A public video of me masturbating is now a requirement in all sent emails

 Up until now, five photos of me naked have been required in any email or reply sent by me. The photos are part of the public domain and are legitimately public owned. They are not there because of any belief that everyone would want to see them. Their purpose is partly to ensure that I am always reminded of how public the photos really are, and partly because of everyone's right to see things that are public property. Any shame or humiliation for me that results is always irrelevant, and is always to be considered to be my own fault for allowing those thoughts or feelings to exist at all. 

Email: DaveS113065@gmail.com

Any email received that asks a question, requires a response, or that requests a reply, must be replied to by me. 

Once all photos and videos of me naked became part of the public domain, and there is no reversing it or undoing it, all that left for me is to accept it for what it was. It meant it was actually none of my business who would see or possess copies of any of those photos or videos, none of my business how they were used or what others did with them, and it meant that I could not act as if they were my own property in any way. Even the appearance that I might be attempting to limit or prevent any members of the public from accessing them for any reason could be considered to be beyond my rights in some cases.

To try to ensure that I am, or at least trying to acknowledge how I do understand the actual public-ness of all existing photos and videos of me naked, five photos were selected from among the others, and were then required to be part of an email "signature" to be included in every email sent by me, and in every reply sent by me. There is never to be an exception for this. As it always is, any shame or humiliation I think might result is only considered to be my own fault. In other words, almost nothing ever outweighs the public's right to see what is public of me.

After the first dozen or so emails containing the required signature were sent out, an anonymous comment was received asking about why no video of me was part of what had to be sent. I quoted something about the large file size or the inability to include a video in an automatically inserted email signature.  

The five required photos of me are and have been:

 

                                      

 Further comments and messages tended to mention something similar about the lack of a video, but some focused on it being a video of me masturbating. Sometimes I would be asked for reasons why a video should not be included, and I always had little or nothing to offer as a reason, especially because embarrassment or humiliation aren't relevant reasons.  A question I could never answer is what makes a video any less public than a photo or a picture? I already knew the answer was, nothing.

As proof or evidence that this remains acknowledged by me, a video of me masturbating (naked) is to be part of the email requirement. No one who receives it will have to view it of course. Playing it or watching it would always be entirely intentional. But there's no way I could deny that anyone has the right to see it if they want to watch it. Actually, I can't even deny that anyone has the right to do whatever they would want to with it.

Since several different videos of me are smaller in file size, and also show me masturbating while naked, the video for emails could vary from one to another, since any one of them fills the same gap that has been pointed out to have existed until now. 

But for now, it's most likely to be the one included here:                                                        

 

I can't help from thinking about how, when what's in this video was actually occurring, I could never have imagined it being even close to as public as it is now. One thing is sure. There is probably no way I can avoid the regular acknowledgement of everything exposing me or showing me naked is public, and that it's not outside of anyone's right to see it or to have free access to it.

  https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/h?rlkey=45zgt41wvnlrmoeoc7ft0a8sq&dl=0

In addition to regular everyday emails being received, it's probable that others might choose to send an email if only to "test" to see if the email requirement is accurately being followed. It's possible that some might just be entertained by ensuring that the photos and a video must be submitted additional times without question. Obviously it is their right to do that if they wish, since there is never an exception to the email requirement. It's also never within my rights to pick or choose who receives or possesses any photo or video of me naked, or to influence or restrict any further uses of them.

Only remaining aroused from now on: Masturbation and Climaxing prohibited permanently

 I had hoped it would not come to this, or at least for it to be delayed as long as possible, but it seems that my prohibition on masturbating, climaxing, and cumming are to be permanent. 

One last flurry of posts online mentioning that possibility has apparently led to a massive influx of decisions being made within a short time. Not only has the decision for the prohibition been upheld, but it has been massively reinforced to the point where there can no longer be any doubts about it or any hope for a different result. 

My first thought was that some sort of hack may have occurred, but there is nothing to point towards such a thing. The results seem to stand on their own. 

Due to the majority decision since January 1st of 2023, the prohibition has been in effect already for nearly 140 days, so I've gotten to know something about what it is like to remain aroused and horny for so much of the time without any outlet or relief from it. 

There is commonly a feeling of sexual frustration, and it often feels as if my dick is in control of me for much of the time. When it ants to get hard, it gets hard, and when it wants to be stimulated, it gets stimulated with almost no regard for how it might or does humiliate me. So a permanent prohibition on masturbating and climaxing feels to me as if I am surrendering to my dick and that it will now always be in control of things, leaving me subject to its whims and urges. 

The prohibition means that I can never masturbate to the point of ejaculating. I can edge but never climax. Even though edging leads to pure frustration when it must be stopped short of anything more, I often cannot help doing it. Sometimes I only realize I'm doing it once it's already been engaged in. 

The prohibition also means that I have to do everything possible to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate, and ensure that I remain in a state or arousal and of being horny at all possible times. It's required as part of me getting what has been decided that I deserve.

Just as I have so far, I will undoubtedly need to keep reminding myself often "This is what I deserve and what is required." That always reminds me of the reason for enduring or accepting whatever it is that I have to endure or accept at that moment. 

Even though I cannot climax or ejaculate intentionally, or to allow it to occur knowingly, there is still the possibility of it occurring if it is directly caused by someone other than me.

If it occurs by the hand of someone else or through their actions, it's unintentional on my part and only an unavoidable reaction by me. When anyone is present in person with me, I already can never refuse to present my naked body to them upon request or demand, which includes my dick. Once presented, what they do to or with my naked body or my dick is always entirely their decision aside from anything that causes physical damage or moderate to severe injury. They would be free to cause me to climax, although it's unlikely to take much time or effort due to it not occurring at any other time or in any other way. 

But inevitably, the poll will be closed and I have to accept the decision made and state the following:

I, David Steckel hereby accept the decision of others that I am to be permanently prohibited from masturbating to the point of climaxing or ejaculating. I swear to obey this prohibition at all times, and to ensure that all possible steps are taken by me to ensure that I do not ever climax or ejaculate willingly or knowingly unless it is initiated by or caused by the hand or actions of someone other than myself. I accept remaining in a state or arousal without the possibility of relief from it. I understand that if I am ever found to be in violation of this requirement, that I will be subject to any and all penalties deemed proper by others.  

The document image above contains my legal online signature as evidence that I understand this obligation and do not take it lightly or less than seriously. 

The final steps are for all included information, images, and documents to be released publicly in order for the prohibition to be widely know about and understood. It's not something I look forward to, and it's more than a little humiliating for me, but I can understand why it is necessary. I understand that the more other people know about the prohibition, the less opportunities there will be for me to violate the requirement and get away with it.

But I have obeyed the requirement completely for almost 140 days so far and will now always have to continue to do the same. I know I cannot do something that was decided that I don't deserve to do, and now I now for sure that so many others cannot possibly be wrong about what I deserve. Now when I feel sexual frustration from being so aroused, I know I must deserve to feel it. 

If I'm humping the bed from arousal and seen by neighbors while obeying the requirement to sleep exposed naked each night, then I know I must deserve to be seen that way. It all always comes down to accepting and obeying what I deserve, enduring it, and living with it and its results.