includes my dick. Once presented, what they do to or with my naked body or my dick is always entirely their decision aside from anything that causes physical damage or moderate to severe injury. They would be free to cause me to climax, although it's unlikely to take much time or effort due to it not occurring at any other time or in any other way. 

But inevitably, the poll will be closed and I have to accept the decision made and state the following:

I, David Steckel hereby accept the decision of others that I am to be permanently prohibited from masturbating to the point of climaxing or ejaculating. I swear to obey this prohibition at all times, and to ensure that all possible steps are taken by me to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate willingly or knowingly unless it is initiated by or caused by the hand or actions of someone other than myself. I accept remaining in a state or arousal without the possibility of relief from it. I understand that if I am ever found to be in violation of this requirement, that I will be subject to any and all penalties deemed proper by others.  

The document image above contains my legal online signature as evidence that I understand this obligation and do not take it lightly or less than seriously. 

The final steps are for all included information, images, and documents to be released publicly in order for the prohibition to be widely know about and understood. It's not something I look forward to, and it's more than a little humiliating for me, but I can understand why it is necessary. I understand that the more other people know about the prohibition, the less opportunities there will be for me to violate the requirement and get away with it.

But I have obeyed the requirement completely for almost 140 days so far and will now always have to continue to do the same. I know I cannot do something that was decided that I don't deserve to do, and now I now for sure that so many others cannot possibly be wrong about what I deserve. Now when I feel sexual frustration from being so aroused, I know I must deserve to feel it. 

If I'm humping the bed from arousal and seen by neighbors while obeying the requirement to sleep exposed naked each night, then I know I must deserve to be seen that way. It all always comes down to accepting and obeying what I deserve, enduring it, and living with it and its results.

 

Nightly Naked Exposure: Feeling Exposed.

 

May 16th, 2023

I didn’t know where to begin to come up with some response to the anonymous comment above that was received not long ago.

Received at: https://secret.viralsachxd.com/91c89b4db

One reason for this is that I don’t really see what I might want or how I might feel about being exposed as being something that matters very much. It’s a requirement that has to be obeyed every night no matter how I feel about it on any night.

There’s no doubt at all that neighbors and others nearby do continue to see me in bed naked at different points during the nights and early mornings. Since I’m always right there and completely exposed it’s unlikely that they fail to look every time they have the opportunity. For those who look at me most often, there’s probably not a single place on my naked body that is not familiar to them.

I do know that I am occasionally or periodically viewed on webcam in bed, even though I never know by who, when it occurs, how long it occurs for, what they see, or when it might occur.

I understand that this is just one more part of the requirement for me though, so that it can always be verified and confirmed that I am always obeying the requirement to be exposed naked through a window every night, all night. I know that if anyone accessed the webcam while I’m in bed or asleep, that unless I’m completely naked, unless the room is well lit, unless there is no form of covering present or being used, and unless the blind on the window is raised enough to enable me to be seen easily from outside, that I will be caught in the act of violating the requirement.

I know there is no way around that and no loophole that can avoid any of that, so I know that I have to remain in compliance with the requirement at all times, every single night. I know this means there is a one hundred percent chance that I am seen and will be seen naked at times, and that it’s never up to me when I’m seen or who sees me.

Access being enabled to my PC and webcam is also a requirement through either the Teamviewer or Anydesk remote access app, which enables verification of my nightly exposure at any time of night.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1
Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Whether my exposure is verified on webcam once a month, once a week, every other day, or even more often, I have to be exposed every night, all night simply because verification can take place at any time on any night.

All I can do is remember that fact that it was decided that this is what I deserve, and to accept it as what I deserve. It doesn’t help limit the humiliation of it that much, but at least it reminds me that the reason for the humiliation is because I deserve it.

At whatever time I go to bed at night, I know it’s the end of the part of the day where there can be any sort of privacy for my body. If I am not already naked I know the first thing that’s necessary is for me to remove every shred of clothing.

Since the blind on the window is fixed in the raised position at all times, I know there’s no need to do anything with it. Any top sheets or other possible covering have long since been removed and done away with, except for the fitted sheet over the mattress and pillow cases on the pillows. The only thing left after becoming naked is to ensure that the room is well lit.

