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Monday, September 2, 2024

Stuck in chastity cage possibly permanently

 I've hesitated to reveal this fact because of how embarrassing it is to have to admit it, and also because of how comical or humorous it might be for everyone to know of it. But I know it has to be admitted since my lack of a right for privacy means it can't be kept secret, and I know that over time many others will find out about it anyway. So it seems best to just admit it and get it over with.

To begin with, I'm not supposed to or be permitted to masturbate until I cum or climax. The details about that aren't very relevant here, so those won't be described here.

But because of this, any time I felt like I was at risk of violating this by climaxing, I would put on a chastity cage or "cock cage" and place the keys out of easy reach until I either felt like the risk of climaxing had passed, or until the cage became too uncomfortable to tolerate wearing any longer. 

The first cage I wore allowed my dick to slip out of it, especially when soaped up in the shower, and with some pain and discomfort, my balls would be able to slip out through a gap in the main ring.

I knew this wasn't acceptable, so a second cage was obtained. This second cage had a ring that was too small. Closing the ring and locking the cage was extremely difficult, and once in place my balls became numb and became a deep red color. Obviously this was to workable, so a slightly larger ring that fit the cage was obtained.

This new ring along with the cage prevented any release or escape other than being unlocked with the key. My dick could not be removed no matter how soapy it got, and my balls could not possible slip through any gap. All that was necessary to keep my dick locked in the cage was for the key to be out of easy or quick reach. 

A while ago I felt the need for the cage, since I was experiencing an arousing period of time. I will often play with my dick but stop short of cumming, but during one of these times I accidentally went too far and I climaxed and came. I knew I not only had to do something to keep that from happening again, but also do something that could serve as a penalty for me for being so negligent that I came. I knew the cock cage would work for both of those things, since it prevents erections and easy access to my dick, and it's also a bit heavy and uncomfortable since it's made out of titanium and steel.

I figured a couple days of wearing the cage would was justified. I knew that after a couple days I would not be able to tolerate wearing the cage any longer, and then it would be removed.

So I endured the cage for a couple days while doing all of the usual things I do, and then decided it was time to remove the cage. I retrieved the keys from where they had been placed, tried to insert the key in the lock, and found that the key would not go into the lock more than a fraction of the way it needed to go. 

I assumed that some lint or something got into the key hole, and tried using pins and other things to try to clear out the obstruction in the tiny sized key hole. But nothing I did made any difference. It seems like whatever is in the key hole has been wedged fully and deeply into the key hole either from when I tried the key or by me trying to get it out.

So for day after day now my dick has been imprisoned and trapped in the cock cage, and even though I keep trying, the key will definitely not go into the key hole even close to far enough to unlock the cage. After nearly bending and breaking one of the two keys off in the lock, I'm having to resign myself to the fact that the cage can never be unlocked again, which is not easily done. 

Cutting off the cage is probably the only way it will ever be able to be removed, but the areas that would require cutting are tightly pressed against my dick and the risk is just too great for it to be attempted by me. Even a professional at metal working would likely have trouble cutting it without any issues for my dick. I also can't just go into a metal working shop and expect a request like that to be honored or accepted. 

So as things stand at this time, I am permanently stuck with my dick locked in a cock cage without any real hope or any chance for it to be removed. The thought of months and years being spent this way is hard to accept, but it doesn't seem like there's any other choice at least for a long, long time. 

At times I feel desperate for the cage to be removed, but all I can do is look down at it and know that it has to stay there no matter what. 

Worst of all is that I have to accept that it's all my own fault, and that I basically asked for this by placing the cage on in the first place. Being upset with myself and with my choices doesn't help much, but at times I can't help from thinking that it's just me getting what I deserve in this case. 

Not just me deserving to have my dick imprisoned in a heave metal cage permanently, but deserving the definite embarrassment and humiliation that is sure to result from it. 

Now, every metal detector I ever go through will react to the cage and will cause me to end up having to step aside and show the cage to some security person, possibly while still in public view.

Now every visit to a medical facility will end up revealing the cage to everyone present, and even professionals are sure to find it humorous or comical. I will have to endure facing all of those people after they've seen how my dick is trapped in a cock cage that cannot be removed. 

Just the bulge alone in my pants is quite noticeable, since there's no way to conceal such a bulge. I don't own or wear any underwear, so it's more likely that the cage will be noticed or seen at different times. Wearing swimming trunks will always be a dead giveaway. 

Using a public restroom or in any restroom where others are present is sure to cause others to notice or see the cage unless only an enclosed cubical can be used by me. 