As I do these things, I am always at least a little bit aware of how I am about to serve another night of being exposed naked and very likely be seen naked. But I know that if I want to go to bed and to sleep that night, I also have to be exposed naked the entire time.

So I climb onto the bed and try to get settled knowing that a night of exposure has now begun. I know I can be seen through the window and that I probably will be within a short time. I know I may even be being looked at naked at that very moment by someone nearby, but I know that covering up is not permissible and would be pointless anyway.

Most often I close my eyes and try to pretend that I am in a place with complete and total privacy, even though I know that’s not true at all. Depending on how tired I am that night, I either manage to fall asleep pretty quickly or within a short time. Falling asleep does not change a thing about my exposure other than it stop s me from dwelling on the fact and from there being any possibility of me realizing it when I am being seen or looked at naked.

I tend to think of it as me drifting off to someplace else while leaving my naked body in place for anyone to see or look at.

I’ve learned to try not to look outside through the window too much during the night, since it’s much easier to be less aware of when there’s a good chance that I’m being seen naked at the time.

Some nights, most often Friday or Saturday nights, there can be lots of apparent activity within sight of the window. Mostly lots of headlights from cars coming, going, parking, or loading up and pulling away. Also lights being carried by people walking at night, although only a few walkers bother to carry a light. On nights like that I know it almost impossible for me not to be seen, and more likely for one or more people to stop and look towards my window for a while.

If I’m in bed but still awake I try my best not to know any of that is going on outside. If I do ever realize that I am almost certainly being watched at the time, it can be really hard to just stay in place while it happens even though that’s what I am supposed to do and expected to do. Sometimes I actually have to force myself to stay where I am, and if I’m watched for too long I’ve ended up kind of whining or moaning a little bit.

I don’t mean to make the sounds, but I think it’s because I know that my naked body is being looked at intently by people I know nothing about and I just have to wait for them to finish looking. Sometimes it feels as if they think they are supposed to look at me naked, but I always know that because of the requirement for me to be there and be exposed, that in some way they really are supposed to look at me naked.

Things like that can feel overwhelming at times, so even though anyone who looks is free to look and maybe even supposed to look, I find it much easier if I’m aware of it as rarely as possible. That way I only know that it is happening, but I don’t know about it at that very moment.

This post was made over several days, since it took some time for me to think about things I feel and think about before and during my nightly exposure and to try putting those things into words.

While writing it, another anonymous comment was received. This one seems to be from someone who has seen me in the process of being exposed at night more than one time.

I suppose I really am glad that I don’t spend most of my time humping the bed or with my ass raised up for no apparent reason but for anyone to see.

I did not know what position I slept in the most, but it’s obvious that whichever part of me faces the window the most is what most others nearby have already seen or are continuously seeing.

I can only wonder how familiar with my naked body that some nearby others might be by now, or how familiar with it they might become over more time. It’s an endless source of humiliation to have to see and encounter those who have repeatedly seen me naked in bed, even if I don’t know them. Every encounter starts with me wondering if this person or these people have seen me exposed naked at night. I wouldn’t really know if they have seen me, but they would certainly know that they have.

While I’m wondering, those who have seen me are probably already picturing me as they saw me rather than how I appear at that moment. In those cases I can probably never not be naked to them, and any clothes I’m wearing at that time probably make no difference to them. They would already have seen everything any clothing was currently covering on me.

I also occasionally wonder what they might say to each other, since those who have seen me and who can see me naked at night tend to encounter each other very often or even know each other. I usually stop short of wondering if they ever talk about some part of my naked body that would be private for anyone else but is essentially public for me.

I think at best I am “The Naked guy in the window all night” by now to at least some of them.

I can almost feel my naked body becoming less and less private over time, and becoming more and more public each night.

Poll results: Ongoing Prohibition on Masturbating

 

May 15th, 2023

Ever since January 1st of 2023, the poll on deciding upon my masturbation, or lack of it has had a majority of the decisions being that I am prohibited from masturbating or in any way intentionally or knowingly climaxing.

Since the current majority result is in effect and is to be obeyed by me, and the result has not changed in spite of additional votes, it is currently approaching the 140 day point of the prohibition.

I am at times insanely horny and aroused without any way to relieve it, and this seems to be manifesting itself even while asleep. I wake up humping the bed more and more often, and at least one photo captured of me during the night by someone accessing my PC and webcam have revealed me in a quite humiliating and exposed position during a night of required exposure through a window.