And although it hasn't happened yet, it can't be forgotten that I have to remove all of my clothing and strip naked any time anyone approaches me at any time or place and requests or demands for me to strip naked. If that happens now, they and everyone else within sight of me will see that my dick is in a cock cage. There will be nothing I can do to prevent others from knowing about and seeing my dick locked in a cage. That would be some serious humiliation to endure, but it would be all I could do. Even a demand to remove the cage would be impossible to honor. 

Lesser issues also exist, such as I now have to sit down to pee, since aim and control is too inaccurate unless standing in front of a wide urinal. But using a urinal means potentially and most likely displaying the cock cage to others on either side of me. 

Those are just some of the issues that I'm aware of so far. Other issues could arise that have not even come to mind within the time since the cage became permanent. 

I do wonder though, why the key hole on the cage so suddenly became blocked or damaged, since everything has always worked fine before. It's not easy to avoid thinking that it happened because it was what I deserved, even if I don't know exactly why.

Maybe I deserve to go all day, every day, and every night feeling the cage and its weight, not being able to have an erection that doesn't press hard against the metal cage that restrains it and prevents it from becoming a full erection. I can only look at how my dick tries to enlarge, and tries to expand through the openings on the cage, but is held back by the solid metal and kept trapped in such a small place. Truing to touch my dick only ends up in me touching solid metal that I can squeeze as hard as I can, but still does nothing. I have to keep seeing my dick stuck in a cage that I know can never be removed no matter how desperate or frantic I get about it, no matter how much I want it removed, and no matter how much humiliation or embarrassment it causes for me. 

I don't know, but maybe I deserve each and every bit of all of that. I only know that I can't say or prove that I don't deserve it, so maybe that means that I do deserve it. 

But whether I deserve it or not, it's real, it's happening right now, and it's permanent, and I know it. It means I have to make adjustments such as making keep things clean and hygienic, which is inconvenient but necessary. 

I have to adjust to knowing that my dick is on my body but is not actually fully mine any longer. In a way my dick belongs to the cage more than it belongs to me, and even though the cage is inanimate and without feelings, it seems more than satisfied with being able to imprison my dick for all time. In this case it's clear that I have lost and the cage has won supremely. 

I did accidentally find one thing that could be considered to be a benefit though. One opening in the cage is just big enough for my pinky finger to squeeze into it. I can use it to just slightly rub a small part of my dick near the head. Being so aroused, horny, and desperate, it feels so good to rub just that one small spot. On one recent night as I was doing this, my dick swelled so much that it was pressing against the cage so hard that even the cage was making my dick feel good. I began to thrust my hips involuntarily as if I was trying to shove my dick even further into a cage that had no room for it. I just know at that time I wanted my dick in the cage as far as it could possibly go, and I wanted it to stay there. 

But then I suddenly crossed "the point of no return". I was about to climax and cum and there was no longer anything I could do to stop it. I never thought it was possible to cum with my dick so restrained in such a small area, but it happened. 

 I swear that I have never, ever felt a climax that intense or pleasurable, or one that lasted so long. I'm almost always quiet as I cum, so as not to announce my climax to anyone within hearing range, but this time I unwillingly moaned and hollered loudly multiple times. Anyone hearing it would have had no doubt about what was happening right then. Afterwards I could not believe that I had made so much noise and I was bit embarrassed about it, even though I don't think anyone heard me.

I knew I wasn't supposed to cum, but somehow it felt okay since my dick was actually permanently locked in a solid metal chastity cage. I don't know if that's a valid excuse, but it was at lease something.

Of course I wanted to see if that whole event could be duplicated again, so I did try again. It turns out that just rubbing my dick is not enough to make it all happen. I also have to think hard about how I can never escape the cage and how so many other people are going to know it's there and see that it's there as time goes on. It turns out that when I'm very horny and aroused, I get more aroused by knowing that the cage definitely cannot be removed and that it's going to end up humiliating me for sure at certain times. In that short time I am actually thrilled that the cage cannot ever be removed and that I will have to be seen that way. 

Of course afterwards reality sets in again, and I go back to wanting the cage removed until my next horny time. 

So all in all, since the keys no longer work to unlock it, and cutting metal that's against my dick is too risky even if I ever managed to find someone willing to try it, I'm working hard to learn to accept my new reality and my fate that comes along with that reality. I have to learn that the cage really is permanent, and that it will be with me every second of every day and night, and with me with every single thing I do and every place I go. I hope I can get to where I can forget it's there for longer periods of time.