I’m left wondering how often I might be repeating something like this and for how long I might be staying in such positions. Anyone looking from outside nearby could easily see me in such a position.

I understand that any effects from not masturbating are for me to endure and accept, and the decisions in the poll were made according to what it was believed that I deserve, so I have no reason to question whether or not I deserve whatever results from not masturbating.

It’s being repeatedly pointed out to me that such a majority of decisions are for me to remain prohibited from masturbating or climaxing, and that it is because a majority of others know that it’s what I deserve.

The poll for deciding upon whether or not I can masturbate/climax is due to remain open until February 1st of 2024, but much of what has been mentioned to me has struck me as being entirely true.

Poll: https://poll-maker.com/QW60PXF8K

Results: http://www.poll-maker.com/S-Quiz-Results?qp=2728704xA26D96fe-113

I can see that a large majority of decisions are for prohibiting me from masturbating and intentionally climaxing. I have to assume that that majority is very unlikely to change even with more decisions being made.

I also see that very few additional decisions are being made, often with more than a month passing now without any additional decisions being made. I can’t deny the fact that it might be due to others being in agreement with the current results, and see no reason for any change in the current results.

I have to accept the fact that if the current majority remains the same, that the prohibition on masturbating/climaxing may well become permanent for me. since it will have been decided that is what I deserve.

For the past several months I have been thinking of it all as just biding the time until the results change, even though there has been no reason to expect them to change.

Recently, partly due to what has been pointed out to me, I have been thinking that the poll remaining open may really just be prolonging the inevitable. It may even be me avoiding what may already be a permanent prohibition on climaxing, and possibly me failing to accept what I deserve.

I know once the poll ends or closes, that’s it. The prohibition will be permanent for sure. But in most ways it already seems to be permanent anyway. Whether I remain prohibited from masturbating or climaxing until February 1st and the ban becomes permanent, or whether it becomes permanent right away does seem to be the same result.

I suppose accepting the results and a permanent prohibition is the right thing for me to do. I didn’t think about how it might be considered to be a disservice to anyone who thinks or wants the prohibition to be permanent for me if the poll continues for months without any actual change in the results.

It feels like a huge thing for me to accept being permanently prohibited from masturbating or climaxing intentionally. I know I will absolutely have to obey the prohibition and, as it’s said in one comment, I will have to do all I can to make sure that I do never climax, so that I remain as aroused and horny as possible at all times no matter how frustrating it would be.

The only way I would ever climax and ejaculate again is if or when someone else caused it personally and intentionally. It’s possible that eventually I could end up begging or pleading for someone else to cause me to climax, and then have it be up to them whether they would enable and permit it or not.

But whether it’s now or later, all of that seems to be inevitable, so I do have to consider accepting the prohibition on masturbating/climaxing as being permanent soon, or at least sooner.

I still feel like I need more time to be able to accept it, but at some point I know I have to accept it. So as soon as I can get myself to go through with it, I will be accepting a permanent prohibition on masturbating and intentionally climaxing, and accept continuing to do everything possible to ensure that I do never climax. It will be stated publicly so that there can be no question that the prohibition is permanent.

New Photo(s) of my nightly Exposure

 Generally there would be no reason to mention it each time anyone anonymously accesses my PC and camera, but a photo was left in folder that was apparently taken during the night that reveals me naked in bed and asleep. Since a photo was taken and left available, it's being included here just so that it's clear that nothing about my nightly exposure remains concealed.

It may not be an ideal pose to be in for a photo, but as usual when I'm asleep I am oblivious to being exposed, being seen, and being photographed.

As it always is, it feels peculiar to see myself asleep and exposed. When I go to bed ad before I fall asleep I always know that I am exposed, but my awareness ends once I'm asleep. But of course my exposure doesn't end then, and goes on throughout the night.

Whenever a photo is taken of me naked, exposed, and asleep it always re-confirms for me the fact that at night my naked body and my exposure is as close to being public as it can be without being fully public.

I know that's true anyway, but photos of my nightly exposure actually show it's true.

Since neither the Teamviewer app or the Anydesk app keep or retain anything at all about anyone accessing my PC, and keep no record of any access, I never know a single thing about if or when my PC or the camera is accessed. I never even know which app was used.