I can only presume that a part of me actually wants my dick to remain locked and imprisoned in a small metal cage permanently, and that I want it to end up humiliating me over and over again. I wish that wasn't true and I don't like that it' true, but is is and there's nothing that can be done about it. 

Of course that's only true for short periods of time. Most of the time I do very much want the cage to be able to be removed, but the fact that I know it cannot be removed only leads to making me aroused and horny again. If the cage had never became irremovable, I would never have realized how aroused it makes me. 

So I could spend time and effort fiddling with a lock that I know will never open, or I can spend time and effort trying to find someone or some way to safely cut solid metal that is pressed against my dick at all times, or I can learn to accept what I more than likely do deserve and what I'm now getting. 

I will try to learn to accept that my dick will always and at all times remain locked in the small metal cage, ans it will never again be able to be removed from that cage. It's very daunting and intimidating to accept such a thing, but in the end I have to face the reality of there just being no way to ever remove the cage. I have to learn to accept and deal with the lesser aspects of it all, and to try to enjoy the few positive aspects of it all. 

Below are a few quick photos showing  the cage, my dick, and my new but permanent reality.





I realize that many might find this to be humorous or comical, and if it was anyone but me in this situation, I would probably agree with that. But even though it's me and I'm the one who will be enduring it and all that comes with it, I still do find it to be kind of funny. I realize that others do have a right to laugh at me or mock me, and I expect and deserve every bit of it. I caused this and now I just have to live with it. 

EDIT 1: I completely forgot that every post has to include a link to the Dropbox: David Steckel naked. It has just been pointed out to me that there was no link, so here is the link:

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/2yzbofrn4k2pdju7ncot5/AG6XII_Tkzp8ZEDkckuZl44?rlkey=aytxi5n6bqvbjbaavux7k7unu&st=q0x8e30e&dl=0 

 

EDIT 2: In decisions and discussions that have taken place on this topic on my other blog

https://blog08633.wordpress.com/2024/09/02/428/  

it seems that I have violated a ban for me to masturbate or cum at all, Once I knew that cage was not going to come off, I panicked and at the same time I became highly aroused. I came unexpectedly and by doing it I violated ban that's recorded on a document that I signed and agreed to. 


 It appears that my penalty is to be required to continue to have my penis locked in the cock indefinitely. That is until there is a legitimate but separate reason for the cage to be removed, however long that might be. As part of this penalty I agreed not to do anything towards trying to have the cage removed like seeking ways to have it removed or seeking any assistance in getting it removed. The key is available but useless since it will no longer enter the keyhole in the lock. 

I accepted this penalty because there is no doubt that I did violate a signed and sworn statement, which also includes accepting a penalty for any violations. I'm sure no other penalty would be any more pleasant than I one I have received, and selecting the penalty wasn't up to me. 

So from now until the day the cage must be removed for another reason, I will be serving the penalty. 

NOTE: An update for this post can be found at: https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2024/09/stuck-in-chastity-cage-update.html?zx=6ba9b12d19fc83dd

 

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1STJlEXDgXZ9DisYq0WAbwZ_Xsou6dz58RwQVG9oRL4U/edit?usp=sharing 

Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Video for December 2023 available to Facebook friends and more.

 The video for December of 2023 that is now available for viewing by Facebook friends and by others happens to be one that would preferably have remained obscure and mostly unseen. But its absence from public view has not gone unnoticed by at least some people. Because it's a public video just as all of the others of me naked are public videos, when asked about its absence for viewing by Facebook friends, the answer would be that it is coming soon. 

Even when that was said, I knew that I did not want others to see the video, and especially not for it to be seen by people who know me. But if it was not available, then it meant that what was said was untrue, and also that a public video was being kept from or concealed from those with the right to see it.

The video can be seen at: https://clipchamp.com/watch/7lDRE2DQzKS

The posts on Facebook can be seen by Facebook members on the pages 

https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75  

and 

https://www.facebook.com/DavidSteckelNewd

The video shows me completely naked and helplessly tied to a bed in a bent over position. My wrists are tied separately to the rail below the far side of the bed and my legs are tied in a spread apart position. My bare ass and my balls are clearly visible, and my asshole is at least partly visible. But the worst part is that the filter end of a lit cigarette is stuck in my asshole, which has already burned much of the way down as the video begins.

The title of the video is "David Steckel endures a hot-butt punishment" and I'm seen becoming more and more desperate as this "punishment" begins to occur. 

The preference for the video to not be seen publicly is not due to me being seen naked and exposed in it, since I will always be seen naked publicly anyway. I think it's due more to the fact that the video shows my asshole being "punished" and because I'm totally restrained, all I can do is wait there being watched as it starts to happen and during the whole time it's happening. In spite of what some of the text in the video says, it never left my mind entirely that people were going to be seeing everything. They would see me tied up and stuck bent over naked and with a lit cigarette stuck in my asshole. They would see me have to leave the lit cigarette there because there was no way for me to reach it or to remove it. They would see how my asshole held the cigarette there so that the ember would reach my asshole and then even stay in contact with my asshole for as long as it existed. 

Once the ember was very close to my asshole, they would see me start to squirm as it was felt. Once the ember reached my asshole, they would see me squirming, kicking my legs and feet, and fidgeting as much as my restraints would allow. They might even also be able to hear me whining and moaning as I endured what was going on in my asshole behind me. At the time I felt pretty sure that I had taken it rather stoically and that I had not really made any sounds. When I did see the video later, I found out that I could be heard whimpering even though I had not realized I had been doing it.

I had not wanted to put on any sort of show, and I tried not to show any reaction, but the point came when I just could not help it. I think even at the time my main thought over everything else was that it would be humiliating when everyone saw me like that. I knew that by the time the restraints were removed, the video might already be public somewhere on the internet. I knew that the point was for it to end up online in places where I had no way to remove it even if I tried, and in places and in front of people that I did not know about. 

For about a month afterwards I was told that the video had been posted on at least a dozen websites, but the two others who said they made the posts would not tell me what the sites were or how to fund them. I was basically told that it was so that a lot of other people would see the video before I even knew where it was posted or how much it was being viewed. 

Once one posting of the video was said to have reached five thousand views I was told how to find it. When I tried to find it though, I found out that to see it I would have to join the site and pay a large membership fee to be able to access the video there. It turned out to be a bondage and S and M website that specialized in a certain kind of video like the one I was shown in. At the time I could not afford the membership fee. I could see a listing for the video that included a title with my full name and a single screenshot image of me bent over a bed with my ass exposed, but clicking to try to play it or to see more about it brought up a box for joining the website and paying the fee. I had to give up on trying to get to the video there even though the huge number of members that the site had could all see the video of me whenever they wanted to. 

When I related this fact to the one who posted the video there, they said it was a shame that I couldn't see the stats and comments on the video, since it was receiving even more views that they had hoped for and some of the comments included things that seemed impossible to be done with an asshole, but were talked about being done to my asshole. I was told that a huge amount of cum was being shot out while I was being watched in the video.

Considering what some viewers might want to do with my asshole was enough to make my asshole tighten up a little bit involuntarily, but luckily my asshole had completely recovered from its ordeal by then. 

I knew that the best thing I could do is to try not to think about the video, about how many places online where I might be ending up, who might be seeing it, and what some viewers of it wanted to do with my asshole after seeing the video. For a while I mostly succeeded in that, until the one who posted the video on that website sent me a screenshot of the video page that site members had access to. The comments section was not dropped down, so no comments were visible, but the view count had risen to above 92,000 views. 

I could not believe that the video had so many views on one single website that wasn't even a free website. I told myself that some people probably just watched the video a lot of times, but I knew that even if that was true a whole lot of people still must be watching the video. 

After that the video was discussed or mentioned less and less, until it seemed forgotten about at least to me. I found myself preferring for the video to just slip through the cracks and fade away. I knew that it would stay posted wherever it was posted, since the video had been included when all photos and videos of me naked had become a part of the public domain. This meant I could never seek or ask for its removal from anywhere that it had been posted by anyone. I just planned to not increase or further its display online, or to draw more attention to it.

That worked at least as well as I had hoped it would until a video of me naked began being offered for viewing each month on the Facebook page "David Steckel Exposed Exhibitionist", and then shared on my own personal Facebook page so that friends and followers would see it.

It wasn't long at all before I started being contacted through anonymous emails asking when the "ass punishment" video would be shown to everyone on Facebook. I still don't know if it was all one person doing the asking or if it was more than one person, since the sources of the messages are often different. I would reply that it would be soon, while I tried to figure a way to avoid having the video end up where so many people who know me would see it and where anyone else would be free to watch it. 

I knew that besides for the humiliation it would cause me, that there was no reason I could ever come up with for why the video wasn't shown to everyone. Since my humiliation is never a factor, and is often even more of a reason for a posting rather than less of a reason, I knew the video had to be seen by everyone at some point. No matter what, I was going to be seen tied naked while my asshole was "punished", and that it would include being seen by people who knew me. 