I might know there was access if a page or an application is left open, but I often can't be sure if it wasn't me who left things that way. Only a photo or photos being taken or a video being taken, and then left for me to find is a way to know there was access.

I do make sure I follow and obey the requirement as closely as possible that I spend each night exposed naked to potential observers outside and to anyone who accesses my PC and camera, but I still feel relieved in a way when anyone is actually able to see that I am complying with the requirement. The thought of any violation of a requirement that would incur some additional penalty is something I truly hope to avoid.

So when anyone does see me while I'm exposed naked in bed at night, I'm thankful that I was seen complying with the requirement.

Since I know that anyone has the absolute right to view my exposure at night either from outside or on camera, I do try to be sure I never infringe on that right even though it can be humiliating for me.

I also know that anyone making use of their right to access my PC and camera are under no obligation to take any photos or video of me, or to leave any copy of them for me to find at some later time. So if I'm being honest I suppose I am thankful or grateful to them for not only taking any photos or video, but for leaving a copy of them. I know that whoever takes any photo or video of me naked technically owns or controls them. They have every right to have or keep them for themselves for their own purposes without leaving a single copy for me to find. So when something is left for me to find, in a way it's a favor to me, since it's newer and more recent proof that I am complying with and obeying the requirement.

I only hope that anyone who observes my nightly exposure finds my compliance satisfactory, adequate, and sufficient.

My exposure and humiliation is unavoidable, but being found not be in compliance is entirely avoidable.

Teamviewer address: 1 054 262 400 Password: Nakedandexposed1

Anydesk address: 990 573 524 Password: Showmystuff1

Any additional photos taken of me naked during the night, but not taken by me will be included here as they are left and then found by me in a camera roll folder on my PC.

This time it's two new photos on yet another night. If nothing else, at least it provides a visual record and verification that the requirement for my nightly exposure is being obeyed and complied with.

Finding new photos daily was unexpected, and if it continues an additional post may be needed to prevent this post from being too long and have too many photos. Since all photos included so far are from the same week, this post will include all photos from the same week.

A few more new photos were found, and in one I see that I seem to do something I never knew I did or expected to see while asleep. I can see that I did it, but it's strange to have no knowledge or memory of it. Clearly the taker of the photo saw it, but I can only wonder how often I might do it and how many nearby others may have seen me like that at any time.

But being exposed means being seen with nothing being concealed, so it's just one more aspect of exposure that I have to accept. Here is the photo of the unexpected position followed by two others.

These last few photos complete the list of photos taken of me by others while in bed and asleep during a single week.

These photos will hopefully be sufficient as confirmation and verification that my requirement for nightly, night long exposure is being obeyed. For those who have long insisted that my nightly exposure also had to be seen, the photos may not prove it absolutely, but I can attest to the fact that I did not take a single one of the photos and knew nothing about them being taken until finding them later in a camera roll folder.

I may wake up or get out of bed briefly or periodically during nights, but whenever I am in bed at night, I realize that I am required to be exposed naked, both through an uncovered window to anyone nearby, and through accessing a webcam.

Vote to decide the penalty for my violation of a requirement

 Not long ago I was found to have violated the requirement for three photos to be included in every email sent by me. The penalty for this violation is to be decided upon by others through voting.

Several potential penalties have been submitted so far, which is just enough to enable others to decide which of them must be implemented.

First, the three signature photos failed to be included in an email are:

David Steckel naked - front/back display

Since I did know the three photos were always to be included in any email sent or replied to by me, and I did fail to include them, I can't dispute that I did violate the requirement. My violation was immediately noticed, and the email itself is an actual record of my violation.

The potential penalties vary quite widely, including there being no further penalty.

https://poll-maker.com/Q5Z21IJM3

The results can be viewed at: https://poll-maker.com/resultsQTUQ3YH6X

Voting to decide which penalty must be implemented can be completed at: https://poll-maker.com/QTUQ3YH6X

The poll for the potential penalty will remain open for 60 days or until any option receives 5 votes, whichever comes first. The poll will close no later than June 28th of 2023. Upon closure, the decided penalty is required to be implemented.

I can't suggest or influence any decisions, so the decision must be made by others based on which penalty is felt to be deserved for the violation committed by me.

Again, the decision can be made at: https://poll-maker.com/QTUQ3YH6X