So when I was recently contacted again about when the video would be shown to everyone on Facebook, I said that it would be by the end of the year. Since it's December at this time, there is no more time for delay left for me. 

So the video is currently available through a post on the Facebook Exhibitionist page, and that post has been shared on my personal Facebook page. The video will be watched for sure by Facebook members that include people who know me and friends, and by now that has already started to happen. 

Since I can't fool myself into believing that no one will bother to watch the video, I'm left to just reminding myself that the video does belong to everyone and that it's everyone's right to see it. 

A screenshot from the video:



The same screenshot image but with the cigarette circled:


 This is how friends, people who know me, and how many others will see me and are already seeing me. But I do know that I have to be seen this way, because a public video that legally and legitimately belongs to everyone cannot be hidden.


Davidttthttteckelend

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Another penal-ty for David Steckel

 It came sooner than expected, but my penalty for the most recent contract breach by me has been issued. I now have a specified amount of time for the penalty to be served by me. 

See related, previous post on this topic at:

 https://davidsteckelnakedandexposed.blogspot.com/2020/10/already-another-penalty-what-is.html

There are a few parts to my penalty. The first part was me being sent the names of three people who I know personally, and are also friends with on Facebook. I was told that I had to choose one of the three to see my exposure online. If I didn't choose then those three and several others I know would be contacted and informed of how to best see my exposure.

After a lot of consideration and hesitation, I finally chose one of the three people from the list. The choice is a female friend in her thirties who was chosen partly because she seems most likely to find my exposure funny or hilarious, and very unlikely to be offended by it. She will surely laugh at me and possibly mock or ridicule me, and probably show my exposure to some of her close friends and her mother, who I also know personally.

This friend once saw me in the shower naked, but only briefly before she left the room. Her mother said that she would have stayed there and looked at me, since she'd like to "see that", meaning what her daughter saw of me and more. Once she shows my exposure to her mother, some lewd comments from the mother to me about it is probable. 

The way she has to see or discover my exposure is that she has to receive the Dropbox link by email, and have access to my full exposure. Sending her the link would not be easy to do, but I'm sure I could do it if that was what was required. 

The last part of my penalty might just be the most difficult part. Someone I know or someone I've asked has to be who sends her the link, so that she won't know if I know that she has seen my exposure. I'm not supposed to contact her at all unless she contacts me after seeing my exposure. 

There's not anyone around who I can ask to send the link to her, but I have to find someone to send it before the allotted time runs out. This requirement does make it harder and adds some humiliation by needing someone else to send the link, but she is going to receive the link anyway at some point from someone. This is the only way to limit my exposure for now to just her and whoever she shows it to. 

So please, if able, assistance is needed to simply send her an email with nothing else required to be in it besides for this link:

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/58jgt1168jivmln/3pLYLl1yYE 

Her email has been given to me, which I did manage to find out that it is really her email address. For privacy purposes, it cannot be shown publicly, but it will be provided to anyone who can do the favor of sending her the Dropbox link, even if it's more than once. 

It's not clear how it will be confirmed that she has received the Dropbox link, but the contract holder has shown an ability to find or know of things that still stun me, like finding this female's email address when I never knew what it was before now. 

I admit that I am a bit desperate at this point to serve my penalty as accurately and completely as possible, since I've already received a few penalties so far and I want to try to avoid more. 

I do know this will humiliate me to her and all who she shows me to, but I accept that as a consequence of me deleting a photo that showed me naked and thinking I'd gotten away with it. 

The closest public photo(s) of me that might begin to sum up how I feel about having to be exposed to this female friend is this one:

                      David Steckel foolishly and uselessly trying to cover up while naked.
 

So, anyone willing to send her the Dropbox link, just please contact me at: DaveS113065@yahoo.com or on any website I'm on where I can be contacted, and mention that you will send her the email. Her email address and the Dropbox link will be provided. Once the email is sent by you, that's all, and my penalty will have been served. 

Thank you.

Dropbox: https://www.dropbox.com/sh/58jgt1168jivmln/3pLYLl1yYE

Twitter: https://twitter.com/davidsteckel1

 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/david.steckel.75

David Steckel's email: daveS113065@yahoo.com

Friday, June 19, 2015

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David Steckel, Sebring Florida, naked with penis and wrists tied.
DaveS113065@yahoo.com
Dropbox: https://www.dropbox.com/sh/58jgt1168jivmln/3pLYLl1yYE

